Some people say that Napoleon once said: If you want to go to war, don't love, because you only have two choices to live and die in war, but in love, you can't die but you can't live.

The roses in front of the desk, the fiery red color is so vivid, but it reminds Gong Qingchen of her dead love all the time.

Gong Qingchen stood in front of the mirror and looked at himself in the mirror, the injured place before was almost healed, and the scar on his left cheek was almost invisible.

Gong Qingchen reached out and touched her face, she frowned, and a tear fell.

That day, Ji Yunyang held her hand tightly with so much strength, and for a moment she actually had a terrible and ridiculous illusion - Ji Yunyang still loved herself.

Such a thought only turned in her mind for a second before it disappeared, and she didn't forget the picture of Song Yan asking Ji Yunyang.

Although she didn't want to admit it, it really came to this point, she understood that Ji Yunyang didn't love her.

Ji Yunyang said: "Gong Qingchen, you can't go, why do you want to come, you can leave." Unless I die, I won't let you go. ”

At that moment, Gong Qingchen finally understood that Ji Yunyang was not in love with him, but just possessive.

This kind of emotion that would rather ruin than let others get involved is called possessiveness.

Facing Ji Yunyang, whose eyes were red like that, Gong Qingchen didn't feel distressed for the first time, she felt like a stranger watching coldly.

In this way, her heart will hurt a little less, she really didn't leave, that sum of money locked her around Ji Yunyang like a shackle, unless she can take out so much money now.

Being by Ji Yunyang's side was like drowning in water, the feeling of suffocation followed me like a shadow, and the pain of eroding the bones until I sank.

This kind of bone-eroding torture Gong Qingchen has finally tasted it now, she doesn't know whether her life is good or bad now, she just always has the illusion that she is a fire, burning quietly in the night, she knows in her heart that she will always burn out one day, but Ji Yunyang is unwilling to let him go, blowing her like the wind.

Ji Yunyang appeared behind her like a ghost, put his coat on his body and said: "I've seen it for so long, I should have seen enough, let's go back now, don't catch a cold when the wind is strong at night." ”

Gong Qingchen was silent.

Gong Qingchen felt that Ji Yunyang should understand in his own heart that the contradiction between the two people had not been truly solved until now, and Ji Yunyang had 10,000 ways to avoid that question every day.

But the contradiction has always been there, and if it is not resolved, it will stay there for the rest of its life, like a dead knot, which will only make everything more and more chaotic.

But Gong Qingchen where did she have a chance to refuse, in the past, Ji Yunyang would threaten her with Gong's mother, although the current Ji Yunyang has never threatened her after that night, but if she wants to leave here, she has to get those documents, and those documents are hidden by Ji Yunyang is really good, she has no chance to get them.

Whenever she mentioned these things to Ji Yunyang, Ji Yunyang would play sloppy with her, saying that her current health is not very good, he asked Shen Mo, and Shen Mo said that she needed to recuperate, Ji Yunyang can always find all kinds of excuses, and he can't give this matter a treat.

Isn't this anger like this, it was the highest value at the beginning, and it will slowly decrease with the passage of time after it arrives, Ji Yunyang now adopts a roundabout policy with her, whenever he wants to leave Ji Yunyang is like a transgender, he doesn't get angry with her, just reason with her kindly, this feeling Gong Qingchen is still the first time he has met it, it is like a fist hitting cotton, it is too weak.

obediently followed behind Ji Yunyang, let him hold his hand, and when he arrived in the house, Ji Yunyang would open the drawer, pour her a glass of warm water after taking out all the medicines, and watch her take those antidepressant medicines.

The feeling of the warm liquid delivering the medicine to the body was very special, very warm and very real, this feeling had never been felt before Gong Qingchen.

In fact, Ji Yunyang didn't understand, Gong Qingchen was reluctant to leave at all, when she first returned to Ji Yunyang's side, she hoped that the two of them could maintain the current state, but Ji Yunyang at that time didn't want to believe her at all, so their relationship was very stiff at that time.

She didn't expect that after Feng Huanlu turned to this step, she and Ji Yunyang would be able to return to the original point she wanted to return to.

This feeling made her heart both sour and reluctant.

Although Ji Yunyang was very worried about her condition, Gong Qingchen knew very well in his heart that his memory was not serious, if her state of mind was still the same as before, then the previous events would stimulate her and go crazy, and now she couldn't face Ji Yunyang so calmly, she seemed to have finally figured it out.

There is no kind of love in this world that can be above freedom, I love you on the premise of finding myself before me, if I can't even find myself, what do I use to love others, and what kind of me do you get.

"I made an appointment with a good psychiatrist, and I got off work very early tomorrow and the weekend, and then I will take you to the doctor directly after work. Ji Yunyang reached out and took out a chocolate and stuffed it into Gong Qingchen's mouth.

"Good. Gong Qingchen didn't want to be awkward with Ji Yunyang, she was like a marionette now, and she would do whatever Ji Yunyang said.