Chapter 264: Pain and Despair
Duoduo's feelings are warm and direct, her personality is even more refreshing and domineering, she doesn't want to drag on here, today she appeared, it was clear that she wanted me to make a choice, perhaps, in Duoduo's opinion, she was determined to be successful, she was so confident. [Latest chapter reading.]
And in fact, I do have inseparable feelings for her, we have been separated for so long, this rare reunion at this moment, but I can't bear to let me beat her into the bottom of despair after a short meeting.
But on the other hand, if I want to hurt Xu Nan ruthlessly, so that she who has just recovered becomes scarred again, it is even more impossible.
The whirlpool of feelings is really terrifying, and when you enter, it seems that you can't get out, and sometimes it's too chaotic, so you can't figure it out for a while. And, the reality in front of me really forced me to be too entangled, too uncomfortable, forced me to run out of breath, I could only put my chaotic gaze, cast on my dad, I want this omnipotent dad to be my master.
But obviously, my dad has also lost a love word in his life, where will he deal with this matter, so he didn't wait for me to speak, and directly said to me: "I can't control this matter, you better deal with it yourself!"
Although Duoduo and I have a marriage contract that he personally made, my dad still respects me more, not to mention, he also knows the relationship between me and Xu Nan, and knows how deep our love is, of course he can't break us up, all he can do is not express his opinion and let me make my own decisions.
And, at my most difficult moment, Xu Nan suddenly pulled out her hand from my hand, this time, Xu Nan seemed to have made up her mind, her expression became resolute, after she pulled out her hand, she said to me very resolutely: "I quit!"
Three words, she said grief but powerful, she showed her determination at once, her voice was full of infinite bitterness, obviously, this is a choice she doesn't want to make, but Xu Nan is also a girl with personality, she definitely doesn't want to be like a clown, she is criticized here, and more importantly, she sees my entanglement, knows my move, she can't tolerate this love to be shaken, she doesn't want the love between me and her to have a little impurity.
Therefore, she was disappointed in this love and took the initiative to give up, she didn't want to fight with the domineering Duoduo anymore, or rather, she knew her own conditions, she couldn't compete with Duoduo, her only advantage was my heart, but even my heart was moved, what advantage did she have, Xu Nan She had no choice but to give up.
However, these three words of hers shattered my heart, shattered my soul, my face, as if I had been slapped a few times, a hot pain, this pain, stimulated my nerves, made me slowly sober up, I understood more and more that I must not let Xu Nan down.
I still deeply remember that day, in the eerie mass grave, I saw Xu Nan buried alive, at that time, I don't know how sad and desperate I was, I didn't even have a living **, I just wanted to accompany Xu Nan to hell, I took the initiative to lie down in the dirt pit, and Xu Nan lay together, at that moment, I was not afraid, but felt happy, I knew that as long as I was with my beloved woman, life and death, in fact, it doesn't matter, my love with Xu Nan is really inseparable.
Although sometimes I can't help but make mistakes, but after the war, Xu Nan and I solved all the misunderstandings in the splendid nightclub, and the willful Xu Nan also learned to tolerate, forgave me all my mistakes, and was willing to entrust me with my life, and now we have all entered the palace of marriage, can I still be sorry for her?
Thinking of this, I hurriedly looked at Xu Nan and said apologetically: "Nan Nan, don't misunderstand, I won't give up on you, I won't!"
In front of the audience, in front of Duoduo, I made a promise to Xu Nan again, I just want her to know that my heart is still with her.
However, at this moment, Xu Nan was already heartbroken by me, she wouldn't believe anything I said, she shook her head at me desperately with tears in her eyes, and said with difficulty: "Wu Lai, I can see that you still have her in your heart, since you are childhood sweethearts and have a marriage contract, you should choose her, I actually know that if you want to marry me, it is more because you pity me, because of your sense of responsibility, so you want to be responsible for me and make me happy." But have you ever thought that in fact, we are not worthy at all, I will only bring you trouble, be your stumbling block, and make you constantly hurt and restrained. And this girl can help you silently behind the scenes, pay for you, and let you out of a desperate situation, she and you are a match made in heaven, a real pair!"
Xu Nan's words were very frank and sincere, like her heartfelt words, but her tone was so sentimental, listening to my heart hurt, I felt that Xu Nan's words were hitting me hard, every word could chill my heart, how could I accept such words, I almost didn't hesitate to hug Xu Nan, facing her, and said solemnly: "It's not like this, Nan Nan, I love you, I really love you!"
At this moment, my voice is very hoarse, just like a child who has done something wrong, the tone is all pleading, I really don't want Xu Nan to misunderstand me, and I don't want this beautiful bride today to despair of me.
However, Xu Nan really made up her mind, she didn't want to be involved in this triangle, so when I hugged her, she pushed me away ruthlessly, and then said to me ruthlessly: "I'm sorry, I don't like this kind of love full of impurities, I only like pure love!"
I have always known that what Xu Nan wants is spotless love, she has obvious cleanliness habits in love, and it is impossible for her to share my love with others, so what happened to Mu Shihan hurt her at the beginning, and it hurt her very badly, and later Han Shuang's incident hurt her again, because she felt that her love was tarnished.
But those two times, I explained it clearly to her, I promised to draw a clear line with Mu Shihan Han Shuang, and in the end, Xu Nan still chose to forgive me, she even apologized to me, saying that she shouldn't be willful, she felt that as long as I was sincerely with her, she was the only one in my heart, and she could ignore my previous mistakes.
But now, the situation is different, Duoduo is a girl who grew up with me since childhood, the relationship between us is not to say that it can be completely severed, even if I don't know which kind of feelings for Duoduo are most, but at least, when I was facing the problem of Duoduo, I hesitated, I couldn't bear to hurt her, I didn't want this girl who had only seen each other again after many years to leave in despair again, but, just this, Xu Nan couldn't stand it, she felt that I had affection for Duoduo, and she couldn't accept me anymore.
And, just when I wanted to open my mouth to explain to Xu Nan, Duoduo, who was standing aside and ignored by me, couldn't stand it at all.
Duoduo's temper is not good, she is also more arrogant, and now she is willing to put down her body and take the initiative to confess to me, which is considered to have broken through her bottom line, but she has said that, I still choose Xu Nan, did not accept her, and even ignored her, which makes Duoduo how can I bear it, she is short-tempered, directly grabbed my collar, and said in an unkind tone to me:" Wu Lai, you ugly bastard, I thought you would miss the old love, so I ran over in person, but I didn't expect that you were so unkind, and when you have a new person, you forget the old person, it is me Lin Duoduo who misjudged you, man, there is really no good thing!"
After speaking, Duoduo turned around directly and resolutely left.
Proud and domineering Duoduo, this moment is really sad, her self-esteem was hurt by me, she is like a queen, she lost all her aura in an instant, she was gloomy, but she didn't want me to see her disgraced side, leaving me only a seemingly free and easy but extremely sad back.
Seeing Duoduo like this, my heart also felt as if it was torn apart, how rare it was for me and her to get back together, but not only did I not catch up with her, I didn't apologize to her sincerely, but let her leave with despair, how did I accept it.
Just now, it was indeed I who ignored her, she has always been a strong existence in my eyes, and I rarely see her in pain, so I only thought about comforting the vulnerable Xu Nan before, but I didn't care about Duoduo at all, what is the difference between this and directly rejecting her?
In any case, I should not be so cruel to her, after all, she is also a girl, a girl who has the right to pursue happiness, a brave pursuit of love, a girl who wants to get back what belongs to her, she said the last sentence, maybe it shows that she has long been desperate for other men, but she has hope for me, she hopes that I can understand her love and accept her love, but in the end, I ignored her love.
I know Duoduo's temper very well, she can pull down her face to find me, she has made the greatest determination, and now it is like this, if she leaves like this, it will definitely be impossible to appear in front of me again in the future, I am equivalent to pising her off again, letting her drift away, no family affection, no love.
I didn't want to do this, I couldn't do this to Duoduo, so, after Duoduo had just taken two steps, I immediately grabbed her hand and whispered to her: "Duoduo, you listen to my explanation!"
I know Duoduo's character, I don't ask her for forgiveness, I just hope she can calm down and listen to me slowly, but, I didn't expect that Duoduo seemed to have seen my heart clearly and knew that I wouldn't choose her, so she didn't bother to say anything more to me, and directly shook off my hand, and even threw the worn-out pen in her hand to the ground, and then scolded me: "You give me death!"
After saying that, she stepped on her high heels and left domineeringly