Say goodbye to this life!

For the life of this life, I said goodbye deeply in my heart, and after speaking, I hugged Xu Nan tightly and jumped directly, ready to jump into the abyss below. []

However, before my feet left the ground, my shoulders were suddenly clamped heavily, and suddenly, my whole body was suppressed, and I couldn't move at all, and I was just like a puppeteer, stiffened on the edge of the cliff. It wasn't until the person who clamped my shoulders pulled me back that I reacted.

I took two steps back, and immediately paused, and then, I turned around, looked at the person behind me, and found that a thin but resolute old man, standing upright in the golden sunlight, shrouded in golden light, made him look incomparable.

This person is the old naughty boy miracle doctor, Grandpa Han.

The moment I saw Grandpa Han, my eyes suddenly flashed with a strong look of surprise, I looked at Grandpa Han stupidly, and wondered, "Grandpa Han, why are you here?"

At this moment, Grandpa Han's face was rare and grim, his eyes were full of solemnity, he looked at me deeply, and said with a straight face: "Of course I came with you!"

With me?

Grandpa Han's tracking ability is very strong, I know this, in the provincial capital, Grandpa Han has been secretly protecting me, I have never found anyone behind me, that is to say, Grandpa Han's tracking skills are very high, it is simply unpredictable.

So, this time, I was followed by him, I didn't wonder why I didn't notice it at all, I just wondered, why did Grandpa Han suddenly want to follow me, I thought I was behaving normally today, no one should know that I would leave without saying goodbye, right?

Moreover, when I left, everyone had already fallen asleep, and I deliberately left quietly while everyone was asleep, but I didn't expect that Grandpa Han followed me silently, which was really surprising to me.

I looked at Grandpa Han in a daze, and was very puzzled: "Why are you following me?"

Grandpa Han's face was still serious, but there was a hint of helplessness in his eyes, he looked at me and made a somewhat bitter voice: "Actually, I have long seen it, you can't think about it, so I've been paying attention to your movements!"

Hearing this, I couldn't help but tremble in my heart, I thought I was acting very naturally, even the extremely smart ponytail, she was not sure that I had suicidal tendencies, she just added this possibility to her worries, so she would use her way to persuade me to cheer up, but, after all, she didn't see that I must not be able to think about it, but Grandpa Han seemed to be sure that I would do stupid things, and he even did not hesitate to pay attention to my dynamics all the time. How did he get such a thorough insight into my heart?

However, now is not the time to dwell on this, no matter what the reason is, anyway, Grandpa Han now knows that I am going to commit suicide, and I can't hide it if I want to, so I said directly to Grandpa Han: "Yes, I want to commit suicide, I want to die with Xu Nan, you don't have to persuade me, I have already made up my mind!"

My tone was very resolute and unquestionable, and I had made up my mind, and no one could change it, so it was useless to persuade anyone.

Grandpa Han listened to my words, his brows couldn't help frowning, his eyes showed obvious disappointment, and he said to me in a very heavy tone: "Wu Lai, did this little thing knock you down?"

Without thinking, I said: "I didn't fall, I just didn't want to live anymore, for me, it's more tiring to live than to die, I'd rather die!"

Hearing this, Grandpa Han's disappointment was even worse, he looked at me and asked rhetorically: "You said lightly, what should you do if you die the people around you, have you ever thought about their feelings!"

I said bluntly: "I thought about it, I just sat here and kept thinking, but I'm still going to die!"

My resoluteness made Grandpa Han a little angry, his eyes became more and more disappointed, his expression became more and more solemn, suddenly, he increased his volume, and said in a fierce tone: "Wu Lai, you can't have such extreme thoughts, you have to be clear, you are Wu Qiankun's son, how can you think about committing suicide, this is a coward's performance!"

Regarding the word coward, Grandpa Han deliberately accentuated his tone, he hoped that this would arouse my fighting spirit, but now any words are useless to me, I have thought everything through, suicide is my final decision.

Therefore, I once again said to Grandpa Han non-negotiable: "Cowards are cowards, I don't care!"

Seeing me like this, Grandpa Han was even more anxious, he almost drank and said to me: "After going through so much, why don't you have your father's blood? Your father suffered no less than you back then, and the blows he endured were no less than yours, and he was helpless when he was mixed with black, he relied on his own hands to create his own black empire, but in the end, he found that he was just a chess piece, but he was not defeated, on the contrary, he dared to go against the sky and forcibly be with your mother, just because of that love." But the consequences of this love are very cruel, your mother is crazy, and she was picked up by the Peng family, and even disappeared in the end, this series of blows were added to your father, but he still did not fall, he still insisted on going to this day. And you, what qualifications do you have to die? is it because of Xu Nan?"

Grandpa Han's words were said with emotion, obviously, he was very dissatisfied with my behavior, and he wanted to infect me with my father's strength and let me open my head.

It's just that I've fallen into a dead knot, how can I easily untie it? I still stubbornly retorted: "Yes, it's because of Xu Nan." My dad was able to hold on, and that's because my mom was just missing, and Xu Nan was really dead, and she was killed by my own hands!"

Hearing this, Grandpa Han couldn't help but sigh lightly, and said seriously: "Xu Nan died because of you, you can repent, but there is no need to die." Also, although your mother is missing, in the eyes of your father, she is dead, and he suffers no less than you, if he could have died, he would have died a long time ago. But he has a responsibility, he wants you to grow up well, and he devotes his life to you. But what about you, have you ever thought about your son?"

My son?

Grandpa Han's words were like earth-shattering thunder, and they exploded in my heart very suddenly, making me suddenly wake up, it turned out that I still have a son.

My dad devoted his whole life to my son, but I thought about dying, and I didn't care about his hard work at all. The saddest thing is that I don't care about the old and the young, I don't even have any idea of being responsible for my son, and even, I haven't even seen him in person, so to speak, I didn't take into account his situation and his future at all, I really am not ordinary selfish.

Before, I swore that I had done everything, considered everything that should be considered, and explained everything in the future, and I could leave with peace of mind. But it turned out that it was just my idea of shirking responsibility, my most selfish thought, ignoring what I didn't want to think about, ignoring my responsibility, ignoring my son.

If I die, my son will lose his father forever, and in the future, his life will be incomplete, and even his heart will be flawed, and his future will inevitably be affected.

If I die, my dad will lose his only son, he is trying to live just to give me a better life, but I leave him to commit suicide, how hurt will he be?

Grandpa Han is right, it is very simple to evade responsibility, if my father wanted to escape, he could have ignored me and died by himself to seek relief. But he didn't, he worked hard to pull me up alone, and when I was sensible, he went to jail and repented for my mother's affairs. He was released from prison when I was facing the most difficult bottleneck, and he reformed me so that I could live a brave life on my own. But I, in the so-called brave life, keep causing trouble.

It was because of me that my dad chose to come back to the world, and then suffered a series of tribulations.

For me, my dad really gave too much, his love is selfless and great, but how do I repay his love?

I, as a son, am too unfilial and unqualified. As a father, I am even more unqualified, I even ignored my son as air. Although I don't need to raise my son with my own hands like ordinary fathers, I must at least think about my son, give him proper love and care, and let him have a healthy psychology!

At the end of the day, I only think about myself, and the so-called suicide is almost only about my own feelings, because no one but me agrees with my suicidal behavior.

Xia Xiaoxiao, she knew that I was uncomfortable for Xu Nan's death, so she persuaded me to look away, and the purpose was also to hope that I would live well.

Ponytail, she said that she was willing to wait for me for the rest of her life, which was to encourage me to live.

Grandpa Han, he didn't sleep all night, just to be able to keep an eye on me, and when he saw me commit suicide, he immediately showed up to stop me.

Others, if they knew that I had suicidal thoughts, would have spared no effort to persuade me.

Even Xu Nan, before she died, she heard that I was going down to accompany her, she became so excited, if she could say one more word at that time, she would definitely persuade me not to be stupid.

It can be said that if I die, everyone will be uncomfortable, so I chose to commit suicide because I didn't care about the discomfort of others and only cared about my own liberation, and I was the most selfish person in the world.

Thinking of this, I suddenly laughed, this is a self-deprecating laugh, it is a bitter laugh, I hate my own selfishness, I shouldn't, I really shouldn't.

In a person's life, life is valuable, and death is valuable, my current suicidal thoughts say that I will go down to accompany Xu Nan, but in fact, this is just my high-sounding excuse, I just can't bear the self-blame in my heart, I feel that Xu Nan died because of it, I can't pass my own level, so I have to die to liberate. I felt that I had failed Xu Nan's waiting, so I thought about going to Huangquan to accompany her. Anyway, I just couldn't bear the torment of owing Xu Nan, so I cowardly wanted to end everything with death. This kind of death is absolutely worthless, and will only hurt everyone who cares about me, including the dead Xu Nan, after all, her last wish before her death was to hope that I would live.

Therefore, for Xu Nan, for my father, for my son, for Xia Xiaoxiao, ponytail, Duoduo, Han Shuang, Grandpa Han, and all my brothers, I should live bravely, even if I bear permanent guilt in my heart, I have to carry it, even if I have a thousand pounds of burden, I have to bear it. I can't just live for myself, but also consider the feelings of others, I want to live as a man, worthy of life, even if I want to die, it is a worthy death, not a cowardly suicide.

Thinking like this, my belief suddenly became firmer, and my hand holding Xu Nan became tighter, and suddenly, I straightened my back, faced Grandpa Han, and said solemnly: "I understand, Grandpa Han, I'm sorry, I was reckless, I shouldn't have suicidal thoughts." I promised you that I would accompany you back to see Frost, and my son, I have to do it!"

Hearing my words, Grandpa Han's tense face finally eased, and his eyes showed real relief, he curled the corners of his mouth, smiled slightly, and said, "You won't do stupid things in the future, right?"

Hearing it, Grandpa Han was worried that I was just figuring it out for a while, and he was afraid that I would be hit in the future, and I would have radical thoughts again.

In fact, sometimes, the thought is only a momentary thing, and at a certain moment, I have a firm determination to go to Huangquan with Xu Nan, so I am stubborn and have been marching towards this determination, never giving up.

And Grandpa Han pulled me back the moment I jumped off the cliff, I was equivalent to coming back from the ghost gate, so the idea of dying again was actually not as strong as before, and I kept facing Grandpa Han later, and it was more of a hard mouth.

Now, after Grandpa Han's on-demand, I really figured it out, this is not just a temporary enlightenment, but permanent, because, I will live in the future, not only for myself, but also for the people who care about me, on my shoulders, I will always have to carry a responsibility, no matter how painful the experience is, no matter how difficult things I encounter, I have to learn to carry it. I want to follow my father's example and stand tall for the rest of my life, and I will never fall down easily.

Here, I keep admonishing myself to keep in mind the belief of this moment and stick to it for the rest of my life.

Suddenly, my eyes brightened, my expression became extremely resolute, I looked at Grandpa Han firmly, and said solemnly: "No, let's go back!"

As I spoke, I hugged Xu Nan tightly and left first.

However, I had just taken a few steps when Grandpa Han suddenly stopped me again: "Wu Lai, put Xu Nan down!"

Hearing this, I reflexively turned around, faced Grandpa Han, and said categorically: "No, I can't leave Xu Nan here alone, I want to take her home!"

Grandpa Han pursed his lips slightly, and said in a deep voice, "Put it down!"

When I heard Grandpa Han say to let go of Xu Nan again, I suddenly realized that something was wrong, even if I wanted to bury Xu Nan, it wasn't in this place, why did Grandpa Han insist on letting me let go of Xu Nan?

Suddenly, my heart slammed twice, and I hurriedly asked Grandpa Han, "Why?"

Grandpa Han took a heavy breath, and then, he slowly spoke, and said secretly: "Xu Nan, she is not dead. ”