Adam gradually became numb.

He knew he had cancer, everything was so real, the pain of chemotherapy was tormenting his body all the time, the sensitivity of his bare head in the Seattle sea breeze didn't help, he was no longer calm, no longer indifferent, no longer indifferent, his world had turned upside down, and he could no longer remain indifferent.

However, he didn't feel any emotion. He's trying, he's trying, but he's getting nowhere.

Kyle uses his cancer to hook up/hook up with his sister, he doesn't feel it, his mother kills him all the time, he doesn't feel it, Rachel betrays him and makes out with other men, he doesn't feel it, Rachel tries to excuse himself sweetly, Kyle condemns him with righteous indignation, and the two quarrel and he doesn't feel it.

He was alone in the face of chemotherapy, facing cancer, walking alone and lonely through the huge city, he didn't feel it, when walking the dog, there were girls who showed interest in him, he didn't feel it, Kyle took him to the bar to meet the girl, chatting, drinking, rolling/sheets, he still didn't feel it.

His weight was dropping, his body was protesting, his stomach was rejecting all food...... He, without feeling.

The world of cancer and the real world have merged, and cancer is changing his life upside down, but he doesn't feel anything. He tried to be angry, he tried to grieve, he tried to care, he tried to be a part of the world, he tried to reawaken his feelings, he tried to connect with life again, but, he failed.

He's going through it all, and he's not feeling it, it's like...... It's as if all the changes brought about by cancer have naturally integrated into his life. All the mixed emotions slipped through his mind little by little, he knew that they existed, he knew that he should be angry, he should be alone, he should be sad, he should be lonely, he should be painful, he should be afraid, he should be afraid, but, no. He couldn't feel anything.

Numbness.

That's how he feels.

Watch Adam sit quietly at the bus stop, waiting for the bus. Without Rachel's pick-up, Kyle still has his own job, and Adam has to take the bus to get around. Tessa tasted a faint sadness.

The thin shoulders, the pale lips and the confused vision, the cancer has become more real than ever, there is no big ups and downs of dog blood, there is no catharsis of howling and crying, there is no sadness of self-pity, there is no strength of forced laughter, just a numbness, like a hiker in the autumn, walking alone through the mountains and mountains, the difficulties and dangers extend under the soles of the feet, and the lonely and indifferent back outlines the grandeur and magnificence of the whole world.

Gently poking out the tip of her tongue, Tessa tasted tears, but this time, her eyes were dry and there were no tears. The taste on the tip of the tongue goes deep into the heart.

Catherine, on the way home, sees Adam and forces him to get into the car and escort him home.

Looking at the carriage like a garbage heap, a trace of speechlessness and disgust slipped through Adam's cold eyes, Catherine seemed to sense Adam's meaning, and pulled the corners of her mouth in embarrassment, "Sorry for the chaos, I'm not very good at sorting these things." ”

"You can see it. Adam's head didn't move, but his eyes slanted, not rolling his eyes, but creating the effect of rolling his eyes, and the disgust was already overflowing, and the corners of Tessa's mouth couldn't help but curl again.

"If you need me to park your car, or anything else, let me know. Catherine said thoughtfully, "Chemotherapy ......, for example," and finally, Catherine simply stated her original intentions, "If you feel sick to your stomach, just say it." I'll park the car. ”

"Good. Thank you. Adam said in a hoarse voice, but his neck still didn't turn, and he looked straight ahead.

The carriage was quiet again, and there was a strange silence but a kind of absurd joy, and Adam's expressionless face and Catherine's rich expression were in stark contrast.

"So, you don't have a car?"

"No, I don't even have a driver's license. ”

"Oh, why?"

"Because...... Uh, it's too dangerous. Is this probably the fifth leading cause of death?" Adam blinked, blinked again, still expressionless, "I guess it's just a little bit behind cancer." "Still no expression.

With such a contrast, the entire screening hall burst into laughter. Tessa and Hope are no exception. But after laughing, the faint sadness and bitterness surged again, and the bottom of my heart was empty and unsettled. In a trance, Tessa seemed to empathize and deeply feel Adam's numbness.

"But...... What about the bus?" Catherine was still surprised, "taking the bus after chemotherapy?"

"Oh yes. Adam seemed to be only realizing it at this point, "It's usually Rachel who comes to pick me up." But ......" Adam paused for a moment, his eyes showing a hint of thought, as if thinking about what it meant, but he didn't come up with a reason, and then he quickly said, "But we broke up." She cheated. ”

Facts are just a statement of facts.

Catherine was already stunned, and kept looking back at Adam as she drove, her face full of worry, but Adam still looked calm, which made Catherine blink and have question marks on her head, "Adam, do you want to talk?"

Adam pursed the corners of his lips and raised his eyebrows, "Actually, it's still not necessary." We just left the hospital, and there is no need to turn the carriage into a clinic as well. You're giving me a ride like a friend now. ”

"Yes, Adam. Catherine simply couldn't stop her worries, "if ......"

Adam's voice raised slightly, "You know what we really need to talk about is that there's garbage on your ground!" Perhaps, he still cared, deep down, those emotions and emotions were real, but he himself chose to forget and ignore. It's just that he doesn't want to talk about it now. "That doesn't make sense! I mean, you can at least put a garbage bag in the back seat. ”

"Adam, your girlfriend betrayed you. Catherine interjected, but then she saw Adam's gaze turned, and for the first time, Adam responded, made a move, and those calm eyes made her dodge in a panic, "We don't have to talk about this, there's no need!"

Adam noticed Catherine's panic, and when he withdrew his gaze, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but rise, and his numb and stiff eyebrows gradually softened.

Catherine was a little embarrassed, a little jerky, and she tried to resolve it, so the words went on and on, "I just broke up with someone else. It feels really bad. ”

"Oh, sorry. Adam didn't anticipate such a course of development.

"No, it's fine, that's good. Because ......," Catherine paused abruptly, and froze in place for a long time, "we shouldn't really be talking about this. ”

"Why?"

"It's not appropriate to talk to you about my personal matters. Because if you know my personal problems, the relationship between the doctor and the patient is tricky. Catherine's explanation made Adam understand, but she couldn't help but add, "But I must admit that I still check his Facebook every day to see if he's dating anyone, which is really sad." As she spoke, Catherine frowned, her face full of regret, "I shouldn't have said it, I shouldn't have said it." ”

The smile on the corner of Adam's mouth also rose high, and he nodded vigorously, "Yes." ”

Embarrassed. "We should listen to the radio. Catherine turned on the radio, allowing the sound to buffer the awkward atmosphere between the two men.

Adam turned his head and looked at Catherine quietly, there was not much expression on his face, just the tenderness that had just been after the laughter, sparsely settled between his eyebrows, and his dark brown eyes had a sparkling light, but he couldn't tell whether it was the refraction of light and shadow outside the car window, or something else.

"Parking. Adam said without warning.

"What's the matter, are you not feeling well?" Catherine panicked and immediately pulled over to the side of the road.

"I'm just ......," Adam opened the car door and picked up all the garbage under his feet, "I can't take it anymore." Then he got out of the car with the garbage in his arms and walked towards the trash can next to him.

"Are you serious?" Catherine's voice was distorted, and she panicked, and then trotted all the way to catch up with Adam, "Adam, wait, wait, you don't have to do this, that's my dinner." That brown bag is my dinner. ”

The laughter of the entire screening room broke out instantly, Tessa couldn't help but hug her stomach, watching Adam hold a large pile of garbage, and then Catherine pulled out a brown box from it, signaling that it was her dinner, and all the audience couldn't stop laughing. Then the two men began to clear Catherine's car from the side of the road.

A simple conversation that doesn't seem to have anything special, but it makes people feel warm, a touch of warmth. The eye contact between the eyebrows, the emotional exchange between the words, watching, listening, and listening, the smile climbed up the corners of every audience's mouth and eyebrows, but they didn't notice it at all.

But, Adam was aware. Emotions seem to be coming back, and life seems to be coming back.

Rachel returns in disgrace, her career setbacks and the artist's abandonment make her disgraced, she wants to get back together with Adam, he tells her to get out of his house, Rachel keeps one of her paintings at Adam's house, and does not take it with him, and he smashes eggs at the painting with Kyle, and then burns it.

He joins Alan and Mickey, sits in the courtyard, leisurely enjoying the fairy life brought by A/Da/Ma in the afternoon, and then complains about his work.

He bravely rejected his mother's over-care and said that he could be strong, he opened his heart and tried to communicate with Catherine, and the psychological counseling finally began to work, and he took the initiative to undergo chemotherapy and began to fight cancer.

However, all of this stopped when Mickey died. Mitch died, a cancer patient died, and his chemotherapy buddies.

Television News is reporting that "Mount Moa, located in the Savai'i Highlands, is presumed to have erupted in the early hours of this morning, spewing four miles of black plume dust and smoke." Initial reports said that activity at the volcano was waning. But now, according to the analysis of our experts, in fact, its activity is intensifying. ”

Adam sat where he was, watching the news, and was stunned.