009 Occasionally willful
If this is a love that makes him happy.If this love can make Xiao Tian happier.Chu Mingzhu thinks that she may accept it more generously.But that woman regards this love as a hurt.Hurt the man she Chu Mingzhu loves and treasures.Then that woman is simply damned.
"I'm sorry I offended you like that." Xiao Tian hung his head and apologized in a low voice.
Chu Mingzhu smiled a little sadly: "If I don't want to, no one can offend me."
Xiao Tian still lowered his head, but stopped talking.
"What do you love about her?" Chu Mingzhu asked leisurely.
Xiao Tian slowly raised his head and looked at the lake. A full moon with a slight lack of light had appeared on the horizon.
"Everything, as long as she's around me, I feel very content, very peaceful, as long as I see her laughing, I feel that there is nothing I can't do for her, even if she loses her childish temper with me, I feel so happy.
But as long as she is really angry, I will panic, I am afraid that she will leave me at any time, I am afraid to see her crying in pain, I am afraid that she will be coveted by other men, I am afraid that she will doubt me, I will not believe me, I am afraid that she will not see her heart clearly, she will hurt herself and refuse to come back to me."
Chu Mingzhu turned her head to look at Xiao Tian, this kind of Xiao Tian made her feel so strange and surprised.
"I remember that summer you said to me, you can't love again in this life, it turns out that you don't love, it's just because once you give it, it's unreserved, and you can't get it back.
You must have loved and hurt before, so you don't want to love anymore, but now you love this woman again, you love her so much that you can ignore your self-esteem. Xiao Tian, is God telling you to pay off your debts, and let you pay off all the debts you owe to all the other women who love you?"
Xiao Tian smiled miserably. Perhaps."
He didn't understand why he was so subject to Caiyue, who wasn't actually the best woman he knew.
In terms of physiognomy and figure, Chu Mingzhu is more beautiful and sexier than her.
In terms of gentleness and sensibility, Ouyang Qing is obviously far superior to her.
In terms of intelligence and ability, Chu Mingzhu, Ouyang Qing, and Han Lu are all not inferior to her, and they are better than her.
The most ridiculous thing is, even in terms of feelings, I'm afraid Cai Yue can't be regarded as the most in love with him.
But things in this world are so strange and incomprehensible.
She's good in every way, but she's not the best in every way, but he just loves her, she's obsessed with her, she can make him crazy, she can calm him, she doesn't make him feel like himself.
He also thought that maybe God was really asking him to pay off his debts, but in this debt relationship, there were other people involved in other things.
"Why, I know her, she's Qiu Yan's secretary, people in the circle say she's Qiu Yan's lover, you just said that you saw her and Qiu Yan make out many times, you even knew that she and Qiu Yan rolled over the bed, why did you still whisper to her like that, don't you know how many women in this world are willing to give everything for you, even willing to die?" Chu Mingzhu was angry, sad and puzzled.
Xiao Tian turned his head and looked at Chu Mingzhu. Because, I love her, and I know she loves me."
Yes, love is so unreasonable, love can't stand comparison, but love doesn't care about comparison, love is willing to do anything, love is acceptable to anything.
"But the person she just kissed was Qiu Yan, not you, she's obviously a woman with two boats, she doesn't deserve your love." Chu Mingzhu was almost furious.
"I don't want you to say that about her." Xiao Tian's eyes glowed with a cold light.
Chu Mingzhu immediately stopped her mouth when she was yelled at by Xiao Tian, she stared at Xiao Tian in surprise: "Xiao Tian, you actually yelled at me."
Xiao Tian saw the grievances in Chu Mingzhu's eyes, and he remembered Chu Mingzhu's various kindness to him in the past few years.
"I'm sorry.I shouldn't be so excited.Caiyue is not a woman who has two boats on her feet.She's just... It's just a little bit confusing for a while, a little bit hard to see for a while." He lowered his head again as he spoke. You won't understand the pain of Caiyue, she's fine, I love her."
Chu Mingzhu was furious again, she couldn't stand the man she loved so unproductively to another woman.
"She's doing this to you, you're still defending her like this, yes, I don't understand her suffering, but I know that if you're willing to give me half of your love, I'll never have any more affair with another man."
"Pearl, I'll say it again, I don't allow you to use the word 'ambiguous' on Caiyue, and this is the last time I'll remind you of this." Xiao Tian's despondency disappeared because he was bent on maintaining Caiyue, and his eyes became sharp and bright again.
If it were another man, Chu Mingzhu would turn around and leave, or would use cooperation as a threat, but she didn't dare and wouldn't have Xiao Tian. She looked at the lake helplessly.
"What if she does leave you?" Chu Mingzhu's strong self-control allowed her to quickly calm down again, and her voice returned to calm.
Xiao Tian took over without hesitation: "She won't."
"But just now she told you to let her go, don't you understand what she means?"
"So what, she'll come back to me after all.I can't part with her.Qiu Yan can't.Not even herself.I won't allow her to leave me."
Xiao Tian seemed to be the same Xiao Tian who said everything in an instant, his words were categorical and loud, but he was definitely because of another woman.
Chu Mingzhu's heart cried again.
Just now, when Caiyue said to let Xiao Tian let her go, Chu Mingzhu still thought that the woman was simply too arrogant, and actually let Xiao Tian let her go.
But now, she has nothing to say, Xiao Tian's words show that he is indeed pestering her, I think she has mentioned breaking up with Xiao Tian more than once, but Xiao Tian has never agreed.
So this is the truth of that woman's secret communication with Qiu Yan.So this is also the bitterness that Xiao Tian has to repeatedly tolerate that woman and Qiu Yan's ambiguous rumors of various scandals.The reason is that he loves her far more than she loves him.
She didn't say anything more, just stood with Xiao Tian in the cold moonlight and the red light of the red lanterns swaying.
As soon as Cai Yue left Xiao Ting and Xiao Tian's sight, she fell to the ground, and she tried to withdraw from this love, but as a result, she lost even the ability to walk.
Qiu Yan picked her up and carried her into the car without saying a word.
The two of them sat down, her face was Mu Ran, who couldn't see her emotions, but she whispered to Qiu Yan: "Qiu Yan, I'm sorry, today is your birthday, and Xiao Tian and I made it like this."
"Caiyue, you're like this, don't think about my birthday, you know, I'm not happy if you're not happy, I shouldn't have brought you here today." Qiu Yan was very distressed to hear her say this, she always thought about others more than herself.
"It's nice here, I love it." She whispered.
Qiu Yan touched her hand.
"I'll take you somewhere else. You must be hungry, you have low blood sugar, you can't be hungry."
She wanted to say that she didn't want to eat it, but she thought that Qiu Yan's birthday hadn't passed yet, so she nodded.
Qiu Yan drove back to the city, and neither of them spoke much along the way.
During dinner, the two of them still didn't talk much, until the waiter brought the birthday cake to the table, Cai Yue brought a smile on her face, and said to Qiu Yan, "Make a wish."
Qiu Yan closed his eyes, made a wish in his heart, and then opened his eyes and blew out the candle in one go.
After cutting the cake, Cai Yue took a small piece for each of them, and the two of them ate the cake in small bites.
Cai Yue felt that she came out today to celebrate Qiu Yan's birthday, and it was such an important birthday as 30 years old.
"What did you wish?"
Qiu Yan ate the cake, lowered his eyes, and said very flatly: "I hope you get painless happiness."
Her hand paused slightly, she forced her heart to frown, and then she ate the cake as well, and replied without looking at Qiu Yan, "Don't waste your time on me anymore.
"Is it worth it, I have my own standards, I said that only by helping you pass Xiao Tian's calamity, my calamity can be passed." Still eating cake, lowering eyes, not looking at each other.
"You're not such a headstrong person."
"People always need to be willful once in a while, I put down my hobbies and ideals for the sake of family responsibilities and my father's wishes, and I don't want to give up my love for reason." Qiu Yan's face was not excited, there was only indifference and calmness that was extremely affirmative.
She tilted her head to the side, her eyes slightly reddened.
For the sake of this tangled love, all three of them have suffered a lot, she doesn't want to go on, she wants to end everything now, especially she wants Qiu Yan to get out as soon as possible.
Tonight, not long ago, she asked Xiao Tian to end this relationship, and now she has an urge to end this entanglement with Qiu Yan once and for all.
"Didn't you ask me if I wouldn't be with you if I didn't have Xiao Tian? I answer you now, if I wasn't with Xiao Tian, I wouldn't be with you." Although she said it decisively, she didn't dare to look at Qiu Yan, but she still hung her head and forked a piece of birthday cake in front of her.
She frowned. The cake tasted a little bland, and it was obviously not as sweet as a normal cake.
Qiu Yan took her words almost without pause. It doesn't matter, even if my existence is just to make Xiao Tian more nervous about you and care about you, I will never get tired of it."