Li Sisi lowered his head and didn't look at me, "It's nothing, just remembering some of the past." ”

"I still miss him. I sighed, "It's really unpredictable, I didn't expect it to turn out like this." ”

"Actually, I should have thought about it a long time ago, but my brain was flooded at that time, and I completely forgot that there were two elderly people at home. Li Sisi smiled bitterly, "Speaking of which, it's all my own fault, and I hurt myself and him." ”

"You really don't have a chance at all? I see that your mother is quite satisfied with Zhenting's behavior. "Lu Zhenting will be a good man, Mother Li should be able to see it.

"Yes. Li Sisi replied without thinking, but the wry smile on his face became thicker and thicker, "When my parents are a hundred years old, I will be free again, and I can go wherever I want." ”

A hundred years after her parents? Oh my God, this idea ......

I can't say that Li Sisi cursed her parents, after all, birth, old age, sickness and death cannot be avoided by anyone, everyone's end is death, I can only say that she sacrificed too much, isn't this to put the youth of this life on her parents?

By the time her parents arrived, she herself was not young, could Lu Zhenting wait for her for so long? Even if he could, what about his parents and elders, could they wait? How many people in this world don't want to have children and grandchildren?

"Si Si ......" I was in a panic, and it looked even more uncomfortable than yesterday's illness.

Li Sisi still didn't look up, but asked me in a low voice, "How is he now?" Did you help me persuade him to find another one?"

Many people think that the best way to treat emotional injuries is to start another relationship, and Li Sisi thinks the same, so every time he calls, he tells me to introduce Lu Zhenting to another person.

"Do you think I have what it takes?" I smiled more bitterly than the coffee in front of me, "his heart can only accommodate one person, and now it is occupied by you, what woman do you want me to find her to start over?"

Li Sisi immediately became anxious, "He is dead-eyed, do you really want to wait for me for decades, even if we can be together by then, I can't give him a child, what will his parents do?"

I looked at Li Sisi with hot eyes, and sighed again, "What about yourself? Aren't you the same as him? Since we can't be together, I close the door of my heart, and no one is allowed to enter, and no one inside can get out." ”

Empty wood buries flowers, empty city buries love.

My heart is an empty city, and in it the surviving are buried.

The ending of Li Sisi and Lu Zhenting overwhelmed me, I can't persuade Li Sisi to steal the household registration book to marry Lu Zhenting like I did, and I can't persuade Lu Zhenting to leave his parents and elders here.

As human beings, we all want to live for ourselves, but many times, we have to think about other people, sacrifice our own interests for others, and make painful concessions.

I sat in the café with Li Sisi all morning, and when it was close to noon, her mother called and asked when we would be home, and Li thought I was on an infusion and asked if she wanted to bring me food.

Li Sisi told her that we would go back soon, hung up the phone and paid the bill, got off halfway by car, walked back, and ate together at noon.

I didn't plan to go out again in the afternoon, I didn't sleep well last night, and I wanted to take advantage of the afternoon to rest, but I was still pulled out by Lisisi, she said that I came rarely, and I had to do the friendship of the landlord and take me around.

Each city has its own characteristics, and following Lissi, I have experienced the different lives of northern cities, but after all, I am still preconceived and prefer the hometown where I was born and raised.

Li Sisi sighed as he walked, "Alas, the last time Zhenting came over, I patronized and made trouble with my family, and I didn't have a chance to take him around, so that he could take a good look at my hometown." ”

I took her hand and looked at her sideways, her face was full of regret, for their future, she had already seen through it, and she was desperate, as for whether she would open her heart again in the future, no one could predict it for the time being, because the world is unpredictable.

Originally, she was just a chatter, but now that they have been reunited after a long absence, there are more things to say, and they haven't finished chatting in the morning, and they continue to talk in the afternoon.

When I was about to go home in the evening, I received a call from Jin Yebai, he didn't know that I had come to find Li Sisi, let alone that I had asked for leave, and asked me where I was, and he wanted to invite me to dinner at night.

Speaking of which, although we are in the same company, we haven't gone out to eat together for a long time, and since Lu Zhenting fell out of love and no longer went out at noon, lunch has all become takeout.

I told him that I was traveling abroad, and I was not in Xiacheng for the time being, he said a few words and hung up, I was a little disappointed, and there will be fewer and fewer opportunities like this in the future, but I missed it.

Li Sisi's heart is dirty with the surviving, why shouldn't I?

Jin Yebai may become my eternal surviving person, and the chances between us are much smaller than those between Li Sisi and Lu Zhenting.

I remember that Li Sisi told me last year that Jin Yebai would hold a wedding with Song Qingya on Labor Day this year, and seeing that it was not even a month, my heart couldn't help but sink more and more.

Li Sisi and I ate out in the evening, and when we got home, it was late, and her parents were still sitting on the sofa watching TV, and they greeted us warmly when they saw us back.

We were all tired after shopping all afternoon, and when I got home, I went to take a shower first, and then went into the bedroom, and while Li Sisi went to the bathroom, Li Mu came in, and I don't know what to say to me.

As soon as she came in, she asked with concern, "Are you feeling better?"

I nodded, "It's okay already, thank you for taking care of you, I'm sorry for causing you trouble." ”

Mother Li glanced at the door, a little sneaky, "Did she cry again last night, so you didn't sleep well?"

She knew that Liss cried at night?

I was stunned, "Auntie, how do you know?"

Mother Li sighed helplessly, "When Xiao Lu just left, she hid and cried every night, I was worried when I heard it, and then it slowly got better, you came yesterday, it is estimated that she has to ask you about Xiao Lu, how can she not be sad." ”

It's true that Li Sisi cried, but the reason was that she guessed wrong, she didn't ask Lu Zhenting about it at all last night, because she thought too much after seeing me.

I asked tentatively, "Since you know that she is so uncomfortable and can't let go of it, why don't you follow her? ”

Mother Li didn't answer my question, and the conversation changed, "Are you married?"

The topic changed so fast that I couldn't turn my head for a while, and I looked at her in a daze for a while before replying, "It's over, I left last year." ”

"Do you have a child, what is the reason for leaving?" Mother Li continued.

If she weren't for Li Sisi's mother, I would definitely refuse to answer these questions, how many people in this world are willing to open their wounds to others?

"There are no children, he is with my sister, and I abdicate to make way for Hyun. "Now when it comes to divorce, I'm very calm, as if I'm talking about someone else's business.

"I see. Mother Li's eyes were immediately dyed with a hint of sympathy, and this is the last thing I want to see, I don't need sympathy anymore.

I don't know what she wants to ask me, and I can't ask directly, Li Sisi's bath time is just like that, I believe she will have to get into the subject sooner or later, so I waited quietly.

She paused and immediately continued: "You must think I'm selfish, right? In order to support myself in old age, I will treat Sisi as my own private property and do such a thing as beating mandarin ducks." ”

"Auntie, don't think I'm talking ugly, as the saying goes, I'd rather demolish ten temples than destroy a marriage, I'm really distressed, Zhenting is really hard to have these days, it's just that every family has a scripture that is difficult to read, and it is difficult for Qing officials to judge family affairs, and I don't have the right to blame for this matter. ”

"You don't have children, you're not old enough for us, and there are some things you won't understand. Mother Li sighed for a long time, "You said that Xiao Lu's home is so far away, if he can be consistent with Si Si for the rest of his life, it would be fine, but how can there be so many husbands and wives who raise their eyebrows and respect each other, coupled with the difficult relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, Si Si's temper is big, in case he is bullied and wronged, we can't save the fire from far water, how can we rest assured?"

I really haven't thought about this, think about it carefully, I had a lot of trouble with Zhou Mingchuan a few times back then, which time I didn't pack my bags and go back to my parents' house to live for a few days when I was angry, and I didn't go back until he came to pick me up in person.

Li Sisi's temper is a little bigger, and she speaks directly, some people feel straightforward when they look at it, but in the eyes of some people, they may also think that she doesn't know how to count etiquette or something.

I don't know what Lu Zhenting's parents and elders are, and I really can't guarantee that Li Sisi will not be wronged after marrying Lu Zhenting, it seems that Jiang is really still old and spicy, and Li's mother's vision is much farther than mine.

When Mother Li said this, I didn't dare to say that they were selfish, and I couldn't help but think of my parents, when they didn't agree to me marrying Zhou Mingchuan, wasn't it also for the sake of my happiness?

Mother Li told me a lot of worries, so I couldn't refute it, I could only nod my head like garlic, ashamed of their good intentions as parents, because all I thought about all this was the feelings of Li Sisi and Lu Zhenting.

Before leaving, I asked me to persuade Li Sisi not to think about Lu Zhenting anymore, and to put down my mind and find a suitable marriage in the local area.

Now it's okay, Li Sisi asked me to persuade Lu Zhenting to find one, and Li's mother asked me to persuade Li Sisi to find one, everyone is persuaded and not persuaded to leave, but I have become a special one to persuade to leave!

I stayed in Li Sisi's hometown for three days, and I was like sitting on pins and needles every day, afraid of seeing Li's mother and Li Sisi, and then I didn't even dare to see Li's father, who didn't talk much, because he also quietly looked for me once.

I think I disappointed everyone, I couldn't help Li Sisi, and I couldn't bear to persuade her to let go, and it was really hard to be caught in the middle.

On the day I left, I once again mentioned to Li's mother about my trip to Xiacheng, and patted my chest and assured her that as long as they came, I would treat them well and do my best to be a landlord.

Mother Li took my hand and said that she would come when she had time, I think this is just a polite remark, and everyone knows it.

When I returned to Xiacheng, my life returned to the way it was before, every day the apartment and the company were two points and one line, except for Jin Yebai, who could see Jin Yebai every day recently, nothing changed, and Lu Zhenting still kept his mouth shut about Li Sisi's name.

Some people say that the most beautiful April day in the world, but my April is a fly in the ointment.

At the end of April, I officially received the news that Jin Yebai's work had been handed over to me and Lu Zhenting, and he would not come to the company from 9 to 6 in the future.

On the day he left, he came to the company to pack his things, and I asked him, "Are you going to go abroad for your honeymoon with Qingya?"

He smiled, "It's better not to ask too much about some things." Then he turned his head to look at Lu Zhenting, "Zhenting, let's go out for a meal tonight, just see me off." ”

Lu Zhenting has rarely gone out with us, this time since it was for Jin Yebai, he did not refuse, nodded and agreed, "Okay, where are you going?"

"Just go to the one we used to go to. Jin Yebai put the notebook away, picked up the things he had packed and walked out, "Then I'll go back first, and you guys will come over after work." ”

After he left, Lu Zhenting suggested that I move the location to Jin Yebai, and then move my desk out, so that the space in the small office would be larger.

"Forget it today, I'll move over tomorrow morning. I sat on the chair, looking at Jin Yebai's position, thinking that I would never be able to look up and see him working seriously in the future, and my heart ached.

His departure was as if someone had taken a knife and dug out a piece of flesh in my heart, and I think he might have to stay in my heart for the rest of his life.

It's like Li Sisi and Lu Zhenting, who rely on each other's hearts, no matter what others say or persuade, they can't drive them away from their hearts.

After Jin Yebai left the office, I basically didn't do anything, either staring at his position or staring at the mug he gave me on my desk.

"You haven't let him go yet. I don't know how long I was stunned, Lu Zhenting suddenly spoke, which startled me.

"What about you? Do you think you've let go?" I mentioned Liss for the first time in a long time.

Lu Zhenting was categorical, "I won't let it go, even if she really marries someone else, I still love her, my heart only belongs to her, can't be together, it doesn't mean that you can't love, loving someone is your own business, and it has nothing to do with others." ”

At this moment, how I wanted to tell him that Li Sisi was still crying for him when he dreamed back at midnight, still struggling with his parents, insisting on not finding a boyfriend, and staying with him from a long distance.

But I can't, if I really say this, Lu Zhenting will be even more sad, sad that he can't meet the requirements of Li Sisi's family, sad that he can't afford the happiness Li Sisi wants, and even more distressed for Li Sisi.

There was silence in the office, and I thought about his words, and I felt that I was sympathetic to him, and that I could only hide love in my heart, and it became a secret that was not worthy of outsiders.

Speaking of secrets, I can't help but think of the night before Li Muchi left, he told me that Jin Yebai seemed to have some secret in his heart, and I even thought that Jin Yebai told me in person after having Song Qingya, he loves me, he only loves me.

I suddenly wanted to know Jin Yebai's secret, since he hadn't married Song Qingya yet, and he loved me, why didn't he choose to be with me, I haven't even heard him mention Song Qingya recently.

But it's not good to inquire about other people's privacy, I secretly smiled bitterly, maybe I won't be able to know the reason for this in my life, because he will be gone soon, and he will be a family man in the future, and I will have no reason to disturb him.

Finally stayed up until work, Lu Zhenting drove me to the restaurant they agreed on, the atmosphere during the banquet was very depressing, Lu Zhenting didn't long after eating and excused himself to leave without excuses.

I know that he is leaving me time, so that I can be alone with Jin Yebai, and there may never be such an opportunity in the future, he will become a father after he becomes a husband, what am I?

After Lu Zhenting left, Jin Yebai quickly ordered a bottle of red wine to come up, and I stopped him, "Don't you still want to drive?

"I didn't drive here, don't worry!" he took two goblets and handed one to me, "Drink two with me." ”

"You're in a bad mood?" I wondered, what else is in a bad mood when getting married, and it's not that people force marriage.

"No, I just wanted to have a drink with you. He shook his glass gently, and his demeanor was as charming as the most elegant gentleman.

"Have you gotten a certificate with Qingya?" I deliberately mentioned this name to warn myself and remind him that there is still a Song Qingya between us.

"Can I not mention her tonight?" Jin Yebai took a small sip, his wet lips looked very attractive in the light of the light, and I swallowed my saliva in a heartless way.

I can't help it, I don't look at him, I drink the wine in the cup, but unfortunately the wine is not drunk, everyone is drunk, I have been fascinated by Jin Yebai.

"You went to find Li Sisi during the Qingming Festival, right? How is she doing?" I was stunned as soon as Jin Yebai spoke, how could he even know this, did he secretly investigate me?

I looked at him with some exasperation, "How do you know?"

Jin Yebai explained unhurriedly, "Before the holiday, I happened to see you looking at a ticket on the Internet, and the destination was her hometown, and then I called you, and you said that you were not in Xiacheng, so I think you should go to see her." ”

I spent the belly of a gentleman with the heart of a villain, and I was ashamed to have no face to see people, and I lowered my head and replied: "She stays at home, her heart is on Zhenting, how good can she live?"

Jin Yebai sighed slightly, "It's a pity." ”

I raised my head and looked at him like a resentful woman, "Why are there so many unsatisfactory things in the world? It is not easy for people to live enough, and they have to endure so much, either life or death, can't life be simpler?"