I let go of his hand and was about to call the doctor, but Jun-hee tried to hold me but pounced.

"Xia Xia, turn on the lights!"

"What's the light on in the morning, I'll call the doctor first!" I hurriedly left the room and asked the doctor to come and check him!

I did a check-up and everything was normal, nothing serious!

He lay on the bed, his deep bottomless eyes were quietly open, listening carefully to the doctor's instructions, and finally said politely: "Thank you!"

"Xia Xia, you go downstairs and buy me some fruit!"

"Okay, I'll go!" I saw that the doctors and nurses were here, and it should be okay to go down.

When I was going upstairs, I met Zhibin, and the doctor had just finished the examination, so he brought his clothes over: "Xia Xia, you go inside to take a shower and change your clothes, you haven't rested all night, look at the blood on your body!"

Song Junxi's brows immediately wrinkled: "What's wrong with you?"

He shook his head: "It's okay!"

"I'll feed my brother, you go take a bath first, you are wearing this clothes, people who don't know still think that you have an accident!"

"I'll feed him!" I washed my hands and brought mouthwash to him with mouthwash!

Song Junxi sat there, extra cooperative.

I took a bun and handed it to him, and when he reached out to take it, he first threw himself into the air, and then he touched the bun, took it, and ate it.

When I feed him porridge, I always feel that something is wrong, but I can't say it.

I heard the two of them talking as I finished my shower and was about to go out.

"Brother, brother······ Over here?"

Li Zhibin seemed to remind Song Junxi of something.

"Brother, what's the matter with you?" Li Zhibin paused and suddenly shouted, "What's wrong with your eyes?"

"I can't see it!" As soon as Song Junxi finished speaking, the thing in my hand fell to the ground, and I suddenly pushed the door and came out of it, ran to him, and shook my hand in front of him.

He heard my footsteps: "Xia Xia!"

I had lost all my sanity and stumbled to the door: "I'll call the doctor!"

"No need, I asked the doctor in the morning!" Song Junxi wanted to reach out and hold me, but he didn't.

His face was a little heavy, he took a deep breath, and said calmly for a long time: "The congestion of the blood pressure has blocked the nerves, resulting in blindness, because it is within the skull, the risk of surgery is too great, once the blood is not well induced, it will be life-threatening, the only possibility is to wait for the congestion to spread by itself, but if the spread is slow, it may crush the nerves and lead to permanent blindness, the doctor said so!"

His tone was extremely calm, as if he was relaying something very ordinary.

He asked me to buy fruit in the morning just to keep me out of the picture.

He said in the morning that he wanted to turn on the light, but he couldn't pick up things, and he was blind at all!

My face turned pale to the extreme, and I said, "How did this happen? I don't believe it, I'm going to ask the doctor myself, I don't believe it!"

Li Zhibin's face was also extremely ugly, he stretched out his hand, grabbed my arm, and patted my shoulder!

What does blindness mean to Jun-hee?

A perfect person has a fatal flaw.

fell heavily from the pinnacle of his life.

A myth in the IT world has suddenly become a crippled person, and for him, such a blow is nothing more than a death!

Or, perhaps, a torment harder than death!

It's dead, and it's still a hundred.

And now?

If you are born blind, you will not be expected to be so high, and the starting point will be different, and the end will be different.

But he is not, he is from a good background, he is a young man, this is the heyday of his life, but suddenly he has such a sudden change, how can he accept it?

My world was in a daze.

If it weren't for me, Jun-hee wouldn't have lost his light.

If it weren't for me, Han Xiaoya wouldn't have done these crazy things.

If it weren't for me, I wouldn't have had so many incidents.

It's all me, it's all because of me that Jun-hee became like this!

Junxi's blindness can't be hidden, when Aunt Yao came to the hospital, I suddenly knelt in front of her: "Aunt Yao, I'm sorry, it's all me, Junxi drove into it to save me, and I lost my eye, I'm sorry!"

Aunt Yao's expression was dazed for a while, she stretched out her hand, pulled me up, and stared at me straight for a while, the frost and mist under her eyes seemed to gather a thousand words, but finally gathered into a sentence: "I heard that you are pregnant, get up, the ground is cold!"

I knew that Zhibin must have told her, and he must have been afraid that Aunt Yao would blame me, so he told her about my pregnancy first.

Song Junxi sat quietly on the hospital bed, his eyes looking motionless ahead, still unfathomable, no different from before, and even his eyes looked clearer than before.

But I knew that I could no longer see anything or color in those eyes.

I quietly walked to the bedside, and he heard the sound and turned his head slightly.

"Xia Xia!"

I silently stretched out my hand and pulled the quilt for him, lowered my head, and before I could speak, tears fell from my eyes.

People hear very well when they can't see, and I try my best not to make a sound, but he still feels it.

In the past two days, he seems to have adapted a little, he accurately touched my position, his fingers were a little cold, stroked my face, and helped me wipe away my tears: "Don't cry anymore, if you cry like this, our children will feel it, you don't want him to be unhappy in your stomach!"

Jun-hee smiled and comforted me, he knew that besides him, I cared about this child the most, and besides, we lost it once, and this child can't have another accident.

His voice sounded exceptionally nice in the quiet hospital room, comforting, as if nothing had happened, and he was still the perfect Jun-hee he used to be.

However, the more this happened, the more uncomfortable my heart became.

I know that he just doesn't want me to be sad and guilty, so that's why he makes such a calm appearance, in fact, how sad his heart should be.

How panicked people are in the endless night, I am afraid of how helpless he is in his heart now, and how much hope he has in the dark night, because the dawn will always come, but he ·····

His eyes may never see it again!

Jun-hee's injuries are somewhat similar to my mother's injuries back then, they are all in the brain, but Jun-hee's is more complicated, his bruising part is too close to the central nervous system of the brain, and the operation is very risky!

Moreover, the doctor who operated on my mother at that time happened to go to City A to make a report, and after so many years, he has long passed away, and the probability of success of such an operation in China is extremely low!

Surgery could cost him his life, and he would never have the chance to see him again.

But if you don't do it, just like the doctor said, you will be completely blind when you lose blood pressure and kill nerves.

Song Junxi smiled lightly and said lightly: "Don't think too much, I'm fine." ”

He always said that he was fine, he didn't tell me how painful he was, he carried everything by himself, when Aunt Yao lost his temper and beat him on the back, he also said that he was fine, and now the scar on his back is miserable, and when he hurt his ribs, he also said that he was fine, and even this time, he vomited blood in front of me and said that he was fine before he fainted.

When will he be able to tell me that he is not good, that he is uncomfortable, that he is worse off than dead at the moment, and the more I am like this, the more my heart will be cut.

There was so much pain buried under his calm eyes that I couldn't bear to look at it anymore and twisted my head to the side, raised my hand, wiped the tears from my face, moved my lips, but didn't say a word.

He was equally silent.

It's been almost a week, and the doctor said that the lung injury will be almost fine in a few days, but the eyes, depending on the opinions of the patient and the family, he has made it clear to us, but if it is necessary to operate, it is necessary to wait for the best plan after the consultation of brain experts, in some respects, the hospital still hopes to do surgery, which is a challenge, and Wilson in the United States has also been contacting the best brain experts abroad.

Song Junxi has always been very calm, without any impetuousness and rebellion, Li Nuo, Wu Gang and they all came to see him, I stood aside to make room for them, so that they could have a good chat, at first everyone was worried that Junxi's proud temperament would be difficult to accept such a situation, and everyone gradually let go of their hearts.

At first I thought it was so, until one day, I woke up in the middle of the night!

The moonlight that day was very good, and although it was dark in the ward, it was not so bad that you could not reach out and lose your fingers.

I woke up to find Song Junxi standing in front of the window, and the tall figure seemed to be covered with a layer of fog because of the night, which made people feel distressed.

He was only wearing a single shirt, no jacket, although there was heating in the ward, but after all, it was winter, I wanted to give him a coat, but I was afraid to break his deep thinking, I was spiking on his helplessness like this, he should not want people to know that he was so sad.

Those people in our class, when they are familiar with it, they have to call him brother, even if they are not familiar with it, they are called by the head of the class.

The one who worships God doesn't want people to see him helpless as he falls into the clouds!

I got out of bed gently, not daring to put on shoes, afraid of making a sound for him to notice, silently standing next to him, keeping a little distance, he looked out of the window where he couldn't see anything, I only silently looked at him who was lonely, until the day was about to dawn, he moved, step by step, walked extremely slowly, as if counting the steps, and then accurately found the bed, and lay down.

I squatted on the ground and wanted to cry, this short road, from the window to the bed, how many times did he count and how many times he walked!

After more than an hour, I pretended to have just woken up, and as usual, I waited for him to eat and take medicine.

The sun was shining brightly, but unfortunately he couldn't see it, but I still wanted this kind of sunshine to shine into his heart and make him feel it.

In the afternoon, I accompanied him downstairs for a walk, I walked very slowly, I helped him, and he followed my footsteps.

Song Junxi is outstanding, and he will be the focus of attention wherever he goes, even in the hospital, people like to see beautiful things.

Because of the attention, naturally everyone also looked carefully, and soon someone found out that he couldn't see things, and sighed again and again, but unfortunately, I didn't expect such a character to be a blind man, it's really not long-sighted!

I heard an aunt's complaint and sigh, and I felt sad for a while, and took his hand: "Let's go up!"

Song Junxi smiled: "Okay!" as if he hadn't heard the aunt's words.

In the evening, as usual, I helped him to the bathroom and took a rough shower, and after helping him to the bed to lie down, I also went to lie down on the bed next to me.

But this time, I didn't fall asleep, I kept my eyes open, waiting.

I don't know how long it took, Song Junxi turned over, sat up, and slowly walked to the window as yesterday.

That night, I deliberately left the bedside lamp in front of my bed, and with the light on, I could see the sadness on his face.

I felt a tumultuous pain in my heart, and it wasn't that he really let go, but that he just didn't want us to worry.

deliberately pretended to let go, so many days and nights, he didn't even rest, alone in the silent and lonely night, slowly enjoying such sadness alone!

I looked at him like this, felt that my heart couldn't bear the pain anymore, gently lifted the quilt, and slowly walked in front of him.

He stood there motionless, like a sculpture, but I couldn't bear it, so I threw myself into his arms, his stiff body softened for a moment, his hand slowly hugged my waist, my head was on his chest, I heard his rhythmic heartbeat through his pajamas, his nose became more and more sore, and guilt filled my heart, for a long time, I opened my mouth sullenly, and whispered: "I'm sorry." ”

There was silence in the house.

Hugging is a very strange expression of feelings, obviously two people are so close, but they can't see each other's expressions, as if the farthest distance in time!

Just like now, I can't see the sadness in his eyes.

After a long time, he gently raised his hand, patted me on the back, and said, "Fool!"

I couldn't speak, I just stretched out my hand and wrapped my arms around his waist fiercely, with extra force.

His hand slowly moved to my face, and then gently held my face, and he lowered his head and faced me.

His eyes were pressed tightly to mine, and there was no brilliance in them, and there was silence in the dark.

Obviously, he couldn't see anything, but his affectionate appearance, as if he saw me and my appearance, looked at it seriously for a long, long time, and then I heard his voice coming, softly as if he was whispering: "I don't regret it, do it again, even if it is death, I will still do it, no regrets, no complaints!"

The tears of my life have flowed to him, all my feelings are poured into him, and in an instant it is like being gnawed by thousands of ants on my body, I thought that he would always have a trace of regret in such pain, even if it was for a moment, but no!

He gave me four words, no regrets, no complaints!

I don't know what I can say.

Speechless!

Knowing the result, I will still do it, no regrets, no complaints!

At this time, the night was very late, and it was a hospital again, and it was silent.

The windows were closed, and the wind whistled wantonly outside the windows, but no sound came in.

The interior is silent.

It's great for making people weak.

My heart seemed to lie on a soft feather, and I softly called out his name: "Jun-hee." ”

"Huh?" Jun-hee replied in a soft tone.

Actually, I would like to tell him what I am going to say, I want to say, I will always be by your side, until the day comes when you are very old and I am very old, and neither of us can walk or help me, so we put on our clean clothes, lay down on the bed together, hold hands, close our eyes and say, "All right!

After all, he didn't say it, I know, he must have felt it, what I'm going to say, because I know he's thinking like I do.

What is love, why is it so bitter and painful, as long as you can hold it, you still refuse to give up until you die, and you are willing to die.

But in the end, it all turned into Song Junxi's words!!

Song Junxi didn't speak, just hugged me gently in his arms, tightly!

His arms were still as wide and warm as before, like a lean.

If he is really blind for the rest of his life, then I will accompany him for the rest of his life, and I am his eyes.

Jun-hee is reluctant to risk surgery, and for me, it is also the most important thing for him to live!

We both slept in the small hospital bed, and when I woke up in his arms in the morning, his eyes were open, obviously he had woken up early, but he didn't want to disturb my good sleep because he didn't move.

"Morning!" I kissed him on the lips.

"Morning!" Song Jun-hee kissed me back!

I got up to wash and wash my face, when I heard the sound of something hitting the ground.

Hurriedly ran out, Song Junxi was standing there, he should have touched the glass on the table!

"Don't move!" he didn't have shoes on, and I was afraid of pricking him.

Song Junxi stood there obediently, and for the first time he saw such a somewhat helpless expression on his face.

I cleaned the glass slag from the floor, found a mop to wipe the floor clean, and then put on his shoes: "I'll help you brush your teeth!"

He was tall, and I naturally couldn't reach him, so he bent over slightly and asked me to wipe his face.

At breakfast he asked me if the weather was good today, and I laughed, "How do you know!"

"I smell the sun!" Song Junxi looked at the position of the window.

The last time I heard those people, we didn't go downstairs for a few days!

I'm afraid he'll be upset when he hears it, or rather, I'll be sad!

"It's nice weather outside today, shall we go out for a walk?"

Suddenly hearing him say this, my expression froze for a moment, but I still nodded and said, "Okay." ”

I saw that he wanted to go out for a walk, so I immediately found a clean set of clothes and changed for him.

When he was about to go out, he took a scarf and tied it for him, and he also tied a scarf of the same color, and took him out with his arm.

The sun was shining outside, the wind was light, and even in the depths of winter, it didn't feel so cold.

Actually, I don't know where to go, there is nothing to visit next to the hospital, and there is a community not far away.

Where there is a community, there is naturally a place for the elderly and children to walk and exercise, so we decided to go there.

Sure enough, there were a lot of old people basking in the sun and chatting.

I helped Junxi along the gravel road for a while, people don't get up so early in winter, and there will be an old man who practices swords there, with a childish face and a good spirit.

There is fitness equipment in front of him, and it is estimated that he will definitely not come to this place to hang out before.

I saw a swing in front of me, it wasn't a weekend, so there were no children, and the swing frame was empty.

I remember when I was a child, my father would always put up a swing at the door during the Spring Festival every year, and there happened to be two trees there, which was very convenient.

Our children there will swing in the first month of the year, get rid of illness and disaster, and will be healthy and good luck throughout the year.

I also want Junxi to be healthy and healthy, and good luck is always with you!

flashed his eyes, turned his head, and said to Song Junxi: "Junxi, let's go swing!"

Song Junxi nodded lightly, and I helped him over.

"You sit on, I'll help you push!" I carefully helped him and let him sit on it before saying, "Are you ready, I'll push it for you!"

"Can you push it?" Jun-hee laughed at me!

"Don't underestimate me, I'm very strong!" Actually, I didn't dare to push too hard, after all, I was still pregnant with a child.

Standing beside him, I pushed him up as hard as I could, in fact, it doesn't matter whether he is tall or not, the most important thing is the artistic conception, I want him to get better.

If there is a miracle, let it happen to Jun-hee.

I would trade my ten years of life for him to regain his light!

The scenery around the square of this community is not bad, I slowly pushed him while telling him what I saw, when I spoke, I found that I was short of words, and I couldn't describe the peaceful scenery here, but Song Junxi was very interested, bent his lips, smiled, as if he really felt it, and said: "It sounds beautiful." ”

I nodded, and what he said sounded beautiful, but in fact, he could see it, and he didn't need me to tell him about it.

He was such a perfect person, and yet, now, because I had such a big cripple.

I was behind him, with my hands on top of him and my head resting on his shoulders.

In fact, when we used to study, we had time to get along day and night, but after we met, we rarely enjoyed such a leisurely time as we do now.

Always busy with work or afraid of being discovered, now that they can finally be together in the open, his eyes are out of sight.

After a while, the old man who was sitting on the stone table playing chess went home separately, and just vacated his place, I helped Junxi over!

He sat across from me, still sitting elegantly, the sunlight refracted under his eyes, shining his inky black eyes, which looked like the eyes of a blind man, he shouldn't be so invisible!

Song Junxi's skin is a little transparent in the sun,

The outline is clear, but it doesn't give people that angular meanness, the cold is just right, and the perfection is flawless!

I was always embarrassed before, but I didn't have the opportunity to look at him as unscrupulously as now, stared at him for a long time, and finally the gaze of my eyes fell on his slightly pursed lips silently.

His lips were thin, light and pinkish.

Maybe it's because of too much blood loss this time, and it's obviously weak!

Suddenly I wanted to kiss him, but there were too many people, I was a little embarrassed, I didn't expect that I would have such an idea, my face was a little red, fortunately he couldn't see it!

Still feeling uncomfortable, he brushed his hair to hide his nervousness.

"Let's go back!" we have been out for a long time, so as not to worry when the nurse rounds the ward.

"Okay!" Song Junxi also got up from the stone bench.

I helped him walk forward slowly, and suddenly a dog ran over, I have always been afraid of dogs, seeing that the dog was menacing, I pulled Junxi to dodge, maybe too anxious and too nervous, I actually twisted my foot on the flat ground, oops.

Jun-hee frowned and hurriedly asked me what's wrong?

I was afraid that he would be worried, so I was busy: "It's okay!"

When I twisted my foot, my body naturally tilted a little, and the center of gravity of my body suddenly fell to him, and he naturally felt: "Did you twist your foot?"

I don't want him to know, besides, I am deficient in calcium, and I often get to my feet, and it will get better slowly in a few days, it doesn't matter.

"No, let's go back!" I tried to keep my steps as steady as I could avoid being discovered by him.

I took a few steps forward, and my ankle hurt terribly, but Jun-hee suddenly stopped, "Why don't you leave?" I looked at him and asked.

"I'll carry you!" Joon-hee was stubborn in his grip on my arm, apparently he was pretty sure I had a foot injury.

"It's okay, I'm pregnant with the baby now, it's not good for the fetus if you carry me on my back and press the baby!"

Junxi frowned: "Then I'll hold you, so that I won't crush the child!"

I hurriedly waved my hand: "No, how dangerous is that, what if I fall?"

I also have to be responsible for leading the way, being held by him, and seeing the road and telling him that it takes time after all.

Song Junxi's eyes darkened suddenly, his brows furrowed, he obviously thought of something.

In the end, he pursed his lips: "Then I'll help you!"

"I'll call the nurse to come here and find us!" Jun-hee grabbed my arm: "Don't bother others, we can!"

Very stubborn, very persistent!

How could he be brought down by this little difficulty!

He held me, I clinged to him, and I tried to keep myself on the side, not walking in the middle of the way to get in the way of others.

When the two of us limped to the ward, Zhibin stood at the door of the ward and looked out: "Where have you two gone?

He hurriedly came over and supported Junxi with one hand and me with the other, and before his voice fell, Junxi continued: "Xia Xia twisted his foot, hurry up and call the doctor to come and take a look!"

The doctor came to see my foot, nothing serious, just a small sprain, but I can't use force these days, I would have rubbed some safflower oil and it would have gotten better, but I would be pregnant, and those things can't be touched.

The doctor asked me to alternate between hot and cold water, which would get better a little faster, and the cold water would also relieve some pain.

Jun-hee couldn't see how my foot was hurting, and even though the doctor said it was okay, he was still very worried, and he hadn't let go of his brow since we came in just now.

I put it on for about a few minutes and then went to bed and sat down, Jun-hee got out of bed and sat across from me, holding one of my feet and whispering softly, "Is this one?"

Actually, the one in his hand was only the one that was not injured, but I still nodded and didn't let him worry, the injured foot, the ankle was a little swollen, and he couldn't move.

In the past two days, Jun-hee and I have lost sight and injured our feet, so we can only stay in the ward obediently.

Fortunately, Zhibin is our companion to relieve boredom, and life is not boring!

I also asked Zhibin to buy me a copy of the Legend of the Condor Heroes, I used to be lazy, and Junxi always read it to me, but now, it's my turn to read it to him!

At noon, I didn't know how to read, and I fell asleep when I read.

In a daze, I heard Jun-hee and Ji-bin talking.

"Wilson has contacted the doctor, and I have decided to operate!" Song Junxi's tone was firm.

"Brother, can you think clearly, this is not a minor operation, if the operation fails, what will you do with Xia Xia and the child? Besides, does Aunt Yao agree? She is here first, but you are really the only one!" Li Zhibin's voice raised a little, and his expression seemed to be very serious.

"I'm also a drag on them now, Xia Xia is most afraid of dogs, she saw that the dog was too scared to see the dog on the day she got to her foot, and she was afraid that the dog would bite me, so she broke her foot in a hurry, I can't bear such a simple thing for her, so what's the point of my life!" Song Junxi's words were a little self-deprecating.

He had never said such a tone in front of me.

"If you don't agree, I'm going to do this surgery!" Song Junxi repeated his opinion again.

"But Xia Xia's side, how do you tell her, if it'·····"

"The operation will definitely be successful, I still have to live, and I have not had time to do many things I promised her!" Song Junxi's words came clearly into my ears.

There was a long silence in the ward, Li Zhibin didn't speak, who knows if he will be so lucky, after all, it is such a difficult operation, even doctors who have had a successful precedent may not be completely sure, everyone's situation is different, and such an operation needs something called a miracle to help.

"If ······" Junxi's voice broke the silence of the ward, and his voice carried a touch of emptiness: "If the operation really fails, take care of my mother and Xia Xia for me!"

"Song Junxi, I won't take care of you, you think it's beautiful!" Li Zhibin directly interrupted him, and it was also the first time in the years I have known him that he called Junxi by his name like this.

Song Junxi subconsciously glanced at me: "You be quiet, don't wake her up!"

"I don't care, I'll tell you, I won't be your microphone, I'll see how you tell her about your surgery! You have been wrong for ten years, and in the end, you still have to be happy!" Li Zhibin sat down on the edge of the bed.

Obviously in a bad mood!

I knew I woke up at the wrong time, and Jun-hee said this to Ji-bin while I was asleep, just because I didn't want me to know.

I think, listen to him say it himself!

When I closed my eyes, I really fell asleep, and when I woke up, it was already completely dark, and Li Zhibin had already ordered takeout and sent it directly to the ward.

The meal was very quiet, and Zhibin didn't talk much, so he left sullenly after eating, as if he was angry with someone.

I asked Jun-hee while packing up my things, "What's wrong with Ji-bin?"

"It's okay, I'm not in a good mood!" Jun-hee didn't intend to tell me the truth.

I packed everything up, took a towel and wiped his face and hands, and washed his feet.

He also looked tired, with his eyes closed, half-lying there.

The lights in the room were on, but I felt like I couldn't feel any light, and I felt that it was dark in front of me!

Still won't tell me?