Chapter IV: Hospitalization (I)

Panmila has been sore lately, and I don't know why, but I saw a terrible article about women's diseases and thought I should go for a full body check-up.

Sang Guiyu has back pain every time he comes to menstruation, and he feels that he may have a little problem, so he decided to go with Mila, the two are only in their twenties, and there should be no major problems in general, just to feel at ease, but Sang Guiyu has a feeling of unease.

After asking for leave with the leader, the two came to the town hospital near the dormitory, the opening hours of the physical examination center are very short, from nine to ten in the morning, and when they arrive at the door at half past eight o'clock, many people have gathered, and the nearby occupational physical examination or occupational disease physical examination is done here.

The two of them waited in the shade of the tree opposite the door, and they were really happy to think of the considerable income after becoming a regular.

Sang Guiyu looked at Pan Milla, who was dressed in formal clothes, and said sincerely: "I hope to be able to be in the same group in the future." For her, having familiar people in a new environment will make her settle in faster and less overwhelmed.

"Me too, I just don't know when it's going to come down. You have to have a good meal then, right, Xiaoyu?" Pan Milla has followed the team leader since she joined the company, unlike Sang Guiyu, who was transferred to the special assistant to help because she knew Gao Wuxiu.

Judging from the current situation, it is very likely that Sang Guiyu will be transferred to the special assistant, after all, her work ability is not bad, and she is familiar with each other, Pan Milla is a little envious of her: "Xiaoyu, you must be going to the special assistant, right?

"Gao Wuxiu? No, I know it. "It doesn't make a difference to her wherever she goes, she is not picky about her work, as long as her colleagues get along. But if she goes to the special assistant, does it mean that she will always work with Pei Muhang in the future?

"I really want to go to the special assistant. "Panmela's prayer pulls back the reverie of Sang Guiyu.

Sang Guiyu didn't understand what her longing was for, after becoming a regular, the personnel will be transferred to the position she is good at according to her personal ability and needs, and it should not be buried, and large companies will not waste the talents they have cultivated.

"Why do you have to go to the special assistant? I heard that the heads of the project department and the marketing department get along very well...... And the special assistant is working under a lot of pressure. Sang Guiyu only helped for a short period of time, and the work assigned to her was only to do some paperwork that she was good at, and people on her marginal basis found obvious differences, and it was conceivable that the pressure was not ordinary compared to other departments.

"You don't know this, the special assistant is the actual operator of the company, of course the workload is large, and don't you think he is very handsome?"

But this can't be blamed for her not being calm, he is really good-looking, and several assistants of the special assistant are also outstanding, which can be regarded as an independent department with the highest appearance.

"That makes sense, then bless you. Alright, the door opens, let's go inside. ”

The process of the physical examination center is very simple, after registering and paying the fee, they will find an empty room to do various examinations, it does not take an hour, and both of them have it done. Sang Guiyu's menstrual period had just passed, and he was worried that the blood and urine test would affect the test results, so he told the doctor who did the urine test, and the doctor was very polite and said that it didn't matter, just talk to the doctor at the registration desk, and Sang Guiyu was relieved.

I returned to the registration desk, handed in the inspection form, noted the special circumstances, and the doctor notified me that after a week, I could check the examination results online and receive the report form.

For such a smooth and beautiful day, Pan Milla proposed to go to a restaurant near the company to have a good meal, and just as there was a discount for lunch, the two of them chose a seafood buffet.

Everyone who eats buffet plans how to eat the money back, especially a thrifty person like Sang Guiyu, so seafood is the first choice, in fact, she doesn't like to eat raw food at all, especially sashimi, but since she spends money, she always has to try it and take a bite.

Panmela is different, she has to maintain a good figure, and has her own preferences for eating, she likes seafood but not because seafood is expensive, but simply likes it, so the four or five plates in front of the two of them are full of seafood.

The two girls laughed and toasted in celebration for the food and a bright future.

Three days after the end of the physical examination, Sang Guiyu received a call from the hospital, saying that it was because of his menstrual period and he needed to be re-examined.

Knowing that there was no big problem, she was also very happy, and she didn't need to take half a day off to take a new urine test soon.

However, when she arrived at the medical examination center, the nurse who welcomed her did not rush to let her go for a new examination, but took her to the director of the service desk.

"Hello, where do I need to go for the re-examination urine test?" Sang Guiyu was a little anxious, she only took two hours off.

"Don't rush it first, the urine test is not important, the main reason why I called you this time is because you have a problem with your chest X-ray. The director said mildly.

"Chest x-ray, what's wrong?" she never felt uncomfortable.

"Have you ever had tuberculosis before?"

"No, I've never had it, and how could it be, not at all uncomfortable. Sang Guiyu couldn't believe her words, how could someone who had never been to the hospital since he was a child get such a terrible disease. "Is there a mistake?"

"Your film has a shadow, so we suspect that it may also be a lung infection, and we need to go to the radiology department to take a CT scan first. ”

"You can see it if you take a CT scan, don't you?" Don't scare her, she has always been very bold, if that's the case, her life is at stake.

"I'm not sure about this, so you'd better go to the pulmonary clinic first. ”

Sang Guiyu quickly hung up the number of the pulmonary clinic, and went around a few circles to find the department, the pulmonary department of this hospital is a separate two-story long building, hidden in the sycamore camphor and other tall trees and half-human shrubs, quiet and bleak.

The doctor on duty was a thin middle-aged man in his forties and fifties, with a sallow complexion, prominent cheekbones, and sunken eye sockets, which looked like the terminal stage of tuberculosis, which made Sang Guiyu's mood even worse.

She hurriedly explained the situation to the male doctor, and before she could say a word, she was stopped by the nurse next to her, and took out a white and blue mask from the cardboard box in the corner of the table and asked her to wear it.

This kind of behavior is very scientific, but it made Sang Guiyu suffer a lot of blows, and her eyes couldn't help but heat, as if she was a terrible virus that made people fearful, obviously she was a normal person.

The doctor didn't say much, just simply asked if there were any special symptoms, and then prescribed a list of examinations for her to check them one by one. When I went to pay the examination fee, I found that the long two-story building not only has the pulmonary department, but also the hepatitis department, and the two departments occupy two ends respectively, and in the middle is a special registration and medicine office.

Such a deliberate layout made her even more frightened, and she didn't dare to linger with her mask tight, so she hurried back and forth.

A CT scan of the chest is visible quickly, but the blood test will not be reported until the afternoon.

Sang Guiyu returned to the pulmonary department after filming and drawing blood.

The doctor was still sitting there, there didn't seem to be many patients, and the waiting time passed quite slowly, especially as she desperately wondered if she was okay.

The doctor took her case card and looked at the film, and the shadow was very certain, but he didn't know if the shadow was due to inflammation or tuberculosis.

"Doctor, what if it's tuberculosis? Can it be cured?" Actually, she wanted to ask if she would die?

"Don't worry, your problem is not big, first anti-inflammatory treatment for two weeks, if it disappears, it will be fine, if it is tuberculosis, just take medicine for half a year to a year." ”

"I think it's inflammation, right?" she thought about it carefully, remembering that a week ago she was unwell and dizzy but didn't cough, "I seemed to have a fever a few days ago, and I just took some medicine, could it be because of this? I didn't have a cough or fever at all...... This shouldn't be tuberculosis, right?" Sang Guiyu thought of all kinds of reasons to prove that he was healthy.

But after listening to it, the doctor hesitated: "Then it's hard to say, if the shadow is caused by pneumonia, there should be obvious symptoms......

So he means that there are no unhealthy symptoms, but not healthy?

"What should I do, doctor, am I really?"

"It's hard to talk about this, but I'll wait until the anti-inflammatory treatment is over. ”

"You just said that auscultation is not like tuberculosis, so in your experience, which do you think is more likely?" She was not in the mood to wait two weeks, she wanted to know the results now. But the doctor was too cautious to speculate, so she had no choice but to take two bags of anti-inflammatory drugs and leave.

Before I reached the entrance of the hospital, my tears couldn't help but flow, my body seemed to be squeezed hard, and my heart hurt badly.

Her eyes are red and swollen and her emotions are broken, and now she will definitely be asked long and short questions when she returns to the company, Sang Guiyu just wants to be quiet alone, she can't even face herself, how to face her colleagues.

Walking aimlessly along the road, walking and walking, occasionally looking up at the sky, occasionally turning back to look at people, the sky is as blue as when they came, and passers-by are in a hurry.

Before I knew it, it was almost four o'clock, my feet were numb, I was tired from crying, I heard my stomach growling, I came to the hospital on an empty stomach in the morning, I had no intention of eating at noon, and now I remember that I hadn't eaten all day.

"No, what are you doing with passivity? I haven't decided yet, I want to eat happily and take care of ......my body," he comforted himself as he walked into a restaurant.

"Your favorite fat cow!"

After Sang Guiyu finished eating a big bowl full of onion fat beef rice bowls, he suddenly felt a lot better, shook the bag of medicine on his back, went back resignedly, and called the team leader halfway to ask for leave.

This time she didn't go back to the dormitory, but took the bus home, and now she urgently needs her mother's comfort.

What's more, you still can't tell your roommate about this kind of thing, and saying something you don't know sure will only make people panic.

Sang's mother knew that her daughter might have tuberculosis and stayed all of a sudden, the family had never heard of any relatives and friends suffering from this disease, her daughter has been healthy for more than 20 years, rarely injected and taken medicine, why is this examination so serious, will there be something wrong.

Just seeing that the child was depressed, he put aside his doubts and immediately encouraged: "Don't worry, isn't it undecided......?

So comforting again and again, the tone was a little choked as she spoke, although Sang Guiyu was afraid of a bad result, but she didn't want her mother to worry, and in turn persuaded her not to think too much, young people have good resistance, etc., the mother and daughter hugged each other and cheered each other up.

In the evening, Sang's mother specially made six dishes, to replenish her daughter's body, according to the previous when she came back at most three dishes or leftovers at noon, looking at the table full of dishes she liked, Sang Guiyu didn't know whether it was fortunate or unlucky.

During the period of taking anti-inflammatory drugs, Sang Guiyu went home every day, after all, she didn't know if she was harmful to her roommates, it was always right to take precautions, and she also had a bad conscience if there was anything, but compared to the dormitory, the daily traffic took almost four hours.

But fortunately, the test results came out two days later, and no tuberculosis bacteria were found, which is safe and non-contagious, so it will not affect my mother.

In order to ensure that the inflammation is complete, Sang Guiyu took anti-inflammatory drugs for three weeks before going for a follow-up CT test, but the result was very bad and there was no change at all.

I probably cried too thoroughly when I first heard about this problem, but I couldn't cry when I heard the result today.

It is difficult to say that no germs have been detected, but the shadow has not disappeared.

Even the doctor can't judge directly, but looking at his tone, Sang Guiyu understands one thing, as long as the shadow is there, even if the cause of the shadow can't be found, even if she can be called energetic and painless, after the doctor ruled out inflammation, he took tuberculosis as the possible diagnosis, and there was no third statement. And the word tuberculosis has already given her career a death sentence, who cares what the "maybe" behind it means, who cares that she is actually very healthy.

Why should she be judged like this? Any examination is no problem, just such a film proves that she is a patient, and she does not accept it.

Such a vague conclusion could not make Sang Guiyu make up his mind to start anti-tuberculosis treatment, and it was only bad for a healthy person to take so many medicines.

After taking the film and the report sheet, Sang Guiyu came to the hospital that can be called the best treatment of tuberculosis, and only when he came here did he know that there were many people with this disease, and there were many young people.

After seeing it, the specialist said that the symptoms were too mild to be easily diagnosed. It can only be diagnosed as "probable" based on the exclusion of the previous hospital.

"What? too slight? Is my situation considered minor?" Sang Guiyu smiled bitterly, this is not the best news he has heard in this time, "Then what should I do?"

"Take a month of tuberculosis medicine first, and if the shadow disappears, it will be fine. ”

"Do you have to take medicine? Doesn't this medicine say that once you start taking it, you must take a full course of treatment? What if not?"

"Yours is not serious, and it can also be treated conservatively. Leave it alone for now, wait three months and then make a film to see if there is any change. ”

"What if it gets worse?"

"It's up to you to decide. ”

How did she decide, she didn't understand at all, she didn't want to take medicine and was afraid of delaying treatment, what should she do?

"What do you suggest I should do, doctor?"

"You can be hospitalized for a tracheoscopy and confirm. ”

"Hospitalized? That, that...... All right. "You can't really ignore it, you still have to check it out to be at ease.

"Go back and wait for the notice, you will be notified when there is a bed. ”

Here are the top specialists in the country, and none of them can judge her health, it seems that this time it is more than lucky.

Sang Guiyu silently walked to the cake shop opposite the hospital.

I bought a favorite matcha-flavored cake roll and a glass of juice and sat by the window.

The taste of the cake was obviously very good, but she only ate a mouthful of tears and burst into tears, and continued to eat with the back of her hand, grinning and praising while eating: "It's delicious, I like it the most." ”

Fang Zheng, who came to pick up his father from work, walked outside the window of the cake shop and saw a stupid woman eating the cake vigorously, crying while eating, and laughing very weirdly, I can't tell the reason, anyway, it must be more than ten times more ugly than crying.

Why does she have such a strange expression, is it because the cake tastes too strange?

Anyway, it's still early, let him see what's going on.

Fang Zheng walked into the cake shop, knocked on the woman's table, and asked politely, "Hello, isn't the cake delicious?"

Sang Guiyu didn't expect someone to talk to her, and when she understood the aura that she exuded from being close to people, she seriously doubted that this big man who was a little too tall had bad eyes.

She's crying, or more appropriately, she's crying and laughing and going crazy, shouldn't strangers stay away?

After being stunned for a long time, seeing her somewhat puffy face reflected in his two dark eyes, and feeling his patience and kindness, Sang Guiyu slowly cleaned up his emotions and showed a smile as a greeting: "The cake is delicious." ”

Fang Zheng saw a large yellow brown paper bag beside her, which was specially used by the hospital to hold films, and it seemed that it was a frustrated patient. And because there is a specialized hospital opposite the store, Fang Zheng probably knew what the situation was, so he didn't ask her why she was crying, and continued to discuss cake and snacks with her.

"Thank you for chatting with me. "I feel a little better when I talk. Whatever his state of mind when he sat down to talk to her, she was grateful, and she could feel it, and although he deliberately avoided touching her sadness, he always encouraged her to think about it, consciously or unconsciously.

also because of his kindness, she was soothed a lot.

After receiving the call to be hospitalized, Sang Guiyu asked the company for a week of sick leave.

The team leader asked about her body with concern, and her tone stopped talking, Sang Guiyu knew that she was about to turn positive, if she took too much leave at this time, the company would have opinions, and then it might have an impact on her future work, but she had no choice, if it was really this problem, the company would definitely not be able to stay.

Recently, she looked up a lot of information on the Internet, and knew that this tuberculosis is no longer a terminal disease, as long as the treatment of the full course of treatment will be good, the cured people can participate in various activities like ordinary healthy people, but the understanding of this disease in the society is too little and too narrow, and there is no doubt that they are discriminated against in job hunting.

Whatever the end result, she has to be strong.

Carrying a bag of commonly used daily necessities, Sang Guiyu reported to the hospital, paid the deposit and went to the inpatient department on his own.

She didn't tell her mother when she came to the hospital for a check-up this time, if her mother knew about it, she would definitely ask for leave to take care of her, and she didn't want her mother to be upset after being busy.

I went upstairs and got out of the elevator and there were two corridors, one leading to the nurse's desk, and the other was unknown, I came for the first time, I didn't think much about it, and I went directly to ask the nurse how I planned to arrange this new patient who was about to move in.

"You are 27 beds. ”

The nurse with the turquoise mask was a little mellow, took her medical record card, and pasted a small piece of white paper on it, on which the number 27 was written, and she lived in bed 27 from now on.

The ward is a quadruple room with an extra bed, 25~28 beds, and a bed is added by the door on the right side, replaced by +2 beds.

The nurse in the ward changed the mattress and disinfected the poison, and then she was able to set up camp.

When she came, Sang Guiyu put a book in her backpack, which was Jia Pingwa's "May Life Be Calm", as well as a pen and a book of Xi Murong's poems, which had a few blank pages of paper at the back of the poetry collection, which she specially prepared to record the entire hospitalization examination, treatment process or doctor's instructions.

This is the first time in her life that she is so close to death, and she must write down everything she does, thinks and thinks, but she doesn't know that a person's inertia can be so strong, and she will not bother to record it in less than a day.

"27 beds, blood is going to be drawn. "She called 27 beds.

On the first day, I took a pen and paper, carefully recorded the treatment of the doctor or nurse, the date and time were not different, how could I think that after pumping arterial blood, I lay on the bed for a long time, and the original nervous body and mind actually adapted to the No. 27 bed, and even the stain on the curtain could be ignored.

The dirty curtain is not terrible, what is terrible is the dirty curtain in the infectious disease room, for a suspected patient who is not infectious, it is like a black hand that can pull her to the abyss of disease. But it was only about six hours, and there were no suspicious ghosts fidgeting.

Living here, you always have to cover your mask, and Sang Guiyu pulls the strap of the mask from time to time, for fear that the mask will be too loose and not tightly covered, allowing germs to get into the nasal cavity. It can't be that there is nothing wrong with it, and you will be infected after being hospitalized, that is really a tragedy.

The bathroom is exhaust 24 hours a day, close the door tightly when brushing your teeth and washing your face, and only take off the mask after isolating other people, and find how comfortable it feels to be able to breathe freely, this small bathroom is a paradise for Sang Guiyu who has been covered for a day.

The pleasure time is very short, and I can't hide in it all the time, so I have to put on a mask again, and I don't take it off when I sleep at night, which is uneasy. Especially the coughing sound from the next room, too big and too coarse, resounded in the silent night, one after another, so that the cough came out and then gasped, the sound of rough panting was particularly terrible in the night, and they were all suspicious or confirmed patients, such a rough cough was like a puddle of toxic liquid, which could splash on themselves at any time.