Xiao Tian was a little aggrieved: "Dad, although you haven't seen me, everyone is a man, you must be able to see at a glance that I am not a flamboyant person at all." With Caiyue, she has always bullied me. ”

Cai Yue glanced at Xiao Tian and didn't answer his words. just looked at my mother's smile again, and whispered, "Mom, I will take good care of myself, and I will take good care of Xiao Tian." ”

This is exactly what Xiao Ling told her last time before he died.

The two straightened up and stood in front of Lin Wanyun's tomb again. This was the first time for them, and the two stood side by side in front of Lin Wanyun's grave. Again, neither of them spoke for a long time.

Looking at the smiling face that was similar to herself, Cai Yue had a fleeting illusion for a moment, as if it was herself lying behind the tombstone.

Xiao Tian took two steps forward, squatted down, and stroked the tombstone, and after a long time, he spoke.

"Wanyun, I brought Caiyue to see you. ”

Cai Yue waited for a while, and seeing that Xiao Tian didn't continue to say anything, she also took two steps forward, squatted down next to Xiao Tian, looked at Lin Wanyun's photo, and said in a low voice: "Sister, you are finally reunited with your mother." ”

For a while, Cai Yue's emotions were a little uncontrollable, and there were tears in her eyes.

The years go by, and the past follows the wind. The heartache and jealousy that I once had, at this moment, are as light as a feather, and the rest is only the distress and nostalgia for my sister.

Lin Wanyun was only 20 years old when she died, and Xiao Tian happened to be his 22nd birthday. This is the legal minimum age for marriage. Back then, she and Xiao Tian were so in love with each other that as soon as they reached the legal age, they couldn't wait to form their own families. But on what was supposed to be the best day, it all came to an abrupt end.

Time can take away many things, but there are some memories that cannot be erased no matter what.

Standing in front of the grave of his former lover, the past is still flooding back. Xiao Tian raised his head, looked at the white clouds and blue sky above his head, and exhaled softly.

The old man is gone, and the past is gone. Those who live can only be cherished.

"Wanyun, will you bless me and Caiyue?" Xiao Tian asked softly in his heart.

Beside her, Cai Yue was also asking softly: "Sister, will you bless me and Xiao Tian?"

With her eyes closed, Caiyue seemed to be feeling with her heart, feeling the heart of her half-sister who had never met, and the heart of her boyfriend's first lover who had almost the same face as her, and then, she slowly opened her eyes.

"I think you'll bless me and him. Perhaps, it was because you didn't worry about him that you brought him to me. Otherwise, why didn't he appear by my side sooner or later when I was at my weakest and most helpless? Otherwise, why couldn't I forget him no matter how good other men were to me? You can't leave him, you can't leave him alone in this world, right?"

The struggle that could not be passed at any time, at this moment, it seems to be like an epiphany as the Buddhists say, suddenly enlightened.

Before turning to leave, Cai Yue turned her head and glanced at Lin Wanyun's smile again, and said silently: "Rest in peace, I will give him the love you didn't have time to give him." ”

Leaving this huge independent cemetery, Xiao Tian and Cai Yue went to another cemetery together. There, there were the two people who were once closest to Xiao Tian - Zhao Fei and Cheng Yi. These are two names that will make Xiao Tian's heart ache and unsettle whenever he thinks about them.

He is now in Kyoto and holds an important position in the military, and his childhood friends who have been by his side have been rare for many years. Among all the partners, Zhao Fei and Cheng Yi have always been the most valued and affectionate by him.

In the face of the love that is as heavy as a mountain and as deep as the sea, the so-called right and wrong, right and wrong will seem so pale and shallow.

Right and wrong, right and wrong are often only temporary and relative, but only those feelings, many years later, are still so nostalgic, and even more embarrassing than in the past.

"Zhao Fei, Xiaoyi, Brother Tian hasn't come to see you for a long time. Are you alright?" Xiao Tian's voice sounded like a wisp of voice floating from afar, and his heart seemed to drift to a far away.

Xiao Tian stayed in front of the tombs of the two for a long time. He even sat down on the steps of the grave's tunnel, lit a cigarette, and smoked slowly. Cai Yue sat down next to him as well.

Xiao Tian kept smoking and didn't speak. Cai Yue didn't say anything to disturb his thoughts. She thought that Xiao Tian should be reminiscing about those unforgettable years in her childhood. Only in memories can Zhao Fei and Cheng Yi come back to life again.

Xiao Tian smoked two cigarettes in a row, finally extinguished the cigarette butt, stood up, turned to face the tombstones of Zhao Fei and Cheng Yi again, and whispered: "Zhao Fei, Xiaoyi, Brother Tian is leaving again, I will come to see you again next time when I am free! Ruofei is 12 years old, he is very sensible, and his temperament and appearance are very similar to you both." Don't worry, I'll take care of him, don't worry too much over there. ”

After saying these goodbyes, he turned to Cai Yue and said softly, "Let's go." ”

The two did not leave the cemetery directly, but continued to climb the stairs, because there were still two people, and they were going to visit. The two walked to another cemetery, where two other women lay quietly - Ouyang Qing and Han Lu.

Behind these two names, there are two painful pasts.

Cai Yue didn't deliberately look at Xiao Tian's expression, but she knew that Xiao Tian's eyes would definitely be red without looking at her.

Leaving the cemetery, the two got back into the car.

Cai Yue looked through the car window, silently watching the street scene outside the window quickly retreat. This is the city where she was born and raised, and in the past five years, many changes have taken place here, more and more high-rise buildings are erecting, and the modern city is becoming more and more beautiful, and everywhere is a thriving appearance.

It's just that she just walked out of the cemetery, but she felt a little heavy.

The yin and yang separation of life and death have opened an insurmountable deep gully between life and death. But Caiyue feels that the distance between life and death is actually far from being as far away as ordinary people think. The impermanence of life and the fragility of life make life infinitely closer to death.

In this second and every second that follows, in every corner of the world, there are many people who have walked from the door of life to the door of death.

In the past few years, although she comforts herself every time she is sad, everyone will die sooner or later. But every time she comforted her, in fact, in her heart, she still couldn't help but complain, why me? Why can't I be like most people, guarding my lover and relatives to grow old ordinarily?

But today, as she stood at the graves of those young women, she felt happiness like never before. How luxurious and precious is such happiness!

Is there anything better about her than the three women lying in the cemetery?

The answer is no!

Not only the three of them, but even a living Cheng Yingzi, all of them are better than her, and they all love Xiao Tian, no less than her. But in the end, it was she who got Xiao Tian's fiery and dedicated love! The person who stayed by Xiao Tian's side was also her!

So, what right does she have to complain, and what right does she have not to satisfy?

Cai Yue's gaze turned from the car window to Xiao Tian, who was sitting in the driver's seat.

Xiao Tianzheng was driving the car, felt her gaze, and looked at her. He felt the heat and tenderness in her gaze, didn't ask anything, just turned the car into automatic shift mode, and then pulled her hand over and held it in his hand.

Cai Yue didn't say anything, just the corners of her mouth curled, and there was a happy smile on her face.

What is happiness?

You can be with your beloved, you don't need to say a word, your beloved knows what you need, and is willing to bring you what you need, this is happiness.

What is happiness?

Even if your lover is not around, your heart is still filled with love, and you can miss it silently and wait quietly, which is also happiness.

Happiness is not outside, happiness only exists in your own heart!

Xiao Tian drove the car to that intersection again. Ten years ago, he met at the intersection of Cai Yue. Coincidentally, the road is being built at that intersection again, this time it is a road widening project.

Parking the car in a parking space on the side of the road, Xiao Tian took Caiyue's hand and walked to the intersection.

Everything seems to be the same as before, but everything is completely different. The once big bend has been transformed several times and has long lost its former appearance. But what does it matter? That memory of the past has long been deeply imprinted in the minds of the two of them.

Cai Yue looked at the busy workers on the road and the piles of sand, and said with a smile: "It feels so unreal!"

Xiao Tian also smiled and sighed: "Yes, there is indeed a feeling of suddenly waking up from a dream." ”

Cai Yue turned her head to look at him, stared at his resolute and handsome side face, and asked with a smile, "Is it a nightmare or a beautiful dream?"

Xiao Tian exhaled, turned his face, and stared at the incomparably beautiful and incomparably gorgeous woman in front of him.

Many years ago, when she was still pregnant with his child, the two also made a special trip to this intersection. At that time, he said to her that their encounter was God's will. The past is like yesterday, and now the two are standing at this intersection again.

"All dreams that concern you are both nightmares and sweet dreams. ”

Cai Yue greeted the dazzling sunlight and looked at the man in front of him. Under the sun, the man's phoenix eyes, which made her more and more obsessed, were flashing with deep and waveless love.

Once, they both surrendered themselves to each other with all their hearts. In the past, they also inflicted deep harm on each other, both intentionally and unintentionally. Beautiful, because there are each other. Pain, also because there are each other.