I felt the preciousness of Wen Yu and her strength, she didn't admit how strong she was, she said she was just going with the flow.

She is a wild flower blooming on the rock, still standing on the cusp of life after the wind and rain, she walks on the edge of all bad things, and melts her face with hope after a few joys and sorrows with happiness; in contrast, my life is overshadowed, I don't mean to have to have the same experience as Wen Yu, but when will the popular lifestyle I experienced end, so that I can completely break out of the cocoon and become a butterfly once.

Wen Yu's thing is the most real story I have ever heard in my life, I feel that the story is so close to me, it catches me off guard, makes me helpless, and makes me feel heartache buried in my heart all the time, I have palpitations, I really shouldn't have eaten that hot pot, I really shouldn't have heard Wen Yu's words so sincere to me, I don't regret it, but feel sorry for Wen Yu.

I have undergone a subtle change in Wen Yu, even I didn't notice it, I wanted to take care of her for no reason, instead of continuing to fall in love with her, I even thought about marrying her, I wishfully thought that Wen Yu needed my sympathy and warmth.

But what am I going to do to take care of her?

After a period of ideological struggle, I still gave up that kind of thought, I have nothing, Wen Yu is not inevitable, what is the use of just having a cavity of gas?

The self-realization that I was not capable enough, I thought about change.

I didn't know where I learned that reading books can broaden people's horizons, so I started to soak in the library all day. I read Alexandre Dumas, I watched Freud, I watched Lu Yao, I read Gibran, I read all kinds of novels and poems, I liked Wuthering Heights, tragic novels, I was drawn to the story when I first read it, Heathcliff and Catherine, one selfish, the other ignorant;

Since my preferences and interests are basically fixed, I can't learn anything from them, but it will strengthen my existing thoughts, which is a bit contrary to my previous thoughts, I originally wanted to succeed and then be able to continue my life with Wen Yu well, it seems that I still overestimated myself. For the success of mortals, I read "The Ordinary World" and knew that I read it intermittently for three weeks, I really read every word and every word, and the ordinary greatness is what it says, and I can neither become Sun Shao'an, nor do I have his ability to live, if I have to find the similarities between the two of us in him, that is, we both have great hopes for life, the tragedy is that it is a novel, and I am reality.

For me, Wenyu is a novel, a fantasy, and the other side of my dream.

Wen Yu said to me: "If the two of us are not together, I will walk all over the places where we have walked." ”

I said, "Why?"

"I'm going to give everything back," she said. ”

I said, "Don't be stupid, how can you pay it back?"

She said: "I can pay it back, as long as I talk in one place, I will return it." ”

I said, "Why don't people think you're a psychopath?"

"You're the one who's the one who's crazy, and your whole family is crazy," she said. ”

I told her to be anxious.

Wen Yu is a romantic person, and I am a big and rough person, I don't know how to talk sweetly, so she always laughs at me, saying that I am Sven with a heart like under the appearance, I learned her tone and said that she is a calm appearance with a delicate heart, she said of course.

I'm telling the truth.

I told Wen Yu that one of my high school classmates was married, and she looked at me suspiciously: "You don't want to marry me, do you?"

I smiled and said, "I will marry you when I have money, and then you don't agree." ”

She said: "I definitely don't agree, I don't want to get married, everything changes when I get married." ”

I asked her, "How do you know, I feel like my classmates are excited." ”

"I don't know, I feel it too," she said. ”

I said, "You can't give me a negative influence on this, my mom is still pointing at me holding my grandson." ”

She said, "Don't worry, I won't let you get away with it." ”

I joked, "You're so bad, you don't tie up with me, and you still possess me every day." ”

She said: "You want to get married so much? The state can't issue you a marriage certificate now, and it's still too early to get the legal age." ”

I laughed.

To be honest, I don't want to get married, but I always think about what Wen Yu will do if she leaves.

I think I know her very well, I have always given her something according to my wishes, and I have never asked her if she needs it, I always make a promise easily, I have been proving how much I care about her, and Wen Yu has never asked me to do something for her, she is just in love with me, she enjoys it, she doesn't need my promise, she doesn't need my future, she wants me to be by her side at this moment, holding her hand and walking through the lively streets.

Every once in a while, I can't help but think about some ultimate propositions, such as the meaning of existence, such as the question of life and death, why do people live, and why do they die? Wen Yu said that she has no feeling for death anymore, she said that if one day she suddenly approaches, she will not be sad at all, and I am very afraid of death, first I think it is not easy for people to live, and second, because I don't want to reach the end of my life so soon and I haven't had time to do many things, which has my selfishness.

The saints are usually very casual about death, like Buddha and Jesus, one meditates and the other is nailed, maybe they know that they can live forever, so they don't care much about death.

This is no worse than Buddha and Jesus.

But I couldn't find out from the books how the relatives of Buddha and Jesus were in pain after their deaths, they were much better, ordinary people are different, when a person dies, their relatives will be more painful than themselves.

Wen Yu is undoubtedly like this, the departure of her parents has brought her an unchangeable sadness, no matter when, this kind of hidden pain will surround her all the time, she has to gradually adapt, as a memory in the depths of the body, no one can really help her through the difficulties of life and death, fortunately, she has a pure and strong heart, after so many years of tempering, she can still smile at life, and she has already been pampered and humiliated by some people and things.

Many of us are still in the initial stage of Wenyu, we don't know how to live, we don't know how to get along with others and this society, we don't know what we want, we don't know what is most important to ourselves, we blindly seek all kinds of stimulation, thinking that it is to let ourselves get the so-called enrichment, in fact, we are just deceiving ourselves and numbing ourselves more.

What else can I say to Wen Yu, to myself, to those who are different from Wen Yu?

Wen Yu doesn't need any care that she thinks is unnecessary.