I packed some stomach porridge and light side dishes in the porridge shop near the company, and when I arrived at the hospital, I saw that Chen Mo had already sat up, and was smiling and saying something to the nurse next to the bed, and the little nurse's small eyes were bent into a crescent shape.

Chen Mo still looked a little reluctant to smile, he still looked weak, he hadn't seen him all night, and the stubble around his mouth was already clearly visible, this was no longer the young man he had been many years ago, but a mature and steady man. But no matter how time changes, the warm temperament on his body is still the same, which can infect the people around him.

After seeing me come in, Chen Mo hurriedly smiled at me, made a "please come in" mouth shape, nodded to the little nurse, and the little nurse left in a funny way.

"How are you feeling today?" The opening sentence is a bit vulgar, but I really can't find anything else to talk about.

"It's much better, and when I started to feel hungry, you brought me something to eat by telecardiogram. As he spoke, his eyes were fixed on the bag in my hand. The smile on the corner of my mouth made my heart throb a little when I saw it. The more gentle he was, the more my conscience was whipped and hurt.

"I've packed you some lighter food, I don't know if you can eat it. So not too much. Carrying the bag dangled in front of him, trying to make himself look natural.

"It's okay, you put it there first, and the nurses will come and ask them later. If you can't eat it, find a refrigerator to put it away, and eat it when you can, you brought it to me, I will eat it all anyway. ”

Put it on the cabinet next to the bed, find a stool and sit down, and there is nothing else to talk about for a while. Two hands played with my fingernails, not knowing how to break the silence.

"Arou, your problem of rubbing your fingernails when you are in distress really hasn't changed at all. ”

"I didn't even realize it. A little embarrassed, let go of his hands.

"In the past, you used to do this a lot, and I thought it was cute, so I often deliberately made you blush and watch you do this with your head down. Unexpectedly, after so many years, I would have the opportunity to see it again. Arou, there are some things that have been deeply rooted in the bone marrow, and it is already difficult to change. ”

"Chen Mo, I'm sorry... "When I think about it, what condenses into my mouth is just a sentence of sorry.

"What do you mean?" Chen Mo looked straight over, his eyes seemed to have the ability to see through me, which made me a little nervous.

"All the things, Utt told me about the events of the year, the things that were diametrically opposed to the facts as I understood them. I am very shocked, very touched and regretful, you have done so much for me, but I misunderstood you uninterestingly, I didn't even give you a chance to defend yourself, and I did it so decisively, hurting myself and hurting you even more. I owe you a word of sorry. ”

"He told you anyway that the next time I see him, I will definitely beat him up again. Chen Mo made a fist attack posture, but in the end, he gasped in pain and put it back.

"He cares about you, too. ”

"Arou, he has been my buddy for thirty years, but he has hurt the woman I love the most. Emotionally, I can't say that I forgive him, and I can't always forgive him, intellectually, our families, the interests are intertwined, and it is not clear that it can be carried out by a sentence of forgiveness or non-forgiveness. After I first went to the United States, I went crazy and wrote emails and letters to you, all of which fell into the sea, at that time I thought, with your character, if you say goodbye, you must never give me a chance again in my heart, but I just don't give up, and when the last hope goes down little by little, I began to really fall into despair, Xiao Lin frequently came to touch my bottom line, but I didn't even have the slightest interest in dealing with her, but there was an agreement, for you, I had to be with her. During that time, I drank desperately, smoked, fought, and skipped school, and I wanted to be forcibly repatriated to China by this means, but my family had a way to settle these things for me. I tossed desperately, and my stomach was also drunk at that time, you don't know, foreign wine really doesn't have to be bad for liquor, and it is heartburn to drink. ”

After a pause, he continued: "They wiped my ass for me, and I kept challenging their bottom line, violating traffic rules, destroying public facilities, and even self-harming to threaten them." It wasn't until later that when Xiao Lin took a secretly taken photo of you on the way to work and threatened me to cause a car accident, I hated it in my heart, and I wanted to tear up their hypocrisy, but I had no wings, no strength, and could only be at their mercy. I realized that only when I am strong can I have the strength to protect you and protect myself from being at the mercy of you. Later, I put away all my outrageous behaviors, concentrated on studying, and got along with Xiao Lin, and my parents began to relax their vigilance against me, so that I began to slowly take over the family business. For so many years, I have been cultivating my own power, and I have endured countless times in the middle, holding back the urge to fly back to you, and finally, when the time is right, I want to come back to you as soon as the time comes. ”

"I'm sorry, I really didn't expect that you would suffer so much in the United States. At that time, I was still complaining, I didn't expect you to do so many things for me, I'm really sorry. In fact, I was too inferior at the beginning, and every moment I was with you, I felt that I was not worthy of you, and when I met you and fell in love with you, I always felt that God laid the groundwork for my greater pain in the future. I've never been relaxed for a moment, for fear of opening my eyes and all this is gone. So I was sensitive and nervous, and the moment I saw Xiao Lin directing and acting, I actually had a feeling that I should have come or come. So, when it comes, all I can think of is hiding, and as long as I dodge, I won't be too ugly. It was my inferiority complex and selfishness that contributed to the original injury, Chen Mo, I am guilty. ”

Chen Mo looked at me fixedly and replied: "You don't have to say I'm sorry, this is the harm we have brought you, if you are with a person whose family is not so intertwined, you will definitely not suffer so much with me." In the final analysis, the problem is me, I just do my best to protect the woman I love, and I know that if I told you the truth at that time, in order not to drag me down, you don't know what stupid things to do, I am a man, and it is my duty to protect my own woman. But now that I think about it, maybe, I should have done a little better at the time, doing you as little damage as possible. Or am I too incompetent, Arou, I've always been sorry for you. I should have seen through the uneasiness in your heart a long time ago, but I was carried away by the joy of love. ”

Obviously, I came to apologize, but he apologized to me in turn, so I quickly added: "No, Chen Mo, you have done a good job, and if you were any other person, it would not be better than you." I was touched and contented. Actually, I'm not worthy of you doing this for me. You have a superior family background since you were a child, you are good at studying, you have a cheerful personality, and you have many friends around you, and you are like a little sun shining on the places you have been. Your eyes are full of light, and you can't see the dark places. That's your nature, and I think that's good. ”

"I think it's worth it, that's what it's worth. After returning to China, I asked my old classmates about your news, but you miraculously avoided the scope of these alumni's abilities, and I couldn't find your current situation and contact information for a while. I was thinking at the time, although I have been trying to make myself stronger for so many years, and I have enough ability to ensure that our world is not disturbed by the outside world, but I can't be by your side, this is a debt. On the one hand, I feel that no matter when I come back, my Arou must still be waiting for me, and on the other hand, I am afraid that another man will come into your life during the time I disappear. Just when I was a little upset, things turned around. ”

Chen Mo's heartache burned my heart, and I couldn't answer. When Chen Mo talked about the following facts, I had a feeling of floating in mid-air:

"In the past few years, my parents have arranged blind dates for me as frequently as Mo Yi, which is the case in the United States, and it is still the case when I come back. It's been less than a month since I returned to China, and I've mentioned it more than 100 times, and this time it's a posture that I have to go, I rubbed my temples and was about to refuse, but I heard my mother say: "This girl was introduced by my old friend for many years, and she has always been very low-key in the company, and she has never had a bad relationship between men and women, and she graduated from the same university as you, and her name is also good, called Zhen Rou." ”

Is it so coincidental? pretending to be inadvertent, "Zhen Rou, the name is good, how old did you just say?"

Seeing that I had a response for the first time, my mother seemed very encouraged, and hurriedly said: "28 years old, one year younger than you, you are very compatible in both the zodiac and the eight characters." ”

Sure enough, it's you, it seems that my fate with you will be renewed after all. patted the back of his mother's hand and said, "Thank you mother, let's make an appointment to meet." ”

Unexpectedly, it didn't take much effort to get it. I was expecting and scared. When you say goodbye, will you remember our past, and do you regret it?

Two hours earlier than scheduled, I found a place with a good view in the shop opposite the agreed coffee shop, and I don't know why I did it. Maybe it's after many years, but I finally want to get a figure of you walking towards me.

Finally, when there was still an hour before the appointed time, I saw a thin shadow hurrying over, so many years have passed, I can still recognize you at a glance, even if it is just a shadow, looking at your thin figure, my heart is still the same pain as before.

However, in the past, you were busy with work, study, and taking care of your family, as if you never had extra time for me, but now you can be an hour earlier for a blind date?

The next scene, but people can't help but laugh, you walk into the café, find a very conspicuous place to sit down, take a few sips of coffee and sprinkle coffee drops on yourself, and then mess up your hair, apply lipstick, all in one go, and finally have a smile that has succeeded in a conspiracy.

This smile made me lose my mind again, you used to be like this, trying to make yourself look unfazed, but occasionally you can make an innocent face that succeeds in tricks, at that time every time I saw you like this, I always wanted to take you into my arms and punish you well.

My thoughts drifted back to the present, and when I looked at you like this, my heart swelled with joy, which is enough to prove that you don't really want to go on a blind date. However, the acting scene has been set up, and I, the spectator, should also cooperate, it's time to appear, take out my mobile phone, and edit the text message: I'm sorry to wait for a long time, I'll be there in five minutes. Press send, get up and walk towards you.

I look at you, from banter to shock to hurry, but I don't see nostalgia. I always seemed to lose my cool in front of you, and it wasn't until you trotted away that I realized that I had forgotten to catch you. Arou, I hate that I didn't catch you right away. ”

After listening to this description, I was a little embarrassed, this world is too small, and reincarnation is too ingenious.

After talking too much at once, Chen Mo was a little struggling, but he still took a breath and continued: "However, what I thought at that time was that I was not in a hurry, I am glad that you are still single, and I am glad that we are back, everything will be long." But your reaction really made me feel at a loss, I didn't expect you to still be resolute and not give me a chance at all. I originally asked you to calm down a little, I took my time, I can let you accept me again, but I didn't wait for the result I wanted, but when I was waiting for you downstairs in your house, I saw you and other men holding hands and going back, at that time the blood in my body seemed to rush to the top of my head all of a sudden, and I frantically wanted to pull away the man and take you away, but my feet couldn't move as if they were frozen, and when I reacted again, you had disappeared. ”

When he said this, Chen Mo paused, and his palm gently covered his abdomen, he should have been too excited, it involved the surgical site, I wanted to reach out to help him see the wound, but finally held back.

We can't let go of this relationship like normal ordinary friends, and we don't dare to do many actions, for fear of a little overstep, so I can only hold my fingers in embarrassment.

Chen Mo deliberately ignored my convulsions, and then said: "I drove frustrated on the night road and ran wildly all night, until the fuel level was warned, I got out of the car and lay on the roof of the car all night, my mind was full of bits and pieces of our past, every detail was as clear as a knife, the more I remembered, the more sad." Later, I was depressed for a while, and I started drinking again, and I especially didn't like that kind of self, but I really couldn't control myself. Before I lost consciousness with stomach bleeding, I suddenly had an epiphany, as long as I am alive, everything is possible, and as long as I work hard enough, I still have a chance to chase you back, isn't it?"

Chen Mo said too much at once, I was surprised and surprised, but also a little at a loss, and tried to organize the vocabulary, "Chen Mo, for so many years, I am grateful that you have always sheltered me and everything you have done for me, but we have always missed it. I'm in a stable relationship now, we're fine, and you're going to start your own life too, don't bother me too much, okay?"

Chen Mo stared at me, there seemed to be waves surging in his eyes, and then said loudly: "Arou, it's your business to start a new relationship, but it's my business to give up or not. ”

I was shocked by his aura, slowed down for a moment, and tried to calm my tone: "Chen Mo, if you don't give up, it's not just you who will be hurt, it's also me, do you know? I finally found peace again, I don't want to be broken, I know it's selfish to say this, but I'm just selfish and want to maintain the current state of life." Even if your mind about me hasn't changed for so many years, so what, your parents, your family, Xiao Lin's family, they are still obstacles. Especially your parents, they can't accept me again, and even if I am with you, I will still be unhappy. I don't want to be vigorous, I just want a life as plain as water, you know?"

Chen Mo's injured eyes made me very unbearable, but if I don't make my words clear now and give him meaningless thoughts, it will be cruel to him and to Quan Yu.

"You have a good rest first, I'll go first. Without waiting for Chen Mo to reply, he grabbed his bag and fled for his life.