Adam just crouched on the steering wheel, his shoulders after venting all his emotions, revealing a sadness, faint, the fragile lines seemed to be a little unbearable under the weight of the night, and could collapse at any time, and the faint halo of the street lamp fell sparsely along the shoulder line, but it became more and more lonely and dazed.

Raising his head and sitting up straight, Adam leaned weakly on the back of the driver's seat, exhaled a long, long breath, his thick eyelashes trembled slightly, and his narrow eyes revealed a trace of shallow loneliness, like butterfly wings in the drizzle, splashing a mist between the flutters, but it was difficult to hide the fragility of breaking at the touch, which slowly spread in the thick night.

That's the end. The night before the operation, nothing happened, nothing changed, he just tried to drive once, less than two hundred meters away, and then it came to an abrupt end. So nothing.

The air was suddenly quiet, and a mixed mood permeated the carriage and beyond, not uttering a word, but worth a thousand words. Seth couldn't help but bite the tip of his tongue lightly, which avoided the embarrassment of tears slipping down.

After the catharsis just now, Adam could feel that the flame in his chest had become gentle, but it was still not extinguished, he regained his spirits, stunned in his seat and thought about it, he always felt that he should do something more, but he didn't have a clue, suddenly remembered something, and then took out his mobile phone.

"No!" Seth squinted at the first glance of his phone and pondered for a moment, then understood Adam's intentions and cried out in horror, "Oh, no. Then I saw Adam open the address book and start rummaging through the call messages, and the ominous premonition was coming true - could it be that Adam was going to call his ex-girlfriend Rachel?

This is definitely a disaster! Recall that Adam is always too kind, always easy to be deceived by Rachel, always easy to forgive Rachel, and at the threshold of death, Adam is likely to forgive Rachel again. This is the typical Adam. As a result, all their previous efforts and persistence were to be nullified, much to Seth's chagrin and anger.

Seth only felt a tightness in his chest, as if Will's old story was playing out in front of him again, and he couldn't help but cry out in frustration, "No, you can't call her, man!"

But Adam didn't react at all, just stared intently at the phone screen, which made Seth angrily pound the car window, trying to get Adam's attention, roaring, "Think about what the hell she did to you!" But to no avail, Adam successfully found the phone number, and then dialed directly. Seth cried out in hatred, "You're a!"

This angered Adam, who turned his head and yelled back, "You're a selfish bastard!" His face was red, his mouth was splashing, his eyes were wide with anger, he didn't have his usual gentleness, and he didn't have his usual well-behavedness, and he burst out foul mouth, "You care more about your damn sex than being my friend!"

The sharp accusation made Seth stunned, avoided his gaze in shame, took a step back in disgust, crossed his hands on his hips, lowered his head and sighed softly, but found that he could not refute it at all, and finally could only stand helplessly in place, unable to say a word, and fell into a mood of self-blame.

Adam found himself panting heavily, but he only rushed two sentences, he began to gasp rapidly, feeling that his breath was a little uneven, and took a big breath of oxygen, but he misdirected his trachea, causing him to cough violently, and the feeling of weakness in his body quickly swept over, his whole face turned red, and cold sweat began to break out on his back, and the pain of his soul being withdrawn made his brow tighten.

The virus is raging in the body, so clear and real.

But Adam was not angry, but the corners of his mouth outlined a light smile, mocking and sad. What if he doesn't want to? He has no choice, doesn't he?

"Hello. The phone was answered, but the voice on the other end was not Rachel, but Catherine, Adam's psychiatrist.

Not long ago, during a meeting with Catherine, he attacked her with rage and hurt her like a bastard. At the very least, before the operation, he could express his inner apologies.

"Ahem. Adam was caught off guard and choked again, "Hey, this is Adam." The smile on the corner of his mouth rose, but after the mockery, he was a little embarrassed and jerky, and he involuntarily lowered his eyes to hide his emotions.

"Adam?" Catherine was very surprised, obviously not expecting that the other party on the other side of the call was actually Adam, "It's already the middle of the night, what's wrong?" Catherine's voice was also a little flustered. It doesn't seem to know how to deal with the situation.

This made Adam laugh dumbly, chuckled lightly, and the corners of his mouth tugged down slightly, "I guess I had a sudden nervous breakdown." Then he shrugged, "I think I just pulled my throat." Yes, he used a strange word like "larynx" instead of his throat, which was a weird joke.

"......" This was Catherine's first reaction, she was stunned for about a second, and then she came back to her senses, and her panicked mood gradually calmed down, and she slowed down her voice and said, "I'm really, really glad that you're calling." ”

The familiar voice seemed to have a healing energy, and before it could react, its eyes turned red. After the emotional breakdown just now, he now has no protective ability, and he will shatter when he touches it, "I just want this to end quickly." His voice began to become hoarse, and a powerful force dragged his legs down, and a bitter smile overflowed from his mouth, but the sparkle in the corners of his eyes became brighter and brighter, "I'm really fed up with this disease." ”

The sound suddenly stopped.

Adam gritted his teeth stubbornly, but he still couldn't suppress the slight tremor of his lips, the glowing tears flickered in the corners of his eyes, and the pain that penetrated deep into the bone marrow was like smoke, deeply entwined in it, but he couldn't get rid of the shackles of his eyelashes and fell, the forbearance and depression, barely maintaining the last trace of dignity, but still unable to continue to hold on, he could only choose to disarm and surrender.

Surrender.

In the end, he was defeated and chose to surrender. In the face of cancer, he raised his hands, laid down his weapons, and gave up all resistance.

Anna Kendrick was suddenly stunned, she was originally just here to help the play, all she needed to do was to stand next to her and read her lines and help Lan Li enter the play.

But at this moment, looking at the Adam sitting in the driver's seat, a little bit eclipsed, a little fragmented Adam, a little bit of disarmed and surrendered Adam, that kind of pain and despair, penetrating the distance, penetrating the screen, penetrating the night, slowly penetrated, like countless cow hairs, along her pores, into the blood.

Suddenly, Anna felt the urge to cry, the irrepressible sadness almost broke her psychological defense, and the sourness from her nose made her can't help but lower her gaze and look at the script in her hand intently.

"You know, if the surgery doesn't work out, then ...... That's it. Adam chuckled, but he didn't feel the smile at all, just an endless amazement, the light in those eyes was flickering gently, but the night around him was eroding little by little, as if the naked eye could see that the residual light was getting weaker and weaker, and the flow of life was slow, slowly, but could not be stopped, so cruel, so sad.

The smile stopped at the corner of his mouth, and like smoke dissipated, he "exhaled" silently. Light, soft, dazed, lost, lonely. The indifferent light in those eyes was precarious in the rich night, but it was like a flowing feast, mighty, vigorous, blooming in an instant, and annihilating in an instant.

Anna couldn't help but hold her breath, lest her little breath might blow away the last of her life, and the tears still didn't hold back after all, and slipped down. She knew that death was cruel, or rather, she thought she knew, but now, when Adam's life and death were playing out before her eyes, that surging emotion easily crushed her.

The reality is so cold, so cruel...... So bloody.

"But...... You know, I've never been to damn Canada......" Adam said self-deprecatingly, his voice became weak, his nose was dripping, he didn't care, he raised his hand to wipe it, trying to raise the corners of his mouth, but the light in his eyes was still fading, and the night around him seemed to be getting thicker and thicker, "I never told a girl that I loved her......"

The words stopped here, and a breath was stuck in the throat, and it couldn't be exchanged. He could go on and on if he wanted to, but what's the point? That's the end.

The eyelids drooped again, hiding all emotions, the brilliance between the eyebrows, no sound, no color, no movement, that look like the wet and cold water vapor of the streets of Seattle after the rain, "That sounds too stupid, right?"

"No, not stupid. Anna found that her voice was trembling slightly, and she wanted to continue to say something, but found that her mind was blank, and any language was so pale that she could not express her inner emotions at all, nor could she calm Adam's emotions, so she could only stop here.

She bit her lower lip to prevent her emotions from leaking out. But it's so hard.

"Sorry, I was such a bastard that day. The words of apology were finally spoken, and Adam hurriedly raised his hand, wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, and chuckled in relief.

"No, I'm the bastard. Anna shook her head again and again, and said with emotion, "I am too incompetent for you. It's really hard. If I mess up, I could ruin a person's life......"

Adam pursed the corners of his lips, paused for a moment, and muttered in a low voice, "I guess, we're all beginners. ”

"Yes......" Anna whispered in response.

The two men fell silent, no one spoke, and the quiet air flowed slowly.

People always think that they have seen through life and death, people always think that they have overcome nature, people always think that they have mastered the laws of society, but in fact, people have never really understood life, old age, sickness and death, in the face of the laws of nature, everyone is a beginner, no one can get used to it.