When we returned to Xiacheng, no one came to pick us up, because we didn't tell anyone that we were coming back today, for no other reason, but we were too selfish to be bothered by anyone.

Did the clouds of that day have been expected?

That's why the steps are light

so as not to disturb it

Our time

Because it is destined to be so little

Yes, our time is destined to be too little to be wasted.

I didn't ask, but I could guess why he would leave me if there was more time.

Taxi back to the apartment where we stayed and nothing had changed, I kept the house the same as it was before he left.

Because I was too tired, I didn't pick up Shu Jing'an that day, and when I got home, I went directly to the bathroom to put hot water, prepared the pajamas for the two of them, and went to take a comfortable shower together, and then got into another nest.

I still hugged Jin Yebai and buried my head in his arms as before, and I could clearly smell the smell of shampoo, shower gel, etc. on his body, and I didn't have to comfort myself with his clothes.

Although I was tired, I was more happy and excited, and I couldn't sleep at all while lying in bed.

"Do you know why you're so careful, but I'm still pregnant?" I was a little smug when I asked this, and I couldn't help but laugh out loud.

"You can't have done anything to the condom, right?" Jin Yebai was like a roundworm in my stomach, and he actually guessed it immediately.

"How do you know?" I looked up at him in surprise, and felt more and more that he was so good-looking, no wonder I had a higher chance of turning heads when I walked with him.

He reached out and rubbed my head, smiling gently, "Or you wouldn't be snickering like this." ”

"Do you know who came up with the idea?" and it wasn't a big deal for him to guess, he wouldn't blame me, would he? I could see that he was even happier than I was to have a child.

"Lisz?" he replied without thinking.

"Hah, you've got your guesses wrong. I laughed triumphantly, "I bet you'd never think of who this man is." ”

Unexpectedly, he just groaned for a moment, and then said, "That's Qingya, people who can think of this kind of idea must not follow the rules." ”

My smile froze on my face, I tried to open my eyes wide, looked at him like a fairy, and said something I always wanted to say, "Xiaobai, you are really my god!"

"Okay, you're tired too, get some sleep first. He kissed me on the forehead.

"I'm not sleepy, I can't sleep, you can chat with me. "It's rare for me to be spoiled by him.

"But my son is tired, and he must want to get some rest. "He was good-natured and coaxed me.

"How do you know it's a son, what if it's a daughter? Are you patriarchal and discriminate against women?" I knew that he wasn't that kind of person, but I deliberately pretended to be angry.

"No, no, my daughter is my father's lover in my last life, and it's too late for me to like it. He quickly explained.

I didn't give up, and suddenly remembered another sentence, so I pouted and said, "But the daughter is also a treasure that the father is destined to lose." ”

As soon as the words came out, I regretted that I shouldn't have said this sentence.

is destined to lose because the daughter will eventually marry another man, and it is impossible to accompany her father through her life, which is a very sad sentence.

As for Jin Yebai, even if I give birth to a daughter in the future, he will not have the day when he will take his daughter's hand and walk into the marriage hall and personally hand her hand into the hands of his son-in-law.

Realizing that I had said the wrong thing, I felt guilty, and just as I was about to explain, Jin Yebai had already spoken first.

He hugged me tightly, "Well, get some sleep first, I promise you, I like both boys and girls, but you always love you the most!"

I was still haunted by the unscrupulous words just now, so I didn't dare to say anything more, lest I make too many mistakes and make the warm atmosphere more stiff, so I really closed my eyes and fell asleep.

The next day, he went back to his parents, and before leaving, he told me to pick up Shu Jing'an, saying that it was not good to keep it in the nursery all the time, and since I was not currently at work, I would take it myself.

I haven't been to work for more than a month, but most of the time Shu Jing'an is in the nursery, and I beg my grandfather to tell my grandmother to find Jin Yebai's whereabouts, fortunately, this kind of day is over.

I won't go to the company again in the near future, and now that Lu Zhenting and Li Sisi are in charge, I can rest assured that I can't help much, and my work Li Sisi is fully competent.

To celebrate his return, I bought a few side dishes that he liked to eat, but when I got home, I remembered that he didn't say how long he would stay with his parents before he left, and maybe he wouldn't be back today.

Looking at the dishes in the kitchen, I was a little depressed, I was really happy today, I wanted to call him to ask, but I was afraid that he would think that I was watching him too closely and occupy all his time.

After struggling for a long time, I ended up neither cooking nor calling him, just stuffing the food into the refrigerator, and then taking Shu Jing'an downstairs for a walk.

Shu Jing'an was already walking very steadily, I looked at her and involuntarily touched her belly, a new life is being conceived in it, and this time there will be no one who is unfavorable to my child.

Because it was still in February, it was a bit windy outside, and I was going to let her play by herself for a while and take her back, but it happened that another resident brought her children down to play, and she refused to leave as soon as she had company, so I had to stay.

It didn't take long for a taxi to stop abruptly in front of the building where I lived, and a familiar figure came out of it after opening the door, it was Jin Yebai who had returned and left the car for me before going out today.

When I saw him, my heart was a lot more relaxed, and I immediately greeted him, took his hand and wanted to go upstairs, but I didn't take a few steps before he was stopped.

"Why don't you leave?" I looked at him puzzled.

"Jing'an, don't you want it?" he let go of my hand and walked straight to Shu Jing'an, who was still playing with the children, and picked her up.

I was so confused, I forgot that I had brought the child down when I saw him, but now I can only tolerate him alone in my eyes and heart, and I don't even care about myself anymore.

With an awkward smile, I reached out to pick up the child in his arms, "Let me hold her, she's so heavy now." ”

Although I wasn't taking care of the children during this time, she gained a lot of weight, and the children grew up quite fast, and we grew old in the blink of an eye.

Once upon a time, I looked forward to growing up quickly, and then I could break free from the shackles of my parents, fly freely under the blue sky and white clouds, and wait until my youth is gone like a bird, but I remember my childhood.

People are always not satisfied.

I, too, was finally able to be with him, and my heart ached at the thought of having more time, and the thought that he would soon leave me forever.

Jin Yebai's face changed slightly, a little sad, "I can still hold her now, when I really don't have the strength to do it, I will definitely not rob you, I don't have a chance to take care of my child, it's good to be able to take care of her." ”

I don't know if this is God's mercy or torture, Shu Jing'an has become the child I have to take care of, so that Jin Yebai can experience the joy of being a father, but also taste the hardships of having children.

"Well, if you like it. I withdrew my hand and walked with him into the hall and took the elevator back to the apartment.

Since I haven't seen him for more than a month, Shu Jing'an was still a little crying when she was hugged by Jin Yebai, but she was quickly coaxed by his gentle words, he is very patient and loving, and he will definitely be a good father.

It's just a pity that our own children can't enjoy his fatherly love, and when I think of this, my mood immediately goes down, and my heart struggles in despair.

After entering the house, we divided up the work, he was responsible for playing with Shu Jing'an, and I went to the kitchen to cook, and those dishes were just enough to cook for him.

"Why is it so hearty? It's a waste to eat it if you can't finish it. He looked at the table full of dishes, "Actually, you don't have to do anything for me too deliberately, just like usual, I just want to live an ordinary life." ”

"Okay, as long as you're happy. "I will never refuse any of his requests again.

In the days when Jin Yebai was away, I always took Shu Jing'an to sleep together, and now that he is back, I don't want to have a little child between us.

I arranged the child on the small bed specially prepared for her by Jin Yebai in the past, so that although it would be a little troublesome to get up at night to pee, what was that hard work?

After turning off the lights, I asked Jin Yebai uneasily, "You won't leave me suddenly in the future, right?"

His hand around my waist trembled slightly, "Are you really going to face death with me? ”

"As long as you don't drive me away or avoid me, let me stay by your side, then I won't be afraid of any hard work. My nose began to sour again, "I know that you are hiding from me for my own good, and you don't want me to be sad, but as someone who loves you, I really want to be able to accompany you to the end." ”

"Did Qingya tell you anything about me?" his voice changed a little, with a hint of hoarseness.

"No, she hasn't told me anything but your address in California. I sniffed, "Don't worry, if you don't want to say, I won't ask more." ”

"Thank you. His voice choked, "I don't know when I'm going to die, but judging from the current examination, I can't wait to see our child born." ”

"Do you care about our children?" I silently wept in my voice, a very nasal voice.

"I care. He replied without hesitation.

"And what about me? do you care?" I continued.

"I care about the child and you. "He gave me the answer I wanted.

"Shall we get married, then?" I whispered my hand under the covers, quietly grabbing his.

Jin Yebai didn't answer immediately, and was silent for a while before saying: "I really want to give you a name, but if you want to marry someone after marrying me, it will be a third marriage, I am afraid that the man's family will be unhappy at that time, which is not good for you." ”

"I don't care!" I said categorically, "Women don't have to rely on a man to survive, now that I have our own children and a Jing'an, I can only tolerate you in my heart, and I have no intention of giving myself to other men." ”

"Is this really good? You are still so young, how can you easily decide on the long second half of your life?" Jin Yebai persuaded, "You better think about it again, don't be too impulsive." ”

I bit my lip and refused to give up, "Okay, then let's take a step back and say, even if I marry someone else one day, I will live with that man, why should I care what his family thinks? Since he wants to marry me, he should know that I am married for the third time, if he can't even accept this, why should he marry me?"

"But......" Jin Yebai wanted to say something, but I directly interrupted him.

"Not so much, but, I just want to ask you, do you love me, do you care about our child, do you want him to have grandparents like other children in the future?" I asked him three questions in one breath.

I used to think that I would never force him to do anything, but now I am pressing him step by step, bent on him as long as he marries me, but this can't blame me for not counting and not being trustworthy.

He has done so much for me in this short life, shouldn't I repay him and arrange for him after his death, so that he can leave in peace?

In short, it is still the same sentence, the plan can't catch up with the change, things are dead, but people are alive, this time and that time, you should know how to be flexible.

Without waiting for Jin Yebai to answer, I hurriedly said: "If we don't get married, then our children are illegitimate children, can you really bear to let him carry such a reputation for the rest of his life? Your parents only have such a child as you, and my parents have become like that again, don't you think that if I live with your parents, everyone will have a care?"

In fact, what I want to say is that if I marry him, I can take care of his parents until they are old, otherwise why should I, an unmarried pregnant person, stay in their house?

In the past, I only thought about myself, I didn't think about him at all, and accepted everything he did for me with peace of mind, but now I only think about him, the love of the king, and the worries of the king.

He fell into a brief silence again, and I shut up, saying so much in one breath that I really didn't know what to say.

I can only make him feel that I am doing all this for myself and my child, not for him, otherwise he will definitely reject me, he doesn't want to drag me down.

It was a long time before he spoke, "I may only have a few more months to live." ”

"I know. "If it weren't for the fact that time was running out, how could he have left me so ruthlessly?

"Before I die, my eyesight will deteriorate, and maybe one day I will never see anything again, and I won't be able to see you. He said.

If you can't see, does that mean you're blind?

No wonder he minded me so much to accompany him to the end, because in addition to worrying that it would make me sad and bear the pain of facing death, he was also afraid that I would be dragged down to take care of him.

"It's okay, if you can't see, then I'll be your eyes and help you see everything you want. "Whether he's blind, deaf or even amnesia, I'm not going to let him go anymore.

"Why are you so reckless?" he sighed heavily.

"Because I love you, and you love me, if you love each other, you should support each other, and you should not be afraid to retreat, worrying too much will only lose more. "For him, I am willing to gamble and bet on the happiness of my life.

"Okay, as long as you don't regret it, then let's get married. In the end, he finally gave a satisfactory answer, "Thank you for sacrificing so much for me." ”

"Little white ......" I buried my head in his arms, hugged him and smiled happily with tears.

I've waited for a long time and finally waited for today, I dreamed for a long time and finally realized my dream, I waited for my own child, and waited until he agreed to marry me, this is a double happiness, right?

Without further ado, the next day he went home to get the household registration book, and then we went to the Civil Affairs Bureau together, because he was still worried about putting Shu Jing'an in the nursery, so he took her with him, and everyone else looked at us with strange eyes.

They must think that Jing'an is our child, so guess that we are married for the second time, anyway, the second marriage will definitely suffer some unfair eyes, but what does it matter?

After receiving the marriage certificate and leaving the Civil Affairs Bureau, I picked up Shu Jing'an and walked out, asking Jin Yebai, "Xiaobai, since you are out, let's go to the mall by the way, okay?" I want to buy something." ”

"Good. Jin Yebai took Shu Jing'an over, "Meng Lu, you can drive in the future." ”

"Why?" compared to his, my driving skills are very different from him.

"I can't see it clearly. "I told you last night that my eyesight would deteriorate. ”

"Okay, I'll be the driver from then on, I'll be careful. As I spoke, I opened the door, but my hands trembled.

Now that his eyesight has deteriorated, will there really be a day when he will never see me again?

Suddenly he was scared, and then he would have to endure more pain and stress.

We finished buying and went home, and when we got home, I pinched myself hard to make sure that this was not a dream, that I was indeed married to Jin Yebai, and that I would be his legal wife in the future, and that my children would have the same surname as Jin.

On the third day after receiving the certificate, Jin Yebai took me back to see his parents, that is, my parents-in-law, and we still brought Shu Jing'an with us.

This time I came to the door as their daughter-in-law, much more relaxed than last time, I was a little unaccustomed to calling their parents when I just changed my mouth, and I became familiar with it after shouting a few more times, as natural as calling my own parents.

The mother-in-law seems to like children very much, and after eating, she kept holding Shu Jing'an and refused to let go, but Shu Jing'an was not very close to her because she recognized her life, and she cried a little.

"I heard Yebai say that you are the guardian of this child, and now that you are married, I am also her grandmother, if you don't dislike it, can you just put her with me? The mother-in-law said while teasing Shu Jing'an.

I also thought about Shu Jing'an yesterday, and I did feel that it was very inconvenient to take her with me, especially at night, she had to cry several times, and she woke up Jin Yebai last night.

As soon as Jin Yebai heard her cry, he would get up immediately, and said that I should rest more when I am pregnant, and he will take care of Shu Jing'an, how can I bear to let him work so hard?

So I planned to send her to the nursery, just as I was sorry for her, so selfish, who let us have too much time to get along? But Jin Yebai ......

My mother-in-law's words made my eyes shine, she is retired, and it should be no problem to take care of a child, but I just don't know what my father-in-law thinks.

I quietly looked at my father-in-law, his face did not change at all, he was still a little serious, I looked at my mother-in-law embarrassedly, and asked in a low voice, "Won't this be too troublesome?" ”

"No, no, I've always loved kids. The mother-in-law looked very happy all night, and now she doesn't even make trouble with Shu Jing'an in her arms, as if she has accepted her.

The silent father-in-law suddenly spoke, "The child is still so young, how can he be put in the nursery, your mother-in-law has nothing to do at home, just let her take care of it, and have a companion." ”

Jin Yebai also agreed, "That's right, Meng Lu, since my parents have said so, then let's pack up Jing'an's things tomorrow and send them over, and take her back today." ”

"Okay, that's your trouble. "I don't understand the kindness of my father-in-law and mother-in-law, they also want to give me and Jin Yebai more time, I will write down this love first, and I will definitely repay them in the future."

Shu Jing'an's problem has been solved for the time being, and I will be put at my parents-in-law's house in the future, and Jin Yebai and I still live in the apartment, we can be together every day, and we will not be disturbed by anyone.

On the way home, I asked Jin Yebai, "It was your idea to put Jing'an on your parents' side, right?"

He has always disapproved of putting his children in a nursery, thinking that it would lose the warmth of the family, if he hadn't opened up this with his parents, how could his parents have thought of putting their children with them for no reason?

"Well, my parents have always wanted a grandson or granddaughter, if it weren't for the fact that you were already pregnant with a child, they would have adopted an orphan after I left, and I thought it would be nice to put Jing'an with them, so I mentioned it to them, and they immediately agreed. "He didn't deny my speculation.

"Thank you. "If it weren't for the fact that I couldn't spare time to drive, I really wanted to kiss him and arrange such a good place for Jing'an.

"Do we still need to say thank you? It's not a good thing for husband and wife to see each other like this, don't say this word to me again in the future, I don't like it. ”

"Okay, I won't say it in the future, I only say three words to you, I love you. I glanced sideways at him and laughed.

It feels good to be with him!

"I love you too. "I didn't have time to kiss him, but he leaned over and slapped me in the face.