Chapter V: Hospitalization (II)

"Little girl, are you alone?" the voice came from the next bed.

"Well, I'm not sick, just have a tracheoscopy. Sang Guiyu raised her head from the book and looked to the left side and said seriously, she didn't want people to misunderstand that she had been diagnosed, she was just a suspected patient.

The 28th bed next door is a female patient in Katse, Tibet, accompanied by her husband, in her early forties.

The yellowish, dull hair has the smell of plateau, bursts and fluffy, and is often tied up by a black rubber band. Although his face was yellow, he did not hide the two blushes on his cheeks. I like to wear a plaid shawl, which is very elegant and I can't see any material.

There is no Internet and no TV, except for sleeping, sleeping, and the patients in the same room are considered patients, and they will communicate with each other.

You come and go, Sang Guiyu slowly understands that 28 beds should be the director of the health department of a certain town or county, treatment for one year and two months, follow-up. Because the related medical treatment here is one of the best in the country, I specially asked for leave to come for a review.

28 beds actually don't know when they got sick, and when they found out, they were already very serious. "You said that you want to accompany the leaders to visit the old, weak, sick and disabled, you can't wear masks, the leaders don't wear them, I don't wear them, and the image is not close to the people......"

Sang Guiyu didn't know that he had become the director of the bureau, and there were so many people who couldn't help himself, and besides, shouldn't he wear a mask? Could it be that he had to be exposed to germs in order to show his proximity to the people? It's just that it's useless to say this now.

"You're so good, you became the director of health at a young age. That's all she can say.

I have worked hard for many years, and I am waiting to be promoted, and I am actively transferred when I find out about my illness. 28 beds not only paid for their health, but also spent a lot of money, "The medicine of this disease is very poisonous, and it hurts the liver and kidneys." ”

"Didn't that save the lungs, and the other organs were almost poisonous?" Sang Guiyu felt that this was similar to drinking water to quench thirst.

"There are only these few drugs, there are not many alternative methods, if the basic drugs can't be cured, there is almost no need to treat. As soon as I took the medicine, the whole person collapsed, wilted and yellow from the inside out, had a bad appetite, blurred vision, and a dark face. You can only eat more than 100,000 yuan of Cordyceps a year, eat a lot of Chuanbei, and all kinds of tonic to make your body feel a little comfortable. ”

Sang Guiyu listened carefully, admiring her efforts to live, but she felt a little sad in her heart, it seems that this person is very well-off, his work is good, his salary is high, and his position is high, and he can make up for hundreds of thousands of dollars a year, on the other hand, when she came in, she was worried about the cost of hospitalization and examination.

And 28 beds, no money is deducted for sick leave, and no money is deducted for her husband's sick leave, looking down at the book "May Life Be Calm" in her hand, Sang Guiyu wants her to be calm as a poor and white person, when can she have such a job treatment.

Sang Guiyu, who won 28 beds in age and health, was envious, even though she was over forty years old, she still loved beauty very much, and she didn't forget to make a mask when she was hospitalized, and she had to wear earrings, necklaces, and rings when she went out, which made her ashamed of herself elegantly.

It's just envy and envy, Sang Guiyu is still a little afraid of bed 28, because she is a confirmed patient and can cough, here, coughing is different. Let Sang Guiyu unconsciously tighten her mask, because during the day, everyone put away the curtain on the bed, and she was embarrassed to open the curtain, but she couldn't do anything to make people feel excluded. I can only pretend to touch it intentionally or unintentionally, pull some up unintentionally, and then take advantage of the fact that everyone is chatting and deliberately pull away a little to look at her eyes and listen to her, in order to show my innocence.

is really afraid of death, Sang Guiyu feels that he is a coward.

When Sang Guiyu first came to the hospital in the morning, bed 25 was a woman with glasses, because of her hair, mask, and glasses, she couldn't see her facial features at all, and she left in half a day, saying that she was doing tracheoscopic spraying. In the afternoon, another person came, also with long hair and wearing a mask, so that he couldn't tell if it was the same person, and asked the 26 beds next door to find out that he had changed people halfway. The people who came in exchange are very knowledgeable about the people in the department and the treatment process, and it can be guessed that they are frequent customers here.

Whatever the reason, experienced people tend to talk about it, especially when dealing with a few new patients who don't know what to do.

Bed 26 is a woman who is almost sixty years old, and Sang Guiyu knows her name because the two were admitted to the hospital at the same time and had the same examination items, and they were each other's companions.

The problem of the 26 beds is more complicated, with multiple lymph nodes in the lungs and chest pain. At first, she was diagnosed and treated in Zhongshan Hospital, and she looked up to Zhongshan Hospital very much, and told all the relevant honors in her mind, so that Sang Guiyu, a layman who rarely entered the hospital, had a deep impression of such a famous hospital.

But the awesome Zhongshan Hospital did not bring her much help, only said that the situation was quite complicated, and after a month or two of treatment, the nodules increased, and where could she afford it.

I came here right away, just to find a cause. Many times, finding the cause is more difficult than treating the disease.

The preliminary judgment of the two hospitals may be tuberculosis, nodules, tumors or leukemia four options. She's probably the only person here who wishes she had TB.

A retired woman who can't finish her mind, about what vegetables to buy at home, what clothes her husband wears, whether her granddaughter is picky or not, her son is addicted to mobile phones and does not communicate with children, her daughter-in-law is in poor health and refuses to add clothes, and the post-80s and 90s have poor hands-on ability, and they don't do housework, etc., etc.

At five or six o'clock, I have to get up to buy vegetables, wash clothes, make breakfast, send children, come back to wash dishes, clean, prepare lunch, dry clothes and quilts, wash vegetables, and make dinner.

Sang Guiyu can almost recite her daily itinerary, because 26 beds will tell different patients about her sleepless work every day.

After doing the tracheoscopy and returning to the ward, Sang Guiyu found that bed 26 had been lying on the hospital bed smoothly, with a towel around her neck, and was about to care for her. She opened her mouth first: "You checked it, I, I didn't check it, I can't check it......"

Hearing the sad voice of the 26th bed, Sang Guiyu knew that something bad might be checked, "What's wrong?"

"The tube can't be inserted, and it still can't be inserted after changing it, and later, it sprayed blood directly, and there was a lot of blood ......"

After listening to the description of the 26 beds, Sang Guiyu found that the towel around her neck had a lot of blood stains, and there were sticky pieces on her hair, which seemed to be really a lot of blood, which made her feel comforted.

Fortunately, at this time, the son of 26 beds came over, packed her clothes, and simply scrubbed her.

Probably because of the blood loss, coupled with the fact that the examination did not go well, the panic in my heart intensified, and the 26 beds became unenergetic, lying wilted all day long, and no longer told people about her heavy housework.

Judging from the current situation, it is very likely that she will not be able to return to her busy days before, and she still hasn't found out why she has come after Sang Guiyu left.

The new 25-bed Sang Guiyu didn't like it very much. In fact, 25 beds are a very good person, the reason is that Sang Guiyu doesn't like people who talk a lot.

She should not be forty yet, but not far off. This time, I just took an X-ray for a re-examination, and I only heard from the doctor that it was one centimeter smaller, but I didn't know if it was a shadow or a nodule or a lump, which I didn't understand at all.

The most impressive thing is her medicine, which can be contained in a trolley case, and she still dismantles the outer box to take the simplest. However, it is mainly an infusion drug, which seems to be a lot, but in fact, it is only a month's medicine.

It is also worth mentioning that Sang Guiyu had a meal with her, and she has forgotten whether it was noon or night. They ate it at a wonton shop. When she went, Sang Guiyu was afraid of this, she just wanted to eat alone, and as a suspicious patient, she didn't want to eat with a confirmed patient at all.

When she came out, it was still raining, but Sang Guiyu didn't feel irritable at all, the rain was very appropriate, from the day she was hospitalized, until she stopped when she was discharged, I really understood her sadness.

The entrance to the hospital is very crowded, and the road is not wide, with the flow of people, vehicles, and two rows of shared bicycles. The march was almost crowded.

Occasionally, you can hear one or two coughs, especially for the middle-aged uncle who passes by from time to time, coughing without covering his mouth tightly, but also at others, spitting, at a glance you know that it is out of the hospital or not at ease with the health of yourself and the public, the quality is like the phlegm that has been thrown out, whether it is in the mud or on the new shoes.

The snack bar next to the hospital is not worried. There were a lot of people at the meal, so they had to nest in the innermost corner, next to the sink for washing dishes. There was still something piled up under the table, and I couldn't straighten my feet.

"I'll go get disposable chopsticks and spoons. "25 beds are in a hurry to go to Zhang Luo tableware, yes, one-time is more hygienic. There is such a big flow of people here, there are only three staff members, a middle-aged man on the outermost side is responsible for cooking wontons, a middle-aged woman in the middle is responsible for collecting money and playing games, and a woman who looks like an aunt inside is busy, responsible for cleaning up dishes, wiping tables, washing dishes, and delivering dishes....... With such a division of labor over the other, the dishes and chopsticks must not be cleaned, let alone expected to be disinfected.

But the 25 bed is not good, the chopsticks are fortunately wrapped in plastic paper, the plastic spoon is not, the hand that has passed through the 25 bed or the hand of someone other than yourself is not at ease. Pretended to miss and soiled the spoon, went to get a clean one again, walked to the door, and before his eyes began to search, he immediately saw a box of plastic spoons on the stove built of aluminum alloy.

At the entrance of the wonton shop, less than a meter wide, on the outermost, shoulder-high, there was a box, bare, completely uncovered, exposed to the air, with a group of small spoons crooked, it was obvious that they were disrupted by too many hands, and when you picked one up, you could even feel the wetness, and the stove was placed very outside, not afraid of drizzle.

Kneading at will, I thought that this spoon can't be used, but fortunately there are disposable chopsticks, no matter what, it is wrapped in plastic paper!

When I returned to my position, I was suddenly attracted by the sound of rustling under my feet, a cloud of black and gray stuffed things moving, which startled me, it was a kitten, curled up in a cardboard box, twisting its waist, as if stretching its waist, to be honest, such a crowded and narrow place, the stacks of plastic bags in the box, looking at it all felt awkward, how could it exude such a lazy feeling on it. Listening to the meow, his mouth yawning wide, his pink tongue licking his fine teeth, and then Kazkaz began to bite the stacks of plastic bags under him.

Grinding is fun!

Why are there so many plastic bags? Squinting closely, the carton contains bags of brand-new plastic bags for packaging, next to the carton against the wall is a white snakeskin bag, the snakeskin bag is too transparent or too broken, I actually recognize the contents at a glance, disposable sanitary chopsticks.

Oh my God, the entrance is directly on the ground that has been baptized by many pairs of dirty shoes and how many mouthfuls of spit in a day, and is guarded by a cat who is not yet an adult?

Sang Guiyu was not good in an instant, she was no longer worried about her lungs, she was afraid that she would get rabies, because she had just used those disposable chopsticks!

The outside world is so scary, let's hurry back to the hospital bed and lie down.

There was a little girl in the +2 bed, accompanied by her mother, the girl had short hair, bangs, a pair of eyes on the mask were very dark, she walked with a slightly low head, she didn't like to talk, she kept looking at her phone as soon as she came in, there were no doctors and nurses to entertain her, and she didn't ask her patients.

But her mother was very talkative, and immediately started chatting with 25.26 bed. The girl is a doctor in Hangzhou, the same age as Sang Guiyu, and has been healed there for some time. The tracheal adhesion was closed, and when I heard that there was hope here, my mother rushed over from her hometown to accompany her daughter to see a doctor.

Dr. Wei is the attending doctor of the ward, Sang Guiyu likes her very much, she speaks quickly, very clearly, does not drag mud and water, does not look very old, thick glasses slide down the bridge of the nose, and it is particularly reassuring when watching the film with a presbyopia shape.

The girl's mother was nervous: "... I don't know if I can open my daughter's trachea..."

Dr. Wei looked at the girl's medical records and replied: "Two months have passed, which is too long, and it doesn't make sense to open it." ”

Then a few days later, a tracheoscopy was done, and sure enough, it was not successful.

The mode of mother-daughter relationship with +2 beds reminded Sang Guiyu of the scene where she and her mother went shopping many years ago. At that time, I was very young, but I could already feel the contempt of others, and the outsiders who worked were always ridiculed in various ways, even borrowing to study, paying a lot of money for a semester, not speaking the local dialect, and being rejected by local children. Slowly becoming less contactless with people.

When her mother took her shopping to buy new clothes, she was particularly disgusted by being exposed to the eyes of others, especially the shopping guide staring at her every step of the way, like staring at a thief. I can't wait to disappear immediately. But my mother didn't understand her inferiority, and asked her opinion loudly in that rough and straightforward native dialect, which one she liked, and whether she wanted to give it a try.

The shopping guide didn't understand what the mother said, just smiled, that kind of smile made her even more unacceptable, she didn't experience the mother's love, but often lost her temper, angrily said no, don't like it, hurry up, and so on, with an impatient and even angry tone to block those inquiries out of love.

After a long time, Sang Guiyu inadvertently knew that it made his mother very sad and remembered it for a long time.

Bed 25 has not left yet, and a new patient with bed 25 has arrived, still a long-haired, tall and thin man.

After a cold and cough, I went to see a doctor, and after anti-inflammatory treatment, I went back to my hometown to play, but I didn't expect to start coughing again after a month, and there were some slight blood streaks, which seemed to be very serious. The family runs a restaurant and has already given birth to a child. They didn't communicate much, they were separated by a bed, and they didn't take the initiative to ask.

I just heard her chatting with the bed next door, and I knew the general situation, the restaurant of the 25-bed family was too busy, and the chef asked for leave, so I had to aggrieved my wife to come to the hospital alone. It was okay to be hospitalized alone, but during the tracheoscopy, the doctor asked her family to accompany her, and her husband was not available, so she signed and drew the charge herself.

Sang Guiyu wondered if he was the boss when he opened a restaurant, and the boss couldn't get out of it if he wanted to take a holiday, but he couldn't do it, and there was not much loss if he was closed for a day and a half!

She couldn't open her mouth to question it, after all, it was already sad to be here, and wouldn't it be even more embarrassing and sad to ask such a question again.

Everyone at the bottom will have many reasons to work hard to make money, for a more comfortable and free life or simply to pay the rent, but after all, people are not plants and trees, they can't just run for life, they should also see the needs of the soul, if the heart has no place to live, everywhere is wandering.

If his husband was willing to put down everything to be by his side at such a frustrating moment, maybe the face of the 25 bed would not have been drooping, and what he put down would only be a day's and a half day's revenue.

I remember once attending a training session, passing by a closed noodle shop, small in scale, but located in the middle of the office building and the street, you can imagine that the business must be very busy, with a note on the door, saying that Saturday and Sunday are closed, and what time is it on weekdays, I can't remember very clearly.

This is the first time I've seen such a principled shop, so I'm impressed.

The 28-bed Xinjiang woman had not yet moved her luggage out, and another strong woman, in her early forties, heard that her lungs had been uncomfortable for ten years, and she was intermittently good and bad..... I used to have bronchiectasis, but now it's even worse. She was so busy that she sat at the head of the bed and talked on the phone desperately since she was hospitalized, her thoughts were clear, sonorous and powerful, and she couldn't hear the content clearly, but she only knew that she was giving work instructions to this person, arranging project deployment to that person, in short, not leaving work.

Lying next to her, Sang Guiyu didn't feel that she was in the hospital at all, she couldn't relax her vigilance, and listened carefully to her every word, afraid that she would be the next to be named by the leader. To be honest, she can understand every word in her ears, but she can't figure it out when she connects it, I don't know if she is too low, so she can only comfort herself with "interlaced lines like mountains".

Listening to it, her brain became confused, drowsy and couldn't extricate herself, so she had to let it go, she is not a person who can become a big thing after all.

Such a rich disease, you must eat well, rest well, and lie down and sleep when you have nothing to do. Seeing Sang Guiyu, who was in bed 27 in the same ward, lying so comfortably in the new 28-bed, she occasionally expressed her feelings, she was too busy and had no time to rest.

The new 28 beds are very easy to get along with, and people who have achieved a little bit of success still have a little ability in the handling of social relations, she is active, positive and optimistic, and can talk to patients. She has done all the relevant examinations, large and small, and has lived in Building 1 for a period of time before, Dr. Wei is also very cooperative with what tests she asks for, a person who actively treats and actively lives and works, Sang Guiyu feels that if they get along for a longer time, maybe she will respect her more, who doesn't respect those who don't waste their youth, especially for people who live in a mess.

She's going to be discharged from the hospital, though.

When he lowered his head and sorted out his luggage, the chief physician, Dr. Fang, was looking at the examination list of the 28 beds, and the new 28 beds sat in the middle of the bed, was silent for a while, and asked very softly: "Doctor, am I not saved?"

This sentence frightened Sang Guiyu to stop her movements and look up at them, she didn't look like someone who would say such a frustrating thing. How sad it should be for a strong woman to be helpless. Not daring to look back at the face of the new 28 bed, she left through the door on the left.

When he was discharged from the hospital, Sang Guiyu carried a large bag of medicine. The discharge diagnosis of the discharge summary is the same as the admission diagnosis, which is "tuberculosis possible". Her tracheoscopy, sputum examination, and various examinations were good, and no pathogenic bacteria were detected, but the doctor still recommended medication to prevent it from getting worse. She didn't know what to choose, so she had to listen to the doctor's advice.

How much does the tuberculosis have to suffer for this "possibility", but she still can't get rid of the "possibility" after checking it all out.

Is this "possibility" impossible to get rid of for a lifetime?

There are too many medicines, and the time to eat is not the same, Sang Guiyu bought a special medicine box, so that three meals a day will not be missed.

Sang Mu's daily greetings have now changed from "have you eaten" to "have you taken medicine".

However, there is something to look forward to, the resident doctor said that her shadow is very mild, and according to the course of medication, the shadow may disappear. There is no better news for Sang Guiyu, her body is not uncomfortable, she is still living a healthy life, as long as there is no shadow, no one will know in the future, and everything in the future can be separated from this problem.

In fact, the body of a person with this problem is not the most uncomfortable thing, mainly from the eyes of the world, whether it is life or job hunting, certification or school entrance examination, there will be various physical examinations, and chest X-ray can see through the lungs at a glance.

If the shadow disappears, it is equivalent to a criminal who has no criminal record and can start from scratch.

"Hurry up and take your medicine. ”

At less than seven o'clock in the morning, Sang Mu brought a glass of warm water to wake up Sang Guiyu, who was still asleep.

Although she was woken up, she was still very happy to see her mother sitting on the edge of the bed, knowing that her mother would always be by her side, and those days of crying slowly became less difficult to spend because of such determination.

"What are you thinking? Seeing her daughter's fugue appearance, Sang's mother was a little impatient, "I still have a lot of things to do, and I am grinding." ”

"Got it. ”

"Hey, you took so many days of sick leave, the company will say wow?" Sang's mother was very worried about her daughter's health, but she didn't have a job and had money to see a doctor and eat.

"There's no way around that, I'll just let it go. Don't worry, I'll go to work in a few days, anyway, the doctor said that I can't detect the pathogenic bacteria and won't harm others. ”

"You, when you take medicine, you have to be secret, don't tell others about your problem, now people are so afraid of death......" Sang Mu babbled and explained a lot.

This is not the first time she has said it, Sang Guiyu knows what her mother means, and she doesn't want to say it herself, otherwise she will definitely be discriminated against, and she can't stand the strange eyes.

"Alas......" Sang Mu walked out of the room with a water glass.

Sang Guiyu fell back to the bed, looking at the back of her mother leaving, very uncomfortable, if she could, she didn't want her mother to know her problem at all, but she couldn't hold it back, so uncomfortable, if she didn't say it, she was afraid that she would go crazy.

And the doctor said that a good mood is very important, so she hugged her mother and cried bitterly, and told her about the hospitalization and her fears.

The day after returning from the hospital, Sang's mother learned that her daughter had to take a lot of medicine a day, hid in the room and cried, and said that she hoped that the illness would fall on her and she didn't want her daughter to be like this, all of which was seen by Sang Guiyu.

The mother and daughter cried a mess, one inside and one outside.

No matter how uncomfortable it is, life will have to live.

Sang Guiyu tore off all the medicines and put them in the medicine box, so that even if they were seen, they would not find out.

Then, every night, while her roommate Panmila was taking a shower or going to the bathroom, she would divide the medicine she was going to take the next day and put it in a small pill box.

It's okay for two weeks a week, but after a long time, I'm still found clues by Panmila.

"Are you taking calcium tablets?" she saw her taking pills when she came out just now, guessing that it was a girl taking calcium tablets or something.

"Huh?" Why did you just be seen? Sang Guiyu was a little nervous, "Calcium tablets? No, it's not calcium tablets, it's just that I have an upset stomach......

"If your stomach is upset, then you pay attention to your body. Pamira has no suspicion that nine times out of ten young people have gastrointestinal problems, and work cannot avoid co-worker gatherings or socializing.

"Got it, don't worry. ”

The two of them washed up and went to bed separately, as usual, Sang Guiyu read English books, and Pan Milla read speeches and eloquence, but this time Sang Guiyu couldn't do his own thing with peace of mind, and looked up at his roommate from time to time.

Pamira put down the book and turned her head: "What's the matter? ”

"Hehe, Mila, you are well-informed, do you know when the company will organize employee physical examinations?"

What worries her most now is that she will lose her hard-earned job because she is not in good health.

Her bright future is about to say goodbye to her.

"We are still interns, and it is not our turn. After becoming a regular, you will have this benefit. ”

"Uh...... "In the past, she thought that the physical examination was a welfare, but now Sang Guiyu doesn't want this benefit, and there is no opportunity, does that mean that at least she is safe this year."

"I think you're weird. ”

"Is there one?" did she behave so obviously? Sang Guiyu was a little weak-hearted, bowed his head and pretended to read.

"I don't know. Panmilla couldn't figure out what was wrong, so she continued to read her book.

At the end of the three-month internship period, the whereabouts of the regularized personnel will be announced on the bulletin board on Monday.

Sang Guiyu was unsurprisingly transferred to the special assistant, but Pan Milla failed to do so and entered the public relations department.

For missing out on handsome guys, Panmela is very sad.

"Don't be sad, Mila, the PR department is also very good, and you are also good at it, you can show your strength in the future......"

"I can only comfort myself like this, go, eat. ”

"Good. ”

"Hey, wait for Xiaoyu, there's a handsome guy walking towards me. Pan Milla grabbed Sang Guiyu's back collar, and the action was so sudden that she almost didn't pull her over.

"Congratulations. Pei Muhang stepped forward to congratulate. His sleeves were rolled up, and it looked like he must have worked all night yesterday.

Sang Guiyu was a little worried that he would be assigned to such a workaholic, he wouldn't want his subordinates to work as hard as him!

She only gets a salary of a few thousand yuan, and she does a part-time job, and she doesn't want to the boss's heart.

"Thank you. ”

Pei Muhang smiled and left, he didn't come here to talk to them, he just happened to say hello.

Sang Guiyu walked to the elevator entrance, pressed the down button, and turned around to find that Pan Milla was still in place, "The handsome guy has already left, you still don't leave?"

"What, where am I looking at him. ”

"Understood, handsome guy, I like to watch it too, but I can't fill my stomach if I see it, the elevator is coming, let's go." ”