Tessa only felt uncomfortable tightness in her chest, either the heart-rending pain, or it was sullen, and she seemed to be out of breath, she lowered her head, took a deep breath, and then looked out of the corner to see William sitting on the left-hand side, tears streaming down her face.

William sat quietly like that, with a smile on his lips, but the tears continued to fall down like broken pearls, and he didn't raise his hand to wipe them, nor did he sobbed or suffer, just quietly let the tears slip down. Tessa's nose suddenly became sore, and her chest was so tight that her stomach was tumbling, and she almost vomited.

Death, more real than ever. When life really comes to an end, it is not the earth-shattering and vigorous as described in the movie or the movie, but more of a kind of quiet, like autumn leaves falling, silent, but little by little outlining the depression and loneliness.

Looking up again at Adam calmly, he stated to Catherine how normal it was to die, because "everybody dies, it's just a different time."

Pale lips, no blood at all, sunken eyes, thick dark circles mixed with a trace of blood, haggard cheeks, no luster can be seen, only those eyes, those dark brown eyes, the dim light is still flowing, faint sadness and helplessness, surging. As he spoke, his eyes turned red, and before the thin mist had time to condense, he blinked his eyes, hiding the trace of fragility, leaving only those quiet and sad eyes, like a bright moon in the water, shattered at the touch of a touch.

Tessa's heart tugged at it like this, as if a big hand was grabbing it fiercely, hard, hard.

Chemotherapy didn't work, surgery was the only way, but the risks of surgery were difficult to predict because the tumor was larger than expected. It's not a "50/50" puzzle, no odds of success, it's just a gamble. Even the attending physician is not able to make any assessment until the end of the operation.

So, this is the end, this is the fork in the road of death.

Anger finally took over Adam's brain. He blames Catherine for being unhelpful, he blames his mother for being overly controlling, he blames Kyle for his selfishness, he blames this damn cancer that completely ruined all his life. Like a madman, he drove his car down the road and risked his life, and he threw Kyle out of the passenger seat like a psychopath, pounding the steering wheel frantically and venting his anger.

"Ah......" Adam grabbed the steering wheel with both hands, and shouted loudly, as if the last splendor and brilliance of his life had bloomed, and the tearing voice was so angry, so helpless, so painful.

Tessa covered her mouth tightly, hot tears blurred her vision, she lowered her head in embarrassment, quickly wiped away her tears, but burned the back of her hand, and then Tessa saw William's shoulders gently shrugging, he gritted his teeth tightly, his whole face was tense to the extreme, and tears continued to slide down, and the lips that were slightly white because he was too hard revealed his fragility at the moment.

Any language, at this moment, is pale. Because, in the face of death, any justification, any description, any action, is so small. He is so young, he is so healthy, he is so sunny, he is so vibrant, he is so kind, and he is so sincere...... In this world, there are too many ugliness, but in real life, it is always those good things who bear the despair of heartbreak.

Just thinking about this, Tessa felt that she could no longer hold on, and her tears completely burst the embankment.

After the catharsis, Adam finally calmed down, and little by little he put his life back on track: he prepared food for the dogs, he tidied up the cupboards that hadn't been cleaned in a long time, he cleaned up the mess in the bathroom, he got rid of the garbage in the kitchen, and he changed the sheets and bedspreads for the room again...... Finally, at midnight, he left his house and walked along the familiar street, measuring every bit of his life with his feet.

It's a farewell. Maybe it's a goodbye to the past life and a new future, or maybe it's a goodbye to yourself, a goodbye to life, and a forever sleep. Finally, looking at myself in the bathroom mirror, bald, haggard, dark circles, bloodless face, and a faint light jumping in the depths of my eyes, it seems that it may disappear at any time, but it is always bright.

Turn off the lights and fall asleep. Good night.

It's such a calm picture, such a trivial detail, but it shatters all of Tessa's defenses. Watching Adam's every move, so real and yet so unreal, she couldn't stop crying. The light in the depths of those eyes, she just wanted to hold firmly, grasp, clench.

Fifty percent of the time, what does that mean exactly?

Sitting in the hospital bed, the doctors explained the precautions and asked Adam to sign the relevant documents, and then began to prepare for the operation. Father and mother were by his side, and his father walked up with a smile on his face, patted Adam on the shoulder, and cautiously showed off, "I have a new coat." ”

"Really?" Adam smiled and tucked his chin away, listening intently.

"Brooks Brothers. The more the father spoke, the happier he became, like a child, "The pocket is silk, you touch it!" Adam really reached into the pocket and touched the lining, "How does it feel?"

"Good. Adam smiled brightly, nodded in approval, then pulled out his hand and gently patted his father on the shoulder, "Listen, I know it's a little difficult for you to keep up with the current situation, but I just want you to know that I love you, much, much." Adam looked at his father with a smile and a firm smile, the light in his eyes growing brighter, and the corners of his mouth rising so beautifully.

The father looked at Adam and was suddenly stunned, his smile disappeared little by little, and his eyes were inexplicably red, "Okay." His voice choked up. But he still didn't know what was going on, his face was dazed and confused, he raised his head to look at his wife, and cast a gaze for help.

It was such a small action, but it made Adam's voice choke. The anesthesiologist came over and administered the anesthesia, "Please relax, I'll inject the anesthetic into your IV line, and it will take a while for the effects to start working." ”

"You...... Will you start now?" asked Adam in a bit of a panic, and the nurse began to invite his parents to the waiting room, but Adam couldn't help but ask, "How long will the effect last?"

"It varies from person to person. So said the anesthesiologist.

"Yes. Adam nodded, "But, but how do you know that the medicine will last long enough not to wake me up during the operation, and how do you know that the medicine will not last long enough for me to never wake up?" As he spoke, Adam paused, his eyes vibrated violently, and he couldn't help but start asking for help, "Mom?"

Mother hurriedly leaned in and hugged Adam, "Baby, you'll be fine." Holding it tightly, tears slid down, and she quickly raised her hand to wipe it away, not letting Adam see it.

Adam gritted his teeth and tried his best to suppress and control, but tears still filled his eyes, and the dazedness, helplessness, and fear in his sight rippled like ripples, so small, so magnificent, so calm, and so turbulent. This was the first time Adam cried, since his cancer diagnosis, and this was the first time.

Tessa finally couldn't hold back anymore and covered her mouth with both hands, but the whole person still completely fell apart. Not because of fear, but because of life. Life is so great, yet so fragile, so colorful, yet so pale. At this moment, she finally understood the meaning of Lan Li's words before the movie was screened:

Movies are important, but there are many more important things in life than movies.

Thinking of tonight's accident, thinking of Lan Li's anger in the face of reporters, and thinking of the moment of silence before Lan Li spoke. Tessa cried completely, watching Adam being slowly pushed into the operating room, watching his parents sit blankly in the waiting room, watching Kyle standing alone outside smoking a cigarette, watching Catherine absent in the middle of the conversation...... The tears simply can't stop.

It's not just Tessa, it's not just Hope and William. There was silence in the whole screening room, a quiet and sad silence, the faint sound of wiping tears, and the sound of the heart beating, at this moment, at this moment tonight, "I am fighting cancer" has become so special, so wonderful, and so heavy. Stripped of the excitement of the premiere and stripped of the entertainment of the film, the commonality between art and life has become more real than ever.

After five hours of waiting, the operation was finally over, and the doctor said a lot of technical terms, which I didn't understand, making people wonder if it was in English, and finally said something that everyone could understand, "...... But, he'll get better. The audience could hear a long sigh of relief, especially when Kyle spat out, "You should have said that in the first place, okay?"

Tessa couldn't help but burst into tears and laughed. Then, the movie entered comedy mode again, after the operation, Adam, who still had not dissipated the effect of the anesthetic, was like a child, talking all kinds of nonsense indistinctly, and his cute and playful appearance was definitely something that people had never seen before, and Tessa laughed so hard that her cheeks hurt a little.

After being discharged from the hospital, he returned to Adam's apartment, Kyle personally changed his dressing, and the two living treasures had another bickering, and the audience in the movie theater laughed until they had no friends, and after dealing with it, Adam stood in front of the mirror, looked himself up and down, and couldn't help laughing, "It's crazy, I look pretty handsome." ”

"I've missed you. Kyle said with a smile, which made the audience clap their hands and laugh collectively, Tessa and Hope laughed even more, tears and snot rushed on their cheeks, but the laughter couldn't stop at all, maybe because the burden really poked the laughter, maybe because of the joy and joy of escaping death, but it didn't matter what the specific reason was, the important thing was that at this moment, they were happy.

Adam too, because tonight he has a date, with Catherine.