Updated: 2012-06-27

Huang Yuxin

Looking at your good-looking side face that day, I had an urge to blurt out "sister", but I didn't. Dramatically, many, you turned out to be my sister, you must not know the truth of the matter.

When I went back to see Aunt Dean that day, she told me that I still have a sister in this world, and at that moment, you can't imagine how excited I was. It's just that when I found out later, my sister turned out to be you, do you know? My heart, how conflicted, why you, why you?

Sometimes I wonder if I had been adopted by me, not you, would you have been so lucky?

As soon as you were born, you were luckier than me. I'm an orphan, and you have a home. You have a happy childhood, family affection, and maternal love. I don't have anything.

When I was eighteen years old, my freshman year, I met Lo Fango.

He is like an angel in my life, stepping into the colorful sunshine of my gray life, he is like a prince on a white horse, and he will appear in time for me when I am in trouble.

He cared for me, gave me affection, gave me love. After meeting him, my life is full of sunshine, I am no longer lonely, my smile gradually began to have gentleness, and even my bones are full of happiness.

I admit that love is selfish.

He kissed you in front of me that day in Nightdance City, and do you know how much I hate you? Luo Fango can only be mine, he can only be mine. I love him, I love him very much, I love him to the point of madness, and you won't understand any of this.

From that day on, I treated you like a rival in love. It wasn't until later that the opportunity came again, we were kidnapped by Wu Ruoyan, I admit that I was despicable, but in order to get Luo Fange, I did not hesitate to pay any price, I am sorry for making you suffer an injustice.

Seeing Brother Luo's concern for you, I was jealous, full of jealousy.

I often think that if it weren't for you, Luo Fango and I would be a very happy couple.

For him, I can kill myself, I can jump off a building, I can do everything you dare not do, but why, he doesn't love me?

I swear, I'm going to get everything I want.

So, I found Xiao Jingqi, you must be very strange, you must be very surprised, I actually hooked up with her. Maybe I should have admired my skills and played this scene vividly.

In front of her, I vividly staged the story of a good girl, and I even felt that I was the second version of you, but you didn't get Xiao Jingqi's favor.

Soon, she recognized me as her goddaughter, she liked me very much, she knew that I loved Luo Fange, and she was more intentional about matchmaking, all of which was my purpose.

All of them are my pawns, including the hadron.

The most sorry person is Brother Qiangzi, I know he likes me, if it weren't for Brother Luofan, maybe I would choose to accept him, but my heart doesn't allow it, I can't do it.

You must think I'm very perverted, sorry, I also think I'm very perverted, but that's the case, I love Xiao Luofan, I've loved it to the point of madness, sometimes I really want to take out a knife and plunge it into my heart, kill my heart, and kill him in my heart.

You know a lot, but what I hate the most is your simple smile, you laugh so wildly, you can laugh at all costs, I think I hate it, I hate it so much that I choke on you when I think of drinking water.

But when I knew that you were my real sister, I really couldn't accept it. If I had known the truth of the matter earlier, would you have let Brother Luo give it to me, and you, as a sister, could you let me once?

As for Luo Fango, I don't know if he ever liked me, or maybe he didn't even know about himself.

Who can lie to myself and say that I only treat her as a sister.

Hehe, these are all lies, if it's just a sister, just a friend, why are you so nice to me. Please forgive my wishful thinking, at the last moment, I still think that Xiao Luofan likes me, but he likes you more in comparison.

It was I who got Xu Hao back, and I gave him the paternity test of Xu Hao and Luo Fange. Your wedding turned into a farce, you must be sad, hehe, this is the ending I want to see.

Who knew that God favored you so much, and you were not brothers and sisters. So I had to start with Xiao Qingqi, I worked hard, tried hard to please her, worked hard to take on more orders for Laimi, and even sold my body.

I laughed with all kinds of men, flirted at the wine table, I drank, pretended to be drunk, let them eat my tofu, I slept with different men, just for them to promise to sign a contract, I started to get crazy and became no longer like myself.

That time in the villa, I didn't sleep with Luo Fango, I just stripped him naked and lay in bed together, I was despicable, but in the end he still didn't give me a chance.

Many, I hate you, I hate you very much, when you know the truth that I am your sister, will you have a trace of guilt, will you have a trace of distress?

I've done so much everything, and I've only got a word of sorry from Luo Fange, I want to laugh, I want to laugh desperately, this world is so dirty, everything is so dirty, I hate myself, even myself is so dirty.

I have a small wish, which I have had since I was a child, that is, I wish I could have a sister. She always takes care of me, cares about me, and is the first to show up when I am bullied by other children.

In autumn, we will go to see the rape flowers bloom, a large field of rape flowers, wherever we go, there will be our silver bell-like laughter, we will always hold hands, run together, the two of us together, never lonely.

Hadron

A month after Xiaoyu died, I still couldn't accept this fact.

I tossed and turned back and forth in the city, trying to find a little bit of memory about me and Xiaoyu, but I found that the bits and pieces that happened were so fragmentary, and there was this patchwork ending.

The face in my memory is always smiling and smiling, likes to laugh, and has two cute little tiger teeth. It's very thin, and it looks like it's weak.

I remember when I first met, she sat on the little sheep in the Luofan car, she looked well-behaved and lovely, a little timid and afraid, those big watery eyes always loved to look around, and she had a sense of fear of the world, which was naturally pitiful, and made people involuntarily have a desire to protect.

In order to tease her, I called her sister-in-law, but she lowered her head shyly, and from that moment on, I knew that the person she liked was Luo Fange.

Since the emergence of many, it seems to disrupt the development of things. I thought that Luo Fange also loved Xiaoyu, and they would definitely be happy.

Seeing Xiaoyu's tears, my heart was unfreely tangled. The time she committed suicide for Lo Fango, I was going crazy with fear.

Cowardice is the most suitable term for myself.

If I could confess earlier, tell Xiaoyu earlier, I love her. So, can I give her a little comfort, can I give her love instead of Luo Fango, in that case, will things not develop the way they are today?

Some people say that love is blind, and there is nothing wrong with that.

I watched her do the wrong thing, watched her sink step by step, but I couldn't stop it, and from the beginning to the end, she just treated me as a pawn, as a stepping stone to her success.

Until one day, she appeared in front of me again, and she was no longer the way I liked her.

She was wearing a brand, a mini skirt, revealing her fair thighs, light makeup, and fake eyelashes, covering the original innocence in her eyes.

Stripped of her immaturity, she is now a mature woman. Beginning to soar in Laimi, her career is growing every day, she goes to accompany customers to drink, negotiate contracts, and sell her body at the cost of it.

I can't stop all this, I'm not who she is.

"I'm not who you, why should I care?" was the last sentence she left me.

On that day, I stood where I was, unable to help myself for a long time. She has changed, she is no longer like her.

watched her leave in a pair of silver high heels that were more than ten centimeters, and walked staggering because she drank too much.

If all this is the life she wants to live, then well, I will do it. I have never been who you are, and I can no longer bring you comfort.

Everyone will have their own life they want to live, and everyone will have their own track.

It's just that Xiaoyu died and disappeared, like a bomb, and it was blown through a big hole in my originally peaceful life, and my heart couldn't be sewn up.

More than a month after the funeral, I finally came to her grave to see her.

The dust has settled. I think I'll leave the city with the ashes of a light rain, but everywhere in the world, and I want to take her with me so that she won't be alone anymore.

She has always been afraid of being alone, very afraid of being alone. When I was a child, I was always bullied by the children in the orphanage, and I could only cry sadly alone every time, until she told me about it later, and there was still sadness in her eyes.

Tomorrow, I'll be gone, out of here, out of everything here, and soon, I'll be gone, and no one will be able to find me.

I feel like my heart is dead, and I've gone with the light rain.

I will not forget, the years I walked with Brother Luo Fan and Haozi, there are too many memories in the city, and even when I close my eyes, I can see the situation of following Brother Luo Fan back then, there are happiness, pain, bitterness, and more struggle.

Goodbye Brother Luofan, and Haozi, please forgive me for not saying goodbye, I have no way to face you, please allow me to walk away quietly.