Jin Yebai's words were faint, "Birth, old age, sickness and death are natural laws, and life and death are also human nature, why should you be obsessed, the so-called banquet that is inseparable in the world, everything depends on the point." ”

I was angry and complained, "I can't see it, you see what has happened in the past year, I basically haven't encountered a single good thing, and I finally made up a pair, and it turned out like this." ”

He still didn't change his face, like an old monk calmly, "Buddhism has clouds, gathering is fate and dispersing is separation, gathering and scattering is fate, where does it come from without separation? So every parting is just for the next reunion, if you think about it like this, your heart may be better." ”

"Then when will we meet next time? a month, a year, or ten years?" I felt faintly uneasy, as if I was not facing a life and separation that still had a chance to get together, but an irretrievable death.

Jin Yebai smiled gently, "It won't be long, I'll be back in a few months." ”

"Then can you give me an exact time?" I don't want this kind of ambiguous answer, I want to know the specific time, and there is hope for living like that.

Jin Yebai continued to drink, "The world is impermanent, and plans can never catch up with changes, I can't give you this exact time, but I promise you that I will definitely contact you when I come back." ”

I don't remember how many glasses he drank, so I quickly got up and grabbed the wine glass in his hand and reminded him, "Qingya doesn't let you drink, aren't you afraid to kneel on the washboard when you drink so much?"

"She wouldn't know. Jin Yebai snatched the wine glass back with a smile and drank it all, "Meng Lu, do you care so much about her because you are afraid of her? In front of you, she always looks fierce." ”

Am I afraid of Song Qingya?

Of course not, I just felt guilty about her because I fell in love with her man, and I was ashamed of myself in front of her, who could be called white and rich.

The ugly duckling should bow his head in front of the white swan, otherwise he is incapable of self-knowledge, and I am the poor ugly duckling, and Song Qingya is the noble white swan.

"Who said that I'm not afraid of her, I think it's right that you're afraid of her, the daughter-in-law has to be strict with her wife before she officially marries the door, and you will be comfortable in the future!" I sat down angrily, grabbed my wine glass and poured wine into it.

Jin Yebai laughed rarely, revealing two rows of neat white teeth, and his eyes were a little misty, "You still look so cute when you're angry, just like when you were in high school." ”

I have nothing to do and improve the things, those are all old sesame seeds and rotten grain, now I think about it, in addition to increasing my troubles, feeling that time is like an arrow, and the years are not forgiving, what is the value at all?

I obviously felt worthless in my heart, but I couldn't stop, so I chirped and started talking about his high school days along his topic, and I couldn't stop talking about it as soon as the conversation box opened.

People behave differently when they are drunk, some people catch whom, scold whom, and even beat people, and there have been many scenes of drunk and beating wives in the movie.

And some people turned into chatter in an instant, and Balabala didn't stop talking, just like Li Muchi last time, and some slept with their heads covered, like Jin Yebai's time.

I think I'm drunk, and I'm still with Li Muchi, so I can't stop at all, I just want to keep talking and talking, and I don't need to go through my face and brain when I say it.

But I'm not very drunk, I can still see it clearly, there is only one Jin Yebai in front of me, there is no shadow in pairs, he is still drinking, his blurry eyes, handsome face.

Thinking that it would be difficult to see this face in the future, I panicked in pain, and I reached out to get the wine, but before I stretched out my hand, I was caught by Jin Yebai, "You're drunk, don't drink anymore, let's go back." ”

I nodded, withdrawing my hand, "Well, let's go then." ”

I paid the bill and walked outside, and as soon as the night breeze blew I was much more sober, he stopped the car, told the driver the address of my new apartment, and sat in the back seat with me.

I was a little dizzy, I could still stay awake at first, staring blankly at the night outside the car window, but it didn't take long for me to hold on, and I fell asleep in a daze, and then I was woken up by Jin Yebai at the door of the apartment.

I got out of the car with half-squinted eyes, and I wanted him not to get out of the car, so I went up by myself, but he not only got out of the car, but also asked the driver to drive the car away and come over to help me staggering.

"You go back first, I'm already here. I pushed him away, not wanting to covet any more of his warmth and care.

"It's still early, I'd better send you upstairs first, what should you do if you fall down like this?" he grabbed my arm and dragged him towards the apartment.

I took the keys out of my bag and gave them to him, pulling his arm as a support, and almost hanging the whole person on him, so sleepy that I couldn't open my eyes.

This time I live on the seventh floor, there is an elevator to go directly, but there is still an iron door on the first floor, he has been here once before, opened the door and found the elevator and pulled me in.

"Jin Yebai, you are so good-looking. "I started to be cheap again, looking up at him with my head up.

Wine is really a good thing, and it can make people say something that they don't dare to say on weekdays, but can only be quietly hidden in their hearts, which may be what people often say after drinking and spitting out the truth.

But my consciousness has not completely dissipated, I know that he is about to get married, so after I said the previous sentence, I added without waiting for him to speak, "Qingya is so lucky to be with you, I wish you all a long life, children and grandchildren." ”

He didn't speak, just looked at me fixedly, I was blinded by the alcohol, I couldn't really see his expression, and vaguely felt that he seemed to be a little sad and a little helpless.

The seventh floor was soon there, I lived at the end of the corridor, there was still a short distance to go, but as soon as I stepped out of the elevator, I was picked up by Jin Yebai and slowly walked to my residence.

I put my arms around his neck and leaned into his arms, feeling his temperature, breathing the air with his breath, I really wanted to never let go for the rest of my life, but no matter how long the road was, there was an end, and he quickly stopped in front of the door and put me down.

He held me in one hand and the key in the other to open the door, and told me, "You hold on, be careful not to fall." ”

As long as he doesn't let go, how can I fall?

I laughed, pretending to have no heart and lungs, but in fact it hurt my heart and my liver and intestines were broken.

When he opened the door, he picked me up, closed the door with a hook of his hind foot, and carried me to the bedroom.

I nestled in his arms, looked up at him, and for a moment I wanted to be sorry for Song Qingya again, because I wanted to give him a child, a child that only belonged to me.

I can very well understand the feeling of Li Sisi and Lu Zhenting after they separated, they are obviously in love but they can't be together, and their hearts are stuffed with one person, so they can no longer fit into other people.

So after their accident, I also figured it out, I didn't want to find another man, and I was ready to live this life of disasters and hardships quietly with the painful thoughts of my beloved.

If I could have a child of my own, I would be able to live a little more fully even without a man, and now that I have a stake in the company, I don't have to worry about not being able to raise a child alone.

It's just that giving birth to a child can't be slapped in the face, it's not something I want, I believe that Jin Yebai will never agree to do such a ridiculous thing with me.

When I got to the bedroom, he put me on the bed, pulled the quilt over me, and sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me quietly.

"Meng Lu, I'll leave the day after tomorrow. He said.

"Well, I'm here waiting for you to come back. I said.

Then we had nothing to say, and the silence for a long time made my eyelids fight, and I thought I should sleep, but I was reluctant.

I knew that this time it would be like the night of Zhou Mingchuan's wedding, he was by my side when I closed my eyes, but when I opened my eyes again, he was nowhere to be found, and I was afraid of this kind of separation without saying goodbye.

When they looked at each other, he suddenly leaned down and covered his warm lips, I didn't feel the sweetness of the kiss, and all I thought about was a classic old song: kiss goodbye.

After the divorce, I gave Zhou Mingchuan a kiss goodbye, and at this moment, Jin Yebai, who is about to get married, also gave me a kiss goodbye, drawing an end to my love and incomparable feelings!

If when I was pregnant in the car, when I was kissed by Jin Yebai, I thought that kissing him would be addictive, then what I thought of this time was that I would rather indulge in this desperate kiss to death.

I really don't want to let go of him at all now, because once I let go, there will be no such opportunity, no, after he marries Song Qingya, I must not have any excessive contact with him!

In the end, he let go of me, his warm lips slowly left, and his hand was withdrawn from me, standing straight in front of me, "Meng Lu, you have to be good in the future, you have to live happier than me, so that I can leave with confidence." ”

I reached out to grab him, but he turned around and strode out, leaving only a long back for me, and I scrambled to my feet, stumbling out, and hugging him from behind.

"Xiaobai, don't go, okay?" I knew it was impossible, but I was still begging him to stay like a dream.

He broke the fingers that I wrapped around his waist one by one, and didn't look back, just said, "I'm sorry, I can't give you a future, forget about me in the future." ”

After saying that, he resolutely left.

Jin Yebai left, not only leaving my apartment, but also about to leave the country, and I didn't ask him where he went, because he never looked back at me.

I leaned against the door frame and watched him leave, and I didn't go back until his figure disappeared at the elevator entrance, just looking at the direction he left, stupidly, like a sculpture.

After a long time, until my legs were numb, I closed the door and went back to the bedroom, fell asleep with the help of alcohol, and slept until noon the next day, still woken up by the phone.

I felt like I was going to die, my whole body was so hot that I felt like I was being tied up in a fire and burning, and it hurt everywhere in my body, especially my head, which almost exploded.

But the place that hurt the most was not here, but the place called the heart, and I knew why it hurt so much, because someone had dug up the people who lived in it with a knife, and my heart kept bleeding.

The call was from Lu Zhenting, he asked me what happened, why I didn't go to the company and didn't say hello, hearing his voice, I felt like I had seen a relative, and I cried out.

Lu Zhenting immediately became anxious, and while persuading me not to cry, he asked me what happened.

"I'm going to die. I cried.

"What nonsense are you talking about, you were fine yesterday, but you are going to die today, how can there be such a thing?" Lu Zhenting said in disbelief, and then asked me again, "Where are you, I'll come over immediately." ”

"At home. "I feed the whole family and don't go hungry, and wherever I live, my home is naturally my home.

"You wait for me, I'll come right over, don't do anything stupid. Lu Zhenting said as he walked, and I heard eager footsteps.

The phone hung up quickly, I hugged the quilt and cried to death, even when I knew that Zhou Mingchuan and Meng Shuwei had a child, Zhou Mingchuan wanted to strangle me, when they joined forces to bully me, and when my parents were partial to Meng Shuwei and acted to lie to me, I didn't cry like this.

Obviously, I knew that Jin Yebai didn't belong to me for a long time, and I also knew that he would leave me, so I should have been mentally prepared, but when this day really came, I still didn't control my emotions.

In the past, he was in Xiacheng anyway, and most of the time in the office, and I could often see him as soon as I looked up, but now, he is really leaving, and although he will come back, we can't go back to the past.

Thinking about the time when I didn't have a bad relationship with Zhou Mingchuan, I could ruthlessly say that I wanted to break off my friendship with him for Zhou Mingchuan, and I couldn't get along with him for a few months, or I didn't contact him for a few months without seeing him, but now that others haven't gone far, my heart is broken into slag.

I was so uncomfortable that I cried and cried and fell asleep again, and then I was woken up by the phone ringing, and it was Lu Zhenting calling.

He said that he had already arrived at the door, knocked on the door for a long time and did not respond, and I made several calls before I answered, and he was dying.

I thought I would wait for him to come and throw the key down to him, but he came up first when someone else opened the iron door below, so I quickly got up and went to open the door for him.

staggered to the back of the door, and as soon as he opened the door, he saw Lu Zhenting standing outside the door with an anxious face, still holding a mobile phone in his hand.

"What's wrong with you, are you sick?" he walked in and put his arm around my shoulder, "What happened last night?"

"It's nothing, he sent me back and left. "I was dizzy for a while, and as soon as I finished speaking, my eyes turned black, and I collapsed softly in Lu Zhenting's arms.

I don't know what happened next, but I just know that when I woke up, it was already night, and before I opened my eyes, I smelled the smell of the hospital, just like when I had a miscarriage last time.

But when I opened my eyes at that time, it was Jin Yebai who opened my eyes, but this time I saw Lu Zhenting, he was sitting on the chair in a daze, I think he should be thinking about Li Sisi again.

I don't have any major problems, but I have a little fever, and I haven't gone away when I wake up, which is called a house leak that rains overnight, and good things don't come to the door, and bad things come to me.

I got up, leaned lazily against the bed and didn't speak, my eyes glued to the door.

Lu Zhenting got up and poured me a glass of water, "Everything is already doomed, don't think about it anymore, if you really love Yebai, bless him." ”

"Do you know where he's going?" I asked, with a hint of anticipation.

"I don't know, he didn't tell me anything. Lu Zhenting was sluggish, "You've slept all day, are you hungry, I'll buy you something to eat." ”

I shook my head, "I don't want to eat it." ”

Vaguely, I felt that Lu Zhenting's expression was a little strange, and when I looked at the time, it was already more than ten o'clock in the evening, and I suddenly had a very bad premonition.

Li Sisi likes to call me in the evening, usually between eight or nine o'clock, if he calls me tonight......

I hurriedly asked Lu Zhenting, "Did you bring my phone?"

Lu Zhenting's expression was faint, "On the bedside table." ”

I hurriedly took it over, checked the call record, and when it was over, Li Sisi not only called, but also talked for a few minutes, except for Lu Zhenting, who else would answer?

"You...... Have you talked to her?" I gasped.

"Well, she's worried about you, so call her back if she feels better. Lu Zhenting said and stood up and went out.

I immediately called Li Sisi, and she answered quickly, "Hey, Meng Lu, is that you?"

"I'm sorry!" I apologized to her, "I fell asleep, I didn't know he was going to take my phone, and I didn't expect your call to be answered by him." ”

"It's okay, I'm not to blame you for this. Li Sisi's tone was sad, "Are you feeling better? I am from here, and I know that the first days were a little difficult, but I slowly got used to it." ”

"Then you and him ...... later" I stopped talking, not knowing how to ask.

"I'm not going to contact him. "It's cruel that I can't just ignore him when he's in the most difficult time and come back and bother him when he's better." ”

"Siss, why is our life so miserable?" "Isn't it a great sorrow in life that a lover can't end up married?"

Li Sisi snorted twice, "Because we are all outcasts of God, he pinched us round and flattened us, and threw it away when we were tired, leaving us to fend for ourselves and dig our own graves." ”

I talked to Li Sisi for a long time that night, but none of us cried, maybe the tears were dry, maybe the heart was dead, maybe it was to save the tears for later.

In the days that followed, Lu Zhenting and I were sick and sympathetic, and gradually there were more and more topics between the two, and as time went by, we would go out to lunch together and say goodbye to the days of ordering takeout.

I thought that such days were peaceful enough, but once Lu Zhenting didn't come, I went to the bathroom, and when I came back, I just walked to the door of the company, and I was about to push the door in, and I heard Zhang Yi and He Xue talking about me and Lu Zhenting.