Andrew and Blue Rite. In a sense, they're like the same person inside and outside the mirror.

Andrew, a nineteen-year-old boy, entered Shelver, the real-world Juilliard School, and later became the youngest musician ever in the school's top jazz band.

On the one hand, he has low self-esteem, from his father's ridicule and disdain, from his own confusion and difficulty, he is always unsure whether he can truly achieve his goals, on the other hand, he firmly believes that his dream is to become another Charlie Parker or Buddy Ricky, he refuses to give up and refuses to compromise, and continues to move forward like a bull regardless of it.

The first rehearsal of a jazz band, for Andrew was contradictory.

He was nervous, worried that his performance might not be able to keep up with the band's rhythm and stand out in front of all the top musicians, but he was also proud, fantasizing that his performance could be out of nowhere, that he would be able to reach the top of the pyramid overnight, enjoying all the applause and lights.

It was in the midst of this mixture of excitement and anxiety, anticipation and apprehension that Andrew joined the band's rehearsal for the first time. But everything, all of them fell apart in the face of Fletcher's storm, and before he could touch the peak, he had already fallen into the bottomless abyss.

The same goes for Lan Li.

On the outside, he is confident, but deep down he is not confident, and even inferior, and there is always a trace of self-doubt and hesitation. However, he still did not give up lightly, but rushed all the way towards his dream, devoting himself wholeheartedly, praising again and again, succeeding again and again, and recognizing again and again, allowing him to climb to the top step by step.

Inevitably, he still got carried away, and he began to be at a loss.

He needs to get back to his original intention, he needs to be the head drink, he needs to move forward.

So, he volunteered to become Andrew, breaking the line between fantasy and reality, and even after the filming ended, he refused to completely get out of the performance state and remained immersed in Andrew's world.

The pride, the self-confidence, the expectations, and the dreams were all shattered and disintegrated in Fletcher's thunderstorm, fleeing like a lost dog in the storm, muddy and embarrassed, but unable to find a place to live, shivering and wandering in the cold and shame.

He carefully hid himself in the darkness, licking his wounds alone.

He wasn't sure if it was the right way to go, if he could find the right exit, if he had chosen a way that was too stupid and too clumsy, but ...... No one can have the answer, can they?

Because he is the first actor in history to set such a record. There are no ancients, no comers, no reference objects, no models for consultation, he can only grope his way forward in the dark, like a blind man, like a fool, stupidly and constantly hitting the south wall, even if he hits the south wall, he does not look back, but stupidly expects that he can break through the south wall.

It was the only way he knew.

He needs to firmly remember that sense of shame, and then firmly remember that humility and commitment, and even more firmly remember the original intention of the beginning of the dream.

Awards are very important, awards are very, very important, no one can deny this, and it can even be said to be a key criterion for measuring the weight of life in history and industry, not only in the film industry, but also in literature, painting, technology, education, brokerage, politics/politics, etc., all aspects of life are no exception, and Lanli naturally includes it.

However, awards are a lie.

Not the meaning of "lies", but the illusion of the times. Because the awarding of each award has important significance at various levels such as era, history, and society.

In 1989, the film "Drive for Miss Daisy", which focused on the phenomenon of whites and blacks in the southern United States, was an epoch-making work at the time, and although apartheid had been abolished for many years, the deep-seated discrimination still revealed a strong impact in all aspects, and in the end, the film became the first work in history to win Best Picture without being nominated for Best Director at the Oscars the following year.

At the time, it was a small and unpopular one, and it was not until twenty-four years later that "Escape from Tehran" became the second work in history to do so.

After the passage of time, purely from an artistic point of view, "Paradise Cinema" or "Goodfellas" in the same year are both better and more classic choices, and "Born on July 4th", which won the Best Director Award in the same year, is also a work worthy of recognition.

This is not to say that "Driving for Miss Daisy" is not good enough, in fact, the ascent of this work has truly changed the social phenomenon and has an important role in eliminating racial barriers, which is a work of historical significance, and the Oscars have also taken a crucial step.

Artistic creation is not only for the cultivation of sentiment, but also for the promotion of society, just as the "melting pot" of Korean films directly promoted the melting pot bill, the so-called politics/governance/correctness is inherently correct, because this is an important part of the driving force of social progress. Without the so-called "correctness", art will be disconnected from society, and its spirit and meaning will be lost.

The reason for the example is only to emphasize that each award is time-sensitive, and only by looking at the background and social phenomena of the original times can we understand the status and role of the award in the long history, so the award will "lie", but the work itself will not.

In other words, art doesn't lie.

Alfred Hitchcock's "Butterfly Dream", "Rear Window", "Psycho" and other works will not go out of style even after 60 or 70 years, and Stanley Kubrick's "2001: A Space Odyssey", "A Clockwork Orange", "The Shining", "Full Metal Case" and other works can still influence generations of art creators.

These works have passed by the awards for various reasons, but time has proved that they are great and timeless.

After EGOT, Lan Li has always said this. In the face of the congratulations of his colleagues, the blessings of his friends, and the interviews of reporters, Lan Li said all this, but when he spoke, his mentality and actions could not be changed casually according to his wishes, and he needed to really put it into action.

He wasn't sure if the movie "The Burst Drummer" and Andrew's character would go down in history, but that wasn't the point, the point was that he would focus on the role and the performance as much as Andrew focused on his drumming skills.

For the time being, put aside the historical record, put aside the attention, and put aside the timelessness, and truly return to the most basic and primitive place in a down-to-earth manner, and start from scratch again. In this sense, the relationship between Lan Li and Andrew is becoming more and more similar and overlapping.

He needs to break through.

But how should he break through? How can he break through? Can he make a breakthrough?

"Are you in a hurry or are you delaying?"

"Jesus, hell, Christ! When did Sherford start recruiting mentally retarded students?"

"You don't even know how to music, do you?"

"You're just a////cannon with no prospects, no value, and no friends. ”

"You must be very uncomfortable. Are you having a hard time right now?"

……

"You don't have talent. ”

"Look, those are geniuses. True geniuses not only have talent and ability, but also need to have the ability to appreciate and identify, they know what they are good at and what they are not good at, they know how to stop losses in time and give up in time, only in this way can they reach the top. You? You're not. You're just a mediocre person who works tirelessly. Do you know anyone else who is like that? Ploughing cattle. ”

"It's the stupidest and most boring show I've ever seen. ”

"Dream?God, are you sure you're a Hall?"

"Shut up. Shut up! Shut up! You don't know if you're gifted, don't you even know when you should shut up?"

"Philip, Philip, take him away. I have a terrible headache right now, and I can't cope with these boring things. ”

"Everybody thinks they're special, everybody thinks they're a genius, everybody thinks they're unique, but I'm telling you, no. They aren't, and neither are you. ”

"You're not stupid, you should at least know how to give up. ”

"You're just another fool. ”

"You should stop. ”

……

"That's impossible, you know. ”

"Not a bad dream, anyway, I've been lying in a hospital bed for the rest of my life, and since I'm dreaming, why don't I make it bigger, right?"

"Actor?haha, you're a humorous guy. ”

"You mean, you became an actor in your head?"

"Dreams are everyone's freedom. I just want to be an astronaut, and what I can never see is called a dream, right?"

"Anyway, lying here every day, daydreaming is the only thought. Do not laugh at him. ”

……

"Now start practising hard, Neiman. ”

What should he do? What should he do now?

He's not a waste, he's not a fool, he's not daydreaming, he's okay, he's convinced that he can achieve his dreams, and no amount of hardship can defeat him:

He will stand up, he will fight back, he will regain the initiative, he will prove himself, he will ruthlessly make those disdainful eyes all bow their heads and admit their mistakes, he will stand under the spotlight, he will have his own stage and time, he will go down in history.

But what should he do? The disturbed thoughts were trapped in his mind, as if he were imprisoned in a cage, and the cage was still slowly shrinking, and the panic and depression, the grievance and fear were making him lose his proportion, so that the whole person began to tremble.

What to do, what to do, what to do, he is going to suffocate.