015 Fear of losing

The first time was when Xiao Tian was drunk, he was violent to her in a drunken state, he woke up and looked at each other like enemies, and the second time was another morning after another day on their wedding night.

Only this time, the two of them woke up early in the morning to say good morning to each other, and the atmosphere was so natural and peaceful, and such moments were precious to both of them.

Finally they opened their eyes, and the two of them tacitly leaned towards each other like two magnets with different poles, and then naturally began to kiss lightly.

"I haven't brushed my teeth yet, disgusting." She wiped the saliva from the corner of her mouth.

"I don't like you." He chuckled and helped himself and her wipe the secretions from the corners of their eyes.

It is impossible to keep a perfect image when you wake up, not to say that your face is hateful, but at least your eyes are swollen. No matter how hot and beautiful your passion is, it is exhausted in such a dull imperfection day after day.

"It can't be your quirk." She laughed a little, and the morning joke officially began.

"Really, do you like my quirks?"

"Well, it's not a bad thing to have this quirk, if you go out in the middle of the night to steal food, I'll find out when I wake up."

"What can I find out by that." Xiao Tian sneered.

"How can you find out?" She humbly asked.

"Hands out."

She obediently put her little hand in front of him and shook it.

"You stupid girl, who told you to stretch out here." He tapped her on the head, and laughed.

She didn't react for a moment." Where is that going?" He looked at her, still laughing, and she reacted, "You're a super-scoundrel, and you're playing tricks when you open your eyes early in the morning."

He smiled and suddenly smiled. You're not a kid anymore, you should know how a man reacts when he gets up in the morning."

As soon as she heard this, she knew that something was wrong, and when she turned around, she wanted to get up and run away from the clutches.

"Where are you going, husband, this is teaching you how to see if your man is stealing food outside, come over to me."

The little wildcat was tragically crushed by the big bad wolf.

"As I said, I'll be as protective as you are, but you're responsible for feeding me, you, man, I, I'm hungry."

"I'm hungry, I'm hungry." The little wild cat was pitiful and wanted to escape.

"Are you hungry, then make more effort for your husband, and you won't be hungry in a while."

He didn't know how long it would take to come back again in the morning, and he wanted her to remember this moment.

Sunlight shines through the thin gauze curtains into the room, and the intertwined bodies are conjured with a primitive and pure beauty in the hazy sunlight.

"Have a good day at home today. Don't go to the office. His hands were still gripping hers, his palms pressed against the backs of her hands, his fingers were still clasped, and the hot breath from his mouth burned her neck as he spoke.

"The company is very busy right now, I can't stay at home when I'm sick." She was lying on her stomach, half of her body was pressed by him, and it was slightly difficult for her to speak.

"High fever is easy to recur, your current body temperature is still a little higher than normal, if you go to the company and have a high fever again, do you still want Qiu Yan to take you to the hospital?"

"You stingy bag, I thought you cared about me, you just got jealous." She arched herself angrily.

"Don't you want me to eat your vinegar." He rubbed his chin lightly against the bite mark on her shoulder.Got up in the morning.His stubble that had grown in the evening hadn't been shaved off.She was tickled a little.He snorted lowly.Shook his shoulder slightly.

"Comfortable?" The corners of his mouth curled.

The corners of her mouth curled as well, and she let out a soft "um".

He began to kiss her again, starting at the shoulders and the back of her neck, going down the groove of her back, rubbing her hard stubble as he kissed, he heard her breathing slowly, and saw the lines of her back rise and fall more and more.

"You can rest a little longer." He turned around and got out of bed and walked straight to the bathroom.

"You—" she turned to look at him in surprise.

"Why, I can't help you, but I can't help it." He had reached the bathroom door, and he turned around again when he heard her say "you".

It wasn't the first time he had asked her this, and she realized that between the two of them, it was her who couldn't restrain herself.

"I don't want you to think that I'm with you just to be intimate with you, and if I can hold back with you, other women are more like nothing to me." It didn't look like his usual joking tone, and he went into the bathroom.

She froze for a moment, and he was telling her in this particular way that she should have faith in him.

She didn't dare to say that she knew him to Xiao Tian Caiyue, but this lack of understanding was relative to others, just as no one could fully understand herself.

She leaned on the head of the bed and meditated for a while, and got out of bed, and walked into the bathroom.

"Go back to bed, you're still sick." He snatched the towel over and quickly dried the water off her.

"You've got geothermal here, don't be afraid." She pasted him again.

"You're not afraid, I'm afraid." He took a slight step back.

"You're afraid, I'm afraid." She took a slight step towards him. I'm afraid you still think I'm with you just because I was infatuated with you when I was young.I'm afraid you think that in my heart.Qiu Yan occupies the same position as you.I'm afraid you think I'm going to leave you for some other nonsense.Believe it or not.Now I really think of myself as your woman in my heart."

During this time, she and Xiao Tian have had a cold war more than once.Every time she fights a cold war, she will calm down and think a lot.She feels that in their relationship.It is not only she who needs confidence.Xiao Tian also needs her to give him confidence.And this.She obviously doesn't do well enough.

He stared at her with a nice look, took the towel he had thrown on the sink again, and slowly wiped the drops of water from his own body.

She looked into his eyes, at the eyes that were as deep as the sea that could not be erased from her memory, and at the vast and boundless light in his eyes like the starry sky, and at the eyes that stared at her that were getting brighter and brighter, and she saw the flames burning in the depths of the light.

"Do you know what the consequences of your words will be?" He said word for word.

"Whatever it is, I'll keep it with both hands until I can't catch it." She replied sonorously.

He threw away the towel and pulled out a clean towel and spread it on the sink table.

"Sit down on your own." He stared at her, commanding her as a pure man.

The height of the washbasin was just a little below her hips, and she didn't lift it at all, and she lifted her waist and legs slightly, and sat down obediently on the bath towel.

"You say everything, both hands." He finished word for word again and then suddenly attacked.

"Does it hurt? He asked, staring at her.

She frowned but didn't speak, just looked at him, and then approached him and kissed him with some effort.

His attack was sudden, gentle, and the initial discomfort and pain passed, and her brow slowly furrowed.

He took her down, grabbed her by the shoulders, and turned her around, "Look at us, look at us, look at it, remember this moment." He whispered in her ear.

"Why do you have to look at it?" She drooped her eyelids and didn't look at the mirror in front of the sink because she was too shy.

"Because the better... The easier it is to lose." He rested his head on her shoulder, muttering.

At this moment, she suddenly saw so clearly.It turned out that he was talking and laughing in front of people, and he was even arrogant.But he was so insecure in his bones.It turned out that his fear of their feelings was not entirely because of jealousy of Qiu Yan.It turned out that he and she really seemed to be afraid of losing.

"Forgive me for my selfishness." He choked up slightly, and he kissed her tightly on the shoulder.

He thinks that he is really selfish to her, he is really not sure that he can give her happiness, and even yesterday he thought about getting out of this relationship, but he still selfishly wants to possess everything from her, not only body, but also soul and memory, and he always wants to fill her world with everything about himself.

Maybe it's been empty for too long, that's why it's so desperate to grasp the beauty and possession in front of you.

Maybe I lost too much, that's why I'm so nervous and afraid that everything will suddenly disappear.

But if all this will become a nightmare that she can't get rid of in the future, he doesn't know, but if she doesn't leave these memories for herself and her in life, whether she will regret it one day, whether he will regret it, he doesn't know.

Since no one knows what is going to come, the only way to do it now is to try to make herself happy, at least, they have the present moment.

She obediently looked up and stared at them in the mirror until she made sure she had carved the image into her brain.

The two of them soaked in the tub again, and she leaned into his arms and whispered, "We're so indulgent."

He closed his eyes and nodded slightly, and he also felt that it was indeed a little too much. He had been plagued by an inexplicable panic lately, perhaps because she had been tied up some time ago, because of the unknown enemy who was spying on her.