Two years and nine months have passed, and in the days of laughter almost every day, under the extra care of Bei Lu and Zhuo Qun.

Bei Jia, who grew up, is not only in interpersonal communication, but also almost the same as a normal child at the age of seven or eight.

I also learned to face parting like a real big child.

After all, she was thirteen years old.

Zhuo Qun and Bei Lu have been working tirelessly to teach her how to face adversity and laugh when it's time to laugh.

These are not useless exercises.

And a long time ago, Beja knew that there would be such a day.

So when the day really approached, the little girl was only able to accept the reality after crying for two days.

The day before leaving, she began to pack her bags in earnest and prepare to return to her hometown in Gusu.

"Mom, I want to bring a picnic basket and those cutlery. ”

"But that's too big. And you can't use it when you go back to Gusu. ”

"That'...... Isn't there a picnic place in Gusu?"

"I mean, grandparents didn't have a picnic habit...... The same goes for riding boots. Actually, you don't have to bring it. ”

"Hmm...... Then stay for now. If I don't get used to living in Gusu, can I come back? Maybe next summer, I can come back here and swim with you?"

Bei Lu nodded, saying yes.

But she deliberately looked away, not wanting her daughter to see her eyes.

Zhuo Qun was very considerate to comfort her daughter for her.

"Little Beja, I know you want to take all these things you like. Why don't you do that, I'll send you everything you like here. How about buying some brand new ones and putting them here? If you come back, you'll have new ones to use. ”

"Hey, that's a great idea, is it okay?" called Béja happily, smiling as she smiled.

"Of course, why not? Send something back and you can tell your grandparents how you like to live." Would you like to teach them how to have a picnic? You're going to do what your mother did, and you'd make them what you could cook. ”

"That's right, at least...... I'll make sandwiches and apple pies, Mom, do you think grandparents will like these French foods?"

"I think they will. They haven't eaten it, but they'll love it. As long as it's what you do. ”

Beilu smiled at her daughter very reluctantly.

Zhuo Qun interjected again, "Why don't you make a list for me? so that all the things you like will not be pulled down, and I can send all the things you like according to your list." ”

"Okay. Beja cheered and ran outside the house first.

Because outside in the tree, there is a tree house built for her by Zhuo Qun, and many of the treasures she thought she had no hope of taking away are there.

"Be careful. ”

"Okay, Mommy......" Bejia climbed the rope ladder without looking back.

At this time, Bei Lu turned to Zhuo Qun, leaving unbearable tears.

"I really don't want my children to leave me. There's only a month left, and we're going to ...... It's going to ......"

Zhuo Qun sighed and hugged Bei Lu and stroked her hair.

"Haven't we talked about it countless times before? At least some time will allow your child to adjust to the new environment, and you will be able to see your parents again...... When that day comes, there will always be some less blow to them. ”

"But......" Belu sobbed, "I'm so scared! I don't want to die, I don't want to ...... And just died...... This is the last time for me, and I will never come back. ”

Zhuo Qun hugged hard and shook Beilu with the crook of his arm, but his tears also left his cheeks.

"Think about how we survived. Think about the lives we've spent together. Seriously, I'm glad I met you. If I could, I would have traded my life for you, I'd rather die before you......"

"I ...... I believe you. But I always think that maybe we could have done more, maybe we were too weak......"

"No!" Zhuo Qun shook his head, "We've done our best, we've done far more than we expected. If it weren't for us together, the two of us, no matter who we are, would not have such a diverse life. ”

"I know......" Beilu leaned back and met Zhuo Qun's eyes eagerly, like she was staring at him for the last time.

"It's just, it's just that I can't do without this endless cycle of possibilities and time......"

"I've always had a delusion. It's as if we don't have to worry about the mistakes we've made, because it seems like there's always a chance to start over. ”

"I always thought that we could do better, make a difference in the world, make a difference in life without regrets. ”

"But we can't actually do it, right? We never made things better, we didn't eliminate regrets, we just made things different. ”

"I didn't realize this until now, and I feel really sad about myself......"

…………

Zhuo Qun felt that someone was nagging around him.

Whose voice was that, and what the hell was he talking about?

None of it matters!

The important thing is that Belo is dead!

And never to come back!

This thought hit Zhuo Qun's heart, and it hurt like salt particles sprinkled on a bloody wound.

His heart was filled with loss and loneliness that he had never felt before.

It's like a door to the light, "bumping" in his heart, closing forever.

He will never see the slightest light again, and his emotions will completely wither as a result.

He clenched his fists, and in the grief he could not deny, but did not want to accept, he hung his head, and tears welled down.

But at a time when he was so sad.

The chanting voice still harassed him.

"The standard EMU "Fuxing" with completely independent intellectual property rights officially debuted in both directions on the Beijing-Shanghai high-speed railway, which is definitely the most significant news at the moment. We have to publish a blockbuster column to report on this, when will the editorial team be able to show me the sample...... Zhuoqun, you, you...... Are you alright?"

"I'm sorry. I'm feeling a little sick. ”

Zhuo Qun quickly glanced at the surprised vice president and the surrounding middle-level cadres, and realized his gaffe.

Even though he hadn't seen these people for decades, he immediately recognized the place, the place, and immediately knew that it was at the daily meeting of the newspaper.

For many years, he was here doing just that, waiting for the leader to assign tasks, and then carefully executing them.

Moreover, he also remembered the news of the Fuxing, and if there was no problem with his memory, it would have been June 2017.

At this moment, the vice president, who didn't take him seriously, frowned, pretended to be concerned, but said in substance.

"Are you not feeling well? Do you need to go to the hospital? You know, what we're talking about now is important, if you ......"

But he never expected that Zhuo Qun at this time would not eat him.

He didn't hesitate to push the boat down the river, and with these words, he simply stood up.

"Yes, I need to take a leave of absence, go to the hospital now. Please continue the meeting. ”

As he spoke, Zhuo Qun wiped away his tears with his hands, and he left the newspaper office under the strange and puzzled eyes of almost everyone, including the vice president.

No one will know why he is so upset, so irritable, and so disrespectful to the vice president.

But Zhuo Qun actually didn't care about this.

In his heart, he was polite enough, at least he didn't beat and scold the teacher like Charlotte.

What really matters to him is that he is a man again.

Alone, alone.

He is a slave to fate, and resistance is ineffective.