I was sure that the story between Jiang Beisheng and Zuo Lan, the two cousins, would not be too simple, so I asked wisely: "Are you hungry?" Or, I'll go get some food, and we'll talk while eating." ”

"Can I ask first," Jiang Beisheng straightened up half of his body: "What do you have on the menu?"

"Don't worry, I'm neither steaming nor boiling this time, I'm going to use bubbles instead. ”

"Instant noodles?"

"Are you alright?" I asked, stretching my neck, nervous.

Jiang Beisheng raised his index finger and knocked it on his forehead a few times: "Do you have coffee at home?" ”

"If it's instant, it's like there's a box. ”

I hugged the blanket and rushed to the restaurant. In a small compartment at the bottom of the wall cabinet, a small half box was turned out.

In the early spring of this year, Kidney Beans stayed at my house for a few days, and she brought this box of instant coffee.

At the mention of kidney beans, I suddenly remembered that I had forgotten the most important thing of the day. I hurriedly returned to the sofa with the brewed coffee, Jiang Beisheng took the cup slowly, but his eyes lingered on my face: "What's wrong?"

"It's fine. I chuckled.

"Where's your instant noodles?" Jiang Beisheng's gaze never left me: "Aren't you hungry?"

"Uh," I said listlessly as I re-wrapped myself into a rice dumpling, "I remember wrong, I ate the last packet of instant noodles a few days ago." ”

"Hungry?"

I shook my head, "Say it." ”

"Good. ”

Jiang Beisheng took a sip of coffee, judging from the expression on his face when he drank it, he was obviously a person who liked to drink coffee, but was very repulsive to instant.

I heard that such a person naturally has a heart that is picky about life.

No wonder I look down on my steamed rice balls and boiled oats.

I huffed and buried my head in sending a message to Kidney Bean.

The kidney beans exploded, and I was exhausted by the bombardment of text messages.

"Wu Xiaoqi," just when I was anxious, Jiang Beisheng suddenly asked, "Do you believe in love?"

I was stunned and shook my head.

"Me too. Jiang Beisheng smiled: "But my mother believes it, and my father also believes it." ”

Wait, didn't you say Zuo Lan, how did you get involved in the love of your parents?

I raised my head suspiciously, just in time to meet his smiling eyes: "My father fell in love with my mother at first sight, but my mother didn't love my father, and the reason why I agreed to marry him was entirely because of Su Xin's father." ”

"This, what does this have to do with Zuo Lan?"

"Of course it does. Jiang Beisheng gave me a slightly calm look: "You put your phone on the coffee table, and I'll tell you slowly." ”

Kidney beans, I'm sorry.

After sending the last message, I did what Jiang Beisheng said.

"My mother and Su Xin's father are a pair of childhood sweethearts. In order to help Su Xin's father get the first bucket of entrepreneurial capital, my mother married my father from a wealthy family. Probably waiting for Su Xin's father Feihuang Tengda to marry her later, and her mother has been using contraception since marriage. My appearance is a conspiracy. My father, unwilling to lose his mother, secretly manipulated condoms. When my mother found out about my existence, she tried to remove me several times. Fortunately, my father kept watch day and night, so that my mother did not succeed. ”

"This, what kind of love is this?" I clenched my hands into fists, and my heart burned wildly: "Tiger poison does not eat children." ”

"Why are you so angry?" Jiang Beisheng smiled and asked calmly, "Do you feel sorry for me?"

Originally, he was distressed, but when he asked like this, he didn't dare to feel distressed.

"Everyone has compassion. ”

I forcibly explained for myself, and a streamer flashed in Jiang Beisheng's quiet eyes: "No matter what kind of heart you have, I will accept it with distress." ”

I coughed and didn't speak.

"Wu Xiaoqi, do you know?"

I guess I still don't know the man in front of me too well. Although the parental love he dictated is a dusty thing for a long time, the pain brought by this love and the tragedy it itself should not be sealed by the parties for a long time. Especially Jiang Beisheng.

But he just put on an open-minded attitude with the wind.

"Sometimes, I'm glad you're a compassionate woman, but sometimes, I'm really disgusted with you. ”

"Why?" I frowned, my eyes full of ice knives.

Jiang Beisheng crooked the corners of his mouth, and did not satisfy my why, but chose to continue to tell the story: "After my mother gave birth to me, she almost didn't hold me except for breastfeeding. I was raised by my father with a handful of and urine. When she was one year old, her mother suddenly became hysterical, and she knelt in front of her father several times, begging him to let her go. The father was still too soft-hearted to withstand his mother's bitter pleading, and finally agreed to sign the divorce. After his mother left, his father lost his soul and suffered from alcoholism. One day, my aunt brought Zuo Lan to see me. At that time, Zuo Lan was only three years old, perhaps because she was only three years old, so when she naively told her father that her new uncle and aunt were about to have a new baby, her father completely collapsed. At night, he hid in the room where his and his mother's wedding photos were hung, drank a lot of wine, and at one o'clock in the morning, my grandfather and the family servant did not hear the sound, thinking that he had fallen asleep drunk, so they went home to rest. ”

"Could it be that the car accident happened that day?"

Jiang Beisheng hummed: "At two o'clock in the morning, he went to the garage to drive a car to see his mother, and the tragedy happened." ”

Those who are not as alive as they are dead, and perhaps they are dead, is the real liberation.

I bit my lower lip: "Zuo Lan is good to you out of her guilt, which is very understandable." But what about you? ...... you? You really don't blame her?"

"Would you hold a grudge against a three-year-old?"

Probably not, but definitely not easily.

In the summer of my thirties, it was extremely hot, there was endless noise outside the window, and the desertion in the backyard of the unit was gradually completely eaten up by a few children on summer vacation.

I curled up in the shade of the tree, and Nanako's tears and snot cried that my ears almost grew calluses.

"You useless thing, my old face, you've lost it. Do you know?"

Alas, here's the thing.

My little cousin is getting married tomorrow, and I'm not invited because I'm an old woman who hasn't married. And it was my aunt who made this painful decision.

I heard that I really can't complain about her.

Half a month ago, she began to sleep all night over whether to invite me. After seeking medical advice in many ways, to no avail, there is a great deal of terminal illness and the meaning of dying in the world soon. When the family was worried about whether to do the funeral or the happy event first, my aunt was suddenly possessed by Xianglin's sister-in-law, and sighed when she met people: "My little niece's life is really hard, and the fortune teller said that she has no marriage in this life. ”

"Aunt and aunt, it's the same as half a mother. When Jiang Beisheng heard this, he took the initiative to hug me and said, "How can she be worthy of this 'aunt' when she does this?"

"So," I said seriously, "I called her afterwards and told her: From now on, I will treat my aunt as if she is dead, and people and ghosts will not see each other during the New Year's holidays, and a pile of paper money is indispensable during the Qingming Festival." If you receive it, remember to buy some good ones in the Netherworld, and if you don't receive it, I will burn it again next year. ”

Jiang Beisheng's face changed suddenly: "According to calculations, you have burned this paper money for five years, do you plan to continue to burn it?"

I nodded: "Some hatred, just like loneliness and pride, unwilling to compromise with the noise and philistines, is destined not to heal." Jiang Beisheng, if you hate Zuo Lan and your mother, I am willing to understand. But don't lie to me, because, because I've decided to trust you completely. In the future, I will stay away from Dr. Lim. ”

(To be continued)