Xu Simu was struggling, but he stopped and looked up at him, "Really?"

"Hmm. ”

Zhou Hanyue let go of Xu Simu's wrist.

When Xu Simu went upstairs, he put on a windbreaker outside the hospital gown, and followed Zhou Hanyue into the car.

At night, under the lights, the vehicles drive calmly on the road.

His speed was not fast, but when Xu Simu turned her head to look out of the car window, the scenery whistling by on both sides, she felt that the speed was very fast, and she was a little nauseous and vomiting.

Zhou Han looked at Xu Simu's complexion, slowed down the car again, and went directly to a porridge shop that was open 24 hours a day.

"You haven't eaten for two days after sleeping," Mr. Zhou said, "let's go eat something first." ”

Xu Simu nodded.

As soon as she got out of the car, she threw up.

There's nothing to spit out, it's all sour water.

After spitting up, he handed over a bottle of mineral water.

Xu Simu hesitated for a moment, took a sip of the mineral water bottle, and rinsed his mouth.

"Let's go, drink some white porridge. ”

Zhou Hanyue took the first step to the restaurant and helped Xu Simu push open the glass door in front of him.

Xu Simu didn't have much appetite, but he vomited just now, and his stomach was indeed empty and uncomfortable, and it was very burning, I don't know where it was uncomfortable, it seemed that all the internal organs were very uncomfortable.

Zhou Hanyue ordered white porridge and asked for a plate of capers.

"Eat some of this, appetizers. ”

Xu Simu took small bites and ate a few bites of white porridge.

"I'm done. ”

Zhou Hanyue didn't force it, went to settle the account, and took her out of the porridge shed.

Along the way, he was thinking about whether to make up a lie first and deceive Xu Simu, after all, Xu Simu had just woken up now, and his physical fitness was really poor.

He took Xu Simu around the city in City C, going around again and again.

Xu Simu had already seen that he was driving him around in circles, and said directly: "If you don't take me there, I'll go to the bureau to find it, and go to the 515 hospital to ask." ”

Zhou Hanyue glanced at her from the rearview mirror.

This little girl usually looks soft and weak, but in fact, she is very self-reliant in her bones.

"I'll take you. ”

However, it was not the bureau that went to the hospital.

It's a cemetery.

When he came to the cemetery, Xu Simu looked at the gloomy environment outside, and suddenly blinked, "What are you bringing me here for?"

Zhou Hanyue said: "This morning, Ah Heng was buried here. ”

Xu Simu was stunned, his head was hazy and blank, as if he didn't know what he was doing at all, and the speed at which his eyes blinked was much slower.

"What did you say?"

She asked rhetorically.

But she obviously heard it clearly, but she asked Zhou Hanyue to say it again.

Zhou Hanyue stopped the car first.

"Would you like to go in and have a look?"

Xu Simu shook his head, "I'm not going, you liar, Ah Heng is fine, he was still smiling at me yesterday!"

Zhou Hanyue shook his head and smiled self-deprecatingly.

"You're not going? Then I'll drive away. ”

When the car was started again, Xu Simu suddenly went to open the door.

Zhou Hanyue stepped on the brakes again, and the little girl had already rushed out of the car.

He followed.

The gatekeeper of the cemetery seemed to be surprised.

There are people who come to sweep the tomb, and it is the first time that they have come in the middle of the night.

Zhou Hanyue followed Xu Simu not far away.

Xu Simu looked at the photos on the tombstone and looked for them one by one.

Zhou Hanyue didn't have an exit to stop her, nor did he take her to find it.

Xu Simu doesn't need it either.

This is a process, and she can only truly believe if she finds and sees it herself.

Finally......

Xu Simu saw the photo on the tombstone.

This is a photo of enlistment.

Wearing a military hat and a uniform, the corners of her lips are slightly raised, and a pair of eyes look at the camera, as if she is looking at her through the camera.

The movement under Xu Simu's feet stopped suddenly.

Her eyes widened in astonishment.

The whole person stood stiffly in front of the tombstone, and after a pause of a few seconds, she suddenly stumbled up and fell to her knees.

"No way. ”

Xu Simu shook his head.

No way.

She clearly remembered that Lu Heng smiled at her.

She dug through the soft soil beneath the tombstones.

She had to see him before she would believe it.

Zhou Hanyue didn't stop her, just stood behind the tombstone, watching her frantically digging in the soil.

Her shoulders shrugged, and big tears fell down and rolled down the ground.

When she had cried enough, she held Lu Heng's tombstone, and finally leaned to the side, only when her mouth kept muttering to herself, Zhou Hanyue came over and handed over a tissue.

Tears fell and hit the back of Zhou Hanyue's hand.

His hand shrank sharply, as if it had been burned.

These eyes were very red from crying, and their faces were full of tears.

Xu Simu sobbed, "Brother Yue, you tell me, this is fake, okay?"

Zhou Hanyue's heart contracted twice.

At today's funeral during the day, he silently cried and red-eyed.

But seeing Xu Simu like this, he was even more sad than during the day.

If he could, he would rather die than be him, so that Ah Heng could accompany Xu Simu, as long as she didn't cry and didn't feel sad.

Zhou Hanyue didn't speak, he took out a mobile phone from his pocket.

"This is Ah Heng at the end, let me hand it over to you. ”

The blood stains on the phone have been wiped clean.

Xu Simu took the phone.

This is Lu Heng's mobile phone.

Xu Simu knew the password.

She took the phone with trembling fingers and pressed the password to unlock it.

The screen lights up and there is a text message that is being edited, but not sent, lying in the draft box.

Xu Simu pressed it and saw this text message.

Man is a wonderful creature.

When people are on the verge of death, they will feel a speed of life passing.

The kind of people who want to keep it with their hands, but they can't do anything about it.

Lu Heng endured the pain in his chest, he held the mobile phone, and then with difficulty, he used his fingers on it, typing it word by word.

The phone screen has been flooded with bright red.

The tentacles are sticky and greasy.

That was the last thing he said to her.

[Mu Mu, I'm sorry, I can't go with you in the future. 】

[Mu Mu, a person has to come on. 】

[Mu Mu, I love you. 】

Xu Simu's eyes were completely blurred by tears.

She gripped her phone tightly in her fingers and closed her eyes.

…………

On the way back when Zhou Hanyue carried Xu Simu back, the little girl was already silent.

Back in the ward, he called the doctor and checked Xu Simu again, and all the indicators were relatively normal.

Zhou Hanyue felt different.

He has an unusually sharp sense of smell mentally and spiritually.

Before this, he had already made an emergency plan for Xu Simu.

He thought that Xu Simu would cry and make trouble, and would look for death and life, but there was none.

Xu Simu was very quiet.

It was as quiet as if there was no one in the hospital room anymore.

She quietly took medicine, infusions, and ate on time, even if Zhou Hanyue was with her almost 24 hours a day except for going to the bathroom, she didn't notice that she had any out-of-the-ordinary behavior.

It's so quiet beyond the ordinary.

During this period, Lu Qing came once.

Zhou Hanyue was not there at the time, he went to the psychological counseling room and handed over to Su Manli.

Lu Qing came to the ward and pushed the door open.

Xu Simu leaned on the chair by the wall, and on the table in front of him was a round table, and on the round table was a notebook.

When Lu Qing walked in, Xu Simu's eyes didn't flicker.

Lu Qing walked over, picked up the water cup on the coffee table, and suddenly raised his hand and splashed it on Xu Simu's face.

Xu Simu closed his eyes, and some of the water was left on his face and stained on his notebook.

She pulled out a tissue, wiped the water off the laptop keyboard, and wiped her face.

Lu Qingqi's chest rose and fell.

"Why aren't you the one who died!"

Xu Simu lowered his head and didn't look at her.

Lu Qing screamed, reached over and pulled Xu Simu's collar, and pushed it hard behind him.

"Don't you like him? Why don't you die for him? If it weren't for you, Ah Heng would never have had an accident! You were the one the murderer had found! Just die if you die! Why do you drag others down!"

Xu Simu didn't fight back, so he was grabbed by Lu Heng's arm and shook violently.

Lu Qing went to pinch Xu Simu's neck.

Xu Simu's face immediately turned purple.

She really wanted to strangle her!

It's like two days ago, when she got the news of her son's death, she rushed to the hospital, but saw Xu Simu lying in the intensive care ward, as if she was asleep.

Her son was lying alone in the cold morgue, but Xu Simu could lie in the warm and quiet ward!

She walked towards Xu Simu step by step, and took advantage of no one to pinch her neck.

She looked at her face, little by little purple, and then looked at the data on the instrument, slowing down little by little.

She said to Lu Heng in her heart: Son, since you like her so much, your mother will help you send her down to accompany you.

However, I don't know why, at this moment, a cold wind blew over.

The air conditioning is pressing.

In an instant, she let go of her hand and glanced behind her back.

There was no one, but she could feel the feeling of the hairs standing up.

Ah Heng?

Could it be Ah Heng's soul?

It was precisely because of that scene that Lu Qing could not be allowed to start.

Now, the bodyguard outside the door heard the movement inside, hurriedly ran in, and directly pulled Lu Qing away.

Xu Simu held on to the table, breathing hard, and his face instantly faded purple and turned into a dazzling red.

Lu Qing roared angrily at Xu Simu.

"Why don't you die, why aren't you the one who dies!"

Lu Qing gritted his teeth.

She hated Xu Simu so much.

hates that she can not let Xu Simu die, she wants Xu Simu to survive but not to die!

Let her taste it too, the taste of losing her love!

Let her live in hell from now on!

Xu Simu watched the door close, and Lu Qing had been taken away.

She leaned against the wall and paused for a long time before smoothing out her crumpled clothes, then stood up, pulled out a clean tissue, and wiped the water on the keyboard.

On the laptop screen, there is a page for volunteering after the college entrance examination.

She sat down, her fingers rolling over the mouse.

Vaguely, I can still hear his words in my ear.

She knew that he was a graduate of the top military school.

She has been studying hard and wants to be able to stand side by side with him and stand by his side.

She filled out a major.

Then, with a smile, he closed his laptop.

That night, in the middle of the night, she went to the nurses' station.

"Can you give me two sleeping pills? I can't sleep. ”

The nurse gave her two tablets.

The next day, it was concocted according to law.

Xu Simu went to the nurse every day for a week to ask for two or three sleeping pills.

Until the doctor confirmed that she would be fine and was ready to discharge her from the hospital the next day, the night before, Xu Simu sat on the edge of the bed and opened a paper bag.

Inside the paper packet, it was full of sleeping pills.

At hand, through a glass filled with warm drinking water.

She picked up the glass, stuffed it into her mouth one by one, and swallowed it.

After taking more than two dozen sleeping pills in one go, she felt that her consciousness had gradually blurred, and chaotic sleepiness struck.

She lay on the bed, stared at the ceiling with her eyes open, and then closed her eyes.

Zhou Hanyue was very busy during this time, and he didn't want to see Xu Simu's quiet appearance, it would make people feel distressed to see it.

He only came every two or three days.

Su Manli said: "Han Yue, you are very unprofessional in her affairs. ”

A professional psychologist will not have any emotional ups and downs and empathy, otherwise, he will be easily influenced and how to make the right direction.

So, Xu Simu's psychiatrist was replaced by Su Manli.

Zhou Hanyue gently pushed open the door of the ward, and saw that Xu Simu was already lying on the bed and asleep, and his heart settled down a little, but he saw a cup of bottomed water resting on the bedside, as well as a paper bag next to him.

He walked over and wanted to clean up the paper packet, only to find that on the outside of the paper bag was a prescription slip with sleeping pills written on it.

My heart slammed.

Zhou Hanyue leaned down and called Xu Simu.

"Xu Simu, Xu Simu, wake up. ”

From a small scream, to a loud voice, to a violent shaking of her shoulders.

Zhou Han was more and more shocked, and hurriedly pressed the bedside bell, "Come on!"

Xu Simu was sent to the emergency operating room.

Zhou Hanyue leaned against the wall and looked at the light above that showed the operation.

He felt a little itchy in his throat and went to the smoking room to smoke a cigarette.

It's really shocking.

The mobile phone rang, it was a call from Fang Ruohan.

"Did you sleep?"

"Obviously not yet. ”

Fang Ruohan's words were a little slurred.

"I have something I want to tell you. ”

"Well, you name it. ”

However, Fang Ruohan over there swallowed for a while, but finally didn't say anything, "Forget it, it's too late today, I'll talk to you another day." ”

"Good. ”

Zhou Hanyue's attitude made Fang Ruohan feel a block in his heart.

His meticulous care and care for her, in the eyes of others, the standard of an absolute good boyfriend, no matter what anniversary, even if she doesn't remember it, he remembers it.

But it always makes her feel that there is something wrong in her heart, there is no passion, and there is no romantic love that she has been pursuing.

Tomorrow is her birthday, but he doesn't say anything about it today.

Fang Ruohan felt that if he didn't remind him, Zhou Hanyue would definitely forget.

Well, she thought, she won't remind him today, and if he forgets tomorrow, then she can't be blamed!

Xu Simu's operation lasted two hours.

Finally rescued.

Fortunately, it didn't take long.

Zhou Hanyue sat on the edge of the bed this time, waiting for Xu Simu to wake up.

After a day and a night, Xu Simu's eyelashes finally moved.

Zhou Hanyue supported his cheeks, leaned on the head of the bed, and his hand was on the back of Xu Simu's hand, and he could already feel her fingers moving slightly.

He straightened up suddenly, "Xu Simu?"

Under the thin eyelids, a slight tremor of the eyeball can be seen.

Xu Simu slowly opened his eyes.

She raised her hand to hold her head.

"Are you awake?"

Xu Simu's head slowly turned and looked at Zhou Hanyue.

Zhou Hanyue had already turned around and went out to call the doctor, he turned around and met Xu Simu's gaze.

It's unusually strange, as if I've never seen it before.

"Why am I here?"

Before Zhou Hanyue could answer, he was interrupted by the attending doctor who pushed the door behind him.

The fresh life rescued in his hand finally returned, and the attending doctor also breathed a long sigh of relief, and after checking and confirming that it was correct, he briefly talked to Zhou Hanyue about his condition and left.

In the ward, only Zhou Hanyue was left again.

Xu Simu's body was very soft, but he still held on to the wall, slowly got up, looked at Zhou Hanyue, and blinked.

"You ......"

Zhou Hanyue's pupils shrank, and a possibility immediately came to mind in his mind.

"I'm Zhou Hanyue. ”

"Hello, Mr. Zhou. Xu Simu said very respectfully, "What's wrong with me, did you save me?"

This sentence confirms what Zhou Hanyue thinks.

"You fainted while going downstairs and fell down the stairs, and it was I who got you to the hospital," he said. ”

"Thank you very much. ”

Xu Simu clasped his hands together and hurriedly bowed his head to thank him.

"It doesn't matter. Zhou Hanyue said.

In the next few days, Zhou Hanyue asked Xu Simu some questions, and Xu Simu forgot about Lu Heng.

In other words, all the memories related to Lu Heng were forgotten.

In her memory, she still went through the entire high school and the third year of high school, but Lu Heng was removed.

When people suffer more pain, they will subconsciously mobilize the potential of the body to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages.

Obviously, some time ago, Xu Simu's load had exceeded her own capacity.

So after committing suicide and being rescued, he instinctively forgot about Lu Heng.

On the day he was discharged from the hospital, Xu Simu was sorting out his things, but found a bunch of keys and a black mobile phone.

She took her mobile phone and went to find Zhou Hanyue, "Mr. Zhou, is this yours?"

Zhou Hanyue glanced at his phone and keys.

"Well, it's mine. He took the phone, "I put it in the ward." ”

Xu Simu handed the things up with both hands.

Zhou Hanyue sent Xu Simu back to the Xu family's villa.

Xu Simu stood on the side of the road and beckoned to Zhou Hanyue, "Mr. Zhou, goodbye!"

Zhou Hanyue's lips moved slightly, "Goodbye." ”

Xu Simu approached the villa, and at the door, she saw Lu Qing who was pruning flowers and branches on the side, and greeted her with a smile.

"Mom, good evening. ”

Lu Qing made a movement in his hand, and with a click, he cut off a intact flower bone.

She glanced at Xu Simu.

Xu Simu had a smile on his face.

It seems that the attending doctor is right.

Xu Simu selectively lost his memory.

She forgot all the memories she had about Lu Heng.

Scold.

Is this the so-called love than Jin Jian?

It's really not worth it for Lu Heng.

Lu Qing sneered in his heart, but he still put down the scissors in his hand and walked over with a smile, "Simu, welcome home." ”

"Thank you, Mom. ”

Lu Qing said, "Hurry up and go upstairs to take a shower and come down to eat." ”

"Good. ”

Lu Qing looked at Xu Simu's back, and the smile on the corner of his mouth had gradually disappeared.

Welcome home.

Welcome to Hell.

I'll make you pay, Xu Simu.

Since you are not dead, let you taste the real feeling of not being able to die.

…………

Zhou Hanyue drove to Lu Heng's residence.

He took the key in his hand and opened the door.

He walked in.

3 bedrooms and 1 living room.

In Xu Simu's room, there are a lot of various college entrance examination books, and they are very messy.

In the other room, the quilt was folded squarely, the sheets were not wrinkled, and the shoes were neatly arranged at the foot of the bed.

This is Lu Heng's room, following Lu Heng's consistent style.

Zhou Hanyue stepped in, squatted down at the foot of the bed, and took out a box from underneath.

This was said by Lu Heng before he died.

After opening the box, Zhou Hanyue saw several photos in the box and a diary.

When I opened the diary, the handwriting was neat and neat.

[July 11, 20xx.] In the first two weeks of coming to North Africa, I still missed her, and when I saw her squatting on the ground to help people bandage her in the hospital, among those seriously injured soldiers, I thought I was hallucinating, how could she appear in North Africa and appear in front of me?]

[July 13th.] She was hurt, I went to carry her out, and confessed to her, she agreed to be my girlfriend. Thank you. I want all the sufferings of her body to below me in the future, and all the pains to be borne by me. 】

A diary.

Thick, on every page, there are things written between him and Xu Simu.

There are a few photos in the box, there are photos of the two of them, and there are photos of Xu Simu alone, and the angles of light and shadow are very good.

And also...... A bullet.

Bullet at the bottom of the box, bronze.

Zhou Hanyue flipped halfway, and suddenly smiled.

Before Lu Heng died, he wanted to hand over the contents of this box to him, what did the last half of the unfinished sentence mean?

Zhou Hanyue didn't expect it at this time.

He just did as he said and took the contents of the box away.

It wasn't until seven years later that he finally understood what Lu Heng meant.

He wanted him to replace him.

However, how could Lu Heng have thought that Xu Simu would forget him?

How could he have imagined that one day, she would remember him again.

Two months later, Xu Simu came to the gate of the university with his suitcase and looked up at the crisp blue sky in autumn.

Is this the college life she has been dreaming of for a long time?

Looking at such a lively scene, watching people coming and going, a feeling of loss rose in her heart for no reason, as if it was the softest place, and suddenly there was an empty piece.

She looked up at the sky.

In the sky, there was a white cloud, blocking the sun.

The breeze blew and slowly blew away the clouds, and the sunlight leaked from the clouds.

She raised her hand to cover her eyes.

I vaguely heard someone calling her.

Mu Mu.

New life, come on.

Who is it?

Xu Simu turned around, the crowd was crowded, and no one looked at her.

I guess I heard it wrong.

"Classmate, are you here to report to the Industrial and Commercial College?"

A tall senior walked over, Xu Simu retracted his rambling thoughts, smiled, and handed over the admission notice in his hand, "Well, I am, my name is Xu Simu." ”