He's alive.

This was the first thought that came to his mind after he was reborn. He thought he had given up, he thought he was finally free, he thought he was at ease, ten years of bedridden, his mood had gone through countless ups and downs, and finally he was calm again, just wanting to end it all.

As Adam just said, "I just want this to be over quickly." The kind of collapse after despair to the extreme, helplessly chose to disarm and surrender, and the pain and struggle hidden behind it all turned into helpless sighs.

He thought he was like this.

But when I opened my eyes, I saw the light again, I began to breathe again, I felt life again, and I was sure that I was reborn as a baby, I was covered in blood, my body was weak, and I was short of breath, but life was so real. After all, he couldn't hold back, and began to cry loudly, as if he had lost the whole world and found it again, and he couldn't stop crying.

As a baby, this is his right, the old soul imprisoned in a young body, after the catastrophe of life and death, finally collapsed. He's not hungry, he's not peeing, he's just...... Alive. The tears couldn't be stopped at all, they just cried out unwillingly, and there was no end.

He knew he still wanted to live. So sincere, so urgent, so eager. Not only does he want to live, he wants to breathe, he wants to walk, he wants to stand, he wants to live...... Want to be free. Once upon a time, everything was a luxury for him, and since it was simply impossible to achieve, he chose to give up and chose to surrender. However, the flame in the heart has never been extinguished.

He's Chu Jiashu, and he's Lan Li-Hall. At this moment, he was still Adam.

He thought that Chu Jiashu and Adam were different, and the difficulties they faced, the hardships they experienced, and the pain they endured were all different. It's like in the early days of filming "I'm Fighting Cancer", his mentality and emotions had to be adjusted, and even the rhythm, method, and connotation of the performance needed to be adjusted.

But today, he understood that Chu Jiashu and Adam were the same.

They are all suffering from illness and helpless, they are all missing the wonderful life and regretting it for life, and they are all longing for the continuation of life and being reborn.

One night before Adam's operation, he woke up images from the depths of Lan Li's memory, those images that he almost thought he had forgotten: after death, before rebirth, that dark passage, long running, seemingly endless, he didn't know where the end was, he didn't know what lay ahead, he just buried his head and ran, instinctively running towards the light at the end, the desire to survive dominated his feet, running with all his might.

Adam's despair, Adam's pain, Adam's depression, Adam's madness, Adam's release, all of this is so real and clear.

Adam and Will, Adam and Chu Jiashu, Adam and Lan Li, each image is so distinct and unique, but at this moment it all blends together without hindrance. The boundary between methodism and experientialism has completely disappeared, even the control and framework of expressionism have disappeared, and performance is no longer a performance, but a resonance from the depths of the soul, and everything is natural.

Life and death, the eternal theme, has sublimated Lan Li's mind and soul, and the four-dimensional barrier of the movie and the other-dimensional barrier of the two worlds have all disappeared.

The moment of giving birth to life, the moment of dissipation of life, is always so great, but also so magical, sadness and happiness are intertwined, pain and happiness are merged, but they always learn not to face it calmly and calmly. Even if he is reincarnated as a human being, even if he escapes death, even if he is reborn, he is still just a beginner in the face of death.

Suddenly there was silence, his brain quieted, those angry roars, those sighs of regret, those painful struggles...... All the cacophony is gone. After a hearty catharsis, the emotions returned to calm, whether it was Adam's or Chu Jiashu's, it was the same.

He wants to continue to live, yes, not just to survive, not just to live, but to interpret his life more excitingly. One day, even if it's just one more day, he will choose a different way. But, now that the choice and decision are no longer in his hands, he can only wait, quietly wait-

To live, or to die. It's a question, and it's a fork in the road. There is no way for him to face death calmly, but at least he can face tomorrow calmly.

The mood was completely calmed down, the tense shoulder lines gradually softened, and the vicissitudes and experiences of the two lives were precipitated. He slowly leaned back in his chair, his back muscles relaxed a little, the corners of his mouth inadvertently overflowed with a light sigh that did not move, and his eyelids slowly drooped, hiding a faint tiredness.

Anna stood in place, looking blankly at Adam sitting in the driver's seat, with a shallow smile on the corner of his mouth, the light in his eyes finally returned to calm, the darkness swallowed most of it, leaving only the last bit of light, lingering, but his emotions had calmed down.

There was no anger, no despair, no sorrow, no resistance, no struggle, no fighting back, just accepting one's fate with ease.

Puff up your chest and embrace death. So calm, so calm.

Suddenly, the tears burst again. Unable to control her emotions, Anna covered her mouth and burst into tears.

Jonathan Levine froze in place. He didn't know how Lan Li did it, Lan Li was only twenty-one years old this year, but the sophistication and wisdom that had gone through the wind and rain and suffered from the vicissitudes of life had dyed his facial features with a thin layer of jade-colored halo, but a look in the corner of his eyes had already exhausted the intricacies of life and death.

Is this the power of acting? Is this just the power of acting?

Jonathan couldn't believe his eyes, Lan Li's performance broke the shackles of time, broke the blockade of time, broke the shackles of time and space, and told the theme of the movie vividly, even if he is a director, the director who controls the overall situation, he has to be moved at this moment, and the warmth of his eyes makes him embarrassed.

It's not just magical.

Since the filming of "Me Against Cancer" began, Jonathan can't remember how many times he felt this shock.

Lan Li has taken the meaning of the performance to the extreme, far exceeding the weight of a comedy or even a movie, interpreting the meaning of the film about cancer, about life, and about the outlook on life to the perfection; at the same time, it also takes into account the comedic effect, black humor and mockery, even in front of Seth, he does not fall behind.

What's even more terrifying is that Lan Li is only twenty-one years old.

God, when Jonathan realized this fact again, his jaw was almost dislocated. But at this time, he couldn't take care of his jaw, and he had to deal with the tears that slipped down first.

The entire crew was silent, just when everyone thought that Lan Li was affected by the Oscar and his state plummeted, but Lan Li gave them a head-on blow and a slap in the face. The wonderful performance brought everyone present into the story, empathized with Adam's pain, and further felt the fear of death.

Those doubts are so ridiculous.

Travel sighed lightly, his cheeks aching hotly, but he couldn't help but give a thumbs up, and sincerely praised Lan Li. In the face of such a performance, he was absolutely convinced and had no objections.

In the night of Seattle, the cold wind with moisture is still blowing tirelessly, making people shiver, but Lan Li's performance has made everyone immersed themselves, and in a trance, they have forgotten the cold of the night.

Adam sat quietly in the driver's seat, and the whole person returned to a state of calm and calm, and the bitter arc at the corner of his mouth gently pulled up, bringing out a hint of light banter, "What were you doing before I called you?" The calm words jumped slightly, "Are you on Facebook?"

……

Silence, answering Adam was silence. Everyone in the crew turned their heads in unison and looked at Anna. Originally, Anna should have replied and teased herself: You know, I have a lot of things I can do besides spying on my ex-boyfriend. Then the two of them began a conversation full of warmth and laughter, which ended the last night before Adam's surgery.

In just one sentence, the transition from tragedy to comedy was completed, and it returned to the inherent tone of the whole movie of "I Fight Cancer".

Here, the most important thing is Adam's emotional transformation, from the outburst of despair to calm calm, and then to the self-deprecation of hope, this is a "concave" character development curve, which is an extremely difficult test of acting skills, and if it is not handled well, it will either be too heavy or too easy, which may have an impact on the sublimation of the film and the tone of the movie.

Lan Li's performance just now deservedly won everyone's hearts, and it can be said that he swept thousands of troops with absolute strength; even Seth's performance came naturally, in one go, but no one thought that it was the most unlikely to go wrong, and Anna was stuck.

All eyes fell on Anna, but I saw Anna covering her mouth, tears sliding down continuously, wetting the back of her hands, her eyes were red, and she was even a little helpless. Don't say the right lines, it's extremely difficult to even stand up straight.

Anna also realized her negligence, but she could not defend herself, so she could only shake her head sullenly, stand in place, bend down, and weep bitterly.

Jonathan knew that the filming had to be interrupted in this scene, and he was depressed, but he had no choice but to shout, "Ka." ”

Lan Li, who was sitting in the driver's seat, didn't understand what was going on, and suddenly heard the "card", but he didn't have the strength to ask. The strength of his whole body seemed to be drained away, as if he had become Chu Jiashu again, Chu Jiashu, who was lying on the hospital bed, raised his head, looked up at the starry sky through the car window, and his thoughts gradually calmed down.

He knew that he was Lan Li. It's not Chu Jiashu, it's not Adam. But in this scene just now, he is Chu Jiashu and Adam, and this kind of performance realm is completely different from before.