At four o'clock in the morning, before dawn, the night was very dark, as if the whole world was shrouded in death, and there were no stars in the sky, only a crescent moon looming in the clouds, illuminating my way. (.. l $>>>cotton, flower 'sugar' small 'say')

I didn't say hello to anyone, and when everything was silent, I quietly hugged Xu Nan and said goodbye.

Fortunately, my brothers were tired today and slept very deeply, and no one noticed me. As if I were invisible, I quickly left the place where my brothers were stationed, and quietly drowned in the night.

This is the territory of Yunnan, deep in the mountains, full of jungles and mountains, a decent point of the road can not be found, in it, can not distinguish the southeast and northwest, let alone the so-called direction, however, I now have no direction in my heart, just blindly go forward.

My pace became faster and faster, rushing all the way forward, I didn't care whether the road ahead was thorny or bumpy, anyway, my feet were like a pulley, walking fast, as if I was in a hurry to get away from my brothers, away from everyone in the world.

I went from dark to dawn, and suddenly, a line of milky white laser pierced the dark night sky, and then a line of morning light illuminated the east through the clouds, and as the morning glow gradually changed from light red to deep red, the east rose a fiery red sun.

The road under my feet finally became clear, and before I knew it, I had come to the edge of a cliff, this cliff, very steep and high, it seemed to be an abyss below, there was no end in sight, and if I fell, I would be crushed. If someone who is a little afraid of heights stood here, he would have been scared down a long time ago, but I was not afraid at all, and even, I was holding Xu Nan, sitting on the edge of the cliff, looking at the vast world.

At this moment, I suddenly realized that the scenery of nature is very beautiful and beautiful, the wave-like clouds in the distance, under the illumination of the sun, form a colorful and colorful pattern, the sun from emerging to majestic, golden light, the peaks are dyed, and the earth is bright.

However, no matter how beautiful the scenery is, it can't illuminate my heart, I seem to have become a sculpture, fixed on this cliff, the early morning wind, blowing wantonly, but can only blow my short hair, my whole person, still not moving.

The picture freezes, time seems to stand still, I sit on the edge of the cliff for a long time, my eyes wandering, my thoughts jumping, and my heart is sad.

If I have the whole world, but if I lose Xu Nan, then what is the meaning of the world to me? When I had nothing, Xu Nan approached me, helped me, and gave me the light unique to my dark life, my dead heart, because she rekindled, my inferior view of love, because she was rich, my boring life, because she was wonderful, she brought me joy and happiness, and also prompted me to be confident and optimistic, she is my angel.l []

The two of us, given each other the first time, we merged into each other's souls, both physically and mentally have long been united, and from that time on, we should be inseparable. However, fate likes to play tricks on people too much, and always breaks us apart alive. At the beginning, it was Xu's mother who made things difficult in every way, and later, it was the woman in red who kept getting in the way, and slowly, my life entered many other women, which caused me and Xu Nan to divide and merge. In the end, all kinds of enemies appeared one after another, and they would always use Xu Nan to hurt me and torture me. It is not easy for Xu Nan and I to get to where we are today. The thorns between us have never been broken.

Now, I have solved the strongest organization, the Blood Butterfly, created miracles, created brilliance, and eliminated all difficulties, but Xu Nan can't see it, she is gone, forever gone, she can't witness my brilliance. Originally, with Xu Nan here, I do have great ambitions, I want to unify the underground world, I want to build a different black empire, but, Xu Nan died, I suddenly found that everything is nothing, everything is a bubble, I can't even protect my beloved woman, what else to talk about to change the order of the underground world, and how to benefit mankind.

In the final analysis, I'm still a waste, in the face of death, I'm powerless after all, even if I grow up to the way I am today, I think I'm extremely strong, but if it weren't for Uncle Lin sacrificing my life to save me, I'm afraid I would have died tragically under the stick of the Black Widow, I don't even have enough ability to protect myself, and in the end I even hurt others. God seems to have destined me to be the lone star of heaven, no matter what I go through, there are always people who give their lives because of me, I have caused too many people to die tragically, too many souls are pressing on me, making my heart heavy.

Last time, in the Battle of Wolf Mountain, hundreds of my brothers died on the battlefield in vain, at that moment, the blow I suffered was huge, and I was also depressed for a while, but in the end, because of Grandpa Han's enlightenment, because of Xia Jiang's encouragement, because of the inspiration of reality, I still walked out of the haze, and I chose to face the future bravely. I can also see both life and death.

It's just that in this contest with the blood butterfly, I lost nearly a thousand brothers, and Uncle Lin died for me, and it also affected the innocent Xu Nan, even if I can see it again, I can't bear such an ending.

Perhaps, the sacrifice of the brothers can bring the future glory of the Loyalty League, their death is worthwhile, and they also die in heroism.

Perhaps, Uncle Lin's suicide is a relief, and when he arrives in Huangquan, he can be reborn and live a better life.

Perhaps, Xu Nan died for love, and she was satisfied with the happiness of death, she felt that she could no longer affect me, so she felt relaxed, she felt that she had finally done something for me, so she felt satisfied, she died in my arms, so happy.

But, how can a living person be calm?

I am alive now, and I can't be at ease, especially because Xu Nan's death has made a dead knot in my heart, and I can't untie it no matter what.

I have never given Xu Nan real happiness and stability, for so many years, she has been tormented and waiting, after she has endured so many inhuman tortures, she has been waiting for me endlessly, waiting to be with me forever.

When she was alive, I promised her many times that I would be with her when I had cleared all obstacles and done everything.

Now, she's dead, but I can't escape my promise, it's time for me to keep it.

In this world, there is nothing that I can't let go, my father, solved his grievances back then, and got a new life. My brothers who are still alive have survived in a pool of blood, and they will have a good future in the future as they continue to develop the Loyalty League. Duoduo, she has her own choice, I can't sway her, and I can't promise her, I only gave her an apology and a thank you. Xia Xiaoxiao, under my persuasion, she gradually began to come out of the haze, I only hope that she can see it completely in the future and usher in a different life. Ponytail, she can finally live like a normal person, I believe that such a smart girl will not be bound by me for a lifetime, and she will definitely have a brighter new life.

In the early hours of the morning, I had almost solved my last wish, so I could finally leave with Xu Nan without regrets, and I could finally fulfill my promise to Xu Nan.

Since I can't grow old with her in this world, I hope that under the Yellow Spring, I can be with her forever, and I must not let Xu Nan be alone underground. Although I know that Xu Nan doesn't want me to do this, she just wants me to live well, but I know better that Xu Nan's lifelong wish is to be with me, and I must fulfill her long-cherished wish.

Thinking of this, my sad heart suddenly became firm, and I began to feel relaxed, in fact, there is nothing terrible about death, but it is good to be carefree and carefree.

Involuntarily, I slowly stretched out my hand, stroked Xu Nan's cheek, and said softly: "Nan Nan, you have always wanted to live a dull life with me, this is your wish, and I have promised you that when I finish solving my own affairs, I will accompany you to live in seclusion." Now, my matter is basically solved, but you are away from me forever, I am useless, I can't protect you well, and I will be involved in letting you stay at home, I am really a waste!"

Saying that, my heart couldn't help but be dyed with a layer of sadness, my red eyes, and finally fell into tears, tears silently dripped on Xu Nan's face, along Xu Nan's face, and gently glided.

The light of the morning sun floated on Xu Nan's face, lining her flawlessly, as if she was still alive and so beautiful.

Looking at Xu Nan like this, my heart couldn't help beating even more, and the emotions in my body continued to burst out, with endless affection, I spoke again, and said hoarsely: "Nan Nan, do you know? This world is an unpeaceful world, we are still too simple, in fact, there is no absolute paradise in this world, no matter where we hide, we will be disturbed, however, there is a place, but it is absolutely quiet, no one will disturb us, that place, is hell, so I decided, with you to go to Huangquan, with you eternal life, so that we can be together forever, not disturbed, I know I am very selfish to do this, but I still hope you can understand me, don't blame me!"

After saying this, my sorrow suddenly froze, my heart became more and more determined, and the thoughts of suicide filled my whole mind.

Over the years, it is not the first time I have experienced suicide, since I jumped off the building in Pheasant University, fate has given me extremes many times, so that I have tried to commit suicide several times, but every time, I am forced to be helpless, it is to a desperate situation, I am really forced to think about suicide, but my heart does not want to die, and I am also very unwilling.

However, this time is different, this time no one forced me, I wanted to end this life by myself, I wanted to accompany Xu Nan forever, I completely willingly chose the dead end, for me now, death is indeed a relief, because I am really a little tired.

Suddenly, I exhaled a long breath, and then, I hugged Xu Nan and stood up gently.

At this moment, the sun was already very intense, the sky was clear, the golden light enveloped me completely, I was bathed in the sun, and my body and mind were thorough. The morning wind is still blowing slowly, and my soul seems to have drifted away with the wind, leaving only my body stranded here.

The mountains stretched, the jungle was all over the ground, the scenery of nature was still so beautiful, I stood at the very edge of the cliff, looked at the world from afar, and then, overlooking the bottomless abyss at my feet, vaguely, I felt that there was something invisible under the cliff calling me.

My heart was gently pulled, my eyes slowly closed, and a voice sounded in my head: "Goodbye, my life!"