121: I can quit cigarettes and alcohol, but I can't quit it

"Jingzi, don't cry, we will be fine in the future, we will live well, and when the time comes, he will be angry with Zhang Bei. Ran Zhu wiped the tears from my face with his hand and comforted me.

"Well, I must live well, I must ...... When the time comes, I'll be angry with him! If I don't get angry with him, I won't call him Liang Jingzi. ”

"Well, we have to have this kind of ambition to kill people! Our ultimate goal is to kill him!"

We are really two naΓ―ve ghosts!

Ran Zhu and I were in my apartment, crying and howling all morning, and the neighbors were so shocked that they thought something was wrong with my house, and came to knock on my door.

"Miss Liang, is that you?" the little brother of the programmer who lived next door came to knock on my door.

I hurriedly ran down from the second floor to open the door, and the programmer's little brother saw my heartbroken appearance and asked worriedly, "Miss Liang, are you okay......?" You ......"

"Oh, it's okay, thank you for your concern!" I said, snorting.

"What about you..... This is .......," the programmer little brother asked, pointing to my face embarrassedly and continuing to ask.

As soon as I touched my face, I was so involved in crying just now that my face was full of tears and snot.

I hurriedly wiped my face with my hand and hurriedly explained, "That classmate of mine came from Beijing to see me, and we were just reminiscing about the past, and this memory is not controlled, so I'm sorry to disturb you!"

"It's okay, as long as you're okay. The programmer's little brother waved his hand at me and was about to go back, when I was about to close the door, he suddenly turned back to me and said softly, "Well, I'm resting today, just in the room, come to me if you have something." ”

I nodded to him gratefully.

After closing the door, I walked towards the second floor, and as soon as I looked up, I saw Ran Zhu, who was also full of tears and snot, lying on the railing of the second floor and looking down.

I looked at Ran Zhu, who was curious, and said, "What are you doing! People are scary, scared to death, don't you know?"

"That little brother was very handsome just now. Ran Zhu said with a on his face.

"Shuai has nothing to do with you, you are a family man, you have to abide by women's morals, you know?Although I am good sisters with you, I am still on Lin Jihan's side in this matter, and I have the obligation to remind you!" I looked at Ran Zhu and reprimanded.

"I didn't say it had anything to do with me, I meant you, with you, I could see that little brother liked you, at least he didn't hate you. Ran Zhu smiled at me.

I could guess what she was trying to say from the wicked smile on her face.

"He's too young, I don't accept sister and brother love, thank you!" I pouted back what she wanted to say next.

Ran Zhu walked up to me and continued without giving up, "What's wrong with sister and brother love, I think sister and brother love is also very good, the most popular thing nowadays is sister and brother love, don't you see that there are many sister and brother love in the stars, aren't people living well now, why are you so resistant?"

"If you can't accept it, you can't accept it, I'd rather find someone bigger than me than I can't accept someone smaller than me. ”

"You, if you don't try, you will sentence others to death, you are too unfair, right?"

"I don't care if he's fair or not, I'm fair! I don't like it, he doesn't have a chance with me!"

"Hey, that little brother, what are you doing? You neighbors don't have any contact information?" Ran Zhu gathered around me and continued to gossip.

"Programmer, I don't know him well, what am I doing with his contact information!

"Okay, okay, I'll say one last sentence, since this brother doesn't think about it, then you can consider Cousin Gu!" Ran Zhu looked at me and said sarcastically.

I scared Ran Zhu back to my bed with a cold look, and she quickly hid under the covers.

Because the crying in the morning has made us lose our image, so at noon Ran Zhu and I decided to order takeout, when I went to the door to pick up the takeaway, my two big swollen eye bubbles and my state of mourning to death, the takeaway brother was startled, he asked with a concerned face, "Do you need help?"

I smiled at him, shook my head and thanked him, and he left.

This morning made me fully feel that the world is full of warmth!

I don't know if I cried all morning, I cried too hard, and we always felt that the takeout we ordered was not enough to eat! I also deliberately ordered takeout for three people that day.

After eating, Ran Zhu and I lay on the bed and took a lunch break together, I still remember the experience of the morning, so I put a big doll between the two of us to make sure that she would not bite me, so I went to sleep with peace of mind.

There are many times when we love someone to the end, but what we actually love is the unique feeling that he brings us.

That's how I love Zhang Bei, I loved his face at first, and then slowly I fell in love with the feeling when he was by my side, the feeling of him taking care of me, the feeling of being small in front of him, and the feeling that the smell of his body brought me a good mood, this feeling will be addictive and unstoppable.

We often say that I can't accept his departure, but in fact, we can't accept the disappearance of this feeling.

Once we're separated, everything that was before will be gone, the person, the feeling.

The reason why we feel pain after a breakup is because there is an addiction at work, and the other person gives us the same feeling that we can't quit.

Zhang Bei gives me the feeling that it is unique, no one can reproduce it, no one can replace it, I can quit cigarettes, I can quit spirits, but I just can't quit it.

Ran Zhu and I said goodbye at the high-speed rail station, she hugged me and said, "You must take good care of yourself, we have to look forward." ”

I smiled at her and nodded.

Such a scene is so familiar, on the day I graduated and left Beijing, we were also so reluctant to hug each other, saying the most sincere blessings and expectations for each other, Ran Zhu They have done it, only I broke their trust.

"Don't worry, I'll be fine, wait for me in Beijing!" I gently patted Ran Zhu's shoulder and signaled that she was running out of time and was going to make a pit stop.

Ran Zhu waved at me and reluctantly walked towards the ticket gate.

I shouted at her back, "Don't worry, I'll be fine, remember to call me when I get to Beijing!"

Ran Zhu said goodbye to me with tears.

After sending off the pig, out of the high-speed rail station I don't know how the wind suddenly rose, fortunately I wore an extra sunscreen jacket when I came out today, I wrapped the coat on my body, and then ran to the side of the road to stop a taxi and jumped in.