Since I was a child, I have been stimulated and hit countless times, but I have never been as painful, so profound, so powerless, and so heartbreaking as this time.

This time, I really hurt my heart, and the depression in my heart was too much and too deep, so that I held back the internal injuries and relapsed the old disease.

I remember the last time I was in a hurry at Song Wenming's house, at a reunion of old high school classmates, I was ridiculed and insulted, which aroused all the grievances and anger in my heart, and I almost vomited blood to death. In the end, it was my dad's appearance that saved me. It was also that time when I saw my dad for the first time in more than ten years. My dad came back from prison and changed me completely.

But who knows, going around and around, I have changed so much, experienced so much, and finally because of my father, I was injured and incomplete, deceived by my relatives, deceived by the whole world, and involved so many people, I am equivalent to achieving nothing, only being a dead star, being a tragic fool, all kinds of things, I can't accept it.

I fell, completely fell.

I don't know how long I've been in a coma, but I feel that when I lose consciousness, my brain seems to have entered a state of emptiness, a mess, no thought, no soul, just like a vegetative person, lying on the bed dumbfounded, motionless.

Time has been lost in chaos. I had been wandering in confusion, and it was a long, long time before I woke up in a daze.

When I opened my eyes, what caught my eyes was still that simple small room, the layout remained the same, it was the former residence of Grandpa Han in the suburbs, and of course, there was the same person, Grandpa Han.

At this moment, Grandpa Han was sweating profusely and inserting silver needles for me, pressing the acupuncture points, and it could be seen that he was very careful and cautious. It can even be said that it is very nervous. In my original consciousness, Grandpa Han was a miracle doctor, and he almost had the ability to bring people back to life. I've never seen Grandpa Han treat as seriously as he does now.

However, I don't know why, but I can't make waves in my heart, as if my heart is dead, no matter what method Grandpa Han uses or how he tosses my body, I am motionless, as if I am unconscious.

After a while, Grandpa Han stopped dealing with me, and when he saw that I had opened my eyes, he immediately asked me: "Wu Lai, are you awake, how do you feel?"

I turned a deaf ear to Grandpa Han's words, so I didn't hear them, or rather, I didn't listen to them at all.

Seeing this, Grandpa Han checked me again, and then, he suddenly showed a wry smile, and with this smile, he left directly.

After Grandpa Han left, silence returned to the room. I was lonely and fell into a confused situation again. Grandpa Han is worthy of being a master, and his medical skills are really invincible in the world, just like my father's martial arts. They have all reached the point of reaching the pinnacle.

After Grandpa Han's careful treatment, my body has indeed improved a lot, and my mind has slowly recovered, and I can start thinking about things. It's just that my brain is still a mess, very tangled, very chaotic. There is a shadow in my heart, and I feel that I am a sinner for the ages.

My dad is the king of Hades, and this incident weighs on my heart and makes me breathless. ad_250_left();

In fact, my brothers died because of me, and I was prepared, and my brothers were ready, but I felt that their deaths were not worth it, and I felt sorry for their deaths. If my father is really a prisoner and the target I want to rescue, then even if I am completely annihilated, even if I myself die in battle, I have no regrets, because we fought heroically, in order to save my father, for the belief in our hearts, we gave up our lives, and it was worth dying.

But in the end, I realized that the belief I had insisted on for so long was just a failure, and all the efforts I made were in vain. My brothers and I fought so seriously and desperately, it turned out to be just a chess game set up by others, a game of chess that Uncle Lin and my father fought for, and the sacrifice of my brothers had no impact on them, as if they were damned. Nobody cares, and no one thinks it's a big deal.

My stupidity killed my brothers, my beliefs, my promises to my brothers, they are all bullshit, they are not worth dying, they are unjust. I can't stand it, I really can't stand it, especially, my dad treats human life as a mustard, this, I don't agree, in my opinion, it is inevitable to kill people in the dark, but the premise is also to distinguish who should die and who should not die, I will not kill innocent people, I don't want to be innocent to burden people, and I don't want to be like now, nominally with my brothers towards the most determined goal, but in fact, our goal is false, we exchanged our lives and blood for it, just my dad's fate.

I also want to have my worth, my brothers also have their worth, why, in the end, we are nothing, only innocent sacrifices have been made.

The knot has been haunting me, I have never been able to untie it, I can't let it go, and finally I became depressed.

After I woke up, I only woke up physically, but my spirit was completely broken, I lost my vitality and vitality, and I lost my mind. Lost purpose in life. I just want to sleep here and have nothing to do with the world. Really, I don't have any motivation to move forward, I don't want to get mixed up, I'm too tired and tired, I just want to have a good rest, not to be disturbed, not to face all kinds of people and things.

However, my life was not destined to be quiet, after I stayed alone for a while, Grandpa Han came back, he came to check on my condition again, and when he saw that I was fine, he asked me again, "Are you still angry?"

I still didn't pay attention to him, like a clay figure.

Seeing me like this, Grandpa Han couldn't help but shake his head, and said helplessly: "You kid, why are you so dead-eyed, the reason why I hide it from you is because your father confessed, and he didn't let me tell the truth, because, if you want to know the real situation, you will definitely have no motivation to struggle." In fact, your father is also for your good, only after experiencing the test of life and death, will you get real experience and real growth, you see you, it is because of motivation. Only then will we continue to struggle and make progress. Are you completely different now than you were before you came to the provincial capital? Your progress is fast, and at your age, you can have such an ability, which is already a very rare genius. I can tell you responsibly, as long as you are willing to work hard and keep moving forward, in time, your achievements will definitely not be under your father!"

I can feel that Grandpa Han's bitter words are really good for me, perhaps, I work harder, I do have a chance to catch up with my father, and I have the opportunity to look down on everything, but these are not what I want. I don't want to take advantage of innocent people's feelings, I don't want to step on my brother's life to achieve myself. If I really become like my father in the future, a brutal tyrant who disregards human life, then I will not be happy even if I ascend to the throne of the Emperor of the Underworld.

What I really yearn for is a simple life, even if I wanted to rush forward with my brothers before, it was with passion and blood. With full of pride, with our beliefs, to break out of a wonderful future. I don't like intrigue, I don't like intrigue and betrayal, and I don't like to hurt innocent people. This kind of life really makes me very tired and I can't breathe well.

Therefore, I still turned a deaf ear to Grandpa Han's persuasion, and I was still expressionless.

Seeing that I was still indifferent, Grandpa Han couldn't help but sigh and complained: "Wu Lai, you can't do this, as Wu Qiankun's son, you don't have his style at all." To tell you the truth, you and your dad are the two most special people I have ever met, your physique is extraordinary, both are gifted geniuses, and even more, your physique, your talent, is stronger than your dad. However, at your age, your father is already a man of the year that everyone admires, all because of his unremitting efforts, because of his constant struggle, because of his courage and faith. Do you feel that you are too bitter and tired, but your father has suffered more than you, he has no backstage, no money, no looks, and really nothing. But it is because there is nothing that your father does not obey his orders, he always thinks that his fate is up to him, not to heaven, so he fights against heaven and fate. In the end, he made a name for himself in both black and white, and achieved himself. Your conditions are much better than your father's, because you have an innate advantage. Hades is your father, this is your capital, this is beyond the reach of many people, what reason do you have to fall, hurry up and cheer up!"

Cheer up, Grandpa Han said so much, he just wants me to cheer up, but the depression in my heart, where is it so easy to unravel. It was like I was wrapped in a ball of silk, and I couldn't jump out. I still didn't listen to Grandpa Han's persuasion, just lay quietly.

Grandpa Han couldn't persuade me, the look in his eyes became more and more helpless, he sighed again, and said leisurely: "It doesn't matter if you are angry with me, but you must understand your father, he is for your good." Also, in fact, your dad suffered a bigger blow than you, do you know why he refuses to tell about your mother, because that's a pain for him, your dad loves your mom and can do everything for her, but your mom's family, just because your dad came from a humble background, doesn't agree with your dad. Now, your Uncle Lin betrayed him again, or because your mother betrayed him, this incident is a big blow to your father. However, he is much stronger than you, he will endure his own hardships, you can't share your father's worries, and don't let him worry about you anymore, you can do it yourself!"

After speaking, Grandpa Han didn't wait for me to say anything, and left the room directly.

In the small room, I was left alone.

My heart ached faintly, Grandpa Han's words really moved me and made me feel more uncomfortable, but my mind was still a mess, and that stubborn depression always haunted me, and I was immersed in this complicated world and couldn't extricate myself. I really don't want to think about it too much, I just need to be clean, I need to be buffered.

Grandpa Han left this time, and he didn't come again, and in the evening, the beautiful man came to see me, he was not seriously injured, and now there is no big problem, he came over, mainly to see me, but also to report to me about the situation of the brothers.

Through the words of the beautiful man, I know that I have been in a coma for two days, that is, it has been two days since the end of the war. Whereas. Of the 700 elites we went there this time, only about 200 people survived in the end, and more than half of them were seriously injured.

On the side of the Hong Gang, the casualties were even heavier, it can be said that this battle was an unprecedented battle, and in the end, because of the participation of Hades and Hades' team, it caused a sensation in the whole city, and the whole underground world was shaken.

Although the impact is huge. The casualties were unprecedented, but my dad had his way, and he still took the matter down, and I didn't need to be interrogated.

Actually, the beautiful man came over to persuade me to cheer up, because the Loyalty League still needs me. He told me that his brothers did not blame me, and hoped that I would be able to lead the Loyalty League again, move forward bravely, and lead the way.

However, when I heard that so many brothers had died, I blamed myself even more, and I had no shame to face anyone. I am worthy of my brothers, and I am not worthy to be the leader of the Loyal and Righteous Alliance, and I am not worthy to be their boss.

Therefore, the arrival of the beautiful man not only did not untie the knot in my heart, but made my thinking more confused, and I almost fell into crazy stubbornness, more and more sad. I didn't say a word again, just silently being a vegetative person, depressed alone, or rather, my mind was messy, I couldn't speak, and the whole person seemed to be in a state of madness. The beautiful man was also helpless, so he could only leave silently.

On this day. I didn't say a word, I didn't drink a drop of water, I didn't eat a grain of food, I just spent the day in a silent stupor, and it was useless for anyone to persuade me.

By noon the next day, I was exhausted from hunger and felt like I was about to die in a daze.

At such a time, my dad suddenly came to me and came to me in person, and brought me a bowl of steaming rice and put it at the head of my bed.

He stood by the bed, looking at me silently, the meaning in his eyes was so deep and long that I couldn't see what was going on in his heart, and I felt that he had returned to an unfathomable image.

He didn't persuade me, stared at me for a long time, and then said to me seriously: "When I deal with the chaos in the provincial capital in the past two days and solve the affairs of the Chu family, I will go to the Blood Butterfly Headquarters, as for when I can come back, or rather, whether I can come back, I don't know." You are not young anymore, what path you should choose in the future, how to go down, you decide for yourself, I support it. There is something I will say hello to you, about the Hong Gang, I respect your intentions, and I did not kill them all, but the premise is that they can guarantee that they have no intention of revenge, so I hope you will make it clear to the little girl of the Xia family that once the Hong Gang has the intention of revenge, I will let them be wiped out!"

When the words fell, my dad didn't stay for a moment, and left directly domineeringly.

My dad's figure disappeared from my field of vision, but his words lingered in my ears for a long time. Lingering.

My heart was touched again, and at the same time, it was stabbed again, I don't know how to describe the mood at the moment, I just felt that it was very chaotic and mixed.

Actually, after listening to Grandpa Han's words, my prejudice against my dad was not so great. Now, seeing my dad's attitude again, my heart is softer, and my hatred for my dad is not so strong.

I know that he has his style of acting, I can't change it, even if I don't agree, I shouldn't fall out with him, I shouldn't be angry with him, no matter what, my dad loves me, my father loves me like a mountain, he has paid a lot for me, and he let go of those people because of me, and I know his love for me.

However, there is a breath in my heart that I have never been released, I have always been entangled by that shadow, the shadow of being deceived by my loved ones, the shadow of being played by everyone, the shadow of my own efforts that are worthless, but involve others in vain.

The shadow is too heavy, and it is really difficult to disperse at once, but I don't know why, I heard that my father was leaving, and he was going to find the blood butterfly to take revenge, and I had a faint reluctance in my heart, especially when I heard his words, I don't know if I can go back, which makes me involuntarily worried, and my heart suddenly hurts.

The main thing is to hear that my dad is leaving. I suddenly had a feeling of wanting to catch him, because I didn't seem to have something done, my dad couldn't just go, I had to catch him.

But I couldn't think of anything that made me like this for a while, I tried to think about it, but the more I thought about it, the more my brain hurt, the more painful, I thought about it again, the more chaotic it became, and my thoughts completely entered a dead loop.

I don't know how long it took, but suddenly, I jumped out of this dead loop, my brain was suddenly excited, and I suddenly thought that I still had one more task to complete, and that was blood ginseng.

I tried so hard to rescue my dad, the first was for my dad's safety, and the second was to get blood ginseng from my dad to save Xu Nan, this has always been my most urgent goal and task, but too many blows made me lose my soul and messed up my thinking, and I forgot even this fundamental goal.

Now, my dad has come out safely, but what about Xu Nan?

Thinking of this, I suddenly sat up, and after being stunned for a second, I immediately couldn't wait to get out of bed.

I was as paralyzed as a dead man a second ago, but I instantly regained my vitality in this second, and I suddenly came back to life, just because, the belief in my heart came, I want to find my dad and get blood ginseng to save Xu Nan, and I can't delay for a second.

When I got out of bed, I put on my clothes as fast as I could, and then rushed violently towards the door, anxious.

But, I've only taken two steps. The door to the room creaked and opened.

As if I had been electrocuted, I followed the sound towards the door.

Immediately, my body was petrified, and my gaze was staring at the man at the door, and there was the most extreme surprise in my eyes. Because, she is none other than me, but I am the one I most desperately want to wake up, Xu Nan...