This time, she replied directly to my house number.

The moment I knocked on her door, she took me into her arms, "Did your two sisters say that you were wronged? Are you wronged?I'm sorry, I was wrong, I shouldn't have forced you to earn a breath for me, I just hate the feeling that you don't say a word when others let me be wronged, but now I know that I was wrong, you also have your embarrassment, you love me, I just know it, I don't have to prove it in front of your family, I'm sorry!. ”

If Jiang Xi is angry at me, I can feel a little better, she said this, and I feel even more embarrassed in front of anyone.

I didn't do what a grateful good brother should do, and I didn't protect the girl I should protect.

At that moment, it became the pinnacle of my inferiority complex in my life, and I even felt for a while that I didn't seem to be qualified to live in this world, I was too a failure, I didn't have any ability to deal with things, and I didn't have money!

I don't have the ability to find a rich girl to marry just for money, that's not the life I want! I can't get over myself, and I don't think that kind of love and marriage will be happy.

Who let me know Jiang Xi first, and now I have decided that as long as she doesn't abandon me, I can't do anything to abandon her first, no matter what!

I lay on Jiang Xi's arms, tears wet her collar, I felt like my whole body was about to explode, and my heart was so confused that it was on the verge of collapse.

Jiang Xi quickly stroked my back, anxiously gave me relief, it was amazing, she seemed to empathize with my pain, she said softly in my ear, "Jiangdong, if you are really so sad, you cry, tell all the grievances and helplessness in your heart, don't hold back, I am very distressed and scared when you are like this, you are like this, I am also very guilty, I am also very guilty, I forced a honest and gentle you to be like this, you vent your unhappiness, you say I listen, okay?" Tell me anything, and I'll be the best listener in your life, okay?"

I have to say that when Jiang Xi used her gentle voice accompanied by guilt and choking to guide me, I really felt as if the grievances in my heart had been released into a breach, and I lay in her warm arms and cried a little bit......

I don't want to vent my emotions like a woman, but it is much more comfortable to cry, and at that moment, I thought, it's good to have Jiang Xi, even if it's just when I'm vulnerable, just let me lean on.

The two of us stood on the ground for about fifteen minutes, and when my crying stopped, Jiang Xi pulled me to the bed.

"Tell me, what's going on?"

She was still holding my hand, and I felt the earthy warmth of her hand, both familiar and warm.

I lowered my head, as if my thoughts were drifting into a state of reminiscence.

"Since I was in the first or second grade of primary school, I haven't felt the warmth of the family, the only memory of my childhood is staying, on the weekend, when I want to sleep well, my parents began to quarrel, I was very sleepy, I covered my head with a quilt, I wanted to be an ostrich, I really didn't want to listen to them quarrel, but no, they quarreled very much, and every Monday, it seems that they don't eat, they don't sleep, the fight is not noisy, no matter the cloudy rain or thunder, never miss the appointment!"

Jiang Xi took my hand tighter, and I sighed.

"My mom has a strong personality, and my dad is irresponsible. Only a few of the money my dad earned was used to support the family, most of it was spent by himself, and he never did the work at home, treating himself like a young master, my mother couldn't bear it anymore, and finally divorced my dad. At that time, I thought, gee, finally divorced, can I get a good night's sleep on the weekend......? It's not that simple, Dad soon formed another family, Dad earned money and no longer spent a penny on the three children in the family, he went to raise the three children of other women. ”

"My mother raised our sisters alone, exhausted, at that time the eldest sister had graduated from junior high school, the eldest sister's grades were very good, if she wanted to take the university entrance examination, she would be able to be admitted, but in order to take care of the family, the eldest sister resolutely chose to study the secondary school teacher major, during the secondary school, the eldest sister took on all the housework at home, my mother had to work in addition to teaching in primary school, until my eldest sister graduated from secondary school, and also became a teacher in primary school, with a salary, my mother did not work part-time. ”

"My eldest sister said that my father was not very happy, his money was controlled by his second wife, and if he didn't help others raise three children, they wouldn't live with him! ”

Sometimes people are cheap, their wives and children can't bear it, and when it comes to raising other people's wives and children, they can endure everything, because they can't bear it, which is probably what people often say between husband and wife.

Therefore, whether it is a man or a woman, in this life, how important it is to meet a partner who is compatible with him and can love each other in his first marriage!

Because this incident will affect the fate of a lifetime, as well as the fate of future generations and the future life of future generations.

"What about your mother? I haven't seen her?" Jiang Xi asked suddenly.

I didn't tell her about it, and I never liked to ask it.

"The three of us are older, each has its own life, I can take out a loan on my own when I go to graduate school, and I don't need her to make money to support us, so she goes out with her old sister all the year round and wanders outside, probably because she doesn't want to return to this sad place with my father, or rather, she has not come out of the divorce and the harm of life after the divorce. ”

Jiang Xi nodded, "I see, children should also understand her." ”

"Yes, we all understand my mother's suffering! So, can you understand the status of the eldest sister in our family? That is, the eldest sister is like a mother, she has taken on a lot of responsibilities that the role of a mother should bear, and my brother-in-law is more selfish, I only knew that he took money very seriously, but I didn't expect that he looked at my eldest sister's salary so closely, and today the second sister told me that the eldest sister once used her own salary to pay me tuition, and my brother-in-law beat her nose and face were bruised, and then she had to go to work, so ...... I can't blame her!

When I said this, my emotions were a little excited, Jiang Xi immediately hugged me in his arms, and said gently, "I understand, I understand, you didn't tell me this before, I don't know to blame her, now I know, I won't blame her for anything she says." ”

"I really regretted going to graduate school again, I knew that my eldest sister was so difficult, I should go to work to make money after graduating from undergraduate, I thought that after graduating from graduate school, the salary would be higher and the future would be better, my supervisor also strongly recommended me to go to graduate school, and also helped me apply for a student loan, so I went. ”

"Jiangdong, okay, okay, the matter has come to this, don't blame yourself anymore, wait for us to have a good time in the future, and repay your eldest sister well, okay?"

"Hmm!" I nodded, leaning into Jiang Xi's arms as if she were my leaning.

Jiang Xi's personality belongs to the cheerful and straightforward type, she is not a girl with a gentle voice, but whenever she comforts me, the voice is very gentle, very good, and has the power to soothe people's hearts, making me feel that there is still hope and warmth in life.

If I were alone, I might not have that much confidence, but with Jiang Xi, she is full of confidence and courage, and I feel that her courage and confidence are also transmitted to me, and the future I create with a girl like her will not be bad.

She is like a little sun in the corner of my dark and moldy life, using full horsepower to exert her light and heat to illuminate and warm my heart, it is so good! Jiang Xi, it is so good to meet you!