Chapter 53: The rest of your life is you
After giving the car keys to a waiter and explaining that she handed them over to Sister Wei, I took out my mobile phone and called Quan Yu, and was picked up after beeping twice, every time I called Quan Yu, it was like this, never more than two rings, and there was no time when I couldn't get through, as if I could find him at any time.
"Rourou~", was falling into his own careful thoughts, Quan Yu's voice came through the microphone, gentle, sexy, but had a calming effect.
I put away my thoughts and responded to him gently, "Well, I'm at the door of Sister Wei's bar, I don't want to go back by myself, you can pick me up." ”
Quan Yu's calm voice came again, "Okay, I don't worry about you at the door of the bar, either you go to the bar, or you go to the McDonald's next to you and sit and wait for me, and I will call you when I arrive." "Always so attentive.
"Well, then I'll go to McDonald's, and you drive carefully. ”
I hung up the phone and sat down at McDonald's, ordered a drink, found a window seat and sat down, watching the crowd come and go in a daze. I don't like to be in the crowd, but I like to find a quiet place to watch the crowd. In the endless flow of people, it seems that you can see all the states of life.
Some people are in a hurry, some people are idle, some people are smiling, some people are full of things, everyone has their own story, and everyone has their own transformation.
Warm, there are parents who spoil their children, emotional, lovers hug each other tightly, comforted, children who are considerate of the elderly, envious, there are people who throw each other in the year of the sixtieth year. Some adults scold their children, some regret their lovers turn against each other, some are cold-hearted, some children disrespect their elders, and some are lost, and some old people with bent backs speak ill of each other. Just sit quietly, and the life in front of you will be full of all kinds of eyes.
Some people who are happy and smile may not have encountered difficulties, but they have survived smoothly, and then look back and feel that it is nothing more than that, those who are worried will also survive one day, and their faces are full of peaceful smiles.
Among thousands of people, we will always gain some and lose some. What is lost can only be lost, and it can no longer be pursued, and every unexpected encounter is a kind of ingenious fate, which should be cherished.
Applying these truths that I have learned from others to myself is: Chen Mozhi is in the past for me, even if there is unwillingness and unwillingness, for both parties, letting go is the most relaxed. And Kwon Yu is for me now, and I hope to write him into my future. The present is so beautiful, I can't hurt my present because of my past, and I can't burn the near future because of the past.
I believe that right now, the best love for Kwon Yu is to confess. No longer let him be afraid and worried, no longer burn his sincere heart because of my vacillation.
However, there are so many things in this matter, and I was thinking about where to start with Quan Yu, but I was startled by the sudden appearance of the head in front of me, and the Coke in my hand almost fell on my body.
Kwon Yu's prank succeeded, laughing and leaning on his chair to make a triumphant expression looking at me, but I could see a hint of uneasiness in his eyes. In my heart, I regretted my wavering of loss.
Pretending to be angry, he kicked him and said, "Let's go to the beach." ”
Quan Yu tilted his head and stared at me for a long time before he slowly spoke: "Okay." ”
Tonight is a good day for a date, with a gentle sea breeze and ripples, and the temperature and humidity are just right. A couple by the sea made all kinds of intimate gestures, pouring out their love to each other. This intimate picture and the love words that follow the wind in my ears burned me a little blush.
Quan Yu is very accustomed to it, and he doesn't feel embarrassed at all, thinking that he eats a lot of hamburgers, and Europeans and Americans have seen a lot of expressions of emotions, which can't get into his eyes. I blushed to myself, he looked around like a normal person, occasionally commenting on which boy's hand was not placed correctly, which girl was pretending to be affectionate, and so on. Then from time to time, he rubbed his big head against my neck and bit my ear with his mouth. I hid a few times with a smile, but when I saw that I couldn't dodge, I didn't hide.
I stared at the flickering lights on the sea for a long time, then turned around and said, "Quan Yu, I have something to tell you."
Quan Yu's body stiffened, the palm holding my hand tightened, and he pretended to say in a relaxed tone: "Then I have to ask you whether what you want to say is a good thing or a bad thing." I'm going to listen to the good things now, and I'm going to go home and lie in bed to listen to the bad things in case I might fall down at any time. Immediately after that, he made a fainting motion and leaned on me.
I put my hands on Quan Yu's hands, looked directly into his eyes, and tried to make my tone as steady as possible: "Quan Yu, in the past two days, I have been a little abnormal, and I can't stand you. The hospitalized friend I told you about was actually Chen Mo. Actually, I should have told you a long time ago, but I'm really afraid that you will be unhappy. However, now I feel that if I don't tell you, it will be disrespectful to you. As he spoke, he looked up at Quan Yu with a weak heart, not knowing how he would react next.
"And then, what do you want to say?" Quan Yu changed the playful look on his face and said very seriously.
I cleared my throat and continued, "At first, a mutual friend of ours told me that he was very sick and wanted me to see him. I was actually extremely resistant at the time. But our friend must have insisted that I go, and said he was going to tell me something. Finally, I thought, even if an ordinary friend is hospitalized, I should go and see it. Someone else informed me, and I deliberately didn't go, and it seemed that I couldn't let go. I know I shouldn't have gone to see him without telling you, but I'm really afraid you'll be upset. I just thought, I'm just going to look at it, and it doesn't make a difference to us. ”
Kwon just listened, and didn't react at all. I paused, then said, "And then through that friend, I learned some truths. ”
Quan Yu stared at my eyes, holding my hand was a little painful, I didn't break free of my hands, I hurriedly said: "Back then, I always thought that I was let down, and I have been haunted for many years, but now I know that all this is fake, and Chen Mo and I are just being made into a trap." A bloody past was suddenly revealed, to be honest, my heart fluctuated quite a lot, I have been misunderstanding him for so many years, and now he is hospitalized because of me, I am a little unbearable, but I want to understand, I can't bear these in my heart, I feel guilty and helpless but there is no love. However, Chen Mo and I, the end is unclear, for him and me, this is a hurdle that has not passed, and I have the obligation to really draw an end between him and me. Quan Yu, I have you now, quite content, in the next few decades, if I can, I hope that you will be by my side... ”
Halfway through the words, Quan Yu hugged me tightly into his arms and didn't say anything, but the low and powerful voice of his heart in his ears let me know that his mood must be turbulent at the moment.
I wrapped my hands tightly around Kwon Yu's back, and continued: "But I can't pretend to turn a blind eye to him now that he is hospitalized, he has no relatives here, his parents are abroad, and he can't help him for a while." If there's anything I need help with, I'm going to get over it, but don't worry, I won't waver anymore. ”
"I believe in you. Yau Yau, you're going to have to break off with him. Many years ago, you broke up unhappily, this is the knot in your heart, and now is the time to untie this knot, and I don't want you to be haunted by it for the rest of your life. The sooner you settle the past, the less influence he will have on the rest of your life. There was no displeasure in Quan Yu's tone, and I was secretly relieved.
"Quan Yu, when he is discharged from the hospital, we will make a complete decision, for the rest of my life, I only wish to have you. Once, I thought that I would never fall in love with someone again in this life, but when I met you, I still fell into it. I believe that one day, he will also meet someone who is truly suitable for him, a girl who deserves his good love. ”
Quan Yu smiled and said, "He may meet a girl in the future, but it can't be as beautiful as you." ”
I couldn't help but smile, patted him on the cheek and said, "Are you slapping me on the back?" I still know what level I have, and the next time you want to praise me, please find a suitable entry point. ”
Kwon Yu in turn took my hand in the palm of his hand and said seriously, "In my heart, you will always be the best. ”
I retorted to him, "That's not necessarily, you see, in a few years, my breasts will sag, my waist will become thicker, there will be folds on my face and neck, and menopause will become sensitive, stingy, suspicious, depressed, and temper tantrums." Then you'll think I'm the scariest creature in the world. ”
Quan Yu rubbed his face against my hand and said with great certainty: "Even if there is a day, I love you." Rou Yau, believe me. ”
Although the above is a joke, but it is indeed the fear in my heart, he should know my thoughts, so he answered me so solemnly, I don't want the topic to suddenly become heavy again, deliberately quipped: "You are still so heavy." ”
Quan Yu laughed and said, "For you, I can be a little more heavy-hearted, do you want to try it?"
I cooperated with him and made an exaggerated expression before I spoke: "Then you wait, I'll go buy some chili noodles and cumin peppercorns to pickle myself to ensure that it is worthy of your taste." ”
After Quan Yu laughed out loud, he pulled me into his arms again and said in a voice that only the two of us could hear: "Rourou, I am very happy that you can tell me this, really happy." ”
Then there was a long silence, and I scratched his tickle with my hand, and he grabbed it. Quan Yu held my two hands and said, "Rourou, I've thought a lot about it in the past two days." Even thought of the worst outcome. It was Chen Mo who was hospitalized, and I had already guessed it, you basically don't have in-depth contact with others in this city except for Sister Wei except for me, and suddenly someone was hospitalized, not me and Sister Wei, you are so nervous, it must be Chen Mo, looking at your abnormal appearance, I am really scared. There is even a moment when I want to secretly go to the hospital with you to see what kind of look and tone you have in front of him, whether you will see him in injury and arouse the emotions that have been buried in your heart for many years. I want to catch you desperately and tell you that I don't want you to go, and I want you not to have anything to do with him in this life. However, I didn't go, not because I persuaded myself with reason, but because I was afraid that I would see the scene I feared the most, I was afraid of seeing the woman I loved gentle in front of other men, and I was afraid that once I went, you had to have a showdown with me, then I would lose you faster. If I pretend not to know, at the very least, we still have a period of apparent peace. ”
"Kwon Yu, I'm sorry." I could have imagined that Quan Yu would be very uneasy these days, but I didn't expect it to make him so scared. Except for being sorry, I really don't know how to comfort him at this time.
Quan Yu shook his head and continued: "Rourou, in the past few days, the scene of you going to have a showdown with me has been constantly coming to my mind, and I even practice my expression in front of the mirror to deal with all this, I don't want to be too embarrassed in front of you, but no matter what expression I use, in the end I can only admit one fact, that is, even if you come to me for a showdown, I will definitely not give up on you, maybe I will be stalking, making you look down on me even more, but even if I know this, I should still not be able to control myself from doing this." Rourou, you see, loving someone will make you more humble than you imagined. ”
I was moved by his remarks and didn't know what to do, so I looked into his eyes with teary eyes and said, "Quan Yu, I'm sorry, I should have told you from the beginning." I shouldn't have put you through this. ”
Quan Yu gave me a reassuring smile and continued: "It's all over, I don't blame you, you don't blame yourself, besides, in fact, I should thank Chen Mo now, if it weren't for him, there wouldn't be such a 'warm' confession from you, wouldn't it? But now that you know the truth in that memory, and have crossed this obstacle, you still chose to be with me after you know that Chen Mo is not sorry for you. It makes me feel like I'm really important in my heart. So, never say sorry again. If you have to say three words to me in the future, I hope it is: I ~ love ~ you ~"
"Quan Yu, when he is discharged from the hospital, I will cut off contact with him. He will come out, he will meet a better girl than me, he will be happy. However, at the moment, he is in such poor health, I can't stimulate him for the time being, and I won't go to see him again in the next few days, but please give me some time, and when he is almost recovered, I will definitely give the three of us a reasonable explanation, okay?" This sentence is like comforting Quan Yu, but more like comforting myself. If he can't be happy, I'll live in guilt all the time.
Quan Yu squeezed my hand and replied, "Although I want you to have a showdown with him as soon as possible, the gentleman does not take advantage of others, not to mention that he is still a sick person." Don't worry, now that I know what you're thinking, I don't care about these days. To be honest, as a man, I am still a little convinced by his character of daring to bear it on his own, and I am impressed by him for this. ”
I was pleased with Quan Yu's generosity, and looked up and praised him: "You can say this, which is enough to prove that you are broad-minded and a true man, and I also admire you and am grateful to you." ”
Kwon Yu accepted my compliment with a smile, and then said, "I swear that I will treat you better in the future, you believe me." No matter what happens, I will love you well, cook for you, wash your clothes, massage your feet, and do everything for you except not being able to give you a baby. ”
I laughed and said to him, "Then I'll do nothing but give birth to you." ”
Quan Yu leaned over with golden eyes and said excitedly: "Are you really willing to give birth to me?!
After only three seconds, I smiled and went up to scratch him, he grabbed me and pulled me along the beach, the sea breeze was blowing, with a hint of the smell of the sea, but at this time it smelled very refreshing.
"Kwon Yu?"
Quan Yu tilted his head and let out a pleasant nasal voice, "Huh?"
I was embarrassed to hold my stomach and say, "I'm hungry... ”
Quan Yu laughed and said, "I was still thinking in my heart for a while if the first thing you said to me would be hungry or something, but I really guessed it correctly." ”
I was embarrassed, but I pretended to be very calm and said: "Haven't you heard that people are iron and steel, and you are hungry and panicked if you don't eat a meal? I didn't eat so late, just waiting for you to ask me to have a big meal, but you turned out to be good, black and white have been leading me here to fill the sea breeze, it is too inconsiderate." ”
Quan Yu smiled and said: "Yes, yes, Madame is right, it is a rude Xiaosheng, so I will invite Madame to have a big meal, but please also ask Madame to be merciful, I am a poor salaryman, so much salary a month, and the rest must be filial to my mother-in-law, feed my children, and ask Madame to give us a way to live." ”
When the play comes to this, I don't cooperate, but it seems that I don't understand the amorous feelings. "Xianggong, when you married me, you said that there were endless mountains of gold and silver at home, why do you suddenly say that the poor can't afford to have a big meal, you are cheating on marriage. ”
Quan Yu tilted his head and resumed his evil smile, "Oh? It turns out that I have already married a lady in the Ming media, so let's hurry back to the cave room to spend candles, after finishing the work, I will return you to the endless mountains of gold and silver." ”
I held back for a long time and replied fiercely: "You won." ”
Quan Yu laughed a few times, very proud.
After returning home, I called Sister Wei, and Sister Wei's tone was wilting, it seemed that she didn't communicate well with Lu Lu over there. I got straight to the point and asked her, "How was the talk with Lu Lu?"
Sister Wei sighed and replied, "It's not good. This kid is too stubborn, and as soon as I go, he grabs me and doesn't give me a chance to open my mouth... ”
"And what have you been doing all that day?"
Sister Wei sighed deeply again and said, "He kept asking me why I ran away. He kept swearing to me how true he was to me. Rourou, I think, I was really wrong, I shouldn't have provoked him. He should find an innocent girl to fall in love at a good age... ”
I didn't like the self-contempt in her tone, and interrupted her: "Sister Wei, you are a good woman, he has the right to fall in love, you also have it, you men and women are unmarried, why can't you fall in love? Do you not want to be with him, is it because you don't like him or because you are afraid that one day he will dislike you because of your old age, or are you afraid that the lawyer will be bad for him?"
Sister Wei was silent for a long time, and the microphone was quiet and you could hear each other's breathing, and after a long time, Sister Wei replied faintly: "Rourou, I don't know, he's just a child, I can't get over this hurdle, and I'm afraid that Yin Xu will hurt him." But I couldn't do his job, and in the face of his persistence and enthusiasm, I couldn't calmly analyze these problems to him one by one. ”
Sister Wei's tone made me feel very unbearable, "Sister Wei, where are you now?
Sister Wei replied: "No need, I want to be quiet now, and I will look for you when I need your help." You don't have to worry about my side, I'll figure it out myself. ”
Then I hung up the phone without waiting for me to reply, although Sister Wei didn't tell me too many details, but with my understanding of her, she may not really see the status of this land route in Sister Wei's heart.
However, as far as I'm concerned, I can breathe a sigh of relief, Sister Wei has been lonely for so many years, and it's rare to meet a man who treats her so persistently with sincerity.