Jin Yebai carried me into the bedroom, turned on the light and put me on the bed, and was about to reach out to pull the quilt, I grabbed his hand and pulled it hard, and he fell on the bed unexpectedly.

"Xiaobai, I like you, you know? But I don't dare to tell you, because I'm a third party now, but it doesn't matter in my dreams, no one can break into my dreams and see what I'm doing. "I hugged him tightly before he could get up.

"I hope this dream never wakes up, so that I can always hold you, little white ......" I whispered in his ear, "I can die in a dream with you, I will die without regrets." ”

"What are you talking nonsense again? Are you crazy?" Jin Yebai pushed me hard, the back of my head hit the head of the bed, and my consciousness regained a little.

But I still couldn't get out of this dream, I smirked at him, "Xiaobai, are you angry? Don't you want me to die? But I'm so tired from living like this, I'm so tired that I don't even have the strength to breathe." ”

I laughed as I spoke, but in the end warm tears slipped down my face, I opened my hands to him and begged him, "Xiaobai, you hug me, I'm really tired, I want to borrow your chest to rest." ”

Jin Yebai, who had already gotten up, leaned over and hugged me, I hugged him tightly and smiled with satisfaction, "Xiaobai, you are so good, when I get to Nai He Bridge, I will definitely not drink Meng Po soup, nor will I be reincarnated, I will wait below, and we will be reincarnated together after a hundred years, so that we can be together in the next life and will not miss it again." ”

"Meng Lu ......" he called me softly, hugged me and lay down on the bed, pulling the quilt over our bodies.

I looked at his familiar face close at hand, I didn't want to sleep at all, I reached out and pinched his face, "Why do you look so real? ”

Jin Yebai freed up a hand and held my hand in his palm, "Who made you drink? If you don't drink, don't drink, and if you drink it, you will go crazy again." ”

"Well, I won't drink it anymore. "I don't know if there's any wine down there, and I'm going to hell, even if I drink it, he won't know, what are you afraid of?

Although I was reluctant to sleep, I couldn't stand the pain in my head in the end, so I fell asleep with him in my arms, and then fell into a sweet dream with him.

When I woke up again, it was already the next morning, and the warm winter sun outside spilled in through the glass window, hitting me, and it was quite comfortable.

I looked around and saw that I was lying on the bed in the bedroom, there was no one else around, it seemed that I was not dead, I had a dream that was too real last night.

But why did I go from the living room to the bedroom?

I rubbed my eyebrows and thought about it, I guess I slept cold in the middle of the night, so I got up in a daze and rolled into the bedroom to sleep, right?

Then why do I remember that I have turned on the gas, but now I am not dead?

Is it that even the gas can be fake these years, or is my life so cheap that I didn't even accept it from Lord Yama, and kicked me back to hell?

Quickly got up, I ran to the kitchen and sniffed, there was basically no smell of gas, I shook the gas tank in disbelief, it was actually empty, and the smell of gas yesterday was the last trace of it.

I then remembered that Li Muchi reminded me that it was time to change the gas, but I haven't been cooking because of Jin Yebai's affairs these days, and I forgot about this stubble for a while.

I opened an empty gas canister, and I died strangely, people said that I was unlucky to drink cold water and stuffed my teeth, but I was unlucky and couldn't even die.

Heaven will tease me!

But if you don't die, you don't die, after last night's toss, although my head is still dizzy, I still figured out something.

Existence is reasonable, and I don't live for others, even if it has no value for others, but life is priceless, and I really shouldn't despise life so much.

Fortunately, no one knew that I had done such a stupid thing, otherwise I would have been laughed at to death, a woman who couldn't think of committing suicide because her sister robbed her husband, and said that she was embarrassed and thrown to her grandmother's house.

I exhaled secretly, went to the bathroom to wash hastily, felt the smell of alcohol on my body, and simply turned on the water heater, washed my body too, and then started my new life again.

For me, the moment of divorce from Zhou Mingchuan was not my new life, and at this time, not really dying was the beginning of a new life, and I decided to cherish life no matter how difficult the future was.

Life is precious.

It's really unbelievable, I haven't been to the ghost gate once, so I figured it out, maybe this is the so-called coincidence, right? The dream last night pulled me back from another dead end.

I'm in a surprisingly good mood now, and I can still hum a tune-out song while soaking in the bathtub, and I'm ashamed of my incomplete pentatonic notes while humming.

I've been soaking in this bath for a long time, and my mind is getting clearer and clearer, and I seem to suddenly see hope, if it weren't for the fact that I don't have my phone at hand, I will definitely find someone to call, because I'm as excited as if I had been beaten now.

After taking a shower and soaking my clothes, I opened the bathroom door and saw a person sitting on the sofa in the living room, and I was so surprised that I almost bit my tongue.

Why is he here?

Is this another dream?

I reached out and pinched my face hard, the pain was real, not like in a dream.

The man on the couch didn't speak, but just looked at me with complicated eyes, like a sculpture, and I couldn't help but suspect that I was hallucinating.

I walked over hesitantly, looked at him fixedly, and caught a glimpse of the balcony behind him, and the warm sunlight jumping on my clothes, more real than in my dreams.

"Jin Yebai?" I stretched out my hand and shook it in front of his eyes, "Are you real or fake?"

He grabbed my hand and almost crushed my bones with such force, "Did you say I was real or fake?"

I screamed in pain like a pig, "It hurts, it's real, it's real, you let go of me." ”

"Let go of you?" Jin Yebai's eyes were cold, "Let go of you so that you can find out that you are not dead, and then do something stupid?"

"I've figured it out, I won't do anything stupid anymore, even if the whole world doesn't need me, my life is still precious, it's not worth dying like this, I have to live for myself. I grinned in pain, and I couldn't speak incoherently.

His hand relaxed slightly, "Did you really figure it out? Don't want to die?"

I was about to cry, "If you don't die, you won't die." ”

He let go of my hand, and I took a few steps back like an electric shock, and asked him, "Why are you here?"

"The key has always been with me, and I haven't returned it to her. Jin Yebai pointed to the sofa and said a word to me in a commanding tone, "Sit!"

At this time, I was completely awake, he was really Jin Yebai, and I was not in a dream, so in this way, wouldn't all the things I thought I had as a dream last night be true?

Thinking of this, my face immediately became hot, and I was dead, what did I tell him last night? At that time, my head was dizzy, I only remembered the previous events, and I completely forgot about the aftermath.

Did I do anything immoral to him with the strength of alcohol? But I really can't ask this kind of thing, it's too limitless, I'd rather not know, and even if it really happened, it would only be in a dream.

Jin Yebai looked at me with some annoyance, "What are you thinking? Why did you suddenly do such a stupid thing? Don't you know that if you die, many people will be sad?"

Looking at his inquiring face, I actually had a feeling of being a thief, and said weakly: "I just can't think about it for a while, but isn't it okay?"

Jin Ye's white face turned white, "Can't you think about it for a while, won't you tell me? Do you have to think crankily alone? What if something really happens? How do you let me accept it?"

I laughed dryly, "Hehe...... I'm running out of gas, this is God protecting me, for the sake of this, I will live well, don't be angry. ”

Jin Yebai looked at me and didn't speak, but his expression became very weird.

I thought he didn't believe me, so I hurriedly stretched out my finger and swore solemnly: "I swear to God, this kind of thing will never happen again in the future, otherwise I will choke to death when I eat at home, be hit by a car when I go out, drown in water while swimming, and drink ......"

Before I finished speaking, Jin Yebai suddenly interrupted me and roared, "Enough!"

I withdrew my hand in disdain, looking at him and not daring to speak anymore, I really don't know what I said wrong just now, obviously people watching TV swear that this is what they say, and the more ruthless the better.

"There's food in the kitchen, you can make it yourself, I'll go first." He stood up and warned me viciously, "Shu Menglu, I called you a crazy girl for so many years, but don't let me see you like crazy last night!"

Last night?

Listen to that, he was here last night?

What am I crazy about, did I really eat him in a mess?

Oh my God, I'm crazy!

"Last night, I was ...... to you Do you have...... What is that...... I hesitated, ashamed to ask him if I had done anything to him to be sorry for Song Qingya.

"Nothing happened last night, you can rest assured!" Fortunately, Jin Yebai understood what I meant, and immediately solved my doubts, I exhaled secretly, so dangerous!

He took his coat and got up to open the door, I followed, looking at the wound on the back of his head, a sense of guilt arose, I didn't dare to get close to him half a step, watched him go out, and gently closed the door.

I let out a long sigh and went to the kitchen to take a look, and there were indeed a few fresh side dishes, as well as a piece of meat and a fish, which was still bouncing twice from time to time.

He probably didn't go back last night, right? And the reason why I didn't see him after I got up was because he happened to go out to buy groceries at that time, but he bought me so many groceries, how could I eat all by myself?

When I found my mobile phone, I immediately dialed Li Muchi's phone and asked him to come to my side for dinner at noon, he agreed quickly, and after saying that, I had to do laundry under the pretext that I had to hang up the phone quickly.

After making sure that last night and Jin Yebai didn't have the kind of thing that shouldn't have happened last time, my mood was much better, and I really figured it out, so I was in a better mood, humming a song while doing laundry.

After washing and drying, I went to the kitchen to pour lunch, looking at so many dishes, I couldn't help but think, the reason why Jin Yebai bought so many dishes was not because he was going to have lunch here, right?

It was only then that I woke up on my own, and when he asked to leave, I didn't make any reservations for him, so he left cleanly.

But isn't this just right, he should have accompanied Song Qingya on the big weekend, just like me now, didn't he also call Li Muchi to come over?

Li Muchi sees that he is a good man, if I refuse to do it again, I am afraid that I will be snatched away by others, and when the time comes, I can only say with envy and hatred: Good men let pigs arch.

We had a very pleasant lunch, and he saw that I was in such a good mood, and he had a puzzled expression on his face, probably because he couldn't figure out why I was still dead last night, but I was alive today.

After lunch, he cleaned up the table with me, then helped wash the dishes, and finally sat down on the sofa for a while before heading back.

I looked for two classic funny movies on the Internet, laughed while watching them, and I didn't know when, the tears came out, only to suddenly find that it was barely such a painful thing.

Forcing myself to let go of a loved one, but also pretending that it doesn't matter, forcing myself to try to accept someone I don't love, and forcing a smile to make him think that I am really happy and really tired.

But isn't there a saying that doesn't say that? There is justice in the world, and there is always a reward for paying, and it is better to do what you say, and to do it is to do the best.

I believe that the performance just now is enough to reassure Jin Yebai, as for Li Muchi's words, I will make persistent efforts to finalize the relationship with him after the Spring Festival, and then, as Li Sisi said, everyone will get married.

But at this time, I forgot another sentence, which is called: plans can't keep up with change.

Life is really boring because we keep repeating one thing, like Monday after the weekend, most people have to go to work, and I am one of them.

I woke up early in the morning, cleaned up my house and cleaned myself up, then braved the cold wind to go out for breakfast, squeezed the bus to work, and swayed in the carriage like sardines for nearly an hour before I reached my destination.

With the advent of winter and the drop in temperature, I haven't gone for a run for a long time, and as for whether Li Muchi has persevered, I don't know, and I won't ask so boringly.

I've been the first to arrive at the company recently, and soon after checking in, others arrived one after another, and Jin Yebai rested for so many days, and he also appeared today.

Seeing that the Spring Festival is approaching, all kinds of reports and summaries are about to start, everyone is very busy, even Li Sisi is a lot quieter, and I don't want to talk.

Although I still sit opposite Jin Yebai, I rarely look up to look at him secretly, and whenever I have that desire to look at him, I will remind myself not to be obsessed anymore.

After two weeks like this, the company's affairs were gradually dealt with, and the only thing left was the matter of the year-end banquet, this time, Jin Yebai, as before, did not plan to participate.

I didn't want to go either, but not because he wasn't there, but because I didn't like the lively atmosphere, I liked to be alone at home and listen to Buddhist music.

I can't listen to a song "Great Compassion Mantra" for a day without getting bored, I think, if I continue like this, I may see through the red dust and find a nunnery to become a monk, and the Green Lantern Ancient Buddha will live this life.

This is by no means groundless, in addition to being obsessed with Buddhist music, I also ordered a few Buddhist scriptures online, although I couldn't understand it, but I read it very seriously, and I even went to find Nan Huaijin's book.

Now when I face Jin Yebai again, I will recite a few Buddhist scriptures in my heart, so that my pounding heart will slowly calm down, and then chat with him like an old friend calmly.

Today, taking advantage of Jin Yebai's time to go to the bathroom, Li Sisi asked me with some hesitation, "Meng Lu, how do I feel that you have changed a lot now?"

I was staring at the computer analysis data, I looked up when I heard this, smiled at her, and said lightly, "Oh?

She shook her head, "I can't say the specifics, but it doesn't feel right, you have become too quiet, and the tone of your voice is so calm that I sometimes don't dare to speak." ”

Lu Zhenting also answered, "That's the case, I feel it too, but I don't dare to ask, it seems that since Yebai's accident, you and him have both changed." ”

"No, it's not like a change, it's like a different person. Li Sisi's expression was exaggerated, and the look in his eyes was like looking at a realistic version of the painted skin.

I took a sip from the glass of water I had at hand, "Huh...... When you marry Zhenting, your identity will change, and people will also change, and when you have children and have one more identity, you will definitely become more. ”

No one can avoid the changes that anyone will become, and it is from the physical to the psychological changes, but some people change obviously, and some people are not so obvious.

Jin Yebai came back soon, Li Sisi and Lu Zhenting didn't speak anymore, and I lowered my head and continued to analyze the data in the background.

A few times I looked up, and I saw that his gaze was fixed on me, so I smiled at him, turned my face away or lowered my head again to avoid his gaze.

For some reason, after the car accident, I could always see a kind of compassionate sadness in his eyes, and a trace of hidden deep reluctance.

When I returned to the apartment after work, I received a call from Li Muchi, saying that their company's holiday time had been determined, and they would start taking Spring Festival vacation a week later.

I chatted with him for a few words, and I felt that there was really nothing to talk about, so I hung up the phone, which is the second characteristic that I found myself changing.