When I had my first miscarriage, Jin Yebai also pushed me to walk in this place like this, but at that time, he didn't seem to have any physical problems at all, and his eyes were very clear.

But now, even when I was a stone's throw away from him, he had to squint his eyes slightly when he looked at me, his eyes were no longer as clear as before, and I could even feel life slowly draining from his body.

He hadn't spoken since he left the room, and when I looked back at him, I saw that his brows were twisted into knots, and he looked preoccupied, not knowing what he was thinking, and his expression looked complicated and tangled.

After walking for a while, he stopped next to a flower bed, and then squatted down in front of me and took my hand, "Meng Lu, instead of working so hard to protect the fetus, why don't you just beat the child." ”

"No!" I refused without hesitation, and then I realized that what he was just thinking about was actually trying to beat our child, how could he be so cruel to me?

"Seeing that you are so worried every day now, and your frowning brow will not stretch all day long, I am very heartbroken, I don't want you to toss yourself so much in order to leave me a child. My hand loosened slightly, "Children are important, but you are more important." ”

"Without children, there would be no more me!" I said categorically, "you are already destined to leave me, if you can't even keep the child, then what is the point of me living in the world?"

"You still have Jing'an. Jin Yebai felt a kind of sympathetic sadness, "You are the only person who can take care of her now, aren't you? ”

"I'm responsible for her, so who is responsible for me? Her surname is Shu, but it's not my Shu Menglu's Shu, but my father Shu Zeqi's Shu. "Speaking of Shu Jing'an, I naturally think of Meng Shuwei, if it weren't for this woman, how could it be so difficult for me to have a child?

"Meng Lu, you're starting to hate again. Jin Yebai sighed helplessly, "This is not good, we should live with a grateful heart, we can't grasp the length of life, but we can grasp the width of life, right?"

"But I can't bear you. I reached out and gently stroked his face, "Xiaobai, what did we do in our last life that we have to suffer from this in this life?"

Who said that the farthest distance in this world is not life and death?

There are no more people, what kind of love are you talking about?

"You're thinking too much about it again. He put his hand on the back of my hand, "In the future, I will only show you fashion magazines, and you will not be allowed to read any mess, lest you always be brought in, and you will be sentimental like Sister Lin." ”

We stayed outside for a long time, and the April breeze blew gently through his hair, and also blew my eyes red, but tears, which I finally held back.

After staying in the hospital for more than half a month, we finally ushered in a good news, I can be discharged from the hospital, but I still have to stay in bed and continue to take tocolytic medicine after I go back.

On the day I went back, my father-in-law took leave to drive to pick him up, which shows that they care about this child so much, if I can't keep it, then it will be a big sinner in their family, and they have no face to live in this world.

My mother-in-law put almost all her thoughts on me and took care of me meticulously, while Shu Jing'an was taken care of by a special nanny, she was very naughty now, and her mother-in-law generally didn't let her come into my bedroom with Jin Yebai.

Jin Yebai still accompanies me in the bedroom every day, he moves the piano to the bedroom window, often plays tunes to me, and tells me the story behind each piece after playing.

After recuperating at home for more than half a month, we went to the hospital for a re-examination and made sure that the child was okay for the time being, as long as we pay attention in the future, there should be no more problems.

When my whole family heard the news, we cried with joy, and I finally understood how important this child really is to those of us who are alive.

Life is precious, and that's true.

The weather began to get hotter in May, but Jin Yebai's situation was getting worse and worse.

One night, I was sleeping soundly, and I was suddenly awakened by the movement around me, I opened my eyes in a daze, and my eyes hurt a little from the light of the bedside lamp.

I tried to keep my eyes open and glanced at the position around me, the person was gone, and I only had time to see Jin Yebai's back stumbling away.

I hurriedly got up and followed out of the bedroom, and saw that the light in the bathroom had been turned on, and the sound of vomiting coming from inside was very clear in the quiet night.

Is he sick?

This is the first time I have faced him since I was with him, and last month it happened that I was still in the hospital, and he contacted Song Qingya to arrange treatment as soon as possible.

I hurried to the bathroom and twisted the handle hard, but the door didn't open, he had locked it, was he so afraid of me seeing it?

The world has the law of both, and it lives up to its promise.

The child's problem has just been solved, and he has a problem again, and God doesn't torture us, isn't it?

"Xiaobai, husband. "Because it was night, I could only gently knock on the door, and I didn't dare to shout too loudly for fear of waking my parents-in-law.

He didn't open the door, only the words came, "I'll come out at once, you go back to the bedroom first." ”

"You open the door first, or I'll wake up my parents." "What if he faints inside?

I didn't know it before, I didn't think much about it when I watched him faint a few times, and I thought it was a common cold, but now I'm not that careless ghost.

"Don't wake them up. There was a sound of water flushing from inside, and he quickly came to open the door, and the man came out and took my hand, "I'm fine, go back to the bedroom." ”

I withdrew my hand and put it on his forehead, and the burning sensation was instantaneous, exactly the same as before.

"Let's go to the hospital. I followed him into the bedroom and retrieved his clothes, "You change your clothes first." ”

He looked like he was nothing, pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled lightly, "No need, it's the third watch in the middle of the night, you're too nervous." ”

I glared at him, "Don't pretend to be relaxed, do you think I can't see that you're having a hard time right now?"

He pulled me to the side of the bed, "It's a little uncomfortable, but I'm used to this kind of thing." And it's not like I'm going to die, and I'll be fine if I go to the hospital tomorrow. ”

I'm used to it!

He said it so lightly, but it hurt like a cone in my ears, as if someone was holding a knife and stabbing me.

"Well, hurry up and go to bed, if you don't sleep well tonight, how will you stay in the hospital with me tomorrow?" he forced me to sit on the bed.

"Then lie down first, and I'll pour you a glass of water. I let go of his hand and got up and walked out of the bedroom.

By the time I poured the water, he was already sitting on the bed, covered with a thin quilt, leaning on the head of the bed and looking at me, pursing his lips and smiling.

I handed him the glass, "Drink some water, it might feel better." ”

He stretched out his hand to take it, raised his head and took a few sips, and then said to me: "Meng Lu, no matter what happens in the future, don't be too anxious, pay attention to your body, my own body knows it by itself, this is just an old problem." ”

"But I'm so distressed, and I'm even more worried about you. I sat down next to him, pulled the covers over myself, snuggled up to him, and rested my head on his shoulder.

"Don't worry, I'm not going to hold on now, I'm going to the hospital if something happens, because I don't want to die yet. He turned his head sideways, his hot lips touching my face, "Okay, let's go to sleep, and you accompany me to the hospital tomorrow." ”

I tore the tissue from the bedside table, wiped the cold sweat off his forehead, and told him to lie down first, and then turned off the light, and couldn't sleep for a long time with his eyes closed.

I woke up early the next day, and the first thing I did when I opened my eyes was to reach out to his forehead, which felt much hotter than last night, and quickly woke him up.

My father-in-law and mother-in-law had already gotten up, I said hello to them, and was about to talk about Jin Yebai, when he quietly pulled me and spoke first: "Mom, I'm going to the hospital today, so I don't need to prepare our breakfast, as for lunch, I'll call you then." ”

The mother-in-law was delicate, and as soon as Jin Yebai spoke, she asked, "Are you uncomfortable again?" and walked over to us.

"No, I made an appointment with Qingya to do a routine checkup, but I forgot to remind you yesterday. Jin Yebai hurriedly pulled me to the bathroom.

My mother-in-law didn't follow up, so I looked back at her and saw that she had gone to the kitchen.

"Meng Lu, I can handle my affairs by myself now, don't tell my parents. He helped me squeeze the toothpaste and told me, "When the day comes, I really can't help it, I'll tell them myself." ”

He was always like this, he didn't want to trouble anyone, not even his own parents and my wife, but he always treated our business as his own.

Why is he so selfless? Just because he knows that he will not have the opportunity to do anything for us in the future, and there is no way to accompany us to the end of his life, he wants his father-in-law and mother-in-law to send a white-haired person to a black-haired person?

We went out immediately after a simple wash, and he had no appetite because of the high fever, and he couldn't eat anything, and even if he barely ate it, he would vomit out, so he didn't eat anything at all.

I was worried about him, and I didn't have any appetite, I just wanted to accompany him to the hospital quickly, but in the end, he forcibly dragged him into a breakfast shop and asked for a bowl of light gruel and the special gold and silver.

"I don't want to eat, let's hurry up. "Until he dragged him to sit down and ordered breakfast, I was still insisting that he take a taxi to the hospital immediately.

His face was red, his voice was a little hoarse, and he said to me in a good-natured manner: "Of course I know that you don't want to eat, but our child wants to eat, you can starve, he is so young, how can you stand it? Don't you want the baby to grow up healthily?"

I looked at him, knowing that he was changing the law to persuade me to eat, but I couldn't find a reason to refute it, I couldn't be willful anymore when I was pregnant, and everything had to be for the sake of the child.

Breakfast was quickly served, and he kept staring at me, as if he was afraid that I would throw things away while he wasn't looking.

I really wanted to finish breakfast and accompany him to the hospital, but I had no appetite, so I naturally ate slowly, and the more anxious I was, the worse it was, and I wanted to get angry when the porridge was hot.

Originally, I had a bad temper during pregnancy, and I was very irritable, if it weren't for Jin Yebai by my side, with my previous temper, the whole family would probably be upside down.

I've really changed a lot, I'm no longer impulsive, I don't lose my temper, no matter what happens, the first thing that comes to mind is always Jin Yebai, and as long as I think of him, I can calm down immediately.

"Don't worry, you eat slowly, be careful of burning. Jin Yebai comforted me softly, "No matter what happens in the future, you have to remember nine words: calm down, think twice before acting!"

"Okay, I'll remember. I stirred the gruel in the bowl as I lowered my head and blew softly.

Not only do I have to remember it myself, but I also want to use this as our family motto in the future to educate our children, so that they can become people like Jin Yebai, instead of being like me, a useless mother.

Just because of this bowl of gruel that burned people to death, I ate breakfast for a long time before it was over, and after eating, I quickly got up and pulled Jin Yebai out to stop the car.

When I came to the hospital, it was still very early, and Song Qingya hadn't come to work yet, but it was precisely because of the early arrival that there were very few people, Jin Yebai could register without queuing, and quickly arranged for an intravenous drip in the ward.

No matter how many tests are done, the top priority is to get the high fever down first, which does not need any doctor's advice, Jin Yebai himself knows it.

He looked very tired, and fell asleep shortly after calling Song Qingya, and I kept watch by the side, raising my hand from time to time to wipe the sweat from his face.

He hadn't even snorted since last night, and I couldn't understand what kind of pain he had endured, but the fine beads of sweat on his face could be seen whenever I looked at him.

He must have been in pain.

Song Qingya came as soon as she went to work, Jin Yebai was still asleep, she said hello to me and reached out to his forehead, muttering to herself, "Why is it burning so badly?"

"How is he? Is it serious?" I woke up this morning and found that his condition was not good, so I wanted him to come to the hospital quickly, but he was so stubborn that I couldn't help it.

"It's fine if it's just a low-grade fever, but now it's ...... Hey, let's let him get the fever down first. Song Qingya frowned, "You stay with him here, notify me as soon as he wakes up, and I will arrange an examination for him." ”

"Okay, then you go get busy first. Although she is Jin Yebai's attending physician, he is not the only patient, and there must be other things to do.

She nodded, and quickly left, looking back at him deeply the moment the door closed.

It's not good, it must be, otherwise she wouldn't have worried about it.

I took Jin Yebai's hand and held it tightly, praying for him over and over again in my heart, asking God to bless us to meet a miracle.

He had been asleep all the time, and he hadn't woken up until he had finished three bottles of potion, and I couldn't bear to wake him up, so I touched his forehead and felt the temperature drop slightly, and then I exhaled in my heart.

Song Qingya may have been unable to hear from me, so she came over by herself, and at this time Jin Yebai had already retreated to a low-grade fever, but there was still no sign of waking up.

"Why hasn't he woken up yet?" I looked at Jin Yebai worriedly, and asked Qingya anxiously.

"Because he's so tired and wants to get some rest. Song Qingya said a lie that even I didn't believe, "How are you and the child doing now?

"It's okay, it's okay for the time being. I subconsciously reached out and stroked my lower abdomen, which was still very flat.

It's been five months, but I don't show any pregnancy, I can't believe I'm pregnant without a hospital certificate, and Li Sisi has already seen that she has a belly last month.

Song Qingya didn't want to tell me, so I didn't want to ask too much, as a layman, maybe I couldn't understand what she said, just like the last time I was in the apartment, opening my mouth is a professional term, and I feel like I'm listening to a book from heaven.

She stayed in the ward for a while and left, then brought some instruments, and then began to check Jin Yebai, I watched quietly on the side, and sure enough, I didn't know anything about it, this is probably what people often say that interlacing is like a mountain.

Not long after tossing, Song Qingya left the ward with her things, and I went back to the bed and sat down, I really wanted to wake up Jin Yebai, I was so scared to see him sleeping like this all the time.

But I still didn't do it after all, although Song Qingya's previous answer to me was deliberately avoiding the topic, it was not a real lie.

Jin Yebai is indeed very tired, his body is tired, his heart is even more tired, and most of them are dragged down by me!

At noon, Song Qingya came and asked me to go to the cafeteria with her to eat, I didn't want to go, but she said something similar to what Jin Yebai said in the morning.

She said to me very seriously: "Sister-in-law, it doesn't matter if you don't eat a meal, but the child in your belly is growing now, do you think you are doing this well?"

Just this sentence, I had to obediently go to the cafeteria with her.

I also made a point of looking at the hanging bottle as I left to make sure I didn't finish it before I returned, and I will always remember the claim that inhaling air while playing a hanging bottle can kill people.

Even if I no longer have an appetite, I try to eat, Song Qingya looked at me with wide eyes on the side, and didn't say a word.

After eating, when I returned to the ward, Jin Yebai had already woken up, and as soon as I pushed the door open, I saw him sitting on the bed in a daze, I happily walked over and hugged him, "You finally woke up, scared me to death." ”

"I'm sorry, I've slept too long. He looked at me, his eyes were still a little worried, it seemed that he had just woken up, and I didn't delay long in going out this time.

I sat down on the edge of the bed and asked him gently, "Are you hungry, do you want to eat something?"

He shook his head, "No, Qingya?

"Well, I just took me back from dinner, so I guess it's going to take a lunch break. Thinking that Qingya told me that Jin Yebai was going to call her when he woke up, I quickly took his mobile phone.

"Now that we're resting, let's wait until we get to work. Jin Yebai took the phone from my hand, "Did you call your mother in the morning and say that we won't go back for lunch?"

"Hit. "I listened to Jin Yebai's conversation with his mother-in-law in the morning, even if he couldn't call because he was asleep, I couldn't ignore it.

"That's good, she didn't ask anything, right?" Jin Yebai is still thinking about things at home, when will he be able to think about it for himself?

"Don't worry, I told my mom that you're okay, it's just that I've been stuffy in the house for too long and want to walk outside with you to breathe. "I have long seen his thoughts in my eyes and remembered them in my heart.

"Thank you. "He is becoming more and more polite to me now, every day he is either sorry or thankful, does he have no other feelings for me except guilt and gratitude?

I reached out and probed his forehead again, the fever had subsided, but his spirit looked very bad, his face was pale, and his whole body was wilting.

"You can sleep a little bit at noon, come here. He moved a little to the side to make room for me.

Actually, the bed next to it was empty, and I could have gone there if I really wanted to sleep, but then we would be separated, and now I don't want to be separated from him for a minute.

Although I wasn't sleepy, I was afraid that he would say something about me not sleeping, but the child needed to sleep or something, so I took off my shoes and sat down next to him without hesitation.

We talked for a while, and I gradually became a little sleepy, so I lay down with him, and I didn't plan to take a nap before I fell asleep soon.

Recently, I seem to have become a little sleepy, I don't know if it's because of pregnancy, or if my heart is too tired.

When I woke up, Jin Yebai was already sitting on the bed, still looking preoccupied and in a daze, I got up and was about to get my mobile phone to call Song Qingya.

"Qingya has already come. Jin Yebai stopped me, "I need to stay in the hospital for a few days, and Dad will come to pick you up after work." ”

"No, I'm not going back, I'm here to accompany you. "I'm headstrong like a child.

"It's okay during the day, but definitely not at night. Jin Yebai said, "Mom specially stewed chicken soup for you to replenish your body, you go back at night to drink it, sleep alone obediently, and I will be back in a few days." ”

"I'm going to be with you. "I don't give up.

"Meng Lu, you should learn to live on your own, I can't stay with you for long. There was a deep sadness and reluctance in his words.

"What did Qingya tell you?" Song Qingya didn't say anything to me, but she absolutely didn't hide anything from him.

"Nothing. Jin Yebai avoided the topic, "How are you feeling today, is your body fine?"

"I'm fine. "It's getting boring and boring, and he's always trying to hide it from me.

At his request, I didn't stay in the hospital overnight, my father-in-law dropped me off every morning when he went to work, and picked me up at night after work.

My mother-in-law gives me all kinds of tonic soup every day, and I still eat a lot every time when I am tired of eating, and I want to make our children grow up healthy no matter what.

Lying alone in bed at night, thinking that I would soon have to live like this every day, my tears could not stop flowing, it was a heartbreaking loneliness.

Jin Yebai came back after a few days in the hospital, and on the surface he looked like he was fine, but we knew that under this seemingly healthy body, his life was losing rapidly.

In June, my lower abdomen finally bulged, and he would often reach out and gently caress it, with a satisfied smile on his face, but this smile was mixed with a hint of loss and reluctance.

Although he didn't tell me personally, I finally knew that he had less than three months left and should not be able to wait for the birth of his child.

He can't even see his own child's face, he can only caress through my belly, or put his ear to my lower abdomen to listen, how can he not be stunned?

Tonight, I sat lazily by the head of the bed, not knowing what to say to him, and the atmosphere in the room was always filled with a tone of sadness and despair, as if it were sad to say anything.

He sat quietly reading a book, his eyes narrowed into slits, just like those presbyopia-eyed grandparents.

Reading a book, which used to be a very simple task, is now extremely hard for him, and his eyesight has deteriorated to the point that he can't see my face even a few steps away.

I tried to persuade him not to read it, but he said that he couldn't help at home, and if he didn't read, he would have nothing to do, and he would feel like a wasted person.

In addition to the continued decline in his eyesight, his resistance became worse and worse, and fever became commonplace, often just after he subsided in the morning, and then he burned in the evening.

What's more, when he came back from the hospital at night, he would get up and stumble into the bathroom in the middle of the night to vomit, even if he was drenched in cold sweat and soaked his clothes, he would not snort.

Many times he doesn't eat anything, and when he eats, he will vomit it immediately, but I am just the opposite of him, no matter how uncomfortable I feel, my appetite is getting bigger and bigger.

My mother-in-law said that it was not that I wanted to eat, but that the child in my belly was hungry and needed more nutrition, so my mother-in-law would not only make me a supper every day, but also add a meal in the afternoon.

Jin Yebai looked at me like this, smiled and said that the baby has a good appetite, it must be very healthy, and the results of my prenatal examination in the hospital also proved that what he said was not wrong at all, and our child is developing very well.

In this way, we all breathed a sigh of relief and put our minds on him.

At this moment, he was lying on my lower abdomen like he had been every night lately, listening to the movements in my stomach while talking to the child.

He earnestly taught: "The child is well-behaved, in the future, you must love your mother well instead of your father, be an obedient and sensible good child, don't let your mother worry, and don't cause trouble, Dad likes well-behaved children the most." ”

I replied for the child, "Don't worry, I will definitely teach the child well, and there are still parents here." ”

He said sadly: "Baby, Dad is sorry for you, he is an irresponsible person, let you come to this world but can't watch you grow up, accompany you through youth, don't blame Dad." ”

I held back my tears and reached out to gently touch his face, "The baby won't blame you, it's all God's fault, it doesn't give us a choice, the baby will understand when he is sensible." ”

He closed his eyes and muttered to himself, with deep affection and extravagant hope in his words, "Meng Lu, I really want to be by your side all the time and watch the child grow up happily together." ”

My nose was sore, tears were already rolling in my eyes, and I stopped the conversation in order to ease the heart-wrenching sadness that filled the room.

It seemed like a whim, but in fact, I wanted to ask him many times, and finally I mustered up the courage to say a new topic, "Xiaobai, can you choose a name for our baby?"

He got up and sat down against the head of the bed, looked at me with his eyes narrowed into a slit, and smiled gently, "I have already chosen the name, Yiyun is elegant, just call it Jin Yi, do you like it?"

"Like. "As long as he takes it, I like everything, greedy snuggled in his arms, I grabbed his hand and interlocked his fingers, held it tightly and was reluctant to let go.

Whether it's this warm and reassuring chest, or his powerful big hands, I almost can't feel it, God has given us too little time.

Someone wants to break a minute in half into two minutes to use, but I want to break every minute into tens of millions of petals in the hope that he can always be with me.

Time flies, another month has passed in a blink of an eye, and in this month, he will go to the hospital every three or five times, and I am in good health recently, so I drive with him every time.

We only came back from the hospital two days ago, and he did this every time, as long as he felt a little better, he would force himself to go home, saying that he didn't want to stay in the hospital.

The weather was getting hotter and hotter, and although the windows were closed, I was still listening to the sound of shouting loudly outside, and I was very irritable.

Standing in front of the window, I watched the breeze blowing the big trees outside, the shadows of the trees swaying, leaving mottled shadows on the ground, and said to Jin Yebai, who was sitting on the side, "Do you want to listen to me play the piano?" ”

The Little Star Variations is the simplest piece, but my artistic cells are too few, he taught me for a few months to barely learn, if he can stay alive, then our children will definitely be taught well in the future.

"Good. He leaned back in his chair, his face was horribly pale, and his spirit was not very good, Qingya had suggested that he continue to stay in the hospital, but he himself said that he was okay now and didn't want to stay there.

In terms of his current physical condition, it is not surprising that he stays in the hospital every day, but he says that he does not want to lie in the hospital and wait for death, and if he can, he hopes to stay at home more.

Who wants to stay in a place like a hospital except for the medical staff? Especially for a terminally ill patient like him, who would rather die at home than be sent to a cold morgue.

I sat down silently at the piano, and with trembling hands pressed on the black and white keys, I played for him for the first time a complete variation of the Little Star.

Listening to me play a complete piece is his wish since the day he taught me to play the piano, if it weren't for the fact that he got his wish, I wouldn't know that I don't have artistic cells, and I still practice desperately with my stomach up.

It took me months to learn a simple tune, which shows how slow I am at music, otherwise he wouldn't have laughed at me when I sang to him on the phone.

As I was playing in earnest, my shoulders suddenly became hot, and when I looked back, he was already standing behind me and putting his hands on my shoulders.

I stopped what I was doing, stood up and turned around, threw myself into his arms, and reached out to wrap my arms around his waist, how long could I enjoy such a warm chest.

His waist became more and more slender, because his whole body was as thin as a piece of paper, and every time I went out, I couldn't help but worry about whether a gust of wind would sweep him away.

"Meng Lu ......" He rested his chin on the top of my head and hugged me tightly, separated from each other by my growing belly, which was pregnant with our child.

This is the embracing of our family of three, with infinite sadness and despair in the warmth.

Tears fell silently, and I buried my head in his chest, sobbing and begging in a low voice, "Take me along, I don't want to be alone, I'm afraid of the world without you." ”

"Don't be stupid, we still have a child, he is already destined to have no father, how can you bear to leave him behind?" his chin rubbed gently against the top of my head.

How can you live and die together?

"But I'm so reluctant, a month, there's only one month. "Time flies so fast that I don't have time to react.

His time had gone from less than three months to just one month left, and I had two months left on my due date, a full month in between.

I knew he wanted to see the baby come alive and hear the baby's cry, so I quietly contacted an obstetrician and gynaecologist and asked for help to give birth early.

Either way, I'm going to try to let him see for himself, baby our baby, so dear, you have to hold on and wait until our baby is well developed, and then I can give birth to him.

Wishes are always good, I thought that as long as I induced labor myself, I would be able to let Jin Yebai see our child, but the result was less than that day, and we received a fatal blow.

That morning, I woke up very early as usual, looked at the ceiling with my eyes wide open for a while, and then took advantage of the morning light to look sideways at Jin Yebai, who had slept peacefully for a long time.

Soon after, I heard a noise in the living room, and my mother-in-law must have gotten up to make breakfast, so I was ready to get up and go out to help first, because the doctor advised me to do more exercise, so that it would be easier to have a baby.

Although I got up and dressed very carefully and gently, I finally woke him up, and he opened his eyes and asked me suspiciously, "Meng Lu, it's not dawn yet, why did you get up so early?"

I looked outside, and by this time the sun was already on my buttocks, but he said that it was not yet dawn? I was startled, and raised my hand and shook it in front of his wide eyes, and he didn't even blink an eye.

"Xiaobai, you ...... Can't see me?" I said, my voice trembling.

"yes, why don't you turn on the light when you get up? As he spoke, he habitually reached out to turn on the bedside lamp.

But before his hand touched the switch of the lamp, his movements froze, and the slender hand stopped in the void, maintaining this movement for a long time.

I looked at him, my eyes moistened, and our worst fears were happening.

He was completely blind and would never see any of us again, and even if he could give birth before he left, he would still have regrets after all.

"Are you still blind after all?" He withdrew his hand with a wry smile, groping to touch me, I hurriedly reached over and grabbed him, only to hear him say lightly, "Meng Lu, I'm going to trouble you and my parents in the future, fortunately, it won't be too long." ”

It won't be long!

Fortunately, it won't be long......

Does he mind being taken care of by us so much?

I couldn't cry anymore, I sat on the bed and looked at him blankly, my heart seemed to have thousands of feather arrows shot, and the pain of ten thousand arrows pierced my heart, and the pain went deep into the bone marrow.

Sudden blindness is very different from being blind since childhood, the former has never seen the light, so there is no so-called unaccustomed, but a person who falls from the light into the darkness in an instant, the fear is difficult to describe.

Many things that could have been done easily, Jin Yebai can't do them now, even the easiest way to get up and dress, he doesn't know where to start first.

"You sit here, I'll go get you clothes. I wiped my tears, got up and went to the closet to find the clothes he was going to wear today, and then took off his pajamas to help him change them.

Before, his eyesight was not very good, but at least he could see, but now, if he is not by his side all the time, it will be very dangerous, and he may hit or even fall at any time.

After changing his clothes, I originally wanted to help him out, but he held my hand with his backhand and smiled lightly, "Meng Lu, it's good for you to lead me away, I still remember the layout of the home environment." ”

"Good. I led him out of the bedroom, and at a glance I saw my father-in-law sitting on the sofa in the living room reading the newspaper, and there was a noise in the kitchen, presumably my mother-in-law was making breakfast in it.

Seeing us come out, my father-in-law didn't care, since Jin Yebai and I moved in, we would often hold hands even at home, and they were no longer surprised.

I said hello to him, "Dad, good morning." This is actually a reminder to Jin Yebai that his father is in the living room.

Jin Yebai immediately shouted, and after my father-in-law answered, I led him to the bathroom, took him to the wash basin, squeezed the toothpaste, filled it with water, and handed it to him to brush his teeth.

Everyone is an individual, even if he has the heart, many things cannot be replaced, and all I can do now is to do my best to help him adapt to the world where only darkness remains.

Moreover, even if there are some things that I can help him do, I can't do them, which will hurt his self-esteem and make him feel that he is a useless person, and it will only drag people down.

He's always been so strong, so I have to be careful in whatever I do, maintaining his last bit of pride and self-esteem.

Obviously, his hands-on ability is not as good as a three-year-old child, but I definitely can't treat him like a child, brush his teeth and wash his face.

After he finished brushing his teeth, I took his water cup and toothbrush, washed them and put them back in their original positions, then took a towel and soaked it and wrung it out, and handed it to him, watching him carefully wipe his face clean.

"I'll take you to the living room to sit down for a while, talk to Dad, and then come out to accompany you after I wash up." I washed the towel and hung it aside, led him out of the bathroom, and walked to the sofa in the living room.

When he got to the couch, he immediately reached out and groped to sit down, and my father looked up from the newspaper and opened his mouth slightly, but he didn't speak, just looked at me.

I knew what he wanted to ask, about Jin Yebai's blindness, they knew before me, and they knew better than me, so I didn't need him to ask, I nodded silently.

"Night White ......" father-in-law's voice was a little hoarse, even if you didn't look at his expression, you could clearly hear that he was sad now.

"Dad, I'm fine, don't be sad, this day is also expected. Jin Yebai followed the sound and looked over, his black and white eyes widened, but he couldn't see the light anymore.

I sniffed and pretended to be calm and said to the public: "Dad, you talk with him for a while, I'll go wash up first, and I'll be out soon." ”

"There you go. The father-in-law got up and moved his position and sat beside Jin Yebai.

I looked back at Jin Yebai step by step, and heard him calmly start chatting with my father-in-law, so I hurriedly went into the bathroom.

He doesn't seem to be sad at all now, but I know how much pain he is going through and how much he is suffering, and he just doesn't want us to worry about him.

When I came out of the bathroom, there was freshly made breakfast on the dining table, and my mother-in-law was already in the living room, and I walked over and saw that her eyes were red, obviously she had just cried, but I couldn't find the words to comfort her.

Words are too pale and powerless to be of any use at such times, and I would be considered stupid.

My father-in-law still had to go to work, so he hurriedly ate breakfast and went out, and before leaving, he took a deep look at Jin Yebai and let out a long sigh.

My mother-in-law gave me a bowl of porridge with preserved eggs and lean pork, and after I took it, I took a spoon and was about to feed Jin Yebai first, but he insisted on drinking it himself, so I asked me to hand the bowl to him.

There was not much left of his self-esteem, and I had no right to take it away, so I gave him the bowl as he wished, and sat down with tears in my eyes as he drank the porridge clumsily.

If he can't see me, he can no longer kiss my eyes as softly as before, kiss away the tears in my eyes, and I can cry uncontrollably without him knowing, as long as I don't say anything.

"Meng Lu, you can also go to breakfast, our baby is hungry. He said as he lowered his head and drank his porridge.

"Don't worry, I'll wait for you to finish eating. "The porridge is still a little hot, and I'm afraid that he will accidentally get it and burn himself.

He suddenly dropped the spoon and asked me in a cold voice, "Isn't it ugly to look like this now?"

"No, you're still the same as before, you haven't changed at all. His face had not changed, but his movements had changed, so stiff and clumsy.

"In that case, what are you worried about?" he pursed his thin lips slightly, pulling a familiar smile, "You go to breakfast first, I have something to tell you after eating." ”

It happened that the mother-in-law had finished eating, so she came over and sat down on the sofa, "Meng Lu, there is me here, you go and eat quickly, or it should be cold." ”

My mother-in-law used to eat very slowly, and her principle was to chew and swallow slowly, but today she is as fast as a storm, and the reason for this can be understood without asking.

I also ate quickly, faster than Jin Yebai, and then I changed with my mother-in-law, she went to clean up the table, and I watched Jin Yebai from the side.

A small bowl of rice porridge, Jin Yebai ate it for more than half an hour, the more I looked at it next to me, the more sad I became, and I wanted to go over and take his spoon to feed him several times, but I finally held back.

After breakfast we went back to the bedroom, it was he who said it, he had something to say to me. But his so-called words were to explain some aftermath, and I couldn't stop crying when I heard it.

"Meng Lu, are you crying again?" he said as he suddenly changed his words, "I'm sorry I can't wipe your tears in the future, so please don't shed tears for me anymore, okay?"

I grabbed his hand and put it on my face, "No, you're okay, as long as you want." ”

He gently and carefully stroked my face, "But I still hope that you can not cry, your tears flow out of your eyes, but in the end it is my heart that flows." ”

I was teary-eyed, biting my lip and unable to speak, my heart ached, and it hurt so much that even breathing became a luxury.

He flipped his wrist, grabbed my hand, slowly pressed it to his heart, and said sadly, "If you cry, I will be in a lot of pain here." ”

The "little white ......" threw herself into his arms, and I burst into tears.

This is the first day after he lost his sight, we were under huge psychological pressure, life is worse than death, and he has been calm, trying to tell us with his actions that even if he is blind, he is fine.

Less than a week later, I was woken up one night by him while I was sleeping soundly.

"Meng Lu, help me to the bathroom. In a daze, I heard his urgent request.

I opened my eyes and saw the bedroom under the cover of night, and before dawn, I quickly turned on the lamp on the bedside table.

He was on the bed, his face was pale and horrible, the cold sweat on his forehead was dripping, and even his body was trembling uncontrollably, and his hands were still on my body.

It's not the first time I've seen this situation, and I know what he wants to do.

With a shock in my heart, I quickly helped him out of bed, and I didn't even care about putting on my shoes, so I stumbled and took him to the toilet in the bathroom.

He held me in one hand and the wall in the other, and vomited so much that he was choking and coughing, and each sound hit my heart deeply.

I cried on the side, patted him lightly on the back, my hands trembled more than his body, he hooked his waist, and his figure was no longer as tall as it used to be.

He vomited for a long time, he didn't eat anything, and what he spit out was basically bitter water, I was afraid that he would be dehydrated, so I wanted to quickly help him into the bedroom and pour water for him, but he fell down before he reached the bedroom.

I couldn't take care of him alone, so I had to wake up my parents, call an ambulance, and take him to the hospital together.

This night became our last night at home.

After arriving at the hospital, he had a high fever and couldn't wake up, Song Qingya said that his condition was very bad, and the remaining time might be less than expected.

Do you believe in miracles?

I had been waiting for a miracle to happen, but reality cruelly told me that miracles are not something that can be believed.

The child's due date was still about a month away, but he became like this, so I secretly went to the doctor again and asked the doctor to help me give birth to the child quickly.

The doctor knew my situation and wanted to help me, but my baby was less than a month old, and it would be detrimental to the child's health if I gave birth too early.

The development of various organs of premature infants is not sound enough, the smaller the gestational age at birth, the lower the weight, the worse the prognosis, even if they are born, they may not be able to survive, let alone ensure healthy growth.

It's not that I don't know the danger of my premature baby, but Jin Yebai really can't hold on anymore, and he can't wait for his child to be born.

Not only me, but also my parents-in-law, Song Qingya and others are also looking forward to Jin Yebai being able to wait until the child is born, although his eyes can't see, but his ears can still hear the child's cry, as long as he is awake.

But when I heard the doctor say this, for the sake of the child's future, they didn't want me to induce labor, and everyone was in a dilemma.

In the end, Song Qingya said: "Forget it, everything is left to fate, I will arrange chemotherapy for him first, so that he can last for a while, I hope I can catch up." ”

Chemotherapy could have been done a long time ago, but Jin Yebai himself was unwilling, because chemotherapy was not only expensive, but also could not achieve a complete cure, and he didn't want to waste that money.

He said: "Dead horses are treated as live horse doctors, it is better to leave the money to your parents for the elderly, for you and your children, I don't want to toss anymore, there is nothing wrong with this, I leave early, everyone will relax early." ”

After being admitted to the hospital, he fell asleep for five days and only woke up after Song Qingya arranged chemotherapy for him, and then as long as he was awake, he would not cooperate with the treatment.

He doesn't want to drag us down anymore, he just wants to leave quickly, his actions are cruel, but we can't blame him, we can only feel heartache for him.

These days, he has been under much greater psychological pressure than we are, he is such a good and strong person, but now he can't even take care of himself, what else can he do except lie in bed and wait for death?

Death is the real relief for him, and at his request, Song Qingya stopped his chemotherapy, and I completely gave up waiting for a miracle.

Today I am glad that he is awake and that I am by his side as usual.

He struggled to get up, leaned on the bed weakly, gently stroked my stomach with both hands, and was so weak that he couldn't even speak, "Meng Lu, I'm sorry, it's not that I don't want to live and wait for the child to be born, I'm so tired these days, I really can't hold on, please forgive me with the child for being a timid and cowardly person, I'm so tired......"

I reached out and put my arm around his waist and asked him to rest his head on my shoulder, just like I used to lean on his shoulder, I looked at him with tears streaming down my face, "I understand you, you are not a cowardly person, you are a real man, stand up to the sky!"

A smile crossed his pale face, and then he opened his black and white eyes that were clear but unfocused, and said, "Promise me, don't do anything to hurt the child, otherwise I won't be at ease when I die." ”

"I ...... You know it all. "No one has mentioned in front of him that I am going to induce labor, but with his ingenuity, this kind of thing can be easily guessed.

"I want our children to have a normal birth and then they can grow up healthy and healthy. He withdrew his hand, "Let me hear what the kid is doing, I heard he is going to kick you now." ”

"Good. I moved a little so that his head rested on my abdomen, and then gently rubbed his head, tears falling down his hair.

"He's very active, he must be a very energetic little guy. He chuckled softly, but only laughed before falling silent.

"Little white ......," I whispered, but I didn't hear his answer.

It didn't take even an hour to wake up, and he fell into a coma again, knowing that it wouldn't help, I still hurriedly found Song Qingya.

"Qingya, tell me honestly, how many days do you have left?" I asked her, wiping my red and swollen eyes.

"It's just a matter of the past few days, you should be mentally prepared, I have done my best. Song Qingya's eyes are also red, every time she walks into the ward, she is like this.

"Okay, I got it. "When I got the result, I was much calmer than expected, as Jin Yebai said, no matter what happens, you must be calm and think twice, even in the face of death.

It's been two weeks since he left home that night, and during that time he spent less awake and more time unconscious, and I knew what was going to happen.

My parents-in-law would come to the hospital every day to see him, in fact, they didn't want to stay by his side, just because I was there, they didn't stay, and they wanted to leave time for me, even if I could only look at him and not hear any words.

It was already the last moment, and I wanted to tell Lu Zhenting about him, but he explained to me when he was awake, and asked me to directly notify them to come to the funeral at that time, and not to say anything else.

In fact, I understand what he thinks in his heart, now Li Sisi is also pregnant and is waiting to give birth at home, and the company is only left with Lu Zhenting to take care of it alone, which is very hard, if you know his situation, there will be pressure.

It was in order not to let them know, so as early as a few months ago, we deliberately staggered the time of the prenatal examination with Li Sisi, and Li Sisi was still a little angry about this, and I said a lot of good things to calm her anger.

Jin Yebai always thinks about others first in everything, but such a person is about to pass away, is this the so-called good people do not live long, and the scourge will last for thousands of years?

If this is the case, then why didn't Meng Shuweijie, Liu Weiqiang, and Zhou Mingchuan end up with people who did bad things? Are they also good people?

What a good person has a safe life, all are liars, they are liars!

In the following week, Jin Yebai was awake for less than an hour, and he fell asleep like that all the time, his face was bloodless, as if he would never wake up again.

It wasn't until that evening, when the setting sun shone obliquely into the ward, that I wiped his face with a wet towel, and he suddenly opened his eyes and reached out to grab my hand that was still holding the towel accurately.

"Meng Lu......" he muttered to me, "is that you?"

"It's me, you're finally awake. I hurriedly took the towel away with my other hand and set it aside, then sat down on the edge of the bed, holding his hand tightly.

"Help me up and let me touch your belly. His other hand began to grope for me.

As soon as he woke up, he wanted to touch my belly, not because he wanted to feel the presence of the child, but because he was afraid that I had already given birth to the child, and he was still so uneasy.

I let go of his hand and carefully lifted him up, shoved two pillows behind his back for him to lean on, and then grabbed his hand and placed it on my high bulging lower abdomen.

"I'm glad it's still there!" he murmured, confirming what I had thought.

"I will not break my promise to you. "I don't have a chance to promise him anything more, and if this one request can't satisfy him, then what right do I have to say that I love him?

His complexion looked much better than before, and I was overjoyed in my heart, and immediately notified Song Qingya, and she quickly came over to check on him.

"Your condition seems to be getting better. She said to Jin Yebai with a smile.

Is this the miracle I've been waiting for?

I sat stunned, so excited that I couldn't even speak.

Song Qingya then added, "As long as you can keep it up, you will get better sooner or later." ”

Jin Yebai didn't speak, just opened his eyes and smiled, he probably thought that Song Qingya was lying to him, and said something nice to comfort him.

Although I had already given up waiting for a miracle, this news still ignited my hope, but seeing Jin Yebai's expression, I still followed Song Qingya out when she left the ward.

"Is what you just said true?" I wish he had given me an affirmative answer.

What flashed in her eyes was not joy, but sadness, "I'll go and call my aunt, you hurry up and go in to accompany him, this is the last time." ”

"Then what did you ...... just now" Okay, I understand, she is indeed lying to Jin Yebai.

"While he is still in good spirits now, if you have anything to say, just tell him quickly. Song Qingya said as she took out her mobile phone.

No wonder Jin Yebai looked pretty good just now, it turned out that he was just returning to the light, that is, he would soon leave me forever.

My heart sank, and I quickly turned around and went back to the hospital room and sat down on the edge of his bed.

"Meng Lu, don't be sad, everyone will have this day, I just got a little earlier than most people. He fumbled for my hand, and I quickly reached out.

He has already guessed everything, what else do I have to say, coax him like Song Qingya, I can't do it.

"If you meet a good man in the future, you must grasp it, your life is still very long, don't carry too much for a dead man, then I won't be at ease below. He squeezed my hand.

Tears flowed silently, and I bit my lip and couldn't speak.

"Mom and Dad will ask you to take care of it, as well as Jing'an and Jin Yi, please bother more. He continued, "You still don't have to go back to work in the future, although I don't have much money left, but as long as the company is still there, your life will still be guaranteed." ”

Is this arranging the aftermath?

I couldn't cry, knowing that he couldn't see, but I still nodded desperately.

"Qingya called her parents, right?" His body leaned to the side weakly, he couldn't sit still, he looked very anxious, he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to wait for his parents-in-law to arrive.

"Hit, they'll be over soon, you hold on a little longer. I helped him to lie down, and I held his hand tightly and did not let go, as if I was going to crush his bones.

If I could, I would rather rub his whole person into my bones, embed it in my soul, and seep into my flesh and blood, so that we can be one husband and wife from now on, and even death cannot separate us.

"Meng Lu doesn't cry, I've seen too many tears in my life, I can't afford it, and I can't bear it. His voice grew lower and lower, and it took a lot of effort to say every word.

"You don't owe anyone, there's nothing to pay back. "If there is a real debt, it is also what I owe him, and I owe him a ten-year love.

"Heh......" He chuckled and didn't speak again, as if he was tired, and slowly closed his eyes.

The father-in-law and mother-in-law haven't come yet, he's leaving, why is it so fast?

"Little white...... You can't sleep, wake up, Mom and Dad are coming. I shook him, but I didn't dare to push too hard.

"I'm so sleepy, so tired, you let me sleep for a while, just a while, and when my parents come, you can wake me up, or just leave quietly, so that they don't feel more sad. His eyes closed slightly, and he finished his sentence intermittently.

There's no time, I'm not waiting!

Reaching out and helping him up, I took him in my arms, although it was not convenient because of the large belly of pregnancy, but I must let him die in my arms anyway.

"It's so warm...... he muttered, "Meng Lu, I'm sorry, I love you......"

The room fell into a deathly silence, and my tears fell down my cheeks, all on his body, and he didn't know it.

Because, he is dead, and he is gone completely.

I don't know how long I held him like this, there were urgent footsteps outside the ward, and then the door was opened, and Song Qingya and Ling Xi led their father-in-law and mother-in-law in.

I looked up at them, "You're late, he's gone." ”

He left, after all, he still didn't wait for his parents and relatives.

The mother-in-law fainted on the spot due to excessive grief and was supported by Song Qingya and Ling Xi.

My father-in-law walked towards us with heavy steps, and said softly with grief, "Yebai, Dad is here to take you home!"

I looked at him through the hazy tears, and I felt that he had suddenly aged a lot, and even the gray hair on his head looked very conspicuous.

He pulled out the infusion tube from Jin Yebai's hand, hugged the person from my arms, and said softly, "Child, let's go home." ”

The mother-in-law had been taken away by Qingya, and only Ling Xi stood aside in a daze, opening her mouth and not speaking.

What else can I say at this time, the festival mourns and changes?

Easier said than done, who wants to listen to that?

My father-in-law walked out step by step with Jin Yebai in his arms, and I followed him and saw a mountain standing in a trance.

Father's love is like a mountain, standing tall, and mother's love is like water, trickling endlessly.

The mother-in-law hasn't woken up yet, Qingya stayed in the hospital to take care of her, let's take Jin Yebai back first.

Ling Xi drove us home, I hugged Jin Yebai's gradually cold body in the back and wept silently, and my father-in-law sat in the passenger seat and looked back at us all the time.

Even if you are psychologically prepared, but when it comes to this moment, you will still be uncontrollable, this is human nature.

After returning home, Ling Xi did not leave, he asked for leave from the hospital to help take care of Jin Yebai's funeral.

We helped Jin Yebai take a bath and change clothes, and then Ling Xi carried him to our bedroom, and I hugged him tightly for the last time that night.

His body was cold, and I tried to warm him with my own body heat, but in the end I only let my tears flow more violently.

After a sleepless night, I spent the last night of our lives in bed with him.

My mother-in-law woke up the next day and was accompanied by Song Qingya, her face was bloodless, and the whole person was like a walking corpse, sitting in our bedroom and refusing to leave.

The funeral was held the next day, and the cemetery had been chosen before his death, all according to his own wishes.

I called Lu Zhenting and informed him to come to the funeral, and he asked me, "Whose funeral?"

"Jin Yebai!" When I said this name, my heart was like a thousand cuts, but there were no tears in my eyes.

Hold back your tears

I want to hold back my tears

Look at the sky and don't let the tears flow

Look up into the depths of the clouds

Wait for that sunrise

Put the story to an end

There was silence on the other end of the phone, and I took a deep breath, "Remember to come tomorrow, I'll hang up first." ”

If I go on, he will definitely ask me why, but I am not in the mood to explain now, and one day they will find out, and there is no hurry for a while.

On the day of the funeral, Lu Zhenting came with Li Sisi, and they comforted me softly, as if they already knew something, after all, there were still people who came to attend the funeral.

Now that everyone is gone, there is no need to hide anything for him, just know it, anyway, sooner or later I have to tell them the truth.

"Meng Lu ......" Li Sisi took my hand, "Don't be too sad, he will be distressed, don't let him even walk so uneasy." ”

I nodded silently, "I know what to do, thank you for coming to see him off for the last time." ”

"You should have told us sooner. Lu Zhenting sighed sadly, "I haven't seen him for a long time." ”

"Don't you understand his thoughts?" I smiled wryly, "If he is willing to make you sad, how can I bear to keep it from you?"

Lu Zhenting didn't speak again, how could he not know Jin Yebai's temper if he had been friends with Jin Yebai for so many years, let alone come to blame me at this time!

After the funeral, our family has been shrouded in an atmosphere of sadness and silence, and we can see Jin Yebai's shadow everywhere, but we can't see his people, and my heart is so broken that I want to die.

Every night, I lay on the bed where I used to sleep with him every night, curled up in a ball and hugged myself tightly, thinking about his voice and smile, as if he was hugging me.

This kind of loneliness that hurts to death is something that can never be experienced before, and there is an essential difference between complete loss and temporary parting.

My mother-in-law fell ill and lay in bed every day, refusing to persuade her to go to the hospital, saying that there was no cure for her illness.

Heart disease must eventually be treated with heart medicine, and the bell must be tied to the bell.

Whether it is the heart medicine or the bell solution, it is Jin Yebai, or ...... The continuation of his life, that is, our child, Jin Yi.

The child was born almost a month after Jin Yebai left, and it was a baby boy, who was chubby and healthy.

Although his birth did not completely sweep away the gloom of sadness over our family, it also eased a lot, at least my mother-in-law would have gotten up because she had to take care of me and my newborn child in confinement.

After the confinement, I took the child to the cemetery, and the tombstone was embedded with a photo of Jin Yebai, and he was still so charming with a gentle smile in the photo.

"Xiaobai, I brought our child to see you, did you see it?" In another world, he should be a normal person, he can eat, sleep and see.

The breeze blew and ruffled my hair, and the flowers in front of his grave swayed.

I stood in front of the grave with my child in my arms for a long, long time......

Ten years later, Jin Yebai's death day.

"Dad, I'm here to see you, are you happy?" Jin Yi hugged the flowers and gently put them down in front of his grave.

He was very healthy and obedient, and when he was young, he would often ask me for my father, but now that he is about to turn ten years old, he has grown into a little man.

Now not only will he not clamo for my father, but he will also take the initiative to wipe my tears, saying that he will love me and take care of me well instead of my father, from his temper to his appearance, he is very much like a person in the tomb.

"Dad, I've come to see you too. Shu Jing'an lit three sticks of incense and planted them in front of his grave.

In the third month after Jin Yebai left, I officially adopted Shu Jing'an.

She looks a lot like Meng Shuwei, beautiful and jealous, but her temper is much better than her mother's, although she is occasionally a little willful, but she is still a good child after all.

"Xiaobai, you see, we are now also both children and daughters, and we have made up a good word. I looked at his picture on the tombstone with tears in my eyes and smiled hard.

Ten years of life and death

Don't think about it

Unforgettable

Thousands of miles of lonely graves

There is nowhere to talk about desolation

In the past ten years, whether it was windy, rainy, frosty, snowy, or sunny, I would come to see him on Saturday afternoons, talk to him for a long time, and only bring my children with him on the day of his death.

My father-in-law and mother-in-law are old, and it is raining again today, so I didn't let them come, as for Lu Zhenting and Li Sisi, as well as Song Qingya and Ling Xi, they must already be on the way.

A few of us, none of whom will miss this day.

Sure enough, not long after, Song Qingya and Ling Xi came over with their son and beckoned to me from afar.

"Quickly kowtow to my uncle. As soon as Song Qingya came, she ordered her son.

The little guy knelt down reluctantly, kowtowed respectfully three times, put on three sticks of incense, and then got up and went to the side to play with Qin Yi and them.

Whenever this happens, I envy children, they don't understand what yin and yang separate, and they don't understand what it's like to miss deep into the bone marrow.

When Li Sisi and Lu Zhenting came over, Song Qingya and Ling Xi had already left.

Back then, I was pregnant around the same time as Li Sisi, and then I gave birth to a son, and she gave birth to a daughter, but the so-called marriage is really just a joke.

Because they are all only children, now that the policy has been relaxed, they have successfully given birth to a second child, a big fat boy, speaking of which she is really much happier than me, with both children and a harmonious husband and wife.

Although I have children, I don't have a husband, I have two children, I have to take care of two old people, and my own parents in the elderly apartment, I am so tired, but I don't regret marrying Jin Yebai.

"Meng Lu, you have to take care of the company and take care of so many old people and children, have you ever thought about finding another person to share with you?" Li Sisi asked me.

"No need, no matter how hard it is now, it can't compare to facing death with him at the beginning, I even survived that, what else can't bear it?" I smiled and looked at Jin Yebai's photo, "Thank you, let me learn to be strong." ”

In the past ten years, I have met a lot of good men, but in the end they were all rejected, whether it is love or marriage, there is only one Jin Yebai in my world.

Do you believe in miracles?

I don't believe it!

But I believe that one day, someone will put my ashes in his grave so that we can meet in another world and never be separated again!