In an instant, the woman in red became the turtle in my urn, and my eyes couldn't help but glow, and the feeling of catching the prey was very pleasant. Especially, thinking of what the woman in red had done to me, the fierce light in my eyes became sharper and sharper, I stared at her tightly and said coldly: "Let's talk!"

My tone was full of threat, and my expression was also very fierce, and it was even more terrifying under the illumination of the street lamp.

However, what puzzled me was that the woman in red was not afraid of me at all, only startled at the moment when I suddenly appeared just now, and now, she saw my face clearly, but showed a relaxed attitude, she looked at me with disdain, and said in a light tone: "Wu Lai, you are really capable enough, and you still have the face to come to me?"

She said this with a sense of reason, as if I had done something sorry for her, and in an instant, I became angry, took two steps forward, and yelled at her, "Why don't I have the face to look for you? ”

As I spoke, the fierce light in my eyes was even worse, and the whole person was surrounded by fire, angry, surprisingly angry.

However, the woman in red still did not change her face, and still said arrogantly to me: "Wu Lai, are you really not awake yet? Sister, I have always been good for you, I have never hurt you!"

I really don't know how she cultivated this cheek, hurt me again and again, and even said that she never harmed me, and said that it was for my good, how could she be embarrassed to say it?

As he spoke, the loach walked towards the woman in red, but at this moment, the woman in red suddenly took a step closer to me, stared straight at me, and said lightly: "Wu Lai, as long as you are not crazy, I hope you will consider the consequences, if you really mess up, then you will not only harm yourself, but also affect your brother, you should not want your affairs to implicate others, right? Besides, do you really think that you can arrest me near my house? I just need to shout, I believe you will not be able to take me away!"

She said this with great domineering, and although it didn't threaten me, I was suppressed.

Actually, I don't know that the woman in red is a difficult character to mess with, a young lady like her, there must be many people who know her, and there are people behind her back, so she will do whatever she wants, and I can't help her at all.

Besides, I want to arrest her, it's nothing more than trying to pry out who is behind the scenes from her mouth, if she is strict and doesn't tell me, I will also have nothing to do with her, because I don't dare to really kill her or abolish her, after all, as long as the woman in red has an accident, then the people in the bathing center will definitely know that I did it. When the time comes, I will suffer myself, and I am afraid that my brothers will be affected, especially the beautiful man and the loach, the two brothers who have been born and died for me.

So, when the loach was about to make a move, I stopped him in time, and then, with red eyes, I stared at the woman in red, and said indignantly: "I came to you, just to know, who instructed you to harm me?"

My voice was full of resentment, but the woman in red didn't think so, and sneered at me and said: "You are not qualified to know now, but, what I want to tell you is that there is a problem with your love, it is your own reason, don't put the basin on the old lady's head!"

After saying this, the woman in red's expression suddenly became extremely serious, she glared at me, then took a cigarette out of her bag, lit it, smoked it, walked to the bench on the side of the road, and sat down.

I couldn't help but follow my footsteps.

As soon as the woman in red sat down, she raised her eyes and stared at me, and continued to speak: "Wu Lai, is it true that as soon as something happens, you will push the fault on others? Never reflect on yourself? I have always said that you are not worthy of a girlfriend, so you have never thought about why you are not worthy? Are you sure that you are very loyal to love? Are you sure that without me as a hindrance, you can love Xu Nan for the rest of your life?"

The first time, you broke up with Xu Nan, you think it was me who harmed you, in fact, you don't want to think about it, even if I don't get along, can you be together? Do you think you really love Xu Nan? At that time, you were very inferior, and you felt that you couldn't have a girlfriend, right? So Xu Nan was willing to be your girlfriend, and you were so happy that you got carried away, and you thought you loved Xu Nan so much? Xu Nan is impulsive, but Xu Nan's parents are calm, they can see your conditions, and they can see your mentality clearly, even if I don't interfere, if you are entangled in front of people's homes for many days, it will be impossible to pass the level of Xu Nan's parents.

The second time, you and Xu Nan separated, it was indeed deliberately sabotaged by me, but I also let you see yourself clearly, you see that after your plastic surgery, you have to be scared, right? I feel that I have capital, and I will be wholeheartedly to Xu Nan? Later, I didn't easily hook up with the school flower, if Xu Nan hadn't been arrested and committed suicide for you, I'm afraid you would have talked to the school girl a long time ago, right?

Okay, the third time, this time it proves even more, I was right to let Xu Nan leave you last time, let her wait for you at home, what is the result? When you hold hands with the school flower, do you dare to say how deep and great your love for Xu Nan is? Your biggest mistake is that you don't reflect on yourself well, be a man and do you like this, and still want to have love? If I don't stop you, if you continue like this, I don't know how many good girls will be harmed!"

The woman in red's tirade directly stunned me, and her head was like a propeller equipped with a helicopter, buzzing. Is everything my own problem, it's all my fault, and I really don't deserve love?

When I was confused, the stern voice of the woman in red drilled into my ears again: "Wu Lai, you have time to trouble me, it is better to calm down and reflect on yourself and see what kind of person you are." In my opinion, you are a flowery toad who has no ability and is obsessed with beautiful women, whoever becomes your girlfriend is unlucky, I just stop you from mutilating good girls. ”

After she finished speaking, she threw away the cigarette butt directly, and then stood up domineeringly, and was about to leave, the loach immediately came over and stopped her, but the woman in red was not panicked at all, she suddenly pinched her lips with her hand, and whistled very loudly, and suddenly, the lights in many rooms in the surrounding apartment buildings were turned on, and at the same time, the cold but domineering voice of the woman in red sounded in the silent night sky: "Don't use violence with me, otherwise the consequences will be serious!"

With that, she calmly walked towards the apartment, and at this moment, the woman in red became the queen of darkness, so domineering and mighty.

And I, my heart has already stirred up turbulent waves, the words of the woman in red about love, like a stick on the head, knocked me dizzy, but so sober pain, her words ** naked and merciless, but it is precisely because it is too reasonable, it makes me feel ashamed, and her strength is indeed incomparable now, she must have been on guard against me, so a whistle can blow a helper, however, the loach's temper, but no matter so much, he raised his leg and chased after the woman in red.

I hurriedly stepped forward and stopped the loach.

Loach looked at me puzzled and said, "We've been squatting for so long, we can't cheapen that bitch, even if she ambushes someone here, we can take her out of our bad anger!"

I didn't want to make a big deal out of it, and I didn't want to affect the two righteous brothers of the beautiful man and the loach, so I could only say bitterly: "Forget it!"

At this moment, I no longer have the desire for revenge before, and the words of the woman in red still linger in my ears, making me extremely irritable and painful.

The beautiful man saw my struggle, he walked up to me and patted me on the shoulder.

I looked at the beautiful man blankly and said bitterly, "Don't you think what she said makes sense?"

The beautiful man smiled awkwardly and did not speak.

But the loach was not happy, he shouted: "There is a fart truth, what age is this, like Brother Yang, even if you have several girlfriends at the same time, it is normal! Besides, if you have a girlfriend, why should she interfere with that bitch bird matter." ”

Listening to the loach's words, I pursed my mouth gently, did not speak, only raised my head in a lost soul, looked at the stars in the sky, and fell into deep thought.

I know that I am different from beautiful men.

A beautiful man is born with good external conditions and a suave personality, and it is not strange that he has a few girlfriends, but he may not have found a woman he really loves, and I don't know what he really thinks.

And I, born with bad external conditions, have experienced a makeover, mood or something, there has been too much change, inferiority and self-confidence, self-esteem and pride, complex reflected in me, I have always thought that I can stick to my heart to live, but there are some things, you can't control the rhythm of its change at all.

Perhaps, it's all just because I haven't looked at myself properly, I haven't reflected on myself well, so that I don't know whether what I'm doing is right or wrong.

No matter how barbaric the woman in red is, but what she said does make sense, I don't understand love at all, so I don't deserve love, and the woman in red can understand me like this, it must be related to the people behind her, maybe I don't know when I offended the people behind her. But I think it should have something to do with love!

So, am I really not a good man when it comes to love? Am I really not aware of love? But why, I feel that I have given sincere love every time, and I can be reckless for love every time?

The first woman who triggered my ignorant sense of love was Su Xuejing, she was good in all aspects, especially I didn't reject the dislike of thousands of people, which made me pay attention to her, so that in a few years of middle school, I formed a habit of paying attention to her silently, and when I met again in college later, I would treat her specially, and I would not hesitate to offend Wang Yadong for her.

The second woman I miss deeply is Duoduo. That night, I stayed in the hotel and called Miss, found Duoduo's secret, knew Duoduo's hardships, and gave her her domineering first kiss, so that my feelings for Duoduo have had subtle changes since then, and now, I remember that at that time, there was a day, what I said to her.

I persuaded her: "Sister Duoduo, can you not do this?"

Duoduo asked me at the time: "It's okay not to do it, can you support me?"

At that time, I seemed to have the urge to love, and suddenly replied to her calmly: "Okay, I will support you, I promise to make a lot of money in the future, and support you." ”

Duoduo was shocked by my words, she thought for a long time before she said to me: "Still no, you are too ugly!"

There are too many memories with Duoduo, but the most profound thing is still to know that she has embarked on the road of no return, especially after she misunderstood me and ran away from home, I read her diary, I understand her heart, I can't help but always think of her, so, the pen she gave me, I kept it like a baby, and even when Wang Yadong destroyed my fountain pen, I did not hesitate to stab people, my love for Duoduo is very deep, very deep.

The third woman that I will never forget is Xu Nan, she cared for me when I was humble, lived and died with me, confessed with me, experienced personnel with me, we gave each other the first time, we have experienced too much together, it makes me feel that she occupies all my heart. Indeed, for a long time, my mind was full of her, and I never thought about the second woman, but what the woman in red said was right, my love was impulsive, and a misunderstanding made me not believe Xu Nan, so I slowly became estranged from her, and let Mu Shihan inadvertently intervene.

The fourth girl, Mu Shihan, she really filled everything for me, her personality and life experience complemented me, and the time with her was always warm and happy. Because of Mu's mother's sudden illness, Mu Shihan and I had a chance to get along for a long time, and also made us have a subtle affection for each other, if it wasn't for Ding Wudi who caught Xu Nan at that time, I would have been with Mu Shihan, but, even if I later solved the misunderstanding with Xu Nan and reconciled as before, when Xu Nan was waiting for me at home, my heart was still pulled by Mu Shihan, her birthday, I went to her house, she was arrested by He Linbo, I put down everything to find her, I couldn't really let go of her at all, especially after she was kidnapped, it made me feel sorry for her, and I couldn't help but want to take care of her and love her。

But, is this a flower? Is it that I don't understand love, or am I too easy to love?

I can't figure it out, I really can't figure it out, the more I think about it, the more messy my head becomes, the more my heart hurts, I feel like I've become stranger, originally, for the failure of love, I can put all the responsibility on the woman in red, so that my heart will feel better, but in the end, I found that all this, the destruction of the woman in red is only the surface reason, the root cause is still myself, I am to blame, so, I am confused, my heart has fallen into the abyss, I seem to have walked into a dead end, no matter how I turn around, I can't turn out. Perhaps, as the woman in red said, I am not a good man and do not deserve love, or perhaps, I don't understand love at all.

Anyway, from this night on, my view of love was completely messed up, my pondering of love, my understanding of love, my feelings about the woman I loved, my reflection on myself, everything made me confused, I was completely confused.

In the next few days, I put everything aside, kept reflecting, kept pondering, and kept in the whirlpool of love, unable to extricate myself.

I didn't do anything every day, I just used wine to drown my sorrows, I just kept introspecting, trying to recognize my heart, but no matter how I thought, I couldn't think of a reason.

I was so distraught that I threw away my grudge against the woman in red, and it can also be said that I didn't blame her much, because I knew that she didn't really hurt me, but she was just unhappy with my personality and prevented me from having a girlfriend, and in fact, I was indeed a little confused and confused in love, so that I didn't know if I hurt anyone. In my state, no matter who I associate with, it will be a disservice to her, so my clearest goal now is to recognize my own heart, determine how I should love, and whether I can fulfill the promise of love.

But, after thinking about it for a few days, I still can't figure it out, is it because my sympathy is overflowing and I am reluctant to hurt any woman, or am I just abusive and a scumbag? I don't understand, this thing, just want a cancer, in my heart, slowly sprouting, growing, I want to explode, I feel like I'm back to the time when I'm neurotic Wu Lai, even the brothers of the beautiful man, it's useless, I'm just immersed in my own world, and I can't live in pain.

Until a few days later, I was drunk like mud, and I fell asleep in a daze, and I couldn't tell the difference between day and night, suddenly, the piercing ringtone of the mobile phone woke me up from the chaos, and after I connected the phone in a daze, there was an angry roar on the phone: "Wu Lai, I said a long time ago that you are a scumbag, not reliable at all, since you don't want to be with Xu Nan, why did you provoke her in the first place!"

Immediately, my heart suddenly swooped out twice, Xu Nan?

Hearing Xu Nan, I couldn't help but feel pain, but the voice on the phone was Fang Zixuan's, he who had disappeared for a long time, would suddenly find me, or for Xu Nan to blame me, it seems that he is not completely dead to Xu Nan, I don't know why, at this moment, I suddenly felt that Fang Zixuan was infatuated, although the way he loved was domineering, but after all, he had chased Xu Nan wholeheartedly for so many years.

Compared to his love, compared to Xue Jinwei's love, my love is indeed too bastard, it's just that I've been reflecting on this recently, I know that I do have a problem, but no matter what, it won't be Fang Zixuan's turn to teach me a lesson, so I replied to him directly: "Is there anything else? I'm hanging up!"

As soon as Fang Zixuan heard my words, his tone became even worse, and he immediately yelled at me: "Wu Lai, you scumbag, don't think that you can do whatever you want if you have a good appearance and look like a person, I tell you, you will definitely regret missing Xu Nan!"

These words made me shudder again, and I suddenly felt that he was not just calling to accuse me, as if something had happened to Xu Nan. Thinking of this, I hurriedly asked him, "What's wrong with Xu Nan?"

Fang Zixuan scolded angrily: "What's the matter, what's the matter, she's going abroad, just because you're a scumbag, she doesn't believe in love, she wants to leave here and go to her aunt's house in the United States, and she doesn't want to come back!"

This time, I sat up from the bed suddenly, my eyes were in a daze, and my heart was beating suddenly, Xu Nan, she wants to go abroad?

How could she not give me a chance at all? How could she be so desperate?

The last time she saw me and Mu Shihan at the school gate, no matter how desperate she was, she just left the city and transferred to other places. But this time, she actually had to cross the ocean, go to a foreign country, and never come back. How desperate is this? Does she want to have nothing to do with me for the rest of her life?

Suddenly, a deep sense of fear hit my heart fiercely, I thought that I still had time, time for me to recognize myself, time for me to understand the direction of love, time for me to solve the woman in red, I naively thought that Xu Nan would give me this time, but I didn't think from her point of view, didn't understand her heart, and felt her pain. I was so selfish, I was so selfish that I didn't even give her any explanation, so selfish that I hurt her in front of Mu Shihan last time, but I just let her go and let her feel pain.

At this moment, infinite fear and deep pain wrapped me again, the pain was extreme, I suddenly woke up, and finally recognized my heart, yes, I was too stupid and selfish, I shouldn't just think about who needs me to take care of, not to need me to take care of, I to love. What I should think about is who can't live without me, and who is the real love with me.

Mu Shihan, she has always been strong and sober, she will not fall down because I didn't give her love, she knows that I am Wu Lai, and she also understands how difficult the relationship between me and Xu Nan is, she will not destroy our relationship at all, and she will not be a third party at all, so she can still live if she leaves me.

However, Xu Nan is different, she loves me, she loves me too deeply, and she would rather die for me, it is precisely because of the firm belief in love in her heart that she waited for me in school for a year, so that she would rather commit suicide than keep her innocence, besides, her first time also gave me, which is equivalent to giving me everything, she and I may have made an oath, and said that she would not abandon or give up for the rest of her life, so she needs me, she can't do without me, otherwise, her heart will really be completely broken, her life will be dark, when I think of her not having a good life, when I think of her life without her in my own life, I am sad and suffocated。

I always thought that she would not disappear, that she would always be there waiting for me, so I never had a sense of crisis, but I really knew that she would leave my life completely, and I finally knew that I couldn't live without her, I loved her, I wanted to protect her, I wanted to be with her for the rest of my life, I couldn't let her leave with regrets, I couldn't let her despair of love, absolutely not.

After figuring it out, I hurriedly asked Fang Zixuan, "When will Xu Nan leave?"

Fang Zixuan's tone was still angry: "I've already gone to the airport, and the plane will take off in an hour." My heart suddenly tightened, and I yelled at Fang Zixuan like crazy: "Why didn't you tell me earlier!"

After speaking, I didn't wait for him to reply, I directly stuffed the phone into my pocket, and then jumped out of bed quickly, without washing or tidying up my clothes, so I ran outside with a depressed face but nervous spirit, got on the taxi, and went straight to the airport...