She was very surprised to see Song Qingya in a daze in the office, in fact, before going out, I didn't think that I would come to her, it was purely a whim.

"Why did you come to me?" Song Qingya's attitude towards me has not changed much, it was just that I was too self-inflicted before, and she still seemed to hate me.

"I want to ask, what is the relationship between you and Jin Yebai?" I put the child on the chair, frowning and rubbing my sore arm, I didn't expect the one-year-old child to be so hard to pick up, these days are really hard for Jin Yebai.

"What do you care about us. Song Qingya looked at me arrogantly, "I don't welcome you here, you can go." ”

"Is he not going to let you say it?" People don't want to be invincible in the world, I'm a faceless person now, people coldly issued an eviction order, but I still don't leave.

"You're not his girlfriend at all, you're his doctor, aren't you? Your so-called marriage, and those intimate little gestures, are actually just done for me, right?" I propped my hands on the table, and told all my recent guesses.

I know that I am not as smart as Jin Yebai, so I know that he has a secret and can't find out, so I can only live in a cloud of doubt, as if living in a misty forest.

He also covered it up very well, even if he lived with me, he didn't show too many flaws, in front of me, he always looked like he was fine, and I didn't think much about it.

But after Liu Weiqiang's time, I suddenly discovered some problems, and then I thought that maybe he didn't go home to take care of his sick mother at all, but his own physical problems.

However, at that time, he had such a fierce quarrel with me, I really didn't dare to continue asking, otherwise it would be difficult to guarantee that he would not give me another disappearance, plus the matter of Meng Shuwei and Shu Jing'an, I couldn't even ask.

The last time I invited Song Qingya to dinner, she just called me to the study alone for a while, and he couldn't wait to ask what she told me, which just proved that she must know his secret.

Thinking that Song Qingya is a doctor, no matter how stupid I am, I can guess that there must be a problem between them, so I had the guess just now, and the reason for all this is that Jin Yebai is sick, and it is still very serious.

But what I don't understand is that even if Song Qingya is his doctor and cooperates with him to act for me, then now that we are together, shouldn't she retire?

Song Qingya was stunned for a while, her eyes opened wide, as if she was frightened by me, she opened her mouth, I thought that I would be able to clear the clouds and see the moon soon, and my nervous palms were sweating.

Unexpectedly, she glared at me fiercely, "Who are you? Why should I tell you? If you don't believe me, I'll call someone to drag you out." ”

I mustered up the courage to come to Song Qingya, who had never treated me well, but in the end I was dragged out of her office, and it was a big deal that I didn't get the answer I wanted.

The more she didn't say anything, the more uneasy I became, on the way home, I was shaking all the time in the driver, and if it wasn't for some serious illness, Jin Yebai wouldn't have done this to me.

The more I thought about it, the more scared I became, I could barely hold the steering wheel, just when Shu Jing'an woke up, I parked the car aside, picked her up and coaxed her, and was still entangled in Jin Yebai's secret.

Is he going to die?

When this thought came to me, I let go of my hand and almost threw Shu Jingan in the car, so shocked that I almost screamed.

No, he won't die!

It is said that a good person has a safe life, he is the best good person I have ever met, how can he die at such a young age?

It must be that I am thinking too much, it must be!

I deceived myself and comforted myself, and after putting Shu Jing'an to sleep, I drove home, and as soon as I pushed the door open, I saw Jin Yebai sitting on the sofa in a daze, still holding his mobile phone in his hand.

When he saw me holding the sleeping Shu Jing'an, he didn't even mean to get up at all, if it was before, he would definitely rush up and pick up the child immediately without saying a word.

I glanced at the mobile phone in his hand, and I had already guessed in my heart that the previous call must have been made by Song Qingya to complain, otherwise he would not have this attitude towards me.

"Why are you looking for Qingya?" Sure enough, he looked at me coldly, and there was a hint of annoyance in his tone.

"Why can't I go to her? Are you afraid I will know your secret?" I looked at him, and the tears that I endured all the way finally flowed uncontrollably.

He got up, picked up the child in my arms, and went straight to the bedroom.

I didn't follow up, I sat on the couch and waited for him to come out, no matter how unwilling he was, I must ask his secret today, I have been in the dark for a long time, and I will never be a big fool again.

He soon came out, walked over to me and sat down, reached out and pulled a tissue to wipe my tears.

I grabbed his hand and begged with a whimper, "Xiaobai, tell me honestly, do you have some serious illness?

"I'm still acting with Qingya, isn't it?" he tugged at the corners of his mouth and actually laughed, "Meng Lu, your imagination is very rich. ”

I was almost angry with him, and yelled at him, "Jin Yebai, don't hide it from me anymore, even if I am a pig, I should find out one day, please tell me the truth, okay?"

"Okay!" Jin Yebai replied very cheerfully, "Qingya is indeed not my girlfriend, Ling Xi is her real boyfriend, and I am actually her cousin." ”

Jin Yebai is Song Qingya's cousin?

Ling Xi is her real boyfriend?

That means that Ling Xi and Jin Yebai exchanged identities for each other at the beginning?

I'll just say, from the first time I saw Song Qingya and Ling Xi together, I felt that they looked like a couple, and at that time I thought that I had a delusion out of jealousy, but I didn't expect it to be true.

No wonder Song Qingya cared so much about Jin Yebai, that time in the hospital, Jin Yebai even kissed her forehead in front of Ling Xi, it turned out that they were related by blood.

"And what?" I pressed him as if I were interrogating a prisoner, "your secret is more than this, I want to know the whole truth!"

Jin Yebai stretched out his hand and hugged my waist, pulled me into his arms, and sighed: "The truth is that I was really forced by you to have no choice, I was afraid that you would arrange some messy blind date for me again, so let Qingya pretend to be my girlfriend to fool you, lest you panic when you are full." ”

"You lie, if that's the case, then when I divorced Zhou Mingchuan, why did you continue to pretend to be a couple, and even turned me into a third party!" Thinking of the days when I inexplicably became a third party spurned by thousands of women, I was angry, but Song Qingya was still a fake girlfriend.

"If I didn't continue to act at that time, Zhou Mingchuan bit you back, saying that you cheated on me, what should I do? Meng Lu, don't be too naïve, we haven't happened yet, Zhou Mingchuan won't admit the child in your belly, if we really have something, can we still win that lawsuit?"

Is that so?

I looked at Jin Yebai suspiciously, his eyes were clear and bright, and he was not flustered at all, but I carefully recalled what happened before, and I still found that there was a problem.

"Even if you did this for my own good before the divorce, then what about after I got divorced? I sold the house at a low price to raise money to give you money to solve the company's financial problems, but Song Qingya came to my apartment to question, saying that I coveted her man, how can this be explained?"

"He heard that the company was going to close down due to poor management, and he didn't want me to continue to do it, so it's as simple as that, Meng Lu, don't you take out these things about the old sesame seeds and rotten grains? ”

"Not good!" his explanation was so far-fetched that I couldn't accept it no matter how stupid I was, "You're lying to me, how long are you trying to fool me?"

"Since you don't believe anything, why do you bother to ask me?" Jin Yebai let go of me, "I'll go out for a walk, you can take care of the child." With that, he took his phone and keys and went out.

Because there was a child at home, I couldn't chase him out, so I could only watch him leave, and I was even more sure of my guess in the face of his escape.

Jin Yebai never came back after he went out, but just sent me a WeChat message, saying that he would go to his parents' house for a few days and ask me to ask someone to come back to take care of the child or put the child in the nursery.

I suddenly had a very bad premonition that he might never come back, I didn't answer his phone calls, I didn't reply to WeChat, I sat on the sofa with my mobile phone in a daze, and let the child who had woken up cry so much that his voice was hoarse.

What should I do if Jin Yebai doesn't come back?

How could he just throw me down?

Since they are in love, since they have decided to be together, why can't they face problems together?

I've been to his house once before, but I don't remember the address at all, and now even if I want to go to him to ask for clarification, I can't do it.

I still have to go to work tomorrow, and it's too late to ask the nanny to come back at this time, so I have to hurry online to find a nursery, while coaxing Shu Jing'an, who has just learned to walk.

The child walks unsteadily, and from time to time he will fall, but he can't sit still, I know that it is so difficult to bring a child, but Jin Yebai has brought me for so long, and there is no complaint.

In the end, I finally contacted a nursery school, and I went to see it that afternoon, and I was going to send the child over tomorrow, and I needed to prepare for the worst, because Shu Jing'an might have to live for a long time in the future.

I must go to Jin Yebai, even if he is really going to die, he can't leave me like this, I must accompany him through the last days, this is already the only thing I can do for him.

Early the next morning, I sent the child to the nursery and continued to call Jin Yebai's phone, but it still didn't turn on, and I didn't receive his WeChat reply, so I had to call Song Qingya's phone, but it only rang and was hung up.

I flipped through the phone book to find contacts related to Jin Yebai, but it was only Song Qingya, Ling Xi and Lu Zhenting, as well as his mother.

Song Qingya has already tried it, Lu Zhenting, I can see it when I go to work, I don't need to call, after thinking about it, I dialed Ling Xi's phone first.

He picked it up quickly, but as soon as I asked about Jin Yebai, he said that he didn't know anything, and said that he was not familiar with him, so let me ask Song Qingya.

He can swap identities with Jin Yebai, and let Jin Yebai and Song Qingya, the cousins, play a couple, and he dares to say that he is not familiar with Jin Yebai, which is obviously lying to me.

But no matter what I said, he didn't admit it, and after saying a few words, he excused himself to go to work, and snapped off the phone, I was anxious and angry, anxious that I couldn't find Jin Yebai, and I was angry that I didn't find these problems until recently.

Song Qingya and Ling Xi are unreliable, I can only pin my last hope on Jin Yebai's mother, but she, like Song Qingya, doesn't answer my phone at all, and she can't get through after a few more calls.

For Jin Yebai's affairs, they must all know the inside story, so their attitude towards me is exactly the same, and they don't care about it one by one, why is Jin Yebai so afraid that I know about him?

Is he afraid that I will dislike him or doesn't want me to worry about him, but I am not more worried about keeping me in the dark?

I couldn't get any news from Jin Yebai's relatives, so I went to ask Lu Zhenting, but I knew it, and I was afraid that there was not much hope, judging from his attitude towards me, he would not tell Lu Zhenting about this kind of thing.

Sure enough, when I asked Lu Zhenting if Jin Yebai had contacted him in the past two days, he shook his head and looked at me suspiciously, "No, what's wrong?"

Jin Yebai didn't want me anymore, left me alone, and walked with his secret, but I didn't have a clue about this matter myself, how could I say it to make Lu Zhenting worry?

I smiled reluctantly and made an excuse, "No, he went back to his parents' house." ”

Li Sisi looked at me suspiciously, "Meng Lu, you are so strange today, did you quarrel with Jin Yebai?" He is a very good person, it stands to reason that he will not make trouble unreasonably, you must have touched his bottom line, right?"

Is it really my fault?

He kept a big secret from me, I just cared about him and worried that he wanted to know the truth, is this also vexatious?

"Sisi, I'm ......" I looked at Li Sisi, and wanted to tell her everything, but unfortunately I opened my mouth but couldn't say the next words, because I didn't know where to start, and I could only sigh secretly.

When I was at work, I called Jin Yebai from time to time, but this time it was like the beginning of the year, and every time I called, it was a mechanical girl who reminded me that the user you dialed had been turned off.

In less than a year, history repeats itself, why should he be with me when he has already decided to leave me, give me hope and make me despair, he is so cruel.

Looking back now, I can't help but wonder if he went abroad to seek medical treatment in the months when he disappeared, but in the end he was disappointed, what kind of disease can he easily take a young life in today's medical world.

is also sick, even if Meng Shuwei dies in front of me now, I may not be too sad, at most I will only shed a few tears, but if something happens to Jin Yebai, I will even have the heart to die.

If I am lucky, if I lose my life, I can't live together, then I will die together!

Summer days, winter nights. After 100 years old, return to its home!

Winter nights, summer days. After 100 years old, return to his room!

I can't wait for a hundred years old, I just want to be born in the same bed with him, and die in the same coffin, and then the ashes will be mixed together, and no one will be able to separate us in life and life.

He can't leave me anymore!

In the days when I lost contact, I called him every day, and sometimes I would wake up in the middle of the night and call him, hoping that he would secretly turn on the phone, but I was disappointed every time.

After a month, Shu Jing'an and I became more and more intimate, and walked much more steadily than before, rarely wrestling, and even spoke, the first name shouted was Dad, and then called Mom.

It's a pity that I'm not her mother, and there is no father here, I guess she must have regarded Jin Yebai as her father, and that ruthless person just threw us two away and didn't let me face difficulties with him.

Seeing that the Chinese New Year is approaching, there are more things in the company, I don't want to ask for leave, and I don't know how much I have taken this year, so I can only hold on.

Suddenly, one day, I picked up my children from work, and when I took out the key and was about to open the door, I heard a sound in the house, and my heart jumped.

At this time, I didn't have much hope for Jin Yebai, he didn't even give me a phone and WeChat, how could he come back, he had already completely abandoned me.

But when I quietly opened the door, I saw a familiar figure, Jin Yebai was bending over and mopping the floor in the living room, I didn't even care about Shu Jing'an, I didn't change my shoes, and rushed directly towards him.

"Xiaobai, you're finally back. "I hugged him tightly, as if I was holding the whole world, and I never wanted to let go, let alone dare to let go.

Shu Jing'an also stumbled over, hugging Jin Yebai's thighs and shouting milkily, "Dad, Dad......"

Jin Yebai looked down at Shu Jing'an, then turned his eyes to look at me, and finally only said three words, "I'm sorry!"

"Why do you want to do this to us? Don't you think it's too cruel?" I cried again spinelessly, looking at him with teary eyes, "Please promise me that no matter what happens in the future, we will face it together, okay?"

"Meng Lu ......" Jin Yebai hugged me tightly, called affectionately, and his eyes were slightly red, I had never seen him cry, but this time his eyes were red in front of me.

His eyes were full of helplessness and pain, he hugged me for a long time and didn't speak, I hugged him, my eyes kept looking at him, I didn't dare to take off half a minute, for fear that he would disappear in the blink of an eye.

After going through so much, I can't afford any separation anymore, if Jin Yebai really has no cure, then I will accompany him to the earth and die with him!

Shu Jing'an saw that we ignored her, and immediately burst into tears, and I suddenly thought that I still have a child, if I follow Jin Yebai to another world, what should she do?

Jin Yebai quickly let go of me, leaned over and picked up Shu Jing'an gently and dotingly, looking at his patient appearance, I seemed to understand something again.

I remember when I told him about this child, not only did he not mind me raising this child, but even agreed to my adoption, but now it seems that he wants to use this child to tie me up.

His good intentions were all used on me, and even the concealment of his illness was to keep me from worrying, and he knew me so well that he would surely be able to guess that if I knew the truth, it would be impossible for me to live alone in the world.

I don't have the courage to live alone!

Shu Jing'an stopped crying after being coaxed by him, and then he put the child down, and said while continuing to mop the floor: "The meal is just ready, if you are hungry, go eat first, and I will feed the child later." ”

I snatched the mop from his hand, "You go and rest, let me do these things." ”

He's sick, I can't let him suffer anymore, if I had known, I would never have asked him to help me take care of the child, I'd rather not go to work myself than let him work so hard.

Now in front of the child, I won't ask him anything, grabbed the mop and dragged it up with all his might, he hugged Shu Jing'an and went to the table to feed her.

"Rest, I'll feed her when I'm eating." I looked up at him.

"I knew you would be like this!" Jin Yebai sighed.

I was stunned for a moment, what did he mean by that? What would I do?

I looked down at the ground that I had dragged clean, and it dawned on me that I had treated him like a sick person and had not asked him to do anything but rest, while he wanted to live like a normal person.

So even though he knew that he was sick, he still insisted on going to work in the company and worked hard, so Song Qingya didn't want to help him even though he knew that the company was in trouble, and said that I was hurting him, but I knew it too late.

He looks very good today, he doesn't look like a sick person at all, I don't know what kind of disease he has, but I respect him, since he wants to be fed, let him feed it, this job is actually not tiring.

After mopping the floor, I cleaned up the house, and when he was done, he had already finished feeding, played with Shu Jing'an on the sofa, and let me go to eat first.

During this time, I took Shu Jing'an alone, and I had trained her to be able to play with herself, because even at home, I didn't have so much time to spend with her, so I asked Jin Yebai to come over and eat with me.

"Don't worry, she's very well-behaved, give her a little toy and she'll be able to play for a while, enough for us to have a meal. I got up and took a small toy for Shu Jing'an, and dragged Jin Yebai to the dining table.

No matter how many doubts I have in my heart, I have to endure them first, although the child is small, he also has thoughts.

After eating and putting Shu Jing'an to sleep, we sat down and wanted to ask him the truth, but before he could open his mouth, he grabbed the words, "Accompany me to the wedding tomorrow." ”

"Is it Qingya and Ling Xi?" Among the people I know, there is only one Song Qingya who wants to get married and is related to Jin Yebai, and the wedding of Li Sisi and Lu Zhenting has not yet arrived.

"Well, I'm going to have to put my kids in daycare tomorrow. Jin Yebai replied, "After tomorrow, I will tell you everything, and you won't ask tonight." ”

"Okay, I'll wait for your answer. "No matter how cruel the truth is, I have to face it with him, this is the love I stick to!

This night we used the condom that I had tampered with, and I still prayed in my heart that I would conceive a child, continue his life, and let the child prove that he had been in this world.

The next day we dropped Shu Jing'an off to the nursery, and then we went to the wedding site of Song Qingya and Ling Xi together, in a big hotel, but we didn't go to church.

This is a grand wedding, and the last wedding between Meng Shuwei and Zhou Mingchuan was just a child playing with Song Qingya and Ling Xi.

Song Qingya was wearing a white wedding dress, more like an angel than when she was wearing a white coat, and there was no longer that kind of arrogant smile on her face, only gentleness and happiness.

Ling Xi was wearing a white suit, not black like Zhou Mingchuan, the two stood together, not to mention Duodeng, a talented man and a woman, it was really a match made in heaven.

When I walked into the hotel holding Jin Yebai's hand, I also saw two other familiar figures, Li Sisi and Lu Zhenting, who were also full of joy.

In the near future, they will also have such a lively moment, Lu Zhenting once said that he would give Li Sisi a grand wedding, maybe it is a copy of the wedding in front of him.

Song Qingya and Ling Xi saw that our faces changed slightly, but because of the scene at this time, none of them said anything to question, after all, today is too important for them, and it may become a memory for them for the rest of their lives.

Lu Zhenting and Li Sisi came over to say hello when they saw us, and by the way, they gave us two invitations to attend their wedding the day before Chinese New Year's Eve.

"Big matchmaker, you must come. Liss winked at me with wide eyes.

Lu Zhenting also said to Jin Yebai: "Yebai, speaking of which, you are also half a matchmaker, and I am also looking forward to your coming, it is best for you to come together like today, and we will not get drunk or return when the time comes." ”

Jin Yebai is indeed half a matchmaker, at the beginning, I obviously introduced Li Sisi to Jin Yebai, and Lu Zhenting was a spare tire, but I didn't expect it to backfire, and in the end, the spare tire took the position and achieved a good marriage.

I responded to Li Sisi with a smile, "Don't worry, I will definitely come then." ”

But Jin Yebai just smiled and didn't say anything, I couldn't help but have a bad premonition, he has always done what he says, and he won't agree to what he can't do, isn't he going to go to their wedding?

Or can't he wait for that time at all?

Thinking of this, I subconsciously grabbed his hand, no, he didn't look sick at all, and Lu Zhenting's wedding was coming soon, he wouldn't wait.

He didn't answer, Lu Zhenting didn't say anything, anyway, the invitation has been accepted, but my heart has been in my throat, I really want to end this wedding quickly, and then learn all the truth.

After the wedding officially began, I saw Jin Yebai's parents, and then dragged Jin Yebai over to say hello, they looked embarrassed when they saw me, and after saying a few words, they used the excuse of helping to greet the guests and left.

I looked at their backs, and I had a very bad feeling in my heart, today was obviously a big day, but as Song Qingya's aunt and uncle, they looked a little sad.

At the wedding, Song Qingya always had a gentle and beautiful smile, and Ling Xi was also a polite gentleman, I looked at their good couples and became so envious, I really wanted that one day, I could also put on a wedding dress for Jin Yebai.

But is this still possible?

His attitude towards me was so strange that I felt that he would disappear at any moment, and this anxiety always occupied my body and mind, making me depressed, holding his hand and not daring to let go.

During this period, Song Qingya and Ling Xilai toasted Jin Yebai, and the smile in their eyes became sad, which made my mood even heavier.

The wedding lasted from noon to evening, and Jin Yebai and I didn't go back until the evening, and we didn't even pick up Shu Jing'an, so that she could spend the night in the nursery.

I'm finally going to get the truth tonight, and I'm so excited along the way, because Jin Yebai drank some wine, so it was the car I drove, and he reminded me that I almost ran a red light a few times.

When I got home, I couldn't wait to pull him to the bedroom, "Xiaobai, now that the wedding is over, and Jing'an is not here, can you tell me all the truth?"

"I promised to tell you, and I won't break my word. Jin Yebai grabbed the pajamas on the bed casually, "Let's take a bath together tonight." ”

"Good. "I immediately went to the bathroom to drain the water.

After taking a shower, he still refused to say, so I had to wait patiently, but he turned off the light, hugged me tightly, and asked me for joy.

I didn't refuse him, and now whatever he asks me to do, I'm sure I'll say yes, because I don't have much opportunity left to do anything for him.

Tonight is the longest time Jin Yebai has insisted on, but he still uses a condom, I don't know if Song Qingya's method will work, in short, I didn't get pregnant the few times he did it a month before he left me.

When he was done, he got up and went to the bathroom to put the water away, then carried me to wash myself as before, and finally hugged me under the bed, but before he went to bed, he poured me a glass of water for me to drink.

He kissed my face unsatisfactorily, and whispered to me in the warm light of the bedside lamp, "Meng Lu, when did you fall in love with me?"

I smelled the faint smell of shower gel on his body and didn't answer it right away, because I never thought about it seriously, but I didn't want to give him a perfunctory answer.

He was quiet, and he didn't move as I pondered, nor did he press me for an answer.

I thought about it for a while, and it is undeniable that before I knew that Zhou Mingchuan was cheating, I didn't have the slightest love for men and women for Jin Yebai, but only irreplaceable friendship.

And even after learning that Zhou Mingchuan cheated on Meng Shuwei, I still didn't fall in love with him, because I still had feelings for Zhou Mingchuan at that time, and I didn't let go of that love at all.

It wasn't until I left the house and lived in my parents' house, and since then I have been separated from Zhou Mingchuan, that I gradually realized that I can still live without him, and the love he once had was not all of my life.

"The moment you appeared to me like a god and took me away from my parents' house!"

"I always thought that you would never fall in love with me in your life. Jin Yebai exhaled in my ear, "Why do you love me, I am a person with no future, I can't afford to give you happiness at all." ”

"Then I don't want the future, the future is tomorrow, and tomorrow will never come, I just want now!" I hugged him tightly, eager to embed him in my bones, so that he would never leave me again.

"Meng Lu ......," his voice was a little low, "Thank you for loving me, letting me know what love is, and making my short life complete." ”

"Don't say thank you to me, I just want to be with you forever, Huangquan is lonely, if you are destined to have no future, then I will also depend on you for life and death, never give up, in this life I only ask you not to leave me alone, to face all the pain by yourself. "My nose was sour and my throat was whimpering.

He talked to me for a long time, but he never told me what incurable disease he had, and gradually my eyelids began to fight, and I became more and more sleepy.

"Sleepy when you're sleepy. He reached out and turned off the lamp.

"I don't want to sleep, you haven't told me what you want to know. I stubbornly opened my eyes wide, but I still couldn't resist the sleepiness that struck.

"You're going to fall asleep. Jin Yebai's hand wrapped around my waist like a vine, and when I finally closed my eyes when I was so sleepy, his faint voice came from my ears, "Because I put sleeping pills in that glass of water just now." ”

He actually used this method against me?

Why?

Just to avoid my questions?

But he promised to tell me everything today, so he promised him everything?

I believe him so much, how can he lie to me like this!

I wanted to accuse, I wanted to scream, but after that I couldn't hear anything, and finally I couldn't stand the effect of sleeping pills, and fell into darkness and silence, and had a long, long dream.

In the dream, Jin Yebai died, he died in my arms, and I was not allowed to go with him, I cried and shouted his name, and then a spirit woke up, and when I opened my eyes, I saw the light in the room.

It was dawn, the sun was rising, and the warm sunlight was pouring into the bedroom, and the warm man beside me was gone, and I guessed the result from yesterday when I knew that he had given me sleeping pills.

I sat up in despair, catching a glimpse of a letter pressed under my phone on the bedside table, with my name on the envelope and a sentence: Forget me after dawn.

He's gone!

He's gone again!

Throw me down like he had done several times before, not let me face difficulties with him and accompany him through his last days.

I knew that his phone would definitely not get through again, and Song Qingya and they would never answer my phone, let alone provide any help.

He wouldn't let me find him again, so I didn't call, just unfolded the letter he left for me to see what he said.

"Meng Lu, please forgive me for saying goodbye to you, I don't want to drag you down, there are some things I can face alone. Thank you for giving me an unexpected love, and thank you for bringing Jing'an to let me experience the joy of being a father.

If you don't love me, my life may leave regrets, but if you love me, my heart will be torn apart by you, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have provoked you, so much pain has been caused to you......"

The letter was long, but it still didn't tell me what disease he had, and to avoid me like this, even AIDS wasn't so scary?

Besides, he's not sick at all, otherwise he wouldn't have touched me.

Before I finished reading the letter, my tears were already raining, this idiot, he was always so cruel to me, he thought he would be fine if he left, but he didn't know that he was protecting me in a hurtful way.

I don't want him to leave me like this, after reading the letter, I picked up my phone and called him, there is no doubt that it was turned off again, and if I called Song Qingya, they were all hung up immediately.

The result was obviously expected, but I refused to give up, and played again and again until I couldn't get in anymore.

This time, Jin Yebai disappeared completely, I went to the hospital to find Song Qingya, she ignored me at all, no matter how I begged her, she didn't tell me what was going on with Jin Yebai.

Later, I tried my best to find Jin Yebai's home, and his parents saw that it was me through the cat's eye, and they didn't even open the door, but just told me that he was gone.

He's gone, did he leave here, or did he die?

No one gave me an answer!

Now all I have left is the house where Jin Yebai lived, and his room full of things, and the letter that was always on the bedside table.

The words on the envelope that bring tears to my eyes every time: Forget me after dawn!