A few days after everything about the marriage was taken care of, we went to the photo studio to pick up the wedding photos and exterior photos taken a few days ago, and bought a photo album on the way.

The photos were taken very beautifully, and we enjoyed them one by one, while recalling the mood and scene of the photo at that time, and those memories were very beautiful.

After looking at the wedding photos, we took out the ones we took last time in California, sandwiched them in the album, and put them together with the wedding photo album.

When Jin Yebai put the last photo in, he said softly: "If you miss me in the future, you can take a look at these photos, this is my thought for you." ”

If it weren't for me, he wouldn't have been able to take the photos he had always liked the most, and he had to wash them all out and put them in the album.

We lived peacefully after that, and almost no one came to disturb us except for Qingya and Ling Xi, and they only came to see him.

I will accompany him to the hospital regularly for physical check-ups, and he will also accompany me to go for prenatal check-ups, although I drive every time, but I understand his intentions, such days are really dull, but so real.

Last time I was pregnant with Zhou Mingchuan's child, I reacted a lot, but this time I didn't have much reaction until three months, I think maybe God is taking pity on us and making us less tossed.

It's good that you can still be so easy when you're pregnant!

In April last year, I had been anxious about when Jin Yebai would leave, but this time this year, I became his wife and lived with him.

The most beautiful April day in the world lives up to the spring and the times.

Today is the day I went to the hospital for a prenatal checkup, he got up early in the morning to make me breakfast, since marrying him, we rarely eat out and prepare our own nutritious meals every day.

He said: "Meng Lu, I won't have a chance to take care of you in the future, take advantage of the present, I want to give you the best care, if there is really an afterlife, I will definitely accompany you through your life." ”

I replied to him, "If there was an afterlife, I would not marry someone else first, so that we missed each other for so many years." ”

We say that we don't want to talk about unhappy things, but we always talk about life and death for no reason, looking forward to the next life, even though we don't know if there will be an afterlife.

Because the pregnancy time was not much different from that of Lissi, we deliberately arranged the time of the prenatal check-up together, so we made an appointment to meet at the hospital after breakfast.

Li Sisi was sent by Lu Zhenting, because the company had something, he couldn't accompany Li Sisi to do the inspection, and he handed us over after seeing us.

"Yebai, the company's business is good now, but you are gone, Meng Lu is not here, and now Sisi is also pregnant, I am really too busy to be alone, or you can come back, I don't think you have anything to do." Lu Zhenting looked at Jin Yebai, his eyes were full of expectations.

Regarding the matter of letting Jin Yebai return to the company, Lu Zhenting mentioned it more than once, and every time Jin Yebai avoided the topic, I looked at him cautiously, not knowing how he would answer this time.

Jin Yebai smiled, "I'm afraid there is no way to do this, I have other things, if you are busy, you can recruit two more people, don't be reckless, it's not cost-effective to exhaust your body." ”

Li Sisi didn't know the truth, and said helpfully: "What's the matter? You are married now, and you will have a child soon, it should be the time to start a business, if you don't work hard, you will be old, and you can't fight if you want to." ”

"Siss, he really has other things, why don't I wait until I give birth. "When I finish giving birth, there is no Jin Yebai in this world, if I want to live, I should go back to work, as for the child, I can ask my mother-in-law to help bring it, and I can also ask someone to take it.

Lu Zhenting is very good at observing words and feelings, and seeing that we both refuse, he doesn't embarrass us much, "Since this is the case, then we won't force it, it's still the same old saying, you are welcome to come back at any time." ”

Jin Yebai would definitely not answer this sentence, he would not give a promise easily, especially this kind of thing that can't be done at all, so I rushed to say: "Okay, I believe it won't wait too long." ”

"Okay, Siss, please leave it to you, I'll go back to the company first. Lu Zhenting glanced at Li Sisi affectionately, gently dropped a kiss, waved his hand to us, and left.

Then we went for a prenatal check-up, and after we were done, we planned to send Li Sisi home first, but she said that she was going to the company, and now that the due date is far away, she will not take maternity leave so soon.

On the way, she asked me suspiciously, "Meng Lu, why are you driving, you are pregnant." ”

Why do I drive?

Because Jin Yebai's eyesight has deteriorated, I can't read the road signs or anything clearly, but I can't tell Li Sisi this.

I pretended not to care and said, "Because I like to drive, you can also hurry up and get a driver's license after giving birth, and you won't have to go anywhere in the future." ”

Now I am very glad that I had a driver's license test last year, and I would like to thank Lu Zhenting, who gave me a lot of help during my driver's license test, not only selflessly let me drive the car, but also accompanied me to practice driving.

Li Sisi was unhappy, "How dangerous it is for pregnant women to drive, I still like to drink, is it because I like to continue drinking?" Meng Lu, you are too willful." ”

Then he said to Jin Yebai: "Jin Yebai, I know you spoil her very much, but you also have to divide the severity, okay? Obviously you can drive, and you let a pregnant woman drive, will this be too much?"

Jin Yebai's face was a little ugly, I think he might be guilty, these days he has shown a low mood that has dragged me down, Li Sisi's words touched his sensitive nerves.

I hurriedly played a round, "It's okay, it's okay, it's only been a long time now, you still have to go to work, why am I so delicate that I can't even drive a car?"

Li Sisi still had a straight face, "You are different from me, firstly, you are older than me, and secondly, you had an accidental miscarriage last time, you have to be careful in everything, have you forgotten what the doctor said today?"

I regret coming with Liss for the prenatal check-up, if she hadn't come, she wouldn't have known what the doctor said.

The miscarriage that was harmed by Meng Shuwei was expected, and the child was not saved, but it hurt his body, so that although he is pregnant with a child now, he must be very careful, otherwise it is easy to miscarry.

When I came for an examination a few times ago, the doctor didn't tell me about it, but today Li Sisi was present, and he checked it out, and said it in front of her.

The atmosphere in the car instantly cooled and became eerie and dull.

I glanced sideways at Jin Yebai, his expression was even more ugly, I wanted to comfort him, but in front of Li Sisi, I couldn't say a lot of words.

Li Sisi may have also felt the oppression of the atmosphere, and did not say anything more, which made the atmosphere even more suffocating.

I really wanted to say something to break this silence, and as soon as I opened my mouth, Jin Yebai had already spoken, "We will try to protect this child, you don't have to worry." ”

Li Sisi sighed, "It's not that I'm nosy, I just think it's not easy for you, especially Meng Lu, I really don't want anything to happen to her like that scumbag before." ”

"I know, thank you for your concern. Jin Yebai whispered, and then didn't speak again, kept his head down and pondered, not knowing what he was thinking.

I put pressure on him again, and although it wasn't my intention, it still caused him trouble.

In order to get rid of Liss quickly, I drove the car very fast, and arrived at the door of the company in a short time.

She got off the station and asked, "Would you like to go up and sit down and have a cup of tea?"

"No need, you go up first, be careful on the road. As soon as she got out, I started the engine, and before she could say anything, she ran away.

Leaving Li Sisi's sight, I dared to comfort Jin Yebai, "Xiaobai, don't blame those who don't know, don't take Sisi's words to heart, she doesn't know anything, otherwise she will definitely not say so." ”

"I think she has a point. Jin Yebai's words were very calm, "You concentrate on driving first, let's go back and talk about this matter, pay attention to drive slowly, it was too fast just now." ”

"Okay. I answered, and my heart was filled with sorrow.

Why did things turn out like this?

I didn't check out anything before, and suddenly I said that due to the impact of the last miscarriage, the child may not be saved.

I also know that I was a little dangerous when I had a miscarriage last time, but hasn't it been so long? God, can you spare me, have mercy on us, and let us keep this child?

"Meng Lu, concentrate on driving, don't think nonsense. Just after I got distracted, I was pulled back by Jin Yebai's words, I looked at him embarrassedly, and I didn't dare to think about it anymore.

Jin Yebai rarely spoke along the way, he was afraid of disturbing my driving, so I didn't take the initiative to speak, my skills were not good, and I couldn't do it for two purposes.

It was not too early to get home, and we had to prepare lunch, which we put on hold for the time being, until we had finished lunch and packed up the dishes, and we were lying in bed to take a nap.

Jin Yebai lay flat on the bed, stretched out his arm for me to pillow, and suddenly asked me, "Meng Lu, shall we move in with my parents?"

I know that his purpose is to let my mother-in-law take care of me, no matter what, she is a person who has given birth to children, and she naturally has experience, but in this way, I have no personal space with Jin Yebai.

"I'll be careful, don't bother my parents, right? Besides, now my mother has to take care of Jing'an, so it will be very hard for her. "I'm selfish and don't want to be taken away from our time.

Jin Yebai continued to persuade me, "Jing'an can be taken care of by me, and you can go out as little as possible in the future, and things like grocery shopping and cooking will be done by my mother and me." ”

"However, after we go back, there will be no more of our two-person world. I tilted my head and looked at him sadly, "I just want to be alone with you." ”

Now I feel more and more that Shu Jing'an has become the biggest burden, if she is older, it would be fine, at least I could put her in kindergarten, but she is only more than a year old.

So I couldn't help but think, is Meng Shuwei entrusting the child to me really just because I am the only person who can take care of Shu Jing'an, why do I suddenly feel that I have been calculated by her?

Jin Yebai didn't force it anymore when he saw that I didn't want to, "Then let's take a look again, my condition is fine now, and I can take care of you for the time being, but you have to promise me that you won't go out unless necessary in the future, even if you want to go out, don't drive by yourself, let's take a taxi." ”

He still didn't feel comfortable with my skills, and in fact I was really useless, he was fine next to me when driving, and he would remind me from time to time, but if he wasn't around, I was prone to mistakes.

In the days he was gone, the car had been ruined by me, and in the worst case I had to be sent to a repair shop, where I was what people often call a road killer.

Thinking that I was so useless, I had to promise him, "Okay, I won't go anywhere after that, just stay at home and read some parenting guides, anyway, as long as you are by your side, I will be enough." ”

In the end, it was decided, and we continued to live here and see how it went.

Since being reminded by the doctor, we have been careful in everything, I almost stay at home every day, Jin Yebai just went downstairs to buy vegetables and came back immediately, and the days were quiet and dull.

But this day did not last long, about a week later, one morning to go to the bathroom, I found a small amount of bleeding in my lower body, and my heart jumped directly to my throat.

What to do?

This is a sign of threatened miscarriage.

Why is it that even if you are so careful, something will happen after all, child, child, are you so unwilling to be born in our family? Are you also afraid that you will be pitiful without your father in the future?

I sat on the toilet, tears quietly flowing, I was already doomed to lose Jin Yebai, why didn't I even leave the child? Wouldn't this be too cruel?

Knowing that things might not be good, I still didn't tell Jin Yebai with a fluke mentality, for fear that he would worry, so I secretly put water and washed it.

God forbid, there must be no more situations, I really need this child, he is not only the crystallization of my love with Jin Yebai, but also the continuation of his life.

I barely survived until the afternoon, and something worse happened, I had paroxysmal lower abdominal pain, so I had to say to Jin Yebai: "Xiaobai, let's go to the hospital." ”

His first reaction was to look at my lower abdomen, "Is there something wrong with the child?"

I nodded, "I'm sorry, it's all my fault, I should have told you earlier." I lowered my head and told him a brief picture of the morning.

He frowned, "How can you hide it from me." He went to the bedroom and took my bag out, took my hand and walked out, "Forget it, let's not talk about it for now, let's go to the hospital right away." ”

For the sake of safety, we didn't drive today, and directly stopped a taxi to rush to the hospital, and after the examination, the doctor recommended that we be hospitalized for observation to protect the fetus, and we could only do it.

Except for Jin Yebai, there is nothing more important than a child, and in his heart, the child and I are much more important than himself.

When he went to the hospital, I sat in the lobby and waited, and when everything was done, he led me to the ward and began a week-long hospitalization to observe and protect the baby.

I sat on the bed and watched Jin Yebai seriously peel the apple he had just bought from going out, "Xiaobai, you must not tell your parents about this, lest they worry again." ”

"I've already called my mom and she should be on her way by now. Jin Yebai handed the peeled apple to me, "You don't want to hide anything from us, what if something really happens?"

"I'm sorry. "I pinched the peeled apple, almost lowered my head into my clothes, tears rolling in my eyes.

It's because I know that everyone will be worried and scared that I don't want to tell him, so I feel like I'm a big problem, and I don't want to drag anyone down.

Jin Yebai got up and sat on the edge of the bed, stretched out his hand and pulled me into his arms, "Don't say I'm sorry, I also know that you are here to not worry us all, but I still hope that you don't bear it silently alone, it will be very hard." ”

Even if the two of them are together as they wish, they still live in the grief of facing loss every day, and I can understand why he would rather leave me than let me know the truth.

I put the apple to his lips and forced a smile, "The child will be fine, you are a good person, God will not be so cruel that even our last hope will be taken away." ”

"Well, I'm waiting for a miracle with you. He bit down on an apple, but it came to me.

The scent of apples lingered on the tip of my nose, and when I opened my mouth, apples were immediately sent into my mouth, and the ambiguous picture was unbelievably beautiful.

My mother-in-law soon came with Shu Jing'an, and when she heard that my child might not be saved, her eyes immediately turned red, and she turned her head sideways and quietly wiped it for fear that we would find out.

Shu Jing'an always wanted to climb into bed to play, but her mother-in-law refused to say anything, for fear that an inadvertent child would be kicked down.

My mother-in-law looked at me sadly, "Meng Lu, after you are discharged from the hospital, you and Yebai will move back to live, and I will ask someone to take care of Jing'an, and I will take care of it personally, and I will keep this child no matter what." ”

I looked at Jin Yebai suspiciously, he had this kind of suggestion before, because I didn't want to go back, and now my mother-in-law said this, it is likely that he said something in private.

He turned his face away and didn't look at me, but said lightly: "Meng Lu, or you just listen to your mother, I also want to spend more time with my parents." ”

I was still so selfish, I only thought that he was my husband, but I forgot that he was also the son of my parents-in-law, and I really shouldn't have done this.

Thinking of this, I immediately nodded in agreement, "Okay, then it's going to be troublesome Mom." ”

A week later, I left the hospital without any problems, went back to the apartment with Jin Yebai to pack my things, and then took a taxi to his parents' house.

But these days I have to stay on bed rest, take tocolytic drugs, and have no access to radiation-infused electronics, so I can't play with the computer, touch my phone, or even watch TV.

Jin Yebai was afraid that I would be bored, so he bought me a lot of magazines and came back, and basically stayed in our bedroom all day, reading books with me or talking with me.

After resting in bed for a few days, I felt like I was about to get moldy, and I was grateful that God didn't let me have too much pregnancy reaction, but it was just a way to torture me.

At night, pillowing Jin Yebai's arm, I asked him sadly, "If this child is really gone, then what should we do?

Jin Yebai sighed, "I'm afraid this is difficult." ”

After the miscarriage, the body will definitely be affected, how can I conceive again immediately, but if I can't conceive immediately, then how can I have a chance to give birth to him?

"Why is God so unfair, it's not enough to take you away, even our children won't be spared. I gently stroked my lower abdomen, and my nose couldn't help but sour again.

"Maybe I was a heinous bad guy in my last life, so I will have this catastrophe in this life. Jin Yebai continued to sigh, "Okay, don't think too much, isn't the child still there now? ”

Kid, can you be a little stronger?

Please give my mother a little hope, if even you are gone, then what is the point of my life?

"If the child is gone, I'll go with you. I said categorically, "Xiaobai, Huangquan is lonely, we can go to the Netherworld to continue to be husband and wife, and maybe we can see our children." ”

"Don't say stupid things, the child will be fine, let's go to the hospital tomorrow and go to sleep." He kissed me and reached for the lamp on the bedside table.

I didn't say stupid things, I wasn't strong enough, the child was already the only motivation for me to live after losing him, and there would be no more me without him!

The next day, I went to the hospital with Jin Yebai, but not only did the situation not improve, but it became more serious, and the doctor asked me to be hospitalized again.

Jin Yebai went to complete the hospitalization procedures without saying a word, and I had to stay in the ward full of disinfectants, but fortunately, he was still by his side.

We were in the hospital where Song Qingya worked, and soon after she got the news, she came to see me with Ling Xi, and when she heard that the situation was not good, she frowned and looked worried.

They know more about Jin Yebai's physical condition than I do, and this child is a continuation of his life, pinning the hopes of all of us in the know.

Qingya's attitude was better than ever, and she took my hand and comforted, "Sister-in-law, don't worry too much, you have to believe in the current level of medicine, as long as you cooperate well with the treatment, the child will be fine." ”

Ling Xi also agreed, "Yes, the times are advancing, medicine is developing, and threatened miscarriage is not necessarily unable to save the child, the most important thing for you now is to cooperate with the treatment, don't be too depressed, and you can't suppress your spirit." ”

It's not that I don't want to believe in the current level of medicine, but the hospital forced me not to believe it, if the current medicine is really so powerful, then why did Jin Yebai die so early?

Listening to their comfort, I felt no better, but even more sad.

It's all my fault that I'm not good, if I hadn't regretted it on the operating table, I wouldn't have given Meng Shuwei a chance to hurt me, let alone today's pain.

They stayed in the ward for a while and left, Jin Yebai looked at me with sad eyes, "Meng Lu, don't be too sad, didn't the doctor say it, you need to relax, otherwise it will be harmful to the fetus." ”

I looked at him, my heart was almost numb, such a good man, soon to leave me, how can I relax? Now I can't even laugh with tears on my face.

I've been pretending to be strong, but after a long time, I realized that everything was so difficult, the disguise was fake after all, I couldn't always smile at him in the cloak of disguise, I was really getting more and more useless.

He smiled reluctantly, reached out and scratched the wing of my nose, "Well, let's listen to the doctor, don't think about those unhappy things, or think about high school, I remember you were really crazy at that time, so I always wonder what it would be like for you to cry." ”

When I was in high school, it was a long distance, and now I look back on it like a different world, at that time, Jin Yebai was as white as a meter of sunshine, shining in my heart, but it was a pity that I didn't have a relationship with him.

If I had fallen in love with him at the time, I would have chased him madly with my temper at the time, and then I got married as soon as I graduated from college, and now my children will play soy sauce.

"I want to go out for a walk and breathe the air outside. I was silent for a long time before I finally spoke.

"Okay, then I'll push you out. "Because of pregnancy, my body is relatively weak now, and this is also a cause of the miscarriage crisis, which is really a disaster.

Jin Yebai carried me into a wheelchair and pushed me for a slow and leisurely walk in the small garden of the hospital, and the memories came flooding back like a tide, instantly sweeping my whole body.