"I don't know, you shouldn't have come to me, you shouldn't have come to ·····"

I knew that what greeted us in front of us was a cliff and an abyss, but I had to force myself to jump off.

I do, but I don't want him to be like that.

"If I could love you a little less, I don't want to force us all to the point of no return! Xia Xia, if there is no you, what is it like to live! Parting with you is like frying oil, I have never felt that a person's life has been so long. Song Junxi's face was covered with frost.

Continue to speak: "I finally know what those martyrs are, life is better than death!"

The word dead came out of the mouth of a man like him, I was like a lightning strike, he actually had this thought, death, how could it.

He didn't look at me, in the dim light, the faint halo of his whole body, faint, as if he was about to leave me at any time in the night.

No, I left him, not to force him to die, I think he is better.

How could he, say this word casually!

"You're crazy!" I yelled at him, "you're dead, what will happen to your parents, they're the only kid you, you're dead····· We can't be together, I'll just hate you, you coward!"

"I'm crazy, I was crazy ten years ago, I'm crazy when I meet you again, I'm crazy a long time ago!"

Song Junxi's low voice hit my heart word by word like a magic spell.

I can't struggle because of the pain!

He stood there, his figure lonely, when did the young man who laughed and talked for thousands of miles become like this.

I don't want it!

He is my God, God is immortal, how can he be so desperate that he wants to die!

Even if it's damned, it can't be him!

Tears were blown down by this autumn wind.

"Song Junxi, you are too good, why do you say such things to me, say death in front of me, are you trying to force yourself to death, you are trying to force me to death, you are always like this, do whatever you want in front of me, force me, and blackmail me.

It's you who says you love me, it's you who says you want to take care of me, it's you who says you don't give up, and now it's you who says you're going to die, what do you want, don't you just rely on me to like you, and you want to be domineering and willful in my world to the end, aren't you afraid that I'll be sad, Song Junxi, you're a bastard!"

I lay in his arms and cried uncontrollably, cold tears dripping on his already damp blazer, no temperature, only humidity!

"You're right, I'm a bastard who is nothing! I don't want you to be so upset! I don't want to ······."

"But····· What should we do? Song Junxi, we can't be together in our lives!"

The dawn is at hand, but it doesn't belong to us.

The sky didn't know when it would start to rain, and the two of us stood in the rain, the cold raindrops hitting us, as if to remind us that even a hug would be damned.

The rain extinguished the last trace of warmth that we comforted each other.

I hid in his arms and my whole body trembled.

Song Junxi suddenly picked me up, I don't know where he was taking me.

I tried to break free, but I couldn't, and I looked up at the dark room.

Close your eyes and compromise!

The car stopped in front of a hotel, I hesitated, he was stubborn.

Lonely men and widows in the middle of the night, the malicious gaze of the front desk lady.

I didn't dare to look up.

The love is naturally strong in the depths!

Ten years of longing finally became poison!

I just want to be so deeply connected to him.

My waist was tightly grasped by him, and the next movement almost made me faint, and my unbearable struggle, like a child, had no effect on him.

I could only tremble slightly, and I couldn't help but shed tears.

My tears, not because of pain, not because of shame, but because of despair, the desperation of kisses, the desperation of love, we all know that it is just a dream of feigned confusion.

The series of strange throbbing sensations he brought to me scared me a little.

Until the end, the moment we reached the peak of each other, my body spasmed, and I couldn't calm down for a long time.

He hugged me gently, like a child, and slowly kissed my hair.

We were unusually calm on this rainy night.

The two of them slowly quieted down from the passion just now, and I nestled in his arms obediently.

In the silent darkness, I heard his powerful heartbeat, each sound made me feel that it was the sound of his heart broken, so sad, as if the two of them were still in love with each other in the mirror a second ago, but as soon as I let go of the mirror, the mirror shattered, and all I saw was a broken face.

It's hard to have both love, it's hard to have both, that's it, let's meet what to do, let's fall in love with what?

We are so close that we don't distinguish between you and me, but we also face that you are not you, and I am not me.

"Xia Xia, am I useless!"

I pressed my head against his chest, and Song Junxi murmured silently: "My father divorced her, she really only left me!" Song Junxi buried it in my hair.

"I want to give you happiness, but in the end, I will only give you disappointment and hurt!" Song Junxi's voice was hoarse and nasal.

"I'm willing, as long as it's given to me by you, even if it's hurt, I'm willing, Junxi, I don't want anything, don't reciprocate, naturally fearless hurt and don't hurt! I won't embarrass you, I won't let you be unfilial, I just want you to be good!"

"But I made you so miserable, I only gave you pain! And you are the last thing I want to hurt!"

Song Junxi's tears flowed down my hair, and it seemed to wet my heart.

"If these make you happy, I am willing, Song Junxi, do you know? You have always been my god, every moment I am with you is a gift to me, I am only grateful to you, I thank you for being by my side, it is enough to have you, I just want to make a very selfish request, in addition to experiencing summer in your life, there is also a summer summer, it is enough·····"

Song Junxi hugged me tightly, and the tears of the two of them flowed like a river.

"I'm not as good as you think, after I met you, I just want to do one thing, that is, to protect you, to give you happiness, my life is so long, but I can't even do this one thing well, you say, am I extremely bad. ”

Song Junxi asked me to look him in the eyes like this, Song Junxi, will you still love it? How can you be your god, I don't deserve it at all! I'd rather you call me a bastard, because the person who hurt you from beginning to end is simply self-righteous me, I was, and I still am! If I could, I just want to compensate you with my life, I owe too much!"