"What is she? As soon as he entered the door, Xiao Tian asked in a low voice.

"High fever.39 degrees Celsius 6.But.It's just a common viral flu.Catch a cold."

Xiao Tian breathed a sigh of relief, pulled up a chair and sat down next to Qiu Yan.

"What's wrong with you?" Qiu Yan turned his head and glanced at Xiao Tian.

Xiao Tian just shook his head and didn't answer, Qiu Yan looked at him, his eyes were very complicated.

It seems that in her sleep, she also felt that Xiao Tian was coming.Cai Yue opened her eyes a little weakly.Xiao Tian immediately stood up and took a big step forward, sat on the side of her bed.Gently touched her forehead with his hand.Although the fever has not completely receded, it is obviously not as high as 39 degrees 6.

"Isn't it uncomfortable?"

"You're here, I'm fine." She struggled to laugh a little.

"It's all like this, and you dare to say it's okay, do you want me to worry about you to death?" Obvious blame plus distress.

Qiu Yan stood up without saying hello to the two men, turned around and left the room, and then closed the door again.

Glancing at the man in front of him.The originally heroic face was now haggard and anxious.The eyes were obviously dark green.The lips and chin were also black stubble.Cai Yue reached out and stroked his face.Gently rubbed the stubble with her fingertips.The tears that had not been able to flow these days finally flowed out at this moment.

Xiao Tian didn't say anything, he was afraid of touching her arm, which was still on a drip, and carefully took her into his arms.

She grabbed his shirt tightly with one of her free arms, although there were many tears, but the cry was not loud, but the suppressed sorrow made Xiao Tian more and more sad.

"I'm sorry, I really don't know how to love you." She whimpered.After all, she still didn't do what Ouyang Qing told her to trust him unconditionally.She felt that she didn't deserve Xiao Tian's love.But at the same time.she also felt that she really didn't like the life she was living like a frightened bird every day.This was beyond her imagination.She didn't know how difficult it would be to love him.

"It's okay, don't think about it, get up and everything will pass." He patted her gently and comforted her.

She was tired of crying, and fell asleep again, Xiao Tian helped her cover the quilt, wiped away the tears left on her face, and kissed her forehead gently.

Qiu Yan didn't leave, just sat on a chair outside the room.

Some time ago, he knew about Caiyue's kidnapping from abroad, and he knew about it when he came back from abroad.Seeing the obviously escalated protective measures.Qiu Yan knew that it was because Xiao Tian's worries and guards had escalated.He was with Caiyue every day.Caiyue's continued obviously low mood during this time showed that her relationship with Xiao Tian had once again entered a low point.Today she was even more sick in bed.Needless to say.In addition to her own frailty.More of a heart disease.

Xiao Tian walked over and sat down next to Qiu Yan.

"Caiyue slept again."

Xiao Tian let out a soft "um".

"What are you going to do next?"

"What would you do if you were me?"

"I'm not you, my decisions are of no value to you."

"But there's one thing you and I do, and you love the moon."

Xiao Tian's words made Qiu Yan's heart shock: What was Xiao Tian thinking, why did he say that, an idea popped up in his heart, and he said: "Different people love in different ways."

"Qiu Yan, no matter what I decide, the damage to Caiyue is inevitable, and no matter how I decide, it will be wrong." Xiao Tian's mouth was like holding a yellow lotus, and the words he said were extremely bitter.

Xiao Tian's words confirmed Qiu Yan's thoughts: he really wanted to withdraw from this relationship that brought danger and pain to Caiyue.

"You knew it was going to be like this, but you chose to be with her anyway."

"Yes, it's all my fault, but it's done, and now I just want to make her feel less upset."

Hearing Xiao Tian say this, it stands to reason that Qiu Yan should be happy, but the first thing he felt was actually a little embarrassed.

"Xiao Tian, the three of us are not at fault in this matter, the fault is the arrangement of fate, which makes us all entangled in this relationship."

Both of them fell silent, and the corridor on the VIP room floor of the hospital was unusually quiet.

After a long time, Qiu Yan broke the silence: "Xiao Tian, if I didn't exist, wouldn't you be less entangled, do you think that I should be the best choice for Caiyue, so you will be more concerned about what you can't give Caiyue."

Xiao Tian bent down and put his elbows on his thighs: "Maybe, but without you, there will be other men, maybe they are not as good as you, but they can still give Caiyue what I can't give."

"You think so, I know it's because you really love Caiyue, you want to give her everything a woman deserves, since things are already like this, then we might as well let go of the entanglement, see how fate arranges, many people and many things are not what we want, we have to get, we can let go if we want."

"You'd say such fatalistic things." Xiao Tian glanced back at Qiu Yan.This rival in love was almost perfect in his eyes.It was hard for him to imagine that he would actually say such a thing at such a time.

"Why, why can't I say something like that?" Qiu Yan smiled and looked at Xiao Tian as well.

"I thought that with your wisdom and perseverance, you should always be high-spirited, and you should be determined to get everything you want, especially for Caiyue, and you never really wanted to give up."

Qiu Yan, like Xiao Tian, slowly bent down and rested his elbows on his thighs. Is your wisdom and persistence less than mine?

The two looked at each other, both saw each other's helplessness in each other's eyes, smiled, and both looked away.

The two of them remained bent over like this, and there was a long silence.

"You stay and take care of her." This time, the two men spoke almost at the same time to break the silence.

For such a tacit understanding, the two could only chuckle and shake their heads.

"You're really going to just give up." Xiao Tian's mood was obviously very low, or Qiu Yan asked first.

"Now that I know that I am wrong, I can't continue to make mistakes, and my withdrawal may be the best outcome, and since it was my selfishness and greed that caused all this, let me ...... now. Let's put an end to this."

When Xiao Tian said this, he not only bent over but also hung his head.When he said the word 'end', his brow furrowed heavily.But he quickly let go again.Saying the word "end" was no easier for him than when he decided to "start".Qiu Yan noticed that his tightly clenched hands were not flowing because of too much force, and some places were even purple and white.

"Is there really no way?"

"This problem will be faced by me and Caiyue sooner or later, it is better to face it now than in the future, and it will do less damage to Caiyue." His voice was small, as if his strength had suddenly been drained.

"If she is willing to endure all this, you may not be happy, you may not be a good husband and father."

"How could I blame her.For so many years.How did I live?No one knows.Caiyue chose to be with me.Even if I protect her from any enemy.But I myself will be the biggest hurt to her.

No one can bear to live forever in a dark corner that she can't see clearly, but she can never get close, I can love her, and I love her, I can even die for her, but while I'm alive, I can't give myself completely to her, and if she stays with me, she has to accept that I have reservations for her forever."

Xiao Tian's head hung all the time, and he spoke very slowly.

"Didn't you think about changing your identity?" Qiu Yan hesitated, but still asked, because this matter is not only related to Xiao Tian, but also related to Cai Yue.

"Of course I did." Xiao Tian raised his head slightly, his eyes were a little confused: "Ten years ago, I thought about Wanyun when I left, but in the end I stayed.Although what I am doing now is not exactly what I imagined.But some things must be done.If someone else is not as good as me.At least I know what I am doing."

At this point, he lowered his head again: "You know I'm an orphan, no matter how dangerous I am, I don't have relatives to worry about like anyone else, or they have to apologize for not taking good care of their families.

Wanyun's death was a heavy blow to me, so after she left me, I said to myself, I won't love anymore, Caiyue and I may have been just a mistake from the beginning, I thought I loved her with all my heart, gave her everything I could, and we could be happy, but happiness wasn't so easy."

Xiao Tian's words moved Qiu Yan a little. Don't you think you're paying too much for your ideals and that status?"

"It's too big, it's not too much for me." Xiao Tian shook his head slightly, and raised his head slightly: "If you see the comrades who fight with you every day, they can't smile at you anymore for a second.Even suddenly, they can't find a complete piece of their body.Compared to them, you won't feel that you have lost a lot."

In order for the world to function better, it must be necessary for some people to do something with obsession. My identity makes me have to do something I don't want to do, but it also gives me the opportunity to do something that others can't do. This is my misfortune and my luck.

My feelings and my life were no longer my own when I decided to join this team, I swayed and suffered, but I don't regret it, at least I don't regret it now, and even if I regret it, you know, there are some things that don't make sense when I don't regret it."