The doctor told me that my mother's condition is special, and she is quite quiet when she doesn't see me, but when she sees me, she will go crazy, and let me be careful when I come to visit her, so as not to be discovered, which is more conducive to the condition!

I walked out of the hospital door step by step, my legs felt like they were filled with lead, and my heart ached with every step.

I took the car to the countryside to see my father, and I knelt in front of him, and I wished I could see him again, even if it was just his soul.

Doesn't it mean that people have souls after they die? Why didn't Dad have a single soul, his soul never appeared, even in a dream, and he was blaming me?

I knew I was wrong, but I could never get my father's life back, and I could never get my mother's sobriety back.

What do you want me to do? What do you want me to do, is it wrong to love someone? Why punish me like this.

When I got home, the landlord was waiting for me at the door, and when he saw me, he asked with a face: "Is your house still rented, it's time to pay the rent!"

"If I don't rent it, I'll move out immediately!"

"Your rent has been over half a month, move out quickly, I have someone waiting to rent!" The landlord probably heard about our family's situation, and his speech was extremely unpleasant.

"Oh, I said that you didn't study well as a girl, but now it's okay, you killed your father, and your mother was driven crazy by you, what a sin, you move out tomorrow, and I'm bad luck when I see you!" The landlord looked at me in disgust and walked away.

I stood in my room and looked at the place where I had lived for a year, it was our first home in City A, and the day we moved in, our family made a lot of good food and celebrated here.

We finally have a home of our own, we are finally from the city, but we didn't expect that it would become like this in just one year.

Broken, messy, helpless, drifting.

I went back to the room to tidy up my things first, I opened the small box that I cherished, it was full of gifts from Junxi, the necklace I don't know the price, the small silver ring, the couple cup that Li Lan and I bought a pair, I hugged the box and cried for a long time.

Jun-hee, I'm sorry, I can't keep our agreement anymore, I have to leave you, I have to leave.

Xia Xia was not worthy of you in the past, and Xia Xia is even less worthy of you in the future, I will only drag you down and my parents.

I know that I will be punished for not keeping my agreement like this, but now in this world, I only have you and my mother, two relatives, and I can't let any of you be harmed.

I want you all to live well, and if you are well, I am willing to see you again in this life.

I put those things away and put them in my suitcase, and when I got to my parents' room, I put away my mother's clothes separately, and the change of clothes from the hospital was always delivered.

Some things can't be taken away.,Forget it.,The most difficult thing to bring is the TV.,I still remember last year's New Year, my dad bought it.,Our family sat under the TV together.,Make dumplings.,Watch TV.,But only I was left.。

I had already called Mr. Ma a few days ago, and I dropped out of school automatically, which is better than being expelled, and I didn't read it myself.

Teacher Ma persuaded me for a long time, but still respected my decision, and I asked Meijuan to pack up my dormitory things and go over to pick them up when I was free.

By the time I packed everything up, it was almost three o'clock, and I had to look for a house tomorrow, anyway, I was the only one to live in, and I was looking for a cheaper house.

As soon as dawn I went out to look for a house, the house near here is already the cheapest in the city, where should I go, if I continue to live here, according to Junxi's temper, he will come here to find me as soon as he has the opportunity, since he decided not to see him again in the future, he can't leave her any thoughts, only in this way, he will accept the arrangement of the family, only forget me, he will have a better future.

I've already hurt my parents, I can't hurt him anymore, I can't watch the people who love me die, go crazy.

I want him to live well, so that I will feel better, if I am destined to not be happy in this life, then I only hope that he can live a good and happy life, it is I who leave him first, it is I who do not abide by those agreements, and all the sins are borne by me alone.

The money in the passbook is for my mother's treatment, I can't talk nonsense, the house can only be rented the cheapest, I asked people, there is a cheaper house, someone told me that there is also a house two stops away from here, but it is a little far from the city center, called Qingyuan Town.

I decided to wait until I moved to my hometown to find my aunt and them, my parents have worked hard for so many years, and they can't be cheated by her like this.

I rented a small single room, the landlord is a grandmother in her sixties, her son and grandchildren are in City A, they have a house over there, they rarely come back, she lives alone, mainly to find a companion.

After tasting the warmth and coldness of the world for such a long time, this old woman finally gave me a little comfort.

The kind look reminded me of my grandmother, and the moment she said that the rent was cheaper for me, I almost burst into tears.

I ended up going to the house and handing over the keys to the landlord, and when my parents rented the house, I saw the agreement when I was tidying up my things, and I paid a deposit of 3,000 yuan.

I didn't expect to see her when I was at my worst, Han Xiaoya.

She was still so elegant and noble, standing in the doorway waiting for me, obviously waiting for a long time, her face flushed with cold.

"Xia Xia!"

I looked up at her and wanted to try to give her a smile and prove that I hadn't been overwhelmed by these difficulties.

Unfortunately, it was so cold that the corners of my lips were almost frozen, so it must have been stupid!

"Are you okay?" Han Xiaoya walked towards me, like an angel, and reached out to pull me.

I avoided it a little stiffly, but the smile on Han Xiaoya's face remained the same, and her beauty was still the same.

I envy her, why I've never smiled so pretty!

"Xia Xia, I know, you have encountered difficulties, you can tell me if you have any trouble, I will help you, Jun Hee is now locked in the room by his uncle and aunt, he has found someone to guard, he can't get out, he is very worried about you, let me come to see you, Xia Xia, you are still there, okay?"

Han Xiaoya was a little hesitant when she said the word okay, it was obvious that I was not doing well, very bad.

The clothes on my body were dirty because of the move, and I didn't have time to change them, my hair was messy, and my face hadn't been washed for several days, and I couldn't be embarrassed anymore.

"Xia Xia, I'm here to help you, Junxi asked me to come, you haven't eaten yet, I'll take you to eat first!" Han Xiaoya came over again and took my hand.

I quickly took a step back to avoid her, tilted my head to look into the distance, and didn't look into her eyes: "Dirty, I mean my hands are dirty, and they will stain your clothes!"