I went crazy in the city library, flipping through all the newspapers I could find that year until the library closed and was kicked out by the administrator. I looked up all the keywords I could imagine on the Internet, and even looked up all kinds of astrophysical knowledge, quantum mechanics, relativity, and materials science, just to prove that little bit of possibility...... With illusory hopes.

There is no trace of ten years of respect, no news about that. If it weren't for the photos of the founders of Li Xu's Han Mountain, I would have even suspected that those unforgettable memories were nothing more than an ethereal dream I had.

Why did even Chen Chong's traces disappear completely, and did he finally succeed in ten years? How is he now, do they still remember me as a person? After all, I forgot everything when I woke up, will they also forget me...... I can't remember it anymore...... The more I thought about it, the more sad I became, and in the end, there was only one voice left in my heart that roared repeatedly: respect for ten years...... Jing is gone for ten years......

As soon as a flame of hope sprang up in his head, it burned uncontrollably. I locked myself in the room, checked over and over again, flipped through every news of Li Xu Hanshan, and flipped through all the social news in City B in the past 20 years, although I thought I hadn't missed a little information about those years, but I found nothing in the vast information looking for Jing Hanshi, Jing Liankai, and Lou Xiaowen......

"Baby, it's time to eat...... It doesn't matter if you don't get a job, your father will raise you for the rest ......of your life," Lao Lu complained angrily to Ms. Yue outside the door, "It's all you, forcing the child to find a job......

I wiped away my tears, rubbed my face, and reluctantly squeezed out a smile to open the door: "It's okay, Mom and Dad, I'm fine......"

Ms. Yue was originally glaring at Lao Lu angrily, but the moment she saw me, she softened.

"Rhino, tell your mother if you have anything, don't hold it in your heart. ”

"Hmm. "I felt like my throat was choked and I had to breathe as hard as I could. I always thought that breaking up with Meng Hangqing was a big deal, but only now did I understand that at that time, I could rely on self-abuse and pretend to be dead to relieve the pain, which was too hypocritical. I just want to find Jing for ten years now, I just want to prove that he really existed, that he was a living person, not the picture after picture in my memory. I tried to imagine what my state of mind would be when I faced life and death one day, but I never thought it would be like today, paranoia, madness, pain to the bones, feeling that my heart was crushed in an instant, and there was no scum left.

Lao Lu peeled the shrimp one by one and put them in my bowl, and I ate them all cooperatively, but I always felt that I still didn't hide it from them, thanks to my grandparents who went back to their hometown, otherwise they would be in a hurry when they saw my current appearance.

While eating, Lu Yuheng opened the door angrily and came in, and even took care of changing his shoes and pointed at me and yelled: "Lu Lingxi, what's the matter with you? Work hard, if you don't go, you won't go! If I didn't happen to have a friend teaching at that university, I would ...... What's wrong?"

I pretended not to see Ms. Yue glaring at Lu Yuheng, and just smiled: "I just think I'm not suitable for that job, and I want to look for it again." That one...... Mom and Dad, I've eaten well, you eat slowly. ”

I closed the door, but the sound of the three people outside the door carefully discussing still clearly came into my ears, I held the computer and searched without giving up, except for Yang Qianqiu was shuanggui and Chenguang Company was seized, there was no extra information, even the reports about these two things were vague and had no reference value.

It is no surprise that Shen Sanshan has become an internationally renowned fashion designer, and of course he is also the majority shareholder and CDO of Li Xuhanshan. For the brand's internationalization strategy, Chen Han moved the headquarters of Li Xu Hanshan to the capital. The photos in the news clearly captured the warmth of their eye contact, the wrinkles they couldn't hide and a few strands of gray hair. Just a few pictures made me cry uncontrollably, because that was the face I remembered, and no matter how many traces the years had left, I could still recognize them at a glance.

This is an interview with the super first-line publication CO station, which says: This business elite and design wizard's partner is rarely interviewed...... They have been together for 20 years and have had a lot of disputes, but Chen Han told us with a smile that he has never been able to quarrel with Su

shi

e, so this chairman deserves to be very aggrieved.

The interview only occupies one page, and most of them are about the company's strategic deployment in the field of makeup in the future. But a few words still made me feel very gratified. It's nice that they're happy......

It's just that why didn't I respect for ten years, even Xiao Quan had a description of Du Niang, but he didn't respect for ten years...... I tried to catch the slightest clue, but I couldn't find it...... I looked at the ceiling in despair, everyone said that there was no information that could not be found in the era of big data, but for a whole week, I used all means to check almost all the news related to that year, and there was no trace, why......

The cautious state of the person outside the door is completely inconsistent with his character.

"Can my brother come in?"

I wiped away the tears that slipped from the corners of my eyes and tried to adjust my tone.

Lu Yuheng slowly pushed open the door and saw me slumped on the bed, his brows furrowed tightly: "Which grandson is it? Brother will beat him now!"

I looked at him in amazement, a little confused.

"Tell me! Which grandson has bullied you? Has he been hacked? I'm going to beat him right now so that he can't take care of himself!"

"I ...... I'm fine......" I hurriedly stopped Lu Yuheng, who was about to roll up his sleeves, his nose was a little sour.

"If you weren't in this state, if you hadn't fallen out of love, I would have eaten Xiang live!"

I looked at Lu Yuheng and felt warm in my heart, and I felt that it was good to have a brother, but, am I in love?

I shook my head firmly, feeling more and more aggrieved: "Brother, I am ...... It's just that I feel uncomfortable, I haven't fallen out of love...... I just can't find him......"

Lu Yuheng was stunned, I don't know if it's because of my brother, or because of my strange remarks.

"That's ...... Deliberately not answering your phone? Quick, tell my brother about this grandson's phone!"

I wanted to cry and laugh: "It's not like that, he's a good person, he didn't give up, he didn't ......"

Before I finished speaking, I felt that my throat was blocked and I couldn't speak, and I opened my mouth several times, but I didn't know how to say it, even if I did, who could believe it......

Ms. Yue sighed and walked in and motioned for Lu Yuheng to go out, she sat down beside me, put my head on her lap, and rubbed my temples down and down.

"Rhino, since you were a child, no matter what grievances you have suffered, you have never been like this...... When you broke up with Xiao Meng before, my mother was so angry that she died, because every time you gave you a video, your eyes were red, and I couldn't wait to pick his skin immediately. Mom said a little choked, "But you're different this time, although Mom doesn't know what you've been through, but you force yourself to laugh in front of us, sitting motionless in front of the computer every day, it really scares Mom and Dad......"

My nose soured: "I'm sorry...... I ......"

"Rhino, even if you don't tell your parents, we don't want you to practice yourself, you act like a normal look, stuffy in your heart and don't say anything, but the mother and daughter are connected, how can your mother not feel it?"

"I'm sorry......" I put my arms around my mother's waist, feeling like a flood had burst its banks......

"Mom just wants to tell you that there is no obstacle in life that cannot be overcome, even if it is ...... Didn't Mom come here when it was so difficult? You're still young......

"Mom, I lost him......"

"What?"

"I lost him! I can't find him...... I'm so uncomfortable, it's hard here...... I threw him away......"

I pounded my chest to relieve the emotion, but only tears flowed uncontrollably.

"Baby, don't scare Mommy. ”

I cried hoarsely, and I wanted to spread out that memory to everybody and tell them, look, how happy we are, but only I know...... Why is it that only I know? I lost Jing 10 years...... I can't find him...... Where are you, tell me that you haven't disappeared, okay? Even if you just forget me, just don't remember me, let me know you're still alive, okay? I shouted this from the bottom of my heart, no one heard, and no one responded to me......

"Baby, mom is here, mom is with you......"

From that day on, there was someone at home who accompanied me every day to go out for a walk, exercise, and learn English...... I knew that the people in the training class were talking about me behind my back, and I tried to act as if nothing was going on, trying to let them not worry, but the family didn't get any relief.

"Sister-in-law, you really don't have to follow me...... I'll go back when I'm shopping. ”

My flight attendant rejected me with her standard signature smile and handed me the milk tea, fearing that the service would not be in place.

"Rhino, your phone is ringing, do you want me to answer it for you?"

"No need, sister-in-law, I'll ...... it myself"

They were worried that it was the scum who abandoned me who called me, so they had to review all the phone messages on weekdays to prevent me from getting hurt again, although I repeatedly explained that it was not what they thought, that I really loved a very good person, but the whole family still played the role of a protector rigorously, pulling up a dense protective net.

The caller was Xiaoxiao, who had been home for so long, and hadn't had a good chat with her, so I hurriedly answered: "Hey, Xiaoxiao baby, miss me?" There was a sobbing sound on the other end of the phone, and my heart tightened, although Xiaoxiao is more than gentle on weekdays, but she is not a person who loves to cry, "What's wrong Xiaoxiao? Don't scare me, talk quickly." ”

"Fawn...... Ah Cai, she ......"

I don't know when the phone slipped, and I don't know how I got home, I just don't believe it, and stubbornly think that Xiaoxiao's phone call is just a joke.