The weather was very hot, I walked for a while and my body was soaked, I opened Wang Tsai and drank it in one go, I still felt thirsty, so I bought a bottle of mineral water and paced around the platform. I don't know why, the car didn't come for a long time, I was so anxious that I was scolding, I didn't even have a place to hide from the sun, and I felt like I was in dilapidation.

In the year of 07, I seem to have become more and more unreasonable, not rebellious, but I just can't get used to everything, I read a few more broken books when I have nothing to do, and I found that other people's lives are so rich, whether it is made up or not, it always makes people think about it, and always fantasize about how good it would be if I could have that kind of life.

I just think it's a turning point in my life, I don't know what it's turned around? Anyway, whatever, he can be a serious fool......

During that time, I thought about it a lot.

I re-examined the relationship between me and Guan Wenlan.

The only thing I'm not sure about is the future of me and Guan Wenlan, yes, I've been thinking about it all the time! Everything in me is not worth her to protect, and I can't give her anything, if suddenly one day she no longer appears in front of me, what will I use to support my future life?

I don't think I can do without her is not herself, what I can't do without is her emotion for me, I rely on this emotion, I am no longer lonely, no longer blindly sad, it makes me still not arrogant and impatient in the scorching sun, this emotion wraps all my life state, once this emotion disappears, I will be doomed, I will lose that life-saving straw, and what kind of emotion is this?

This is just my speculation, I guess she values our relationship more than anything else, in fact, I am thinking that she is living for me, she can't do without me, but this is my fantasy, she is so objective and so specific, how can she only live for me?

How long will her feelings for me last? I'm muttering, will she think like I do? We see each other less often, and I feel like she's slowly becoming intransitive to me, you know, I'm not only inferior but also vulnerable, she's so beautiful, smiling like a flower, can I continue with her?

We messaged each other all night long, for fear of being forgotten about each other, and I said I missed her, very much, I said I wanted to kiss every inch of her skin, I wanted to sing to her, I wanted to write poems to her, I wanted to give her all the romantic things, I asked her to wait for me, and I said the same thing every night and night, and I didn't know what else to say to her.

Slowly, I found that the emotion between the two of us was weakening little by little, which was the last thing I wanted to foresee, but I obviously cared about her all the time, maybe she was no longer so specific to me, she was not by my side, she was in another place, she was so far away from me, far away, I no longer easily touched her cheek, I imagined how to get along with each other every day, but the more I thought about it, the more annoying it became, the more I thought about it, the more unrealistic it felt, and I fell into the quagmire of not knowing what to do.

I flinched a little, though I didn't want to, though I was reluctant, even though I still felt that she was perfect, but I could never relive the old dream with her again!

Guan Wenbin, my girl, my first love, you are my eyes, you are my conscience, you are my teacher, you have taught me how to be happy, you are more professional than all teachers, you are careful, you care about every me with love, you praise me, you nourish me, you comfort me, you help me, I want to write poetry for you now, I can be your poet for a while!

Bury me

It is as helpless as the island sinks into the wide sea

Sent me into the soil like a dead body

But don't do anything for me

I just want the weeds to cover the grave

All I have to do is the storm and keep beating my tombstone

All I want is you

As long as you remember me

Then I will be buried happily

The gray sky melted my sorrow

--Real emotions that have been invisible

You're feeling sorry for me

Please don't feel sorry for me

My dearest and most beloved person

If you want me to remember you

Then sing me a love song

Sing just for me

Sing just for you

Sing of weeds, of the wind, of the rain

I will remember you

I'm going to turn the weeds into my body

And your singing

My lover

I am born again for you

I think I have to come to your side and say it to you

I experienced death

Taste the absence of love

I will not go again

With you and with love

Let's go to the grave together

Walk towards the rebirth of love together

Once I didn't know what happened, I was dragged to Li Yuan's house by Guan Wenbin, Li Yuan was our classmate, and Bai Xiao had a good time, as soon as I arrived at her house, my classmates were all there, there were people inside and outside the house, there were almost ten or twenty people, and I was alive with a modern version of the mini Qingming Riverside map, I don't remember who there were, after saying hello, I was pulled into a room by Guan Wenbin, and I smiled at me again.

I said, "With such a big show, you said I wouldn't come empty-handed." ”

She told me to sit down,

"They are idle, and Li Yuan's parents are not at home, so they all come over, wait for the food to be ready. ”

I laughed and said, "What's the matter with me in the girl's pile, I'm easy to be shy, and I blush when I see the girl, so I might as well leave." ”

"Don't, look at the girls' voices and smiles more, and you won't have time to see them if you want to, besides," she snorted, "Besides, you're not blushing because you're shy, so many beautiful women are dangling around you, it's blushing."

"Not really. ”

"Shall I let you do it?"

"Don't make a fuss, so many people. ”

"Chen Zhuo, when did you pretend to be serious in front of me. ”

"Pretending to be blind, fake serious. ”

Guan Wenhui smiled, I kissed her, and she replied to me

After a while, Li Yuan came in with food, and I was very embarrassed, as if I was a bride to be married, and they were guys who did chores, so I was ashamed, I said, "I'm really embarrassed, let's just go out to eat", Li Yuan smiled and said, you two continue to be tired,

After Li Yuan left, Guan Wenbin and I looked at each other and smiled!

When was that, I searched for my memory, I really can't remember, it's broken, I only remember bits and pieces, I tried my best to piece it together, but I couldn't put it together, that time after Li Yuan's house came out, I had the impression that I said goodbye to Guan Wenbin and his classmates, and went to the train station to send someone, someone who didn't matter.

During that time, the train station was my usual place to stay, sending back and forth a group of people and picking up a group of people, and finally sending away a group of people who picked up.

At the train station, I bumped into Pony, who had just finished dropping off his friend, and I greeted him when he was far away, "Hey, Pony." ”

The pony saw me, "Why are you here, this isn't the place to date." ”

We walked up the steps of the square and sat down, and Pony handed me a cigarette, and I said no, he lit it, took a puff, and said, "It's okay not to smoke," and then said, "You're going to work there." ”

I looked up at the ticket gate, "Yes." ”

"How's it going there?"

"My aunt said that it was a small factory, and it seems that the factory director has any relationship with her family, I don't know very well, let's go to the gangsters first! What are you going to do?"

"I went to Taizhou and went to the school with a few classmates. ”

"When are you leaving?"

"It's almost there, it's been a few days, and everything is packed. ”

"Hey, you say, we're going our separate ways like this, why is it different from what I thought?"

"yes, it's time to think about where we're going to go," the pony snapped.

We swung for half an afternoon, played billiards, had dinner, the pony asked me to go to his place, I said no, and said that his uncle came back to live, it was inconvenient, so I gave up, I waved to him and left.