2178 Personal dilemma
Reliving a life, Lan Li seems to have been born with an ability: the ability to provoke others, the kind of calmness and pride that bursts out from the inside out, even George and Elizabeth who have cultivated for many years can't resist his "attack", let alone an ordinary person like Randall?
In the face of Randall, Lan Li seems to be bullying the children in kindergarten.
Randall's cheeks swelled and red slightly, staring at Lan Li in a daze, choked speechless, his whole brain seemed to be completely blank, he didn't know how to deal with it, he didn't even remember what Lan Li had just said, but he was defeated in the words that were pressing step by step, and then the anger was rushing in his chest, full of anger but he couldn't find an outlet, the only thought was to smash the mask.
"Hypocrite!" Randall said through gritted teeth, his eyes full of disdain and mockery, and he attacked in a fit of rage—he didn't know how things had come to this point, but the thought of breaking the mask had taken over his head, so he attacked unreasonably.
Originally, Randall thought that Lan Li would be in chaos - even if it didn't, at least it would have mood swings, but Lan Li didn't, and his steady and calm posture didn't seem to have any temperature, just like a lifeless and emotionless robot, so cold that Randall shuddered.
"You're a damn hypocrite!" Randall cried out again in a somewhat uncontrollable manner, the fear in his heart creeping in, and he didn't even realize that his hands were clenched into fists, and his steps unconsciously stepped back, his panicked and frightened demeanor as if he saw a demon.
The smile on the corner of Lan Li's mouth rose slightly, "...... And what about you?"
Lan Li didn't respond positively, because it wasn't worth it, and because it wasn't necessary, so Lan Li just ended with a rhetorical question, and then withdrew his gaze and ignored Randall, "Ben, John, let's go back, we still have work tomorrow." Catching Zoe's anxious figure out of the eye, Lan Li showed a smile at Zoe, and his eyes flashed slightly to express comfort, "If you are not sure about the direction, you can go to the bar around the street and ask, it is still open, they should be willing to help, good luck!"
Without staying long, Lan Li went straight into the passenger seat, and then John and Whishaw also got into the car.
John endured and endured, but after all, he couldn't hold back, rolled down the window, and said to Randall with a hideous expression, "Young man, we don't owe you anything, including explanations. With that, John retracted his head, rolled the window back on, and Whisshaw started the engine and drove away.
The cold began to invade gradually, a gust of cold wind swirled Xuan'er over, a goosebump appeared on the surface of the skin, the thin cold air drilled into the blood along the pores, and the toes seemed to be no longer felt, Randall couldn't help but shiver, and the overheated brain finally cooled down.
What did he do?
Subconsciously looked left and right, Randall only saw Zoe's back, "Zoe, Zoe!" Randall called repeatedly, but he couldn't make Zoe stop, he finally began to get anxious, and strode after him, "Zoe!" He grabbed Zoe's arm hard and pulled it over, and then Zoe looked face to face, but Randall was directly stunned, standing in place helplessly.
Zoe looked at Randall with tears streaming down her face, she didn't speak, just stared at Randall with wide eyes, and the silent accusation hit Randall's heart hard.
"Why?" asked Zoe calmly, "why are you doing this?"
Randall couldn't answer.
"Don't you know what happened tonight? They are not obliged to stop, and they are not obliged to stop! If they were really hypocrites, they could have just left, and we would never have known who was in that car! Just like the strangers who left before! But they stopped, for what? To make word of mouth? Just to save two strangers standing on the side of the road? Is this just a show? You and I should know whether this is real or false!"
Zoe's tears couldn't be stopped.
"You hurt him, you understand? You hurt him so badly! You don't understand him, you don't have the right to attack him, because you never knew what he was going through. Etiquette, that's his politeness, it's his protective color, his perfection comes precisely from his imperfections, those real scars, you don't understand, right? Because you never understood the Don Quixote album, you never knew what perfection meant to him. ”
Zoe couldn't put into words how she felt, it was as if the whole world was collapsing, and she couldn't stop it.
"I don't understand. Indeed, I don't understand! Because I don't want to understand and I don't want to understand!" Randall was irritated and angry, and grabbed his hair fiercely, "Lan Li Lan Li, all of them are Lan Li, your whole world is all Lan Li, but you never know, it's just an illusion of him, you can never be with him! He will never look at you squarely, do you understand?
"I understand! Of course I understand! It was just a dream, a dream that was too beautiful to be true, just as Cinderella's story would never go out of style, and Master Lan Li was just a dream of mine, the most perfect and happiest dream. But that dream is also the motivation for me to continue to live and struggle, do you understand? What does the term Don Quixote mean, your incomprehension just proves the meaning of Don Quixote - no one can understand us, everyone thinks we are crazy, but we are not, we are just trying to be our true selves. ”
Zoe's thoughts were clearer than ever, and she stared at Randall with disappointment and sadness, "But you've just hurt him again, and you've hurt me again. ”
"I didn't want to hurt you, I just ...... I just like you. Randall finally spoke, the words hidden in his heart finally spoke, "I can never compare to him, I know, I know everything, I can only wait silently by your side, expecting you to see me, I just ...... Like you. ”
Zoe looked at Randall in disbelief, her whole mind was a mess because she was so shocked and surprised, but her eyes became more and more sad, and the tears that had stopped slipped down again, and her eyes flashed with pain, "But you never knew me, you didn't even know what Don Quixote meant to me, so what do you like about me?"
Randall opened his mouth slightly, but Zoe didn't say anything more, broke free of Randall's right hand, and turned around and walked in the direction of the bar on the corner.
Randall stood still, just staring at Zoe's back, dazed.
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Wheels. Wheels.
The sound of tires crushing against the sand on the ground was swaying slightly, bringing out the silence and peace of the night, but also letting the silence begin to spread slowly.
John didn't speak, and neither did Whishaw - because Lan Li didn't speak, they were exchanging glances in the rearview mirror, but they didn't dare to say anything.
Also as actors, John has been in the industry for twenty-five years, and Whisshaw has also been in the industry for fifteen years, and they have both been rolling in this vanity fair industry for a long time. Truth be told, they empathize with the plight faced by public figures – not complaining or being dissatisfied, but having different situations in different positions.
No, of course, they also have their own emotions, and even need to bear more negative emotions, but as public figures, they can't vent their emotions to those innocent ordinary people at will, sometimes, even if the people are unreasonable, they must maintain a good posture, otherwise they will become the party to blame, and the era of social networks will become even more intensified, and the slightest carelessness will evolve into a "witch trial" , but no one really cares if they're going through a low point or if they're facing a difficult situation.
It is true that, as public figures, they enjoy the spotlight, and fame, glory, and money seem to be at their fingertips, with little effort at all, which also makes the common people more demanding and strict with them - so, they are not complaining, but just expressing a fact:
Everyone has their own predicaments, rewards and rewards, happiness and pain, which only they can feel.
Lan Li's performance is too gentlemanly, but he is accused of being cold and emotionless, but if Lan Li's performance is not gentlemanly enough, as in the propaganda in the magic capital in June this year, then he will be accused of being rude and hurting the audience's feelings, which also makes them fall into the dilemma of "not being human inside and out".
So, what should the blue rite do, or what should the ordinary people do to look forward to the blue rite?
John and Whisshaw have experienced similar situations themselves, but the problem is that Lan Li has reached a height that is difficult to achieve in the entire film history, which also means that ordinary people have made more demands on Lan Li, far more than John and Whishaw are facing—so how can Lan Li meet everyone's expectations? The only thing he can do is to insist on himself, the truest and most decent self.
But Lan Li's persistence has been repeatedly attacked by others. This is definitely not a wonderful thing, people see the brilliance of Lan Li standing under the spotlight, but they can't see the dirt and dirt outside the spotlight, even John, even Whishaw, can feel the anger and sadness at this time.
In the silence, neither Whisshaw nor John knew how to comfort Lan Li, the indescribable helplessness mixed with sadness, the emotions slowly precipitated, and the movie clip from tonight came to mind again: Buster Keaton's expressionless face revealed sadness and bitterness, like a clown.