Everyone can move forward, and they can only pay for what is right or wrong. What's more, fate always gets in the way, which no one can do.

Liu Nian stepped forward to comfort him, but he didn't know what to say, not to mention that he knew the inside story. When I thought of Kang Ruoran's mother, I felt a lot of kin. What if he hadn't insisted on it in the first place?

I have always lived a sure life, but now I feel deeply confused, hesitant and helpless. Am I wrong?

When he is alone, he sometimes asks, should he sacrifice Chen Mofei and sacrifice his love with her in order to take care of the so-called overall situation? Is it destined that Chen Mofei should be let down by himself?

Butterfly effect!

Butterfly effect!

In the past few years, these concepts have been hyped up to the extreme, he was quite unimpressed with this at first, he never thought that a decision by himself would make himself, his family, the Kang family, and Kang Ruoran's life completely chaotic, and now, someone died.

The passing years have fallen into long-term thinking about life. He couldn't figure out whether a person should fight for his ideals or compromise for the sake of the overall situation.

Especially in the middle of the night, he is willing to take a knife, ** cut himself open, by himself to operate, without anesthetic, Liu Nian clearly heard the sound of the blade cutting the skin, and he endured the pain in the dark to observe himself.

Yes, he felt that he was more or less selfish, how much did he love Chen Mofei? After so many years, could he really figure out whether he was sorry or obsessed with Chen Mofei?

I can't answer this question with a lot of certainty.

This made Liu Nian very disappointed.

So he raised the knife in his hand and began to cut deep until the white bones were exposed under the knife, and he felt that this time the man called Liunian should see through himself.

However, the results still disappointed him.

Could it be that if he is not with Chen Mofei, the result will definitely be good? Just take care of the overall situation? He will be great in the passing years?

No!

If he was really brave enough, he shouldn't have left him from the first day, from the day he was with Chen Mofei, from the day he learned that she had miscarried for him.

But he didn't, in order to completely forget Chen Mofei, he used Kang Ruoran and arranged for her to become the most pathetic and pitiful chess piece in his life.

He is not a saint of love, he was not before, he is not now, and he will be ......

After not daring to think about it, after facing himself countless late nights, the passing year that made him see more and more clearly made him feel fear and fatigue.

And he hated that kind of self more and more. Why?

He's a coward. He's a coward. He's a coward.

Although the education he has been receiving is unwilling to make him think of himself like this, although the advantage of gender makes him sincerely try to rebel against this result from the bottom of his heart.

But, it has to be said. He now seems to be getting closer and closer to the truth.

Having trouble now?

Some.

Is it difficult?

Bigger.

Is he stressed?

Also big.

But what does he think about most at such a time? Is it to bear all the hardships like a man?

No!

He turned out to be the first to regret it.

It was the first time in his life that he clearly felt the power of a woman.

It's not that women can't compare with men, it's that most of the time men can't compare with women.

Up to now, Kang Ruoran has never said that he regrets it, and to this day, Chen Mofei has never thought of giving up, on the contrary, he, a seven-foot man, has already walked through thousands of mountains and rivers like a god and a ghost in his heart.

I am selfish.

Liunian finally realized. Not only selfish, but also selfish. In fact, a man like him may not be worthy of Kang Ruoran in the first place, even if it is Kang Ruoran who is full of holes like this, he is not worthy of Chen Mofei.

The passing year is considered a man with self-knowledge, and how many men in this world are not self-aware.

Kang Ruoran and Chen Mofei are also the best among women, but if they can't break the relationship, their lives and wisdom are not so valuable.

Men and women are actually independent individuals, and no one's life should be attached to another person as an accessory.

People must always see themselves clearly first, in order to be better themselves, and to be a better version of themselves.

Liu Nian stepped forward and stood in front of Kang Ruoran, then sat down and raised his head to look at her.

"What did you dream about?"

Kang Ruoran's red and swollen eyes widened, carefully studying the facial expressions on Liu Nian's face, and she did not ease her emotions until she truly confirmed that her statement at this time was both necessary and safe. Kang Ruoran indifferently turned his gaze away from Liu Nian's face and looked into the void, and the whole person seemed to have walked into the dream just now.

"You don't know, Liunian," Kang Ruoran's voice seemed extremely ethereal on such a night, "It's really strange, I dreamed that my mother came, I didn't go to the airport to pick her up, how capable do you say she is? I looked back at her, and I said, "Mom." I threw myself at her, but I couldn't hold her, I just held a cloud of air, and I didn't have anything in my hand. Kang Ruoran opened his hands, his eyes full of surprise.

"You know what? Her face turned to him, "How strange is that? I can see her." I could see her, but I couldn't hold her. ”

Looking at Kang Ruoran, no one wanted to cry more than him. Kang Ruoran can't either. But he couldn't cry, but his eyes were red. He tried to persuade her, but found that all the words he had to say were choked in his throat, and he couldn't speak. So Liu Nian decided to remain silent.

Kang Ruoran once again turned his gaze to the void.

"I was in a dream as I am now. I'm still saying to myself in my dreams, it's a dream, it's a dream, you must not take it seriously. But......" Kang Ruoran cried as she covered her face, "you know how?" she whimpered in a neurotic statement over and over again. "You know what? My mom told me ......."

Kang Ruoran began to cry, and Liu Nian could almost guess the follow-up, and he didn't want to listen to it anymore. But Kang Ruoran needed someone to share her grief and fear.

"She told me, "If so," Kang Ruoran raised his teary eyes, his gaze glazed away. "She said, Mom is dead and can't take care of you anymore. You have to be good to yourself, you can't spoil yourself. ”

Liunian stood up. He had been an atheist before, but now his hairs stood on end. It is unknown whether there are ghosts or gods in this world, but a mother's concern for her children can completely float across the ocean, and she is convinced and in awe of this year.

She was a good wife and a great mother.

Tears flowed down his eyes, and he heard that Kang Ruoran was still crying. She should cry, we are all willful children who have learned to grow up, and we have all paid the price for our willfulness. However, it is useless to cry alone, we should learn to repay and repay.

The years passed without a trace, wiped away the tears, and returned to Kang Ruoran's side. He did not persuade her to stop crying, and proper crying would help humans relieve grief and tension. A person cannot be happy forever, and crying when he is unhappy is an outlet for his emotions. All the unbearable in life can come to you from all directions, but you have to have the courage and a way to solve them, and before there is a good way, at least let the tears play a role in balancing the mood.

Liu Nian reached out and took down the tissue box from the bedside table, pulled out one by one and handed it to Kang Ruoran, Liu Nian saw Kang Ruoran crying and his shoulders shook again and again, he restrained his urge to hug her and comfort her. I don't know how my parents, the old lady of the Kang family, are going to face this situation on the other side of the ocean.

Liu Nian had always felt that he was a very responsible person before that, and for several days he suddenly realized that he was nothing, he didn't understand anything, and he was a fool. I can't grasp anything, I can't solve anything, and I can't do anything about many people and many things.

"You don't understand anything. ”

"You don't understand anything. ”

In "A Song of Ice and Fire", Echorite, born of a kiss of fire, said this to her lover. Her lover Jon didn't understand it at first, but he finally understood and approved of it.

Yes, he doesn't understand anything. A wave of grief and disappointment seized him almost at the same time.

He knew that his father would definitely come to the door and ask for help, but in fact, his father must have wanted to become an invisible person and never appear in front of the Kang family again. He also knew that the old man of the Kang family must not say anything about his father, and he must treat him as before, and even take his old buddies to drink two sips at a certain point in time, but he also knew that this is not what his father wants most.

He may approve that the old man of the Kang family slapped him in the mouth a few times, and then scolded his ancestors for eighteen generations, and even if the Kang family made him bankrupt to compensate, these can make his father's heart feel better.

However, no.

Nothing.

Nothing will be there.

Passing years know.

How aggrieved his father was to let his life be back then, so how cramped he is for his father now.

No, none of these were the results he wanted. The father is like an atonement-like figure, the mother strives to mediate in the middle, and the Kang family's father has a hidden hatred. All of this will need to take root at the right time, in the right climate, in the right soil, and they can't hide anything.

Before the storm, it was calm.

However, one cannot be unprepared for a rainy day.

However, he was at a loss as to what to do and how to prepare.

This slap must be taken, but the passing years are not sure how fierce the attack will be when the old Kang family attacks him, and at the beginning, five fingerprints will be swollen on someone's face.

Come on me!

Liunian sighed, everyone else was innocent.

But once this "me" has three longs and two shorts, it is the most unbearable for all those who love me.

Liu Nian secretly laughed in his heart at the absurdity and unreasonableness of this world.