On the way out of the house, he saw a pair of grandchildren, the old lady was about his mother's age, pushing a small stroller, and the child was staring at the world with big eyes, looking east and west, and the old lady's eyes were not looking east and west, but only looking at her grandson.

Thinking about it, I don't know if he will have a chance to see this. There are not many pedestrians on both sides of the street, and the sun comes little by little, reaching its heyday, and then receding little by little. Sometimes they look through the clouds, sometimes they look through the leaves, the earth is mottled, there is a red light in front, the passing years slow down, thinking that there is chicken soup in the thermos bucket, the chicken he went to buy, the nanny said that it has been stewed for several hours, and the oil slick on the surface is skimmed.

"Pregnant women eat things that are too oily and tend to slip their intestines. ”

The first time he heard this statement, he didn't know what it meant to slip his bowels, and he didn't want to study it in detail, so he didn't let her try anything bad for Chen Mofei, as for how bad it was and what bad it would cause, he didn't care.

When the car arrived at the hospital, Chen Mofei still hadn't woken up, so the confinement lady injected chicken soup into her stomach through a nasogastric tube. He was a little worried that Chen Mofei would never wake up again, and sometimes he looked at her with a long and persistent gaze, as if he were looking at a stranger.

Sometimes he even thinks if only she was really a stranger. Often at such times, it is inevitable to laugh at yourself.

He thought that people were really strange creatures, and things that could cause people to be sad and sad were there, such as birth, old age, sickness and death. However, because the subject of birth, old age, sickness and death has nothing to do with him, he will not be too sad.

It can be seen that it is not life, death, sickness and death that dominates grief, but relationships.

Relationships determine the level of grief, pain, and sadness.

Chen Qiao soaked in the hospital all day long, as if there was nowhere else to go, once he heard the intermediary call Chen Qiao, saying that someone was interested in his house, but Chen Qiao pushed the intermediary away without thinking about it. He said, "Besides, I have important things to do now." What's important? I'm waiting in the hospital for confinement.

Liu Nian thought that Chen Qiao had never put Chen Mofei down, but he didn't want to possess or destroy something.

Every time he passed the years, he felt ashamed of himself, he felt that if Chen Qiao really fell in love with Chen Mofei, then his love would be much purer than himself. Feelings are wonderful, and there are many uncertainties in it, for example, each of us is not sure how long our feelings for a certain person can last, and no one dares to be sure how much we love. Sometimes we think that what we love is full marks, but who knows that one party has a change in the middle of the way, or is sick, or the family is suddenly depressed, or it is simply too long, a little tired and tired, and we will know that what we think is not 100% may not be 100%.

We often don't know ourselves, we don't understand our own emotional direction, we don't understand others, and we don't understand the emotional direction of others. We don't know the world, we don't know anything. But we think we know it all.

When Chen Mofei didn't wake up, the confinement lady would sometimes carry the child to Chen Mofei's side, he was never noisy, he was not a noisy child, he stayed quietly by his mother's side, and after a while he fell asleep, when he fell asleep, he arched his little head into Chen Mofei's arm, maybe that made him feel safe.

Safe.

It's also a ridiculous word. Safe. There is no such thing as absolute security, but people will do whatever it takes to find it. In ancient times, a certain Homo sapiens first began to be anxious, he did not want to live a wandering life of no fixed place, in the sky covered with a dome, enveloped in the wilderness, the group of Homo sapiens was easily threatened by wild beasts or violent storms, so he began to build houses, and later humans began to build buildings. The building is to list the houses together, put them up so high, and I don't appreciate this way of life from the bottom of my heart, my house is built on top of your house, your house is built on top of my house, and other people's houses are built on top of your house.

It doesn't sound like anything wrong, but it always feels like something isn't right.

The child woke up from babbling, Chen Qiao was napping in the corner of the accompanying bed, he was at the head of the bed, and Liu Nian was at the end of the bed, Liu Nian couldn't sleep, Chen Qiao often slept in seconds, and snored when he fell asleep.

He snored so loudly that Liu Nian was always very worried that he would wake up the child, but he wanted his snoring to wake up Chen Mofei, so he would still kick him up with one of his own feet after a few back and forth, and then tell him to go back and rest.

This is not the position he should defend, and there is this husband here.

But Passing Nian never said that. Chen Qiao woke up, his eyes were a little red, he looked at him in the hazy sleepy eyes, his eyes crossed him, and then saw Chen Mofei from the child in turn, and finally fell on Chen Mofei's ECG monitor, when he was sure that Chen Mofei's vital signs did not fluctuate too much, he wrapped his coat and continued to sleep, or he was completely awake.

When he came to his senses, he would slowly walk out of the room until he reached the end of the corridor of this ward, there was a smoking room there, he lit a cigarette in it, he didn't smoke much, watching the smoke rise in front of his eyes and then dissipate, he held half a cigarette in front of him for a long time, Chen Qiao now likes to see the whole world through the smoke.

Perhaps he thinks that seeing too clearly can make a person miserable.

Chen Qiao is a person who knows how to pursue advantages and avoid disadvantages. Except for Chen Mofei, he thought about it. Everyone has a soft threat that will make people fearless, or know that there are tigers in the mountains and prefer tigers to go to the mountains.

Chen Qiao firmly believed that Chen Mofei would wake up, and he never thought that Chen Mofei would not wake up. If you can't wake up, it's a sleeping beauty, and all you need is a prince's kiss.

Chen Qiao laughs dumbly every time he thinks of this question, Snow White was poisoned by the queen and her life is on the verge of death, but Andersen tells people that as long as someone who loves her kisses her, she will be cured. If he has a daughter in the future, he will never let his daughter watch this kind of fairy tale, love is not a woman's salvation, the woman herself is.

He gradually figured out what attracted Chen Mofei to him, and at first he doubted whether he was also cheap, men are natural hunters, and Chen Mofei's prey was quite difficult for him, so he stimulated his competitive spirit. Later, he found out that it was not, what attracted Chen Qiao was some of Chen Mofei's qualities.

For example, independence is real independence. When you ask for privileges, or expect to receive benefits based on your gender, you first position yourself in the position of the disadvantaged, and if a person first acknowledges that he is a disadvantaged group, then what they are asking for is superiority, not the so-called rights that they should have.

Chen Mofei has never been ambiguous on this point. She always knew what she wanted. Of course, the relationship between her and Liu Nian is a little entangled. In Chen Qiao's opinion, Chen Mofei really didn't like Liunian so much, Chen Mofei had actually grown up, and Liunian was the boy Chen Mofei wanted when he was eighteen years old.

Chen Mofei never looked at Chen Qiao with her eyes after waking up, she sometimes looked at her son with a smile like that, sometimes she also looked at the passing year, and even looked at the confinement lady, but she rarely looked at Chen Qiao, and when she saw him, she always persuaded him to go back and rest more, and thanked him, Chen Qiao knew that Chen Mofei deliberately wanted to distance himself from him.

He understood, so he didn't go much later, sometimes he would bring something with him, sit for a while and leave, or keep an eye on it for a while when there were not enough people to run back and forth.

One day, in the afternoon, before the sun had time to darken, Liu Nian went home to pick up the old lady to take an MRI. He wanted to give the old lady a good examination to see if there was any lesion in the old lady's head, especially the cerebellum, whether it was really atrophied badly----- she could push her daughter-in-law to the ground, and she had to be examined.

The confinement lady took the child to take a bath, and it took about an hour to go back and forth.

Only Chen Qiao and Chen Mofei were left in the ward, and the two were silent for the first half hour. For the second half hour, the two deliberately remained silent. Chen Qiao actually wanted to say something to her, but Chen Mofei kept lowering her head, she didn't sleep, and Chen Qiao didn't know what she was thinking.

He didn't know that Chen Mofei had had countless dreams in the days when he slept, the dreams were clear and chaotic, mixed with everything possible and impossible, absurd or unbelievable, she also dreamed that she was eighteen years old again, with Liu Nian, who was still like a huge seabird swooping down towards her whole person, Chen Mofei could hear his wheezing, but at this time the earthquake came, she saw Liu Nian lift his pants and ran out in a panic.

He didn't take her to run with him, Chen Mofei in the dream was full of despair, Liu Nian looked back at her when he ran to the door, and then the roof above Chen Mofei's head began to shake violently, first white ash, then cement blocks, she stretched out her hand to him, but the door had been slammed shut by Liu Nian, and the last ray of light disappeared in her eyes.

Chen Mofei woke up gasping and found that she was asleep next to her, her sister-in-law was making milk powder, and her son was waving in the air with two small hands in the small bed.

The confinement lady asked her, "What's wrong with you?"

"Nope. "It's just a nightmare." She said.

Yuesao smiled, "The hospital is actually the place where the yin qi is the heaviest." So it's easy to have nightmares. It's okay, dreams are all reversed. ”

She also smiled at the confinement sister-in-law, as a return for her thoughtfulness.

Chen Mofei wanted to tell Chen Qiao about this dream, and wanted to say that I had a dream, and in the dream, Liu Nian betrayed me.

Is it anxiety or insecurity?

Maybe neither.

She still wants to cry a little, in fact, since she escaped death, she has always wanted to cry, unscrupulously, crying. However, she was surprised to find that when she faced the passing years, she did not have the slightest desire to throw herself into his arms and cry.

The footsteps of the confinement lady began to sound from the end of the corridor, and her voice, the sound of her teasing the child, this confinement lady seemed to really like Chen Mofei's son.