I'm quite afraid of parting, there is a feeling of emptiness after people leave, especially not a taste, but there is no banquet in the world, we always have to face reunions and partings again and again.

Guan Wenlan looked at me reluctantly, I said that I would come back when I was free, and jokingly told her not to miss me too much.

I went to the pony to get my luggage, and the pony wanted me to stay for a few more days, but he didn't say anything more and didn't want them to send me, so I came to the school gate alone, and there was a car from the school to the town passing by my house, and a few classmates who had just left greeted me. I pulled the Walkman out of my backpack and it was all back to when it started.

I stood at the intersection opposite the school with my suitcase, looking at the place where I had spent six years, and the few large retro yellow characters above the teaching building were particularly dazzling with the afterglow of the setting sun. I knew I had to leave. Although perhaps sometime in the future I will remember this place where I squandered my youth, I no longer belong to it, and it no longer belongs to me.

Choosing to leave in silence may be the best way to say goodbye to everything in the past, but I still can't balance my thoughts, and I'm a little unwilling. Outside the car window, I have no intention of looking at the scenery of June, listening to "Don't Cry, My Favorite Person", as if the notes have become undulating water, pieces of memory flow into my mind along the sound, let me be fragile for a while, I have no room to continue to be strong, otherwise how could tears fall?

I like to listen to stories, whether it's personal experiences, fabrications or not, or historical biographies, I never get tired of listening to them, and there are more or less thoughts in the stories that I want to express or want to express, and these ideas often make me think and get into them, sometimes excited, sometimes sad, sometimes paranoid, sometimes stupid and ridiculous; now I'm listening to my own story, I'll tell it first, and then I'll listen to it again, and I'll hear how well I can tell it, how many people will like it, and finally how many people will remember it.

The home is already full of sunshine and green leaves.

A few of my hair children also just finished the college entrance examination like me, but we are not in the same school, we haven't seen each other for a long time, all of a sudden we all got together and chatted happily, that night, I took Jackson's disc, some of them took poker, some took snacks, some also took yellow discs, we played poker in a small new house and ate snacks and watched discs, two words: energetic!

At that time, staying up all night became commonplace, during the day belonged to those busy people, whether it was office workers, or busy farmers, and at night, when everything began to sleep, my friends and I went out, we were passionate, unscrupulous, we tolerated the black body of the night, in the silence arbitrarily blocked all noise, we could still sleep when everything was silent and quietly drifted away with it, at that moment it was a great god, a lanthanum bony giant, and we became its most loyal guardians.

I suddenly remembered a poem by Gu Cheng, and I seemed to understand what it was like to find light in the dark, anyway, it was not a normal person's job!

After graduating, my daily life suddenly became black and white, every day I woke up in a daze at noon, washed, eaten, and then went back to bed to listen to songs and read novels, watching and sometimes falling asleep again in the afternoon, my parents were too lazy to care about me, and I also greeted them in advance to prevent them from nagging in front of me.

I would put the novel at the head of the bed, and I would flip through it if I had nothing to do, and I still have this problem, even if I don't read it, I have to put it, and I always feel like I'll read it one day, and I've read half of each book, and some of them only open the package, so I stay in the room all afternoon and don't go anywhere.

Maybe there is nothing else to do, I like this way of life, I will often call Guan Wenlan in the afternoon, she is always waiting for me to call, I seem to see her lying next to the telephone all the time, staring all the time, her legs keep changing positions! Guan Wenlan has no habit of staying up late, everything will be done step by step, and rarely make mistakes. However, it was unexpected!

She said on the phone, "It's good that you said we're getting along like this!" and I heard her laugh there.

"Like, how did we get along?" I joked,

"I'm not happy yet. ”

"Willingly, can I not be happy if the beautiful woman takes the initiative to send it to the door?"

"you, what are you doing with me,"

"Just kidding, why did you call me today?"

"If you don't call me, won't I call you? “

"I don't know when your parents are at home, if they pick me up, what will I say, I can't just hang up!"

"If you take it, it's not a big deal,"

"I don't dare, your dad's usual shelf at school looks scary. ”

"I didn't scare you,"

"Hey, my mom saw the picture you gave me and said I'll take you home when I'm free!"

"Really, when will I go with Bai Xiao!"

"I didn't agree, and it wasn't time to talk about marriage, and besides, I don't like to bring my classmates home,"

"What's the matter? Your mother agrees with you or not? I'm not happy to go. “

"I didn't mean that, didn't we just graduate?"

"Where do you want to go? Classmates are not welcome to visit your house!"

"Then how can you not be welcome, welcome, welcome!"

"When are you going?"

"Are you really here?"

"Yes"

"Let's go, I'll go find you. ”

“…… Cut. ”

…… There was silence for a while, Guan Wenlan kept fiddling with something and making a burst of noise on the other side of the phone, and I didn't know what to say.

I'm always like this, and when I chat, I suddenly feel like a fragment, and I have no topic.

Guan Wenlan said "um" and asked me, "When did you come to me?"

“… Well, at the end of the month, I'll check the admission situation when the scores come out. ”

"Then what are you doing at home, I'm pretty bored anyway. ”

"I'm going to help my parents with the work, and now I'm busy with the farm. I said casually, in fact, I was too lazy to work in the field, how comfortable it was to hide in my room on such a hot day.

“…… Well, the man and Bai Xiao are still here, playing billiards all day long. ”

"Oh, where's Xiao Wu?"

"He went back,"

"Well, I'll be looking for you in a few days!"

……

"Kiss me,"

"Don't make a fuss, I have someone in my family. ”

"Hmph,"

"Hum Hum"

"Go aside,"

…………

I said, "Okay, why don't you hang up first." ”

"Let's talk a little longer. ”

"I don't know what to talk about, and it's a waste of phone bills. ”

"And don't waste what you're afraid of. ”

"It's not a waste of your family, you secretly called me for so long, so that your dad knows that I have to beat your ass!"

"Your uncle's. ”

"Okay, it's okay to hang up, I'll call you when I'm free. ”

"Okay, hang up"

"Bye-bye!" I hung up.

A sense of boredom came to my heart, I went back to the room, had nothing to do, reflexively sat on the bed, I was tired of listening to a few songs over and over again, I picked up the pen and didn't know what to write, I simply lay down, holding my head in my hands, looking at the wall casually, a few small insects were flying around against the wall, as if looking for something, I observed inexplicably for a long time.

I rolled over, feeling a little sleepy, and slowly drifted into my dream.

The butterfly appeared in front of me again, gently yingying, undulating non-stop, this time I didn't chase it, consciously looked at it, I felt that I was very awake, I just wanted to see where it flew, it saw that I didn't move, stopped in front of me for a while, and then disappeared in an instant, I was lost looking everywhere, I seemed to cry out but couldn't hear my own voice, I wanted to run but couldn't run, I felt a sore nose, I woke up suddenly, found that I did shed tears, looked at the electronic watch, only half an hour passed!

What's wrong with me? Why do I cry, why do I always have such strange dreams? What does it suggest to me? There are so many questions that haunt me and I can't make it easy.

So I got out of bed, walked out of the house, came to the apple orchard, and saw my parents resting under the tree, I walked over and called them, sat down next to them, and relaxed!