Then there was a great darkness, and the darkness fell over her, and pulled her into an endless, narrow dream, surrounded by walls, cold to the touch, and the air thinned with it, and she felt suffocated, and there was nothing desperate to choke her throat, but she just felt like she couldn't breathe, and the air seemed to be thicker than all the air she had ever experienced, and it was like a vine, like the roots of a tree that pierced into the earth, and they couldn't pass through her nostrils, and she lost the ability to breathe freely.

But she had to adapt to this society. She still wants to live, the desire of life dominates her, she has never been so eager for desire to come to her body as she is now, she hopes that the thing called desire can also be as hard as the roots of a tree into the good heart, in the desire to look forward to the long, there seems to be a bright light not far away, Chen Mofei adjusted her breathing, and walked towards the light, but halfway through, she stepped on the air, Chen Mofei once again fell into a huge and majestic darkness.

This time, she didn't know when she would wake up.

Little by little, the sky darkened, the night sky of the city was starless, the wind tore at the treetops, but people could only pay attention to the flickering neon, no matter how deep the night was, there were still anxious people who couldn't sleep, and no one knew if they were worried that they wouldn't wake up the next day, or if they hadn't had enough of the day at all.

The worst part is that they don't want to know the answer at all. They are plagued by insomnia, and then they give in to insomnia, and only when they are awake, with their phones in their hands, and what they are looking at, as if to remind them that they still exist----- not only the body, but also the soul.

They are born with both of these things, but too many of them often feel that they have left something in their mother's body at the beginning of their birth, so you see mothers have souls, beliefs, pursuits, and requirements for their children, but they themselves don't have these things.

They are trapped by the inertia of the unconscious era, and they don't know where they are going, let alone how to get there.

In biology class, the teacher talked about the difference between animals and plants. The difference between animals and plants lies in whether they are conscious or not, and that animals can be governed by their will to walk freely. Plants have no consciousness, and the consciousness of plants is worthless. There is no point in a plant realizing that someone else is coming to trample on it, because it cannot escape.

In the long process of biological evolution, the plant finally figured this out, so it stopped thinking and resigned itself to fate. Animals, on the other hand, always have the shadow of rebellion on their bodies, and they always can't wait to betray, in short, they have to betray something, otherwise it seems impossible to prove that they really exist. Animals don't believe in fate, they always try to reinvent their own destiny. But the bad thing is that they don't even understand what fate is. When you can't understand your fate, you can't control it.

But animals don't care, they just want to control, as if they were born to control.

Control gives animals a sense of security, and they love the feeling of being in control.

But the animals don't realize that they have never controlled anything, relationships, power, money, everything. On the contrary, the more crazy the people who want to control are the puppets, and they are controlled by the control.

Who is the owner of whom?

Sometimes it's a Rashomon.

On the third day, Chen Mofei was fully awake, and at that time, the confinement lady was already in place, and Liu Nian and Chen Qiao could help the confinement lady do many things, and they were skillful in their skills, and they could almost stand alone. Yuesao is a middle-aged woman in her forties, her most important excellent quality is that she loves to be clean, and she doesn't talk much, she doesn't know how to look at her face, and her approach to raising children is solidified and stiff, but Liunian is quite satisfied with her, and Liunian doesn't like people who are too noisy, especially women.

Confinement sao is different from other confinement sisters, in addition to doing her own part, she will also participate in taking care of Chen Mofei, in the days when she was unconscious, she would help her wipe her body almost every day, and would help her turn over several times a day, but she stood quietly at the head of the bed and looked at her hostess who had been unconscious, occasionally shaking her head, or sighing thoughtfully.

The child is not too noisy, which should be good news for the passing year. He always eats and sleeps, wakes up and eats, and sometimes plays, but it's so quiet, he doesn't look for anyone, whether it's the confinement wife, Chen Qiao, or his own father, he always has extremely quiet eyes staring at everything he can stare, kicking and kicking with both hands and feet, until he is exhausted, at this time, he either drinks some milk or sleeps for a while. He was able to settle his life well.

Chen Mofei woke up, but it still caused quite a stir. It was the confinement lady who first found out, unlike in the TV series, she didn't move her little finger first, and then someone found out and screamed, called the doctor, and the doctor announced that the patient had woken up, and would no longer fall asleep unconscious and restrained.

The confinement lady helped her wipe her body, and after wiping her, she thanked her quietly.

"Thank you. Chen Mofei said.

The confinement lady replied: "No thanks. ”

Then he lifted his eyelids to look at her. "Awake?" she asked.

Chen Mofei smiled weakly at her.

Then the woman threw away the rag and ran out, Liu Nian and Chen Qiao were smoking in the smoking room at the end of the walk, she ran out and ran back, and came back to confirm that Chen Mofei had really woken up.

She gasped and said to her. "I'll call your husband, can you take care of the children?"

She paused slightly, then added.

"You don't have to take care of it, you just watch, and no outsiders come in. ”

Chen Mofei's lips were extremely dry, she opened her dry lips and told the woman, "Go ahead." ”

And she went, like a gust of wind. When the wind whirlwind came back, two men were brought back, and the huge panting sound came from far and near, and Chen Mofei opened his eyes, as if he had never slept before. She looked at Liunian, and then decided not to take her eyes off the man in front of her.

Liunian knelt beside the bed and held her hand.

The propositions that plague him these days are all about gaining and losing.

Getting should be about joy, yet he didn't. And the loss should be about grief, he has. Sadness is like the sea, and he is a traveler who can't swim. Sorrow grows from his heart, sorrow is evidence-based, and yet he still can't do anything about it.

"You're awake. He asked.

Then, without waiting for her to answer, he asked again.

"Are you awake?"

"Wake up. ”

Chen Mofei nodded, Chen Qiao turned around and walked out of the ward, going out to find a doctor. The doctor went out of the outpatient clinic and was not there, only the doctor on duty was there, the doctor on duty was relatively indifferent, asked a few words about her situation, and said that it was very good, faint, as light as warm boiled water without adding anything, and then the doctor went out.

Walking to the door, the doctor said that she could eat, but still mainly on a liquid diet.

The confinement lady got busy, and the confinement lady did all this not like she was working, as if she was already a part of the family, doing normal and ordinary housework, which made everyone satisfied.

Chen Mofei ate, her face began to be a little bloody, how did life go, and now it returned to her body little by little. What did she have to gather strength to fight ----- against? She was actually at a loss.

Why does it have to be confrontation? Adapting can make life a little better for her and everyone. However, human beings are too stubborn to learn to adapt, and she has been wondering why this is happening, until she later realizes that the root cause of some people's stubbornness is selfishness, or selfishness, and to put it bluntly, Chen Mofei thinks that is called control.

Everyone wants to control, capable people control a country, a nation, the next time to explore a company, a group and a department, again to control their lovers, relatives or friends, of course, children, again, there is nothing in the world that can completely fall under his control, then he will keep pets or plants, or fiddle with some small objects, cultivate the same interest.

Only control can make people feel alive and feel alive.

This is a rather contradictory paradox, and Chen Mofei did not understand why people only give birth to the so-called inexplicable sense of security when they are in control.

In the book "The Ancient and Other Times", there is a passage that describes that the world changes every day, but human beings always try to live the same life. Human beings have a lot of troubles because of the unsatisfied desires.

Chen Mofei turned her eyes out the window, it was 11:30 in the morning, the sun was thick, the sun was coming in through the window, but the child's small bed was shrouded in shadows, she wanted to move, so she beckoned her sister-in-law to help her.

She sat up successfully, and then felt the cross-cutting cut in her abdomen angrily tear at her flesh. Chen Mofei frowned, panting, and sweat came down from his forehead.

"Lie down. "Confinement lady suggested.

Chen Mofei did not accept the suggestion of the confinement lady.

She insisted on sitting up, the bandage tied around her abdomen did her a great favor, and she looked over the cot and saw a pink face, which was extremely quiet when he slept, only his eyebrows furrowed slightly, as if he were thinking about some great proposition.

The confinement lady shook the bed up, and there was something behind her when she sat in the future. She felt stiff all over her body, as if she hadn't used it in a long time.

Liu Nian came over and sat on the edge of the bed. He went back once between her comatoses and saw his mother, who was in a wheelchair with cloudy eyes. Liu Nian still reported the good news to her, saying Mom, you are a grandmother, Mo Fei gave birth to a son.

But the old lady's face was expressionless, and her gaze was still cloudy, as if something had muddied her gaze, as if she could no longer see the world, or that she had begun to disdain it.

She didn't want to see anything.

I don't want to hear anything.

Whether it's good news or bad news.

Liu Nian looked at her, took her things, and left.