The divine consciousness was very entangled with the past in the chaos, and those fragmented fragments that seemed to be real and false collided indiscriminately, pulling out patches of mottled openings in the heart.

It hurts, and although I try my best to wake myself up, I seem to be stunned and can't do anything.

In the tearing, despair turned into wind and rain kept knocking over the crumbling me. Gradually, I gave up struggling. Being trapped in this dream, even if you are in a coma like this for the rest of your life, at least, you can use it to escape a more cruel reality.

In the confusion, there was a cool breath from my forehead, and a pair of large hands gently left a rhythmic knock on my shoulder, and with each tap, my consciousness seemed to condense a little more

Gradually, a voice began to come in, a warm and anxious, calm but flustered tone. The notes began to grow clearer and clearer, and finally coalesced into my name, completely stripping me from my dreams. I lost my judgment for a moment in the bright light in front of me, where is this?

"Arou, you're finally awake."

Yes, this is the same voice in the dream just now. Now it sounds like a world away. So I didn't react for a while, why Chen Mo was here.

"Where am I?"

"Sorry, you were too emotional and lost consciousness this afternoon. I'll have to take you to me first. You've been babbling and sweating just now, so I woke you up. What would it feel like?"

"Thank you~"

"You've slept for six hours, you're hungry, I'll go and heat up the meal, you eat something. ”

It was like fighting this nightmare for a lifetime, but I didn't expect it to be just six hours. I had loved the man in front of me deeply, but I saw my most embarrassing side, and I really didn't know how to face it.

"Chen Mo, no need, I'm not hungry. I want to go back. ”

"Where are you going?" Chen Mo asked casually, stinging me again. Yes, where am I going? There is no home anymore, the house I have lived in for a few years, Quan Yu has also moved in. Although I wanted to know the truth, I was instinctively afraid that the truth would be too cruel for me to touch.

Chen Mo seemed to understand the struggle in my heart. Comforted softly: "You stay with me for one night first, I'll go and clean up the guest room, and I'll go to the guest room in a while, I won't disturb you." If you don't feel at ease, you can lock the door, and I'll give you the keys and promise you that I won't bother you unless you need to. ”

I pinched the key in my hand and looked at Chen Mo's back, full of gratitude. He read my embarrassment and discomfort and gave me plenty of space and distance.

When I wanted to put the key on the bedside table, I saw my mobile phone, and it should be Chen Mo's charger connected to it, he was always so warm and thoughtful.

Holding the phone in his hand, he didn't dare to turn it on. After picking it up and putting it down countless times, my hand involuntarily pressed the power button.

Dozens of reminders of missed calls, as well as messages from Kwon Yu, kept pouring in. I looked at the flickering screen and forced myself not to look. But I couldn't help but open them one by one.

"Rourou, why don't you answer the phone?"

"Yau Yau, where are you?"

"What's wrong?"

"If you don't reply, I'll call the police?"

"Why did it turn off?"

"I'm looking for you and I'm going crazy, hurry up and continue me!"

"Please, please contact me quickly. ”

"I went to the sanatorium and the bar, and you're gone, where the hell did you go?"

"Yau Yau, I'll be waiting for you at home. ”

Tears poured down uncontrollably, trying to keep himself from crying and being heard by Chen Mo. Until the end, his shoulders kept swaying, and he could barely breathe.

Quan Yu, is your anxious tone also pretending? If I ask you, will you tell me the truth? Is there really a misunderstanding?

I turned off my mobile phone again, and after dawn, I sent a text message to the leader, falsely claiming that my mother had something to deal with and took two days off. Then he hurried to the sanatorium.

Now that I think about the abnormal behavior of my mother and Quan Yu that day, it shows that in this matter, the two of them should be hiding something from each other, and it is not as simple as not having the right door.

However, the timing was not coincidental. Mother is in a terrible state today, and she has been confused, talking about what happened when she was a child. I ignored her and immersed myself in my own world. I sat with her all morning, and my mother didn't recognize me in half a minute. I came with trepidation and anxiety, and I left with anxiety and loss.

The company has taken a leave of absence. And whether it is at work or at home, it is possible to meet Quan Yu. After wandering at the door of the sanatorium for a long time, he decided to go back to his residence to pick up the car and drive the car left by Sister Wei to his father's cemetery.

The closer the taxi is to the neighborhood, the more dull it becomes. Fortunately, I didn't see Kwon Yu's car downstairs, so he must not be at home. The ghost sent the gods, and under the pretext that he needed to wash himself, he went upstairs.

The moment I opened the door, tears once again filled my eyes. People are always extra vulnerable in the most familiar environment. At the door, Quan Yu and my slippers were lying there neatly, with Quan Yu's sweatshirt on the sofa, and the house was still the same as when I went out yesterday. I used to think that I could keep it up forever.

After washing, I took a simple change of clothes and left in a hurry. I don't know why I'm hiding from Kwon Yu, and I don't know where I'm going to go with these clothes.

At this time, it should be right to find Quan Yu to make it clear. But I just wanted to hide, I didn't dare to face it. I hate being such a cowardly self.

Gently close the door, listen to the sound of the door locking, and can't help but chuckle in my heart. The world behind the door was once so bright and warm, but it is becoming more and more like a dream. I'd rather none of this ever happened, rather than suffer the pain of poking it myself.

Probably because my father died in a car accident, I always insisted on driving as little as possible without emotion. He put his head in the steering wheel and sorted out his thoughts before slowly starting the car.

When I left the gate of the community, I met Quan Yu driving back with a haggard face. The moment I looked at each other, I chuckled in my heart and subconsciously stepped on the accelerator to increase the speed.

The Land Rover in the rearview mirror made a sharp turn and turned to catch up. My hands holding the steering wheel began to tremble a little, and the only thing on my mind was: I must escape, the sooner the better.

Seeing the distance between the two cars getting closer and closer, a wave of fear swept over my heart. I was relieved to press the accelerator a second before the yellow light turned to a red light, and this signal light bought me a minute and a half. But the breath wasn't even even. I heard the non-stop honking of the horn and the sound of the brakes being slammed in the back.

Quan Yu ignored the red light and the vehicles going straight at both ends, and chased straight after him like that, and I broke out in a cold sweat when I saw this kind of deadly driving.

In my distraction, Quan Yu had already caught up with me, and I saw him roll down the window and shout at me with an angry face: "Stop!

Wipe the fog from your eyes, force yourself to concentrate, and try not to pay attention to the man next to you.

Seeing that I didn't answer, Quan Yu continued to shout: "Rourou, obedient, stop, what's wrong, we can say slowly, you can't just leave suddenly." Can't be so cruel to me. ”

"Is it because of Chen Mo, were you with him last night? Why! Why did you do this to me!"

Holding my breath in my breath and desperately looking for a gap to vent, I pulled over to the side of the road and pulled out the key. Seeing this, Quan Yu quickly parked the car in front of me, rushed over and pulled the car door and sat in the passenger seat.

"Yau Yau, I need an explanation. Why did you suddenly say goodbye, why did you avoid me. Is it because I did something wrong, or because you never let go of Chen Mo?" The man in front of him who was holding back his anger had red eyes and bruises on his forehead.

The presence of him in front of me made me feel that maybe what Xiao Lin said was not true. It doesn't look like pretending to be angry. Or is he angry just because I don't go home at night, and I'm afraid that I will return to Chen Mo not because of jealousy, but because he hasn't retaliated enough?

"Quan Yu, when did you first see me, what kind of scene was it? You said you knew me for a long time, how early did you know?"

Quan Yu didn't seem to expect me to ask these questions straight to the point, and choked on the words for a while. There was a panicked look on his face.

"What the hell did your mother die? My father also died in a car accident, and at the time of the car accident, the object of his extramarital affair was sitting in the car, and it was said that they were going to be martyred, and neither of them was rescued. Quan Yu, that woman is your mother, and you approached me to avenge the murder of your mother, right?"

Quan Yu's face turned pale and he didn't answer, but his body stiffened there. When I finally asked, I still had a hint of fantasy that this was just a trick played by Xiao Lin. But looking at Quan Yu's reaction, my heart is indeed getting colder and colder.

"One last thing, Quan Yu, are you my ———— brother!" gritted my teeth and said the last two words, I heard a sharp arrow in the air.

Quan Yu grabbed my hand fiercely, and then came: "Who do you listen to about these things?" How could I be your brother? I want to be with you, but not in this way. ”

"Then why are you approaching me, why? Why! Tell me now, my father and your mother have no half-dime relationship, and what I said just now is not true. ”

Quan Yu explained in a panic: "Rourou, this matter is a bit complicated, you listen to me explain to you slowly, don't be so excited first." ”

I just asked myself: "Quan Yu, were you very proud when you were warm with me? The daughter of the man who killed your mother walked into your trap step by step, and fell in love with you step by step." ”

Kwon Yu: "Rourou, I love you." I'll admit that I hid some of the facts to get close to you, but all because I was afraid that you wouldn't give me a chance after telling you who I was beforehand. I've kept you in my heart for so many years, how can I be willing to take revenge on you?"

But after asking the question, I didn't get the answer I wanted, and my heart couldn't help but feel cold. "Now that you don't have to act anymore, I'm embarrassed enough, embarrassed enough. Is there anything more unbearable than being in love with your own brother, and do you think I'm disgusted when I talk to you?"

Quan Yu hurriedly said: "Rourou, we met for the first time and I can explain the details of chasing you slowly." But how can you think I'm your brother. How is this possible?"

I heard myself crying hysterically, "Why can't it?!" What proof do you have that these are impossible?"

Maybe it was because my voice was too poignant and my expression was too hideous, and Quan Yu was motionless as if he was frozen by my roar.

"Quan Yu, don't meet again in the future, you can let me go. You lost your mother in that car accident, and I also lost a father who loved me. My life isn't much better than yours, and it's really not worth it for you to make it worse. ”

"Yau Yau, I never wanted to hurt you. I have never been angry with you about their fathers. These days, I have not been hypocritical to you. As for what you said, I am your brother, this is also nonsense at all. ”

"And what proof do you have, it's all nonsense?"

"Are you willing to believe me as long as I prove that we are not related by blood?"

"Quan Yu, even if you are not my own brother, is there no blood feud between us that killed our father and mother? I only hope that I will never see you again in this life. ”

Quan Yu was not satisfied with my answer, and retorted: "What if they die together, even if they love." Is it okay to let him go through the things of the previous generation?"

"Oh no! Quan Yu, that was the biggest nightmare of my life. I can't get over it in this life!"

"Rourou~"

"Get out of the car!"

"Rourou!"

"I said get out of the car, you get out of the car!" Quan Yu reached out to hug me, I used all my strength to break free, my nails scratched blood stains on his face, but Quan Yu didn't care, and held me in his arms.

"Quan Yu, let's break up!"

Quan Yu let go of me, grabbed my shoulder, his face was bruised, and he roared anxiously: "No, I don't agree, I will never agree!"

I forced myself to reply to him cruelly: "Kwon Yu, if you do this again, then I will let myself disappear forever." ”

This sentence seems to have a certain deterrent effect, Quan Yu slowly let me go, and said after a long silence: "I will give you time to let you be quiet, but I don't agree to the request to break up, Rourou, we have been together for so long, I don't believe that you think my feelings are fake, I love you, I will never hurt you, this point, please never forget." ”

I stared ahead trying not to let the tears fall, and after a long time, after Kwon Yu opened the car door and went down, I could no longer control my emotions and lay on the steering wheel and cried, crying until my throat was throbbing and I could barely breathe.

When I started the car again, I saw in the rearview mirror that Kwon Yu's car was still behind, and I drove all the way and didn't see him leave. In the end, he was angry, didn't pay attention to the dynamics behind him, and drove the car straight downstairs to Chen Mo's house. After the car was straightened, I happened to hear the sound of the engine of the car behind me going out. Either I'll go upstairs before he catches him, or I'll stay in the car and lock the doors and windows and ignore him.

When he was struggling with which step to choose, Chen Mo's figure appeared in sight. He waved his hand at me and turned his gaze behind me, I looked in the rearview mirror, and Kwon Yu stood in front of his car and looked this way, and the moment his eyes met in the rearview mirror, I twisted my head to the side. Chen Mo nodded at him and walked over to me, pulled the car door to unbuckle my seat belt for me, I reached out to block it, but he said, "If you want to get rid of him, there is no better way than this, isn't it?"

I withdrew my hand, listened to him and got out of the car, letting her take my bag and letting him put one hand on my shoulder and lead me upstairs. forced himself not to look back at Quan Yu, and followed Chen Mo numbly.

After turning into the corridor, Chen Mo withdrew his hand, and my tears began to gush out uncontrollably. When he stood upstairs and looked down from the window, his car was still there, the person leaning on the door looked up in this direction, the distance was too far to see the expression on his face, the dim street lamp pulled his shadow to the length of his sleeve, the tall tung tree from time to time scattered a yellow leaf or two, in this silent world, the sad voice became more and more sharp, Ling Chi in my heart.

Even if revenge is not true, will our blood relationship be real? Even if there is no blood relationship, separated by the death of our parents and the love and hatred between them, we will never be the same again, right?

It's not that I don't want to give you a chance to explain, it's that I'm afraid to hear from you. If you are my own brother, and you only contact me for the hatred in your heart, think of all the sweetness since our relationship, how am I going to deal with myself? Even if you are not my brother, then our origins are true. The love and hatred of the parents' generation doomed us to be unable to continue, even if Quan Yu doesn't mind now, then what about the future, the days ahead are so long, who can guarantee that everything will not change?

Taking 10,000 steps back, even if Quan Yu really doesn't care, his grandfather and my mother will definitely be resolutely opposed. Before, I could deceive myself into thinking that my mother's opposition to us being together was just because of the disparity in family background, but now that I know Quan Yu's true identity, this self-deception can no longer be persisted.

But admittedly, the place in my heart is even more important than I thought, so I'm not sure that I will be able to insist on my heart not to be with him after listening to his explanation, so I just put an end here. If it's a predestined outcome, then I'd rather choose to control the timing of the outcome. ruthlessly closed the curtains and locked himself in the room, pulled the quilt and cried bitterly.

The bits and pieces since we met keep coming to mind, I remember some inconspicuous little things clearly, the name Quan Yu has been deeply imprinted in my heart, I fell in love with you, it only took a few months, forget you, do I still have a chance to do it in my life?