I stood in this crowded train station, looking at the city in front of me, tears couldn't stop pouring out, I also learned many years later, Zhang Bei did not return to Luoyang at all, there is no you in the crowded city, will I never see you again?

I asked myself and the city over and over again in my mind.

Before I went through security, I looked back at the city again, "Zhangbei, goodbye!"

I cried and said this sentence and then turned around and walked into the security checkpoint, the staff at the security check thought that I was so sad because I was leaving the city, she took out a lollipop from her pocket and looked at me with the warmest smile and said, "Give, I hope the memories left by Luoyang are sweet!"

I took the lollipop from her hand with a smile on my face, peeled it off and put it directly in my mouth, I was very grateful to her, I nodded at her and smiled and cried "yes, it's sweet"

At that moment, I still have infinite reluctance for Zhang Bei, no matter what purpose Zhang Bei broke up with me, I am very grateful to him, thank him for loving me, and thank him for giving me so much warmth and memories.

I think I will say: Zhang Bei, I love you, and thank you for loving me, and I have always believed that you have loved me, because I can feel your love.

As soon as I left Beijing Station, I saw Ran Zhu, Su Ruo, and Su Qi standing anxiously waiting for me at the exit of the station, and I used all my strength to rush towards them.

"You dead girl, you have a good idea, run to Luoyang quietly, do you know that we are dying, what should you do if something happens to you?" Ran Zhu beat my body hard and cried, I know they are worried about me.

"Didn't I leave you a note?" I said

"It's not a matter of leaving a note, this is a matter of whether you discuss it with us or not, do you think you're going to Huairou, you're out of the market, okay?"

"I was wrong, I have realized my mistake!" I bowed my head and confessed to them.

"Shizuko, it's come to this, let's take a look, there are many good men, I don't want to see you like this. Su Ruo also cried as she spoke.

The four of us hugged each other.

After coming back from Luoyang, I didn't look for Zhang Bei, and the word Zhang Bei never appeared in our dormitory anymore, and Ran Zhu didn't talk about her and Lin Jihan in the dormitory in order to take care of my emotions, and even reduced the date with Lin Jihan for me.

I told Ran Zhu not to do this, but I couldn't forget him, she and Lin Jihan should do whatever they wanted.

In the middle of the month, I received the salary of the restaurant, and I gave the money directly to He Junchu.

"Why are you giving me money?" He Junci looked at the envelope I gave him, his face blank.

"This is borrowing your cousin's money when I came back, because I didn't have the money to buy a train ticket at the time. I hurriedly explained.

"Oh, then I'll take it for him, and I'll tell him. He looked at me and smiled, then put the envelope away.

"That..... Thank you!"

He Jun was stunned for a second and then said, "It's just a gesture!"

"Well, but I still want to thank you and your cousin! If he comes to Beijing on a business trip, you tell him that I invited him to dinner, which can be regarded as a thank you!"

"Well, okay, I'll pass it on to him, but he shouldn't let you spend money!" He Junchu said with a smile.

"You tell him I'm going to force myself to pass. ”

He Junxi looked dazed again, but then he guessed that this should be some kind of agreement between me and his cousin, and he nodded at me.

"Then you study first, I won't bother!" I waved my hand at He Junchu and left the classroom.

It is very difficult to force yourself to forget a person you once loved so much, especially if you still regard the other person as the only person in your life, and the book says that one of the best ways to forget someone is to start a new relationship.

Ran Zhu introduced me to a boy in the physics department, Nanyi. I forced myself to date him, forced myself to try to understand him, but every time I was with him, I was full of Zhang Bei, and even when I was with him, what I thought about was Zhang Bei's beautiful face.

I pushed him away, gasping for breath, and he looked at me worriedly and asked, "Shizuko, what's wrong?"

I didn't dare look at him, I turned my face away, took a deep breath, and shook my head.

"Is that what I'm not doing well? I always feel like you're not happy with me. Nanichi's voice was low, I knew he liked me, he always tried to make me happy in front of me, but every time I did it perfunctorily.

He is a science student, but he is not a fool in front of feelings, he can feel my perfunctory.

"I'm sorry, Nanyi, I think.... I don't think we're a good fit for ......." I finally said it, I didn't want to lie to him, and I didn't want to lie to myself.

"Why? Can't you still forget him?" Nanyi's voice was still very low, although the campus lights were dim, I could still see Nanyi's sadness, and the eyes that were looking forward to the answer were full of reluctance to love me, but I couldn't love him, let alone lie to him.

"Hmm!"

"Nanyi, you're really good, it's because you're so good, so ..... I don't want to lie to you. ”

"I like you, you should know!" Nanyi's voice suddenly raised.

"I know, but I can't give you the love you want!" my voice was still calm, even a little cold.

"I can wait, until you forget him! Please give me a chance at that time, okay?" Nan Yi grabbed my shoulder and said excitedly.

"Nanyi, calm down, I don't deserve you like this, you will meet a girl who is wholeheartedly devoted to you, we won't contact you from tomorrow!" I pushed Nanyi away and said decisively and ran away like crazy.

Nan Yi kept calling my name behind me, I pretended not to hear and ran forward, I ran back to the dormitory in one go, Ran Zhu looked at me in surprise and asked, "Didn't you go on a date with Nan Yi?"

"Why did you and Lin Jihan leave me and Nan Yi behind tonight?" I asked, looking at Ran Zhu.

"Isn't that a chance to be alone with you? ”

"What about Su Ruo and Su Qi?" When I returned to the dormitory, I saw Ran Zhu alone in the dormitory and preparing to apply a mask.

"They went to the toilet and came back in a while, why are you so serious? Is something wrong? It can't be that Nanyi bullied you, right?" As soon as Nanyi bullied me, Ran Zhu suddenly stood up from the chair, looking like he was going to settle accounts with Nanyi.

"No, he didn't, I'm going to announce two things when they get back. I said calmly as I changed into my pajamas.

Just as I finished speaking, Su Ruo and Su Qi walked into the dormitory together, and Su Qi saw me and quipped, "Date, how was the appointment?"

I didn't answer her, but said, "Everybody's here, then I'll announce two things," and I turned to look at the three of them.

As soon as I finished speaking, they all cast puzzled glances at me.

"The first thing is: I broke up with Nanyi"

"What's the matter? Why do you want to break up with Nanyi?People are so obedient to you, you say that he doesn't dare to go west, you send a circle of friends to say that you want to eat ice cream, does Nanyi immediately send you ice cream downstairs in the dormitory?" Ran Zhu had an incomprehensible expression, especially after she saw me say this sentence so calmly.

"It's because he's been so good to me that I can't continue to hurt him. ”

"Liang Jingzi, tell me the truth, don't you still forget that bastard!"

"I'm not going to use someone else to forget him, but I'm going to force myself to forget him. I said categorically.

"You ......" Ran Zhu was still saying something, but I glanced at her, and she immediately stopped saying nothing.

"The second thing is that I'm going to quit my job in the restaurant, didn't I apply for a scholarship, and I plan to spend all my time studying, so I'm sorry, I can't accompany you to work. ”

I don't go to work in a restaurant, first of all, I did apply for a scholarship, so I don't have to worry about living expenses, and I want to spend all my time studying during that time. The second is because every time I walk on that road at night, I always think back to the bits and pieces of that road with Zhang Bei, especially when I see Ran Zhu and Lin Jihan again, my thoughts about Zhang Bei are even stronger.

So, I decided to quit! If I don't look at it, maybe I won't have such a strong longing!