Gu Jingzhuo's eyes were the same from beginning to end, without any change at all.

Father Gu would never interfere with Gu Jingzhuo's choice.

So, Gu Jingzhuo stayed by Gu's mother's side like this.

In fact, at this time, the reason why Gu Jingzhuo really wanted to stay in his heart was that he was unwilling to let Gu's mother be alone in this house.

The scene of Gu's mother sitting on the ground and crying deeply affected Gu Jingzhuo, and whenever this time, Gu's mother would always hold Gu Jingzhuo tightly in her arms and tell him some things about herself.

The incoherent state made Gu Jingzhuo feel a deep sense of powerlessness in his heart after seeing it.

Maybe doing this will ease her mood.

Without knowing the reason for the matter, Gu Jingzhuo thought of protecting his "mother" well. ”

The previous events have been stimulating Gu Jingzhuo's memories recently, and it is obviously something that has been let go, but at this time, Gu Jingzhuo has a feeling of being overwhelmed.

It's as if someone or something is forcing you to think about these things.

The lights in the villa opposite suddenly went out.

The only light on the road ahead was also extinguished.

Gu Jingzhuo fell into deep darkness for a moment, and after that, he slowly squatted down along the darkness.

Such scenes and feelings directly awakened the most fearful thing in Gu Jingzhuo's heart.

The scene was exactly the same as before, and Gu Jingzhuo seemed to see the self who was squatting here back then, lonely and helpless.

The scene of Gu's mother calling her name with bare feet and red eyes, messy hair, was the fear that Gu Jingzhuo had buried deep in her heart.

That time was the time when Gu's mother had the deepest control over herself, and it was also the time that Gu Jingzhuo was most reluctant to recall.

It seems that his character was fixed at that time, and all the foreshadowing began here.

After Gu's father left, Gu Jingzhuo originally thought that his stay could make his mother's mood slightly better.

But now that I think about it, Gu's mother's behavior during that time was even more unpredictable than before.

Only when it was dark around Gu Jingzhuo did he think of one thing, that is, about his childhood experience, it was indeed not so peaceful.

Under the problem of his mother's mental illness that he had maintained for many years, Gu Jingzhuo felt that the most fortunate thing was that he was not affected.

For a long time after that, Gu Jingzhuo was thinking about what the root of his existence was.

Is it the problem of the whole world, or is it just the problem of your own mother.

Or maybe it's your own problem.

If there is anything you can do to help you solve your current dilemma, then can you try it?

It was at such a moment that Gu Jingzhuo's expectations for some things in the future changed direction.

No longer think about basic everyday issues like your peers.

Instead, I began to think about what is truly the ultimate.

"What can I do?" in the middle of the night, when there is only a lamp in front of me.

Gu Jingzhuo, who was less than ten years old at that time, thought about it instantly under the stimulation of the outside world

Some things that may come to mind later.

Including Gu's mother's personality and behavior.

"What are you doing? Why don't you do what I say?" In the past few days, Gu Mu asked Gu Jingzhuo about these things more than once.

At the beginning, Gu Jingzhuo would seriously answer the reason why he didn't do that.

"Because I don't like that, I prefer it. ”

Influenced by Lao Gu, Gu Jingzhuo, who is more than ten years old, can accurately express his own opinions, and Lao Gu's views are also deeply rooted in him, "You remember, as long as you don't hurt others, and you don't start from these perspectives, then no matter what you do, you can have your own ideas." ”

"It's important to keep your own independent thinking. ”

Old Gu's words were deeply imprinted in Gu Jingzhuo's mind from the moment Gu Jingzhuo said them.

After growing up, Gu Jingzhuo also thought about such a question, if it weren't for the power and influence of the words that Lao Gu gave him at the beginning, then many times, in the face of Gu's mother's state, he was likely to be taken away by her.

"I believe in you. Before leaving, Lao Gu said such a sentence to Gu Jingzhuo.

Gu Jingzhuo stood in place, without any expression, but his eyes kept following Lao Gu's movements.

After Lao Gu put the last piece of luggage in the car, he walked towards Gu Jingzhuo.

After touching Gu Jingzhuo's head, Lao Gu squatted down.

Gu Jingzhuo put his eyes on Lao Gu's body, "Are you leaving today?"

Lao Gu nodded, "I have my own place to go." You don't have to worry. ”

Every time Gu Jingzhuo was nervous, Lao Gu knew that this kid would always squeeze his hands tightly.

"But you...... ...... so soon" Gu Jingzhuo's eyes fell on the car door that Lao Gu had just closed.

"Actually, I've been going before this, and now it's just the last process. These words were said by Lao Gu with a smile.

Gu Jingzhuo lowered his eyes and stopped talking.

"I know, it's a sad thing for you. Lao Gu said.

Gu Jingzhuo nodded in a sullen voice, "But I still have a lot of questions for you." ”

"Do you remember what I told you before?" Old Gu looked at Gu Jingzhuo, "Think about it carefully. ”

"I remember. ”

Every word that Gu's father said to himself, Gu Jingzhuo remembered it deeply.

Although there are still a lot of people who don't understand, the words in Lao Gu's mouth are indeed Gu Jingzhuo's spiritual support.

At least think about it that way, and you'll be a little more comfortable.

Old Gu Ran looked at Gu Jingzhuo seriously, "Everyone has this thing they want to pursue, and they also have things they don't want to bear, so at this time, what will you do?"

"Respect that person. Gu Jingzhuo said loudly.

Lao Gu nodded with satisfaction, and then stood up, "That's all I want to say to you, no matter at any other time, you have to remember one thing clearly, and you are also a person." ”

Gu Jingzhuo had been standing for a long time, and disappeared in Lao Gu's car

Around the corner.

This is Gu Jingzhuo's last impression of Lao Gu in his childhood.

After growing up, Gu Jingzhuo understood what Lao Gu wanted to express to himself.

But Gu Jingzhuo, who was still young at the time, didn't know the meaning of Lao Gu's words at all.

"Wait!" Gu Jingzhuo, who was standing in place, suddenly shouted, and as soon as the words fell, he could no longer restrain himself and began to run wildly.

Until I ran around the corner.

However, at this time, Lao Gu's car had completely disappeared.

"Wait......" Gu Jingzhuo gasped and kept looking into the distance.

No one replied to him again.

At a very young age, Gu Jingzhuo knew what it would be like to have a heart when it was in pain.

For example, when watching Gu's father leave.

For example, when watching his father, who helped him establish a whole set of values, abandon him like this.

Father Gu is a good guide. This is something that Gu Jingzhuo judged in the process of growing up, and he has always agreed with it.

(End of chapter)