Chapter Forty-Six: A Wave of Unsettled Waves Rises Again
The tears finally stopped flooding, and all that was left was empty sadness.
A body, like a wreckage, lies stiffly on the ground, motionless, lying down, it is the night.
"Really, it's throwing up everywhere. ”
A soft complaint vaguely came into my ears, accompanied by a pain in my waist: "Get up, don't lie here, I want to clean!"
I suddenly opened my eyes and found that a uniformed sanitation aunt was using a broom to pestle me and drive me away.
However, the moment she saw me open my eyes, she suddenly took a step back in fright and said in a panic: "Yo, why are your eyes swollen like this, it doesn't matter, right?"
I shook my head weakly, then turned sideways, propped myself on the ground, and struggled to get up, and the moment I stood up, my body was still shaking and dizzy.
The sanitation aunt hurriedly came over to support me and said kindly: "Do you want me to take you to the hospital!"
I glanced at her indifferently and said weakly, "No, thank you!"
The voice, simply hoarse horror.
Immediately, I gently broke free of the sanitation aunt's hand and walked on the road step by step.
At this moment, the genius has just dawned, and there is silence all around, quiet and a little desolate, as if the whole world, only the sound of the soles of my shoes rubbing the ground, so clear, and so heavy, it highlights my heart, the depressed heart of a lonely person.
As I walked, the morning sun gradually rose, and the faint sunlight hit my face, stinging my fragile and red eyes, I couldn't help but squint, trying to move forward, and my steps became slower.
Yesterday, like a dream, there was too much sadness and pain in the dream, the dream was empty, I didn't seem to feel the extreme pain, my heart was empty, all the pain turned into ignorance, I became a real walking corpse, on the empty road, slowly moving stiff steps, walking directionlessly.
Gradually, the number of pedestrians on the road began to increase, and the ears began to be filled with crowds, and many people passed by me, but the eyes of many people were indifferent, as if I, a down-and-out ghost, was the tiniest speck of dust, and no one could see it.
Before I knew it, I was back in school, maybe I fell into the abyss in love, and my subconscious was longing for another feeling, friendship.
The direction of the heart is this school where there are brothers and a place to live.
When I stepped into the campus, the sun was already very strong, and I was getting hot all over, my head was getting more and more dizzy, and there were occasional people passing by on the road, but they were all pointing at me.
There was no sympathy, no surprise, only disgust, contempt, fear, and panic in the eyes of those people. In a trance, I felt like I was back to when I first came to school, and a deep darkness enveloped me.
I don't know what's wrong with this world, a few days ago, I walked on campus, holding hands with Xu Nan, happy and sweet, enjoying the envy of others, the look of blessing from others, and a few days ago, I defeated the invincible brother, and enjoyed the worship and awe of others.
But why did Xu Nan change in the blink of an eye, even the campus changed, and became so suffocating?
However, I was still trying, trying to break through this sense of suffocation, trying to ignore those contempt and pointing, bowing my head, and returning to the dormitory lonely.
The dormitory has lost its former vitality, empty, it turns out, now it's afternoon, everyone has gone to class, I look around, I still feel so depressed, depressed that I can't breathe, at this moment, I want to find a little vitality, looking for a little warmth.
Perhaps, in the midst of a lively classroom, among the classmates who were once proud of me, and among the brothers who fought side by side with me, I would feel that I was still alive and worth existing.
Thinking of this, I immediately picked up the heavy textbook and walked slowly towards the classroom.
When I came to the corridor in front of the classroom, the bell rang just after the first class, and I waited for the teacher to come out before I walked into the classroom.
As soon as I entered it, it seemed that all eyes suddenly shot at me together, and I, at a glance, swept to Wang Yadong in the last row, so I walked directly towards him and sat down next to him.
But, Wang Yadong saw me as if he had seen a ghost, as soon as I sat down, he quickly slipped away, and suddenly, my empty heart twitched inexplicably, and the evacuated body was instantly eroded by a sense of fear, and the picture of that day suddenly appeared in my mind.
That day, Xu Nan and I walked to the classroom affectionately, Wang Yadong and his gang said that we were a perfect match, the girls in the class said that we were a perfect match, and the whole class gave us sincere blessings.
Why is it that all of a sudden, my rarest love is gone, and even the good brothers I finally made up regard me as a plague god?
I don't understand, I really don't understand, but when I touched the eyes of the other people in the class, I suddenly realized that all the classmates had strange eyes in their eyes, the former worship was gone, the awe was gone, the friendliness was gone, and even the sympathy was gone. All that filled their eyes was contempt and fear.
And, along with these gazes, there are also small and fragmented discussions:
"Look at his terrifying appearance, that rumor shouldn't be fake, sure enough, his father is a rapist, his mother is a psychopath, and the scared Xu Nan broke up with him!"
"Yes, no wonder, the last group battle, he was not afraid of slashing, he dared to stab the invincible brother, I thought he had courage, I didn't expect him to be a combination of a real madman and a psychopath, it must be a disease, no wonder it looks scary!"
"En, let's not approach this kind of person, otherwise we will go crazy one day, and I don't know what will happen!"
"It's really scary, if he wants to be like his father, maybe he will also do something to prison, like his mother, yes, he has inherited a fucking neuropathy, he did it once last time, and it is very likely to happen again!"
"That's right, I heard that the invincible brother is hairy, saying that this madman provoked his woman again a few days ago, and he will definitely kick this madman out of school this time!"
"Well, Wang Yadong has been taught a lesson by Brother Invincible, and he doesn't dare to help him anymore, I'm afraid that no one in our school dares to help him now, he shouldn't be able to stay in school!"
"It's okay if we can't stay, we don't have to be afraid!"
These voices ruthlessly drilled into my ears, every word was so hurtful, my body was incomplete, my heart seemed to be pierced by thousands of arrows, and there were thousands of holes.
Dignity, self-confidence, pride, anticipation, love, joy, happiness, these things I wanted to have so much, all of them were short-lived, and after a short period of possession, they were finally shattered.
God, you like to play tricks on me so much? Do you have to let me taste all the suffering? Do you have to hit me so cruelly again and again? My heart is not iron, I can't stand it!! I'm also human!!
Who is it? Who is it that deliberately leaks my life history? Who is it that wants to harm me so deliberately?
Mother Xu?No way, her purpose is just to let me break up with Xu Nan, and since her purpose has been achieved, she will not do such superfluous things at all.
Who else would there be?
Suddenly, my eyes touched a gloomy gaze not far away, it was Fang Zixuan.
At this moment, Fang Zixuan's small eyes behind his glasses were full of the meaning of success, and there was an extremely inconspicuous cunning hidden in them. Suddenly, it suddenly dawned on me, it was him, everything was him, it was he who revealed to the Xu family that I was in love with Xu Nan, it was he who said bad things about me to the Xu family, and even these remarks from the school were spread by him. His city is really deep.
I hate this sinister villain, I hate him, but I no longer have any impulses, I don't have the strength to stab him with a knife, and I don't have the heart to do so.
The heart, long incomplete, is broken beyond healing.
Anyway, my dad is a prisoner, my mom is a psychopath, Xu Nan and I broke up, this is a fact, I can't change this fact, and I can't go against the sky. However, the indifference of human affection made me even more discouraged. The so-called lover easily left me, the so-called brother didn't dare to help me, and the so-called classmates wished I could stay away from them.
This world, still so realistic, I, is still so sad, as if overnight, I was beaten back to its original shape, even worse than in the past, the strength and courage I worked hard to build, all collapsed, it turned out, everything is empty, what do I rely on to believe?
Throughout the afternoon, I once again wandered in a deep inferiority complex, despair of reality. Finally, the bell rang for the end of class, but it was not the sound of relief, but the call of the devil.
As soon as the teacher left, two muscular men quickly rushed into the classroom, and without saying a word, they directly picked me up and dragged me out of the classroom.
When the students in the class saw this situation, none of them expressed sympathy, but only followed behind with a hint of a good show.
I was seriously ill and weak, like a wilted chick, dragged all the way to the school playground by these two muscular men.
Along the way, many people saw me, a famous madman, being held up like a prisoner, and they immediately became interested and followed after me.
The crowd behind him was huge, gathering more and more, and when they arrived at the playground, they found that the playground was already overcrowded.
However, for me now, even if the sky falls, it will be like that, I don't know what kind of torture my sick and weak body can be, and I don't know what kind of situation my heart will be desperate to, I only know that life is more uncomfortable than death.
Soon, I was dragged into the playground, and the crowd guarding the playground to watch the excitement immediately made a way, and suddenly, I saw the end of the road, and the invincible brother led his muscular men's group, with his hands crossed on his chest, waiting for me.
At this time, the invincible brother looked even more rampant than at the beginning, with endless anger in the rampantness, he was simply the reincarnation of the king of Hades, and the purple-haired woman standing beside him was even more angry, and her eyes were full of resentment towards me.
The group of muscular men behind them were like the fierce ghosts and snake gods under the king of Hades, all of them were fierce and vicious.
Lonely and helpless, under the attention of the audience, I was ruthlessly dragged in front of the invincible brother, and one of the muscular men holding me suddenly kicked hard at my leg joints and yelled: "Kneel!"
Immediately, I was so defenseless in front of the invincible brother and the purple-haired girl, kneeling down...