And Wen Yu, I don't see that she has any pressure, she has never had an indifferent attitude towards how to live, she doesn't think about things that hurt her brain and feel meaningless, in her words, it's better to eat spicy noodles than to waste energy on these things.

Sometimes I wonder about her attitude towards life, how can she just ask about everything, and live too heartlessly.

There was a singing competition at school, and Wen Yu had to take me to watch it. She always knows in advance about this kind of thing.

She met a man from the same school on the school network, and the man happened to have an entry, and the singing competition was also what he told Wen Yu.

Wen Yu and I went that day, the scene was chaotic, a small platform, with colorful lights, the audience under the stage was elated, some were still screaming, I really couldn't see that their emotions were so excited, it must be that there is no turmoil in ordinary life and depression into illness, and finally there is a place to release passion, but you can't be impatient to death.

No matter what song the contestants sing, whether they sing well or not, there will always be a burst of cheering applause below.

A boy came on stage, and Wen Yu said to me, "Look, it's him." ”

I looked at the stage, the man had a chicken chest and face, and his hair was longer than mine, Wen Yu actually thought he was very handsome.

He sang a song of Lin Junjie's "Cao Cao", it was really the scene of the car accident, he also sang and made gestures, walked back and forth several times, I really couldn't figure out what he was going to do, and then someone offered flowers, I heard it, it was his girlfriend.

I said to Wen Yu, "This place is too noisy, let's go." ”

Wen Yu said: "Look at it for a while, you haven't finished singing yet?"

I said, "What's so nice about this, it's not as good as I am." ”

Wen Yu said: "You should be jealous." ”

I said impatiently, "Whoever is jealous, if you don't go, I'll go." ”

Wen Yu walked out with me very reluctantly.

She said, "Why did you come out so quickly?"

I said, "Nothing." ”

She said, "He sings well." ”

I said, "That's ugly. ”

"He's one of the top three musicians in the school," she said. ”

I said, "How do you know?"

She said, "He told me, hey, I want to meet him." ”

When I heard this, I said to Wen Yu, "You are sick." ”

She said, "What's the matter, I told him before, and he has a girlfriend." ”

I said, "No, he has a girlfriend...... What do you want to do when you see him?"

She said: "I just wanted to talk to him about the song, and I told him to bring my boyfriend with me." ”

I said, "You're really sick, you can go if you want." ”

She said: "Why are you talking so ugly, if you don't want to go, you won't go, why are you so angry with me." ”

I said, "I'm lazy and angry." ”

She said, "Isn't it okay not to go?"

I said, "Whatever you want." ”

She looked at me and I didn't want to pay attention to her.

I was a little angry, my self-esteem couldn't stand it, she said another handsome man in front of me, and wanted to meet him to talk about each other's interests, and I got angry when I thought about it.

Wen Yu saw that I was still angry, and said: "Am I wrong, can't I? I just said this, if you don't want to hear me, I won't say it, and I won't contact him in the future, I am a strange alumnus, you can't eat his vinegar, big vinegar jar." ”

I said, "What kind of jealousy am I, don't talk nonsense to me, how can you act like a childish child." ”

She said, "Okay, okay, don't be angry." ”

I said, "I'm not angry. ”

Seeing her like this, my heart softened all of a sudden.

I said, "Let's go, go back to the dorm, it's too cold outside." ”

She let out an "um" and walked away with my arm in her hands.

In my life, I occasionally break away from the crowd and do something that I feel disgusting, such as being a clown, and I find that the simplest things can become the result of the butterfly effect when emotionally accented, and the result is of course considered bad.

I still remember when I was in high school, I was very good at pretending, sitting in the last row for three years, not talking to girls, thinking that it was cool to reject people thousands of miles away, and it hurt my heart, and I still have sequelae;

At that time, the philosopher's mind was like an uncontrollable drug, and a sentence of detached words was the main culprit of addiction; the more I read, the more complicated a simple heart became, and the more complicated it was, the more I wanted to find temporary comfort between the words, and gradually, the "drug addiction" became more and more serious, and my mind was full of emptiness and helplessness all day long, and I was miserable!

I think that in the things that people do in their lives, love is the easiest thing to get, and it is also the most headache thing, for me, it is even terrible, it is impossible to make up for unprepared love, because how you make up for it will leave a scar, this scar is full of resentment, no matter how good you do later, this is the experience I realized in the last relationship.

Everything is changing now, and I always have a sense of loss. My heart has not really calmed down, there is still a part of it that stays in one place and refuses to come back, and it is impossible to forget the past and adapt to a new life in a blink of an eye, and I need time to change.

I am a family lover, I have never left home since I was a child, and I have become fragile in a strange place, and I am even more lonely when I don't like to talk. Wen Yu didn't notice this.

I often wonder if society will need someone like me? Is it true that my friends say that my departure will make society lack a talent? Many questions await me, and I need to find answers. I know it's just the beginning and there's still a lot to learn. I hope that I will gain something, even a little, so that I will not lose the courage to continue pursuing in the face of future setbacks.

I'm not a very optimistic person, I always can't figure out many things, although I understand some truths, but for life, I haven't really understood its value and meaning.

I didn't want to get involved in this multifaceted society, but there is no paradise in the world, and I still have to go in the future, so I just need to be myself.

I like to be bland, I like to find happiness and hope in the bland. It seems like I've never grown up, and my thoughts are cold. There are too many things that I need to experience, and life is like this: what changes is time, what is rich is experience, and perhaps more understanding of life will be in the future. I am touched by the encouragement and support of my friends, who are always waiting for me to find my own path, who want me to have a happy life and who expects me.

Wen Yu often taught me to say: Don't always look like a dead pig, are you worthy of me if you pretend to be deep when you have nothing to do? We are still very young, what is young, youth is everything, youth is not bad for anyone, we must go on like this forever, come, you tell me again.

Her words reminded me of a line from the movie: "We don't look old!!;

I'm probably too sensitive about how I live.

From '08 to '09, I felt that I had arrived in a trance, and since January, a light snow has begun to fall in the sky before I know it.

There is a street not far from my school, called the back street, where everything is sold, and everything is cheaper than other places, and when we have nothing to do, we will all go out and walk around that street.

The back street was first discovered by Xiuxiu and Meifeng, they just said to buy some daily necessities, and accidentally found this street, the street is not tidy, garbage is everywhere, and then I don't know when the government will rectify it, and it has become much cleaner than before.

I have an inexplicable affinity for that back street, and I don't know why it's called the back street, maybe it's because it's at the back of the road. Wen Yu and I often go.

My quilt was bought there when it was cold.

There is a fruit market in the back street, all kinds of fruits are placed there, everything you want to eat, Wen Yu often buys a little more or less when he walks there, and sometimes he will help the boss shout on the side, which attracts the surprised eyes of passers-by, every time the boss will give a little more, and then we are embarrassed to buy there.

There is also a billiards hall in the back street, which is where Xiao An and I relax, there are a lot of people playing billiards in it, and every time I go, I have to wait in line, because there is no open space, which is a little unbearable. Later, because I worked at KFC, I had fewer opportunities to go, and I didn't have to worry about when to go so that no one was there.

There are many interesting things and things in the backstreets, and I can't say enough about them, but they are just stored in the long river of time as memories and let them flow around.

Also, what impressed me the most was that there was a bathhouse in the back street, which accompanied me through the long cold winter.

There is no hot water in my dormitory in winter, if you want to use boiling water, you have to go to the boiler room in the school to play, swipe the meal card, 2 cents a small bottle, 3 cents a large bottle, we are too lazy to play, bought an electric kettle, several people point to it every day to live. Bathing is a nuisance, although there is a bathhouse in the school, but this is in winter, almost every day the bathhouse is full, crowded inside, extremely uncomfortable to wash, we went twice and never went again.

Once in a bath, Qingqing also broke one of the showers. He wanted the water to boil bigger, and kept shaking the water shower, but because the quality was not up to par, it was broken in a few clicks, and Qingqing had to wait for another one, and he didn't admit that he broke it.

Since then, we have been taking a bath in that bathhouse in the back street, although there is only a shower, it is a small private room, and it is very convenient to wash.

Wen Yu and I have done a lot of bad things in it.

At first, we just went to take a bath, washed out the **, by the way, otherwise washing in the way, and wasting time, later, it may be that we both feel very energetic in it, just wash once a week, the proprietress knows, fortunately, she doesn't know the main purpose of the two of us, otherwise you have to call the police.

Due to the number of visits, we got a monthly ticket there, usually 15 yuan per person, but now it is only 10 yuan, and the proprietress also gave us 5 bath tickets, so I gave them to Qingqing.

Finally, it's time for the holidays.

We even have a final exam.

We took the course under Principal Chen's own company, which is useless, but if you don't take the test, you can't get the certificate, of course, the certificate is useless, whatever, anyway, it's to take the exam.

We took the test for three mornings, while Lao Hou had not returned to China, by the way took the oral English test, said that it was the oral test, that is, Lao Hou pulled us to the next classroom one by one, and he used English to match a few words and it was over, he would score us by feeling, saying that it was the final oral test for the professional English level, anyway, I didn't take the test, how to fool around.

Because Wen Yu didn't want the certificate, he simply didn't even take the exam.