Can't go.

This is no longer the case.

It used to be okay, when she was pregnant and abroad. It sounds like it all sounds like it's just right. But not right now.

Confinement sister-in-law Wang Guiqin appeared at the door of the room and said sister, I will take the child to my room and go to sleep.

"No, I don't. Chen Mofei said. The eyes found the child, and saw that he was sleeping peacefully, and his full chest fell together.

"Why are you here?" Chen Mofei seemed to remember suddenly.

"Ahh He said that he didn't know what the word "ah" meant. Chen Qiao turned around, went to the living room, and then lay down with his clothes, Chen Mofei's sofa was the same as her person, not soft, hard to lie up, but his body was extremely adaptable, and his body would quickly mingle with the sofa under his body, the sofa showed friendship and welcome to his body, and his body reciprocated, as if they were each other's confidants.

Confinement sister-in-law Wang Guiqin brought a thin blanket and gently put it on him. Chen Qiao thanked him, turned over, and slept until dawn.

He couldn't convince his mother, sometimes he suspected that the elderly woman in front of him was deliberately confronting him, and sometimes he thought that his idea was a bit ridiculous. The mother must wish him well, she may not know that she has now been upgraded to a grandmother, it is said that the next generation is close, and the passing years have had a very bold idea for this, or she should take the child back, let her see, bring her, maybe her illness can be cured.

But he knew that Chen Mofei would definitely die, and he would not agree to his proposal. In the past, he had heard that the relationship between his mother-in-law and daughter-in-law was difficult, and men were always splinted in the middle, he thought that he and his family would be an exception, but he didn't expect to end up in the cliché, no matter how unwilling he was.

He wanted to see his wife and, of course, his son. Sometimes when he thinks of his wife and son, he is surprised that he has married a wife and had children, but his wife and son seem to be 108,000 miles away from him, which is an inexplicable sense of distance and alienation, and even a little desolation. Before marrying Chen Mofei, he always thought that he loved her, and he once thought that his love with Chen Mofei would also be a special case, he would never get tired of her in this life, he would love to go home, he would cook with her, he would share housework with her, their children were healthy, lively and happy, everything was beautiful.

It's only been a year, right?

Maybe it's not even a year yet. Marriage confuses him, or rather, it is not marriage that confuses him, but something else, and he always tries to find it, but in the end he finds nothing. So he stubbornly thought that maybe it was the sudden marriage that brought him more confusion, or that he was not ready.

I don't know which book it was written, but I read it in the past year, but I don't remember which book. The book says that marriage is always strange and scary for men, and some of them enter into marriage prematurely without being prepared for it all their lives.

Therefore, many marriages will inevitably have a sad background in the end, like autumn to a withered grass, like a broken wall or a collapsed house, like a failed flower or a dying fish, floating on the quiet water.

Recently he often coughed, the nanny at home said that he had a little cold, he took cold medicine, but the cold did not get better, his throat and eyes were dry, his whole body was tired, his nose was dripping, he was afraid of cold, he often curled up in the sofa, curled up all day, like a frog sleeping in a hole waiting for the beginning of spring, the nanny went downstairs to buy him medicine, the effect was not obvious, so that he was not very happy to speak now, because as soon as he spoke, he felt that there was dry and cold air taking the opportunity to get into his throat and eyes, making his throat even drier, he felt that his whole person was like being drained of water by the autumn and winter air, and it was dry from the inside outHe even hid from the sun now, and as soon as the sun hit his eyes, he felt like a vampire in the movie, turning into a puff of smoke and disappearing, as if he had never been to this world.

The nanny often looked at the mother and son with infinite sadness, and there was reason to believe that the nanny would describe this experience when she called someone else or told her own nanny experience in the future:

I once went to a family that seemed to be in good condition, but my father committed suicide after a big scandal, and then his mother seemed to go crazy, and finally his son, and the family couldn't see the sun, and they lived like rats in a small, dark space all year round.

"See, they lack nothing, and yet they are not happy. ”

Liu Nian imagined the look of the nanny at the end of the conversation, and his heart was calm. Come on, people are born to say it.

Thinking of this, Liunian retracted his feet, and the blanket now completely covered his body.

When Kang Ruoran came, he was sleeping in the sofa, and opposite him sat his mother, who was sitting in a wheelchair, her eyes often staring at one place, and she was reluctant to move away for a long time. The television seemed to be on twenty-four hours a day, because as long as the old lady was not on, she would lose her temper, and everyone seemed to be terrified of the silence at home.

It's kind of like a grave.

The babysitter thought.

But for the sake of money, she decided to stay in the grave.

I heard that the hostess gave birth to a child, and the nanny believed that it was a wise choice for the hostess not to bring the child back here for confinement. And when she went up and down the stairs, she heard that Liu Nian was once a young talent in the city, and she really didn't know what happened to hit a young talent like this, where to see it in life? Life is one unexpected drama after another, and you never know what you will experience until the day you breathe, and of course it is even more difficult to guess what others will do.

There was not much work, and she had wanted countless times to find a job with little work, and to have a large amount of leisure time, which was best not seen at a glance. Now her work in Liunian's house is like this, there is no work, so she cooks some food for the old lady, but they don't eat much, and the nanny has no appetite later. There is no desire to eat or see anything. One day, the nanny thought in horror, she thought that if she continued like this, she would be moldy here with the old and the young. She even thought of dried corpses. So she picked a sunny afternoon, and reached out to wake up the flowing year, she thought he had been sleeping, but she didn't want his eyes to be wide.

"Mr. Liu, I have something to tell you. ”

"Huh?" Liu Nian woke up from his ignorance, feeling that he had lived alone for a long century, as if no one had spoken to him for a long time.

He sat up and found that his language function had not deteriorated.

A corner of the blanket folded off his upper body and collapsed limply on his lap. He looked up at his mother, and felt like he was in a different world. He didn't even know what time it was, what day of the week, what day of the month it was, and he was too empty to be in a fugue.

Liu Nian rubbed his wrinkled hair, and the nanny stood in front of him in front of the light, so he was able to see the nanny's facial features clearly, Liu Nian's impression of the nanny was always just an outline, and now the wheel corridor finally became clear.

Liu Nian saw that this nanny was actually not bad, only her eyebrows were a little thick, and the corners of her eyes were drooping downward, which made her look a little old, and there were wrinkles at the corners of her eyes.

"Is there something wrong?" asked Liu Nian.

The babysitter had to repeat her request again.

"I'll tell you something. ”

"Then you say. "Liunian lifted the blanket.

"These words should not have been said by me, I know who I am. ”

"Since you know you shouldn't say it, don't say it. Liu Nian thought to himself, his heart still wanted him to say this, and after saying it, lie down in the startled, weird and slightly angry eyes of the nanny, and sleep for a while, this idea should not be bad.

However, this time he did not listen to his heart.

"Then you say. He heard himself. His voice hasn't changed much, but the pitch is much lower than before, maybe he hasn't spoken for too long, his tongue or throat is a little dry, plus he had a cold a few days ago, by the way, he has a cold, he tried to suck his nose hard, and found that he didn't know when, his cold was cured without medicine.

Time is the best doctor, who said it comes? But it doesn't matter.

I want to go through the years.

The nanny glanced back at the old lady and pursed her lips, "Sir, if it's convenient, let's go to the study." ”

This sentence finally aroused the alarm of Liu Nian, and he was afraid that the nanny would not want to do it. There was a shortage of manpower at the moment, so he glanced at his mother, and thought that he couldn't handle his mother alone.

He sat up, the blanket slid to the floor, Liu Nian picked it up in time, and then spread them out on the sofa, soft and collapsed, Liu Nian glanced back, and felt a little ugly. He left the ugly and blanket behind him and walked straight towards the study.

opened the door, Liu Nian couldn't help but shiver, he didn't come for a long time, there was no trace of popularity in this room, and the air seemed to be cold.

The table and chairs were still clean, so he picked a chair he was used to sit on, and reached out to the chair across the table for the nanny to sit on.

He opened the drawer and found a cigarette in it, and when he took it out, he felt as if he hadn't smoked for a century.

Rising smoke, thick or faint tobacco smoke.

belongs to the world, and he is in the world.

There is no lighter next to the cigarette, which is very annoying for a person who wants to smoke. He searched for the lighter with his hands and eyes, but returned to no avail. Liunian decided to give up the idea of smoking for the time being, and listened to what the nanny had to say.

Then Liu Nian found that the nanny was not sitting, she stood next to the table, and her lower abdomen was a little lower against the corner of the table.

"Why don't you sit?" asked Liu Nian.