In April of the lunar calendar, the sun was already very powerful at noon, and my classmates and I were squatting around the cafeteria to eat in the thick shade, and my father came.

He stood in the sunlight in the courtyard, looked around, and I saw it, and hurriedly ran forward. I want to feed him, but he resolutely refuses. I led him to the dormitory to rest and drink water, but he didn't go, he asked me to go with him to Shanmen Town.

I walked out of the school gate with him, and walked down the bluestone streets of Shanmen Town, and I found that he was old, about fifty, and his sideburns were all white. From the time they met to the time they entered a tea shed in the town, he didn't show a smile. I wondered what was going on.

Ordered a pot of tea, he took a sip, put down the teacup, and did not look at me or speak until the pot of tea was finished, and he stood up and walked away. I asked him where he was going, and he said let's take a look!

Out of the street, under a willow tree by the creek, my father stood on his feet, took the cloth from his shoulders and laid it on the ground. I sat down next to him too.

"I have come today to ask you only one word. Father said.

I have nothing to say, looking forward to it.

"You want a divorce?" asked my father directly.

"Hmm. "I don't think there's any need to hide it, and at the same time, it's strange that the court hasn't passed me on yet, so how does my father know?

"Can you not leave?" asked my father calmly.

"Dad, listen to me......" I wanted to spread my mind to him.

"No, you can leave out other gossip. The father said, "I just want you to say 'yes' or 'no'." ”

"No, I can't. "I had no choice but to tell you bluntly.

"That's good!" said the father, who reached out and took out a razor from his pocket, pulling the sharp blade open, "You first took my corpse, did the white business, then went to the divorce, and then went to the red business!"

I was so frightened that I grabbed my father's hand and grabbed the knife, and I was so frightened that I hurriedly said, "Dad, I have something to say......

He remained silent and asked in a cold voice: "There is nothing superfluous to say! You only say 'leave' or 'not leave'!"

"No...... "I had no choice.......

"If you don't leave, you can go with me to the county court. He said.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"Withdraw your case!" said the father.

"If I don't get a divorce, it doesn't matter if I don't get a divorce!" I said, "or I'll write another day, and the case will be closed." ”

"No!" said the father, "I will see with my own eyes that you take it down and give it to me, and I will keep it." When I die, I'll make a mask......"

My father was already crying "wow". It was the first time in my life that I saw my father cry. He cried three times, then suddenly stopped, wiped his face and eyes with his handkerchief, took up his blanket from the ground, regained his usual composure, and said, "Go!"

If there was a well nearby, I would probably jump down! My head was ringing with the sound of tense nerves cracking. I thought of Tian Fang, my beloved, I couldn't jump into a well, I couldn't crash to death on the willow tree next to me in a fit of anger, come down and talk about the next step! I took a hard step and took a lot of effort to take this humiliating step.

"Our father and son may see each other for the last time. The father said, "I'm not a little doll either, I know, withdraw it today, and you'll send it again tomorrow." I will tell you thoroughly today, no matter what year, month, or day in the future, once I receive a summons from the court at home, it will be the day of my funeral. I'm so bad that I'm an old man who knows a little bit of writing and ink, and it's not to scare you!"

My heart sank into the ice cellar.

He said that yesterday afternoon, when two case-handling personnel from the county court went to his home to investigate, he was going crazy. As soon as the two cadres left, he quietly put a razor in his coat, and went on the road, walked for half a day and a night, found the school, and had no intention of going back. He said that my divorce case has humiliated all the yin virtues accumulated by the Xu family for several generations, and he no longer has the face to meet people in Yangxu Village!

I believe my father's words not to scare me, he is face-conscious, courteous, and the divorce I proposed is tantamount to a bolt from the blue to him. I couldn't convince him, and he didn't think he could say anything about turning me, so he had to take out his razor.

My father and I were mistaken, and the court welcomed the dismissal of the case, but did not return the complaint, and wanted to file it. The father watched the case be written off, and then walked out the door with his tongue smacked, and he couldn't get the paper to cover his face when he wanted to die.

Back at school, it's already late.

Tian Fang could see at a glance that my expression was not good. After dinner, she and I walked along the crooked banks of the creek. The sunset is painted with gold, knee-high wheat seedlings on the riverbank, green rice seedlings, and the leaves shine with the golden light of the sunset. The peach trees scattered in the wheat field, the hairy peaches bear garlic cloves, which are likely, but my heart is not full of poetry.

"What's the matter, old man?" she was anxious, "you say, I'll give you an idea." ”

I can't say it.

"Don't say anything you think is hard to say. She said wisely, "I'm just advising you, no matter what, think a little more openly, don't be worried." With a new society, how much more can it be?"

She clearly did not anticipate the gravity of my difficulties. This situation must be made known to her sooner or later, and no matter how difficult it is, she can't help but make it clear. I finally told her about my father's visit today.

"Hah! Such a little thing is so overwhelming that you can't raise your head?" she pouted and smiled, and said with a look of nonchalance on the corner of her mouth, "The old feudal parents are all this way! I want to break the marriage contract with Dazhang Village, my father lifted the guillotine, slashed me on the neck first, and I ran away." He cut himself again, and as soon as my mother pulled it, he threw it down, and no one cut it......!

"My father is not like ordinary croppers. I explained to her my father's heart and temperament, "It's not scary. ”

"Don't be afraid if you move the real thing!" Tian Fang said, "Take your time." Without struggle, there is no freedom. When I came to school, my dad was in the way. He expected that as soon as I went to school, the engagement would be over. I ran to my aunt's house, asked for a quilt, and went to school. Now, I am in school, and my arranged marriage with Dazhang Village has been resolved. If I give in at any juncture, I will be surrounded by Dazhang Village. ”

"My dad is so stubborn!" I said, "I've never seen anyone as stubborn as him." ”

"Take your time. Tian Fang said, "No matter how stubborn a person is, he will slowly open up after going through a lot and seeing a wide range of things." ”

"I think after graduation, we'll get married. I said, "I'm a day...... I can't leave you ......."

"You read me an ancient poem, which means that as long as the two of you are heart-to-heart, it doesn't matter if you are not together. She stared me in the eye and said, "What does that poem say?"

"If the two love for a long time, how can it be in the morning and twilight? I said it again, and it seemed that there was a little loose crack in my depressed heart, "I ...... Like a bird in a cage, it is easy to fly into the blue sky, even if it is killed in the air by lightning, it will not get back into the cage by itself!"

"Then what are you worried about?"

"I'm just afraid to leave you. ...... after graduation"

"After graduation, assignment, and all in this county, how difficult is it to meet?"

"I want to see you every day, never separate!"

"You're here again...... And in the morning and twilight!"

My father wrote me three letters in quick succession, asking me to come home and at least once a month. I couldn't take it anymore, so I went to my uncle's house and explained the situation to my uncle. I have already made concessions to him, if he pushes me too hard, I may also pick up the razor, his next letter to force me may be my face covering, he has forced me to death, that daughter-in-law will not stay in the Xu family's gatehouse, and if he forces me to death, he may not be able to live even more in Yangxu Village!

My uncle was a cowardly man, and he was afraid that he would really kill people, so he persuaded me, and immediately went to Yangxu Village to find my parents and pass on my words...... Sure enough, my father never heard from me urging me to go home.

The stalemate was maintained, no one backed down or attacked. An attack or concession from either side could break the deadlock, but no one has shown such an indication. I believe that I will hold out to the end, and even use the advantage of age to wait for the other party - father. This impasse remained unchanged until the end of my studies at the Normal School, even during the two years I had been working.

The night before graduation and leaving school, Tian Fang and I were inseparable. We sat under a big willow tree by the river next to Shanmen Town, how many things to say, but we didn't want to say anything, and the instigation seemed unnecessary, and we knew each other completely. All the most touching words seemed so imprecise and powerless that they were not enough to express my attachment exactly, and all attachment melted into silent trust. The inquiry of the heart at the time of first love, the words of passionate admiration that burst out like a mountain waterfall, and the waves of trembling feelings all come together in a clear and wordless state of life and death. She snuggled up to me, I snuggled up to her, the kiss was deep and intense, but not as crazy and demented as in first love, and the exchange of hearts was much more accurate than the communication of words.

We walked aimlessly on the sandy beach by the river, holding hands, sitting on the grass of the beach, looking up at the stars, listening to the crisp sound of the river at night, and feeling the even and charming breath of the earth under the cover of night...... It wasn't until the dawn of dawn illuminated the highest peak of the Qinling Mountains that I gave her a carefully written piece of paper with an ancient saying she liked: If the love between the two is long, how can it be in the morning and twilight? She gave me the same old phrase, and it was embroidered with green silk thread on a piece of white cloth. In the middle of the white cloth, the picture of two overlapping hearts was made of red silk thread.

With such a token in my arms, how can my father support me?

I did not expect that the tide of rapid development of life would suddenly sweep me into despair and completely fall into ruin...... Father was victorious!